Hot for Love (Bachelor Billionaire #2) (8 page)

“
You're
so wet,” he whispered.

“
You
have no idea how bad I want you, Josh.”

She
wanted to get a better feel of him, but she could only move so much.
With her leg up, she struggled to get what she wanted. She loved the
way his cock felt in her hand. He was so big and hard. She didn't
think he could get any bigger, but he grew as he slid one finger into
her. She bit his lip as he entered her with a second finger. He slid
his fingers in and out as his thumb rubbed her clit. She held him
firmly as she stroked him hard.

“
Fuck,
Lisa,” he growled.

“
I
want to pull you on top of me so bad. I want to feel you inside of
me, Josh.”

“
We
can't risk hurting your foot,” he grumbled. “If not, I
would have already been buried deep inside of you.”

He
continued to fuck her with his fingers as she felt him. Their
breathing was hard and rapid. He thrust into her hard and deep as she
moaned his name. She stroked him hard and fast as he pumped his thick
fingers into her. He could feel her start to come, as he thrust hard
into her. She tightened around his fingers and moaned his name as she
continued to stroke him.

“
I
can only imagine you tightening around my cock instead of my fingers.
You are so damn beautiful.”

She
moved her body and leaned over. Her tongue licked across his tip and
he groaned loud. She circled his tip with her tongue and sucked the
juice off the top. Lisa slid her mouth down over his cock and he
jumped. He grabbed her shoulders and lifted her up.

“
Shit,”
he whispered. “Someone just opened the front door.”

He
jumped up as he pulled up his shorts and took off for the bathroom.
She shook her head and adjusted her cloths and leg. The television
was muted, so she turned the sound back on. Becky popped her head
into the room.

“
Where's
Josh?” she asked.

“
I
think he went to the bathroom or kitchen,” Lisa answered.

She
was so glad he heard the door. Lisa never heard it open. Why couldn't
Becky have waited a few more minutes? The man she had always dreamt
of being with was hard as can be, and she couldn't finish what they
had started. Gavin followed in behind Becky. After a few minutes,
Josh emerged from the bathroom. Lisa could hear him talking to Gavin
about work. He walked back into Lisa's room with Becky. Lisa noticed
him avoiding her eyes. He wouldn't look at her. Becky looked at what
he had written on the paper and at the pill bottles. He explained
what she had to take and that she had to eat when she took them.
Becky laughed at him and how close he kept track of everything. He
shook his head. Becky thanked him for dinner. He said goodbye to Lisa
and told her that he would be back before Becky and Gavin left for
work, but refused to look at her. He hurried out the door.

Becky
went to the kitchen to get Gavin and her dinner. They ate and went
into the living room. Becky came back to check on Lisa. She asked if
Lisa wanted to play a game or anything. Lisa told her she wanted to
just read and was fine being alone.

Lisa
sat thinking about Josh. She remembered that he had put his number
into her phone. She went through her contacts and laughed when she
saw the name “my hero” on the list. Opening a message to
type she could feel a huge smile on her face.

“
Is
this my hero?”

She
waited for a few minutes.

“
Yes,
do you need rescued?”

Lisa
laughed out loud.

“
I'm
sorry about earlier,” she sent.

“
Sorry
it happened or sorry they came home?”

“
Sorry
they came home and you left with a rock hard cock,” she sent.

“
It
wasn't your fault. I'm fine. That shouldn't have happened. I'm sorry.
I had a weak moment. It won't happen again,” he replied.

“
Why
not?”

“
I
don't do relationships or love. That's not who I am. You are friends
with Becky and Gavin. Then there's Heath,” he sent.

“
What
about Heath?” she sent.

“
Are
you kidding me? He would be pissed if he found out we messed around.
I wouldn't blame him.”

“
Why?”
she sent.

“
How
can you ask me that? Do you seriously not see it?”

“
I
have no idea what you are talking about,” she replied.

“
I
had a weak moment. Everything you said got to me. I don't know what I
was thinking. It will not happen again. We can't do that. You are an
amazing person. I'll see you in the morning.”

“
You
don't have to come over. I will be fine on my own. Thanks for
everything,” she sent, feeling rejected.

What
was so bad about being with her? She felt as if he regretted what
they had done. Her happy mood was crushed.

“
I
will be there in the morning. Don't be like that. You are beautiful
and wonderful, but I don't do feelings. You are too good to get mixed
up with me. I don't want to hurt you,” he sent.

“
That
is the best rejection I have ever gotten. I'm good. You can be sure
it won't happen again. I will not ever try to touch you again. I'm
not sure what happened to you, but I hope you will talk to me about
it one day. You will always be important to me.”

Lisa
shut her phone off and went to sleep. She didn't need to be told
twice that she wasn't good enough. That was one of the reasons she
didn't believe in love. It was not for her. Lisa had tears in her
eyes as she fell asleep.

Josh
sat in his car outside of Becky and Gavin's the following morning. He
was nervous about going into the house. Lisa was upset with him. She
didn't understand. He spent the night with a woman and then left
before he fell asleep. That was who he was. She was sweet, nice, and
beautiful. There was no way he wanted to hurt her, and he knew they
would never have a relationship. Heath was a very good friend of his,
and she was a great friend of Heath's. How was he going to be with
her all day without the previous day coming into their conversation?
He text her back, but she never answered him. She deserved better
than him. Lisa needed a man who could put her above everything in his
life. Josh was not that man.

He
let out a sigh and got out of his car. Becky and Gavin met him at the
door. She leaned in to whisper in his ear.

“
She
had a rough night. I heard her cry herself to sleep. I'm not sure
what happened. She wouldn't talk or come out of her room after you
left. I think I heard her yell in her sleep. I don't know if she is
having bad dreams or what. She is closed off, and I can't figure out
why,” Becky whispered.

Josh
shook his head.

“
She
had a bad dream when she was in the hospital. It will take time for
her to get over the fire. It is really scary being in a building on
fire,” he said.

Josh
went into the house as Becky and Gavin left. He put the bag he
brought with some of his stuff in the living room. Josh went to
Lisa's room and stood at the door. He knew he needed to get it over
with and face whatever was coming his way. When he knocked, she
didn't answer. Slowly, he opened the door. She was asleep. He could
not help but watch her. She looked so peaceful and comfortable,
despite her foot being up on pillows. He smiled as he walked over to
the nightstand. She had not had her medicine yet and he figured she
had not eaten anything.

He
went to the kitchen and made some eggs and bacon. When he had two
plates ready, he walked them to her room. Josh got Lisa's medicine
ready and then sat on the bed next to her. He carefully whispered her
name, so he didn't scare her. When she didn't answer, he shook her
arm. She opened her eyes slightly and looked at him.

“
What?”
she asked.

“
I
brought you breakfast and your medicine,” he said.

She
let out a growl and pulled the pillow over her face. He could see her
eyes were red and his stomach dropped. Had she really cried herself
to sleep? Was it because of his text or was it something else?

“
Lisa
you need to eat so you can take your medicine,” he said.

“
Leave
it there,” she said.

“
Nope,”
he answered. “I am eating with you.”

“
I
don't want you to,” she snapped. “I can't be here with
you. I feel stupid. You pretty much told me that what we did was the
most horrible thing you had ever done. Do you know how that feels? I
feel awful. I get it. I'm not good enough for you. You can be better
than me in the other room. I appreciate everything you have done for
me, but you don't need to take care of me. I will figure it out. I
told you, I don't believe in love, and there is no such thing as
happily ever after. I didn't ask you to marry me and have babies with
me or anything. I wasn't asking for forever. Now that I think about,
you are the one that started it yesterday.”

Josh
let out a groan and sat on the edge of the bed with his head down in
his hands.

“
Look,
you deserve better than me. I don't think that I'm better than you.
Yes, I started it yesterday. Do I want to do it again? Yes, I do. You
deserve someone that can put your first and give you everything you
deserve. I am not that guy. You deserve someone like Heath. He is the
guy for you,” Josh said.

“
Heath,
are you serious?” she asked. “He's like my brother. Why
was he so upset that you had saved me? I heard you two talking that
night in the hospital.”

“
I
am very serious,” he answered. “He was so mad that I was
at the hospital. When he found out that I carried you out of that
building, he was devastated. Heath loves you Lisa. Everyone knows it
but you. He is a good man who wants love. I'm his friend. There is no
way I can do that to him. You don't want me. I'm a fucked up mess,
who doesn't want love. I don't ever want to get close to anyone. I
never want anyone to depend on me, and I never want to have to depend
on anyone. I never want to lose anyone again.”

Josh
got up and handed her the medicine and a glass of water.

“
Take
this,” he said, not looking at her.

She
took it and handed him back the glass. Lisa reached for him, but he
backed away. Josh grabbed the plate and handed it to her. She took it
from him as he looked at her. He could feel wetness in his eyes. She
looked into his eyes and he saw her facial expression sadden. He
grabbed his plate and walked out the door.

“
Josh,”
she called out. “Come back here.”

He
didn't come back.

“
Do
you need something right now?” he asked.

“
I
need you to come back here,” she said.

“
Eat
your food. You have to eat with that medicine. I am eating out here,
as you requested.”

“
Come
back in here, please,” she said.

“
I
can't,” he answered.

She
sat quietly and ate. After a little bit, he could hear a bunch of
noise and moving around. He got up, went to her bedroom, and looked
in. She was pulling her walker across the floor as she leaned halfway
off the bed. He shook his head and let out a snarl.

“
What
the fuck are you doing?” he snapped.

“
I'm
getting my walker, so I can go into the other room,” she
answered.

“
Why?”
he asked. “What do you need?”