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Killing Tansen would accomplish none of that, and no one could say for sure that, despite what he had done, it was truly his fault that Sileria was not free today. Perhaps she was simply practical enough to let go of her thirst for vengeance after all this time. Perhaps she even felt an uncharacteristic tug of sentiment. After all, she and Tansen had spent the last days of their youth together and had lost it at the very same moment. For whatever reason, she was not happy to send Faradar out into the gardens to bid Tansen and Josarian come join them once Srijan agreed to take them all to Kiloran.

When the two
shallaheen
entered the room, Elelar looked at Tansen and, for the first time really, saw him only as he was now, with no remembered shadow of the boy he once had been. She could tell that Srijan was stunned by his appearance, having lacked the wit to realize that he would have changed over the course of nine years. Still, even a man with enough imagination to picture the skinny, hollow-eyed, boy as a grown man would nonetheless be surprised by the reality of seeing Tansen now.

Elelar recognized things now which had escaped her notice in the turmoil of their first meeting, the bustling activity of their preparations in Shaljir, and their tiring journey to Zilar. Tansen held himself apart from others, even in the midst of conversation, watching, waiting, judging, assessing... and concealing. Quite unlike the passionate, ingenuous man who now called him brother and stood at his side. Tansen had been quick and sure-footed as a boy, like anyone who had survived a hard youth in the mountains; now he moved with a fluid, economic precision which spoke of absolute control and relentless discipline. A
shatai
. It seemed incredible. She had only seen three in her whole life, all full-blooded Kints. The
shatai 
were the greatest, deadliest warriors in the three corners of the world.

She couldn't even imagine the pain he had endured in receiving that brand on his chest. She knew that a
shatai
was expected to stand still and unflinching while his master carved it into his torso with a red-hot poker, pausing often to pray and chant, and taking an interminable amount of time over the ritual.

Shallaheen
were contemptuous of physical pain, of course. The scars that marked every important occasion or binding promise of their lives were also a symbol of their ability to endure suffering. For many days, sometimes even months, after cutting a palm, a
shallah
wasn't supposed to favor the throbbing hand during the long, hard labor of his or her daily life, no matter how much it hurt or how many times the wound re-opened.

Still, not even the hard life of a
shallah
or the proud indifference to pain they learned from early childhood could prepare a man to stand still while someone leisurely carved up his chest with a red hot poker. Worldly as she was, Elelar couldn't imagine what could have prepared Tansen for that or how he had endured it. She only knew that the brand made a man respected throughout the known world, for a
shatai
earned it in ways that destroyed lesser men.

However, Elelar didn't think that even a
shatai
could survive an encounter with Kiloran unless the waterlord wanted him to. A man of great skill and quick wits might survive combat with a lesser waterlord, perhaps, but not with Kiloran. The old wizard did not manage to rule the Honored Society, and therefore much of Sileria, through the love of his people or the force of his personality; he controlled men, rivers, lakes, wealth, cities, estates,
toreni
,
shallaheen
, and even—sometimes—the Valdani through water, the greatest power in Sileria. Even the Emperor feared it—and that was why the Alliance needed Kiloran and the Society.

It suddenly occurred to her that if Tansen was lying about his intentions, or if he was somehow miraculously equal to Kiloran... Well, she wouldn't be very happy about
that
, either. The last thing she wanted was Kiloran's death. He controlled and united the Society, making it a somewhat rational and relatively reliable conspirator of great power. With no clear successor—for Srijan still showed no aptitude for water magic
or
intelligent thought—the Society would descend into chaos and internal warfare if Kiloran should suddenly die. Though his predecessor, Harlon, had died years before she was born, Elelar knew the history of those days from Gaborian's teachings. Harlon had left no successor, only a young son who was quickly removed from Sileria for his own safety. Vying for predominance, the waterlords had unleashed a torrent of violence so destructive that it ultimately weakened the Society even more than the Emperor's war against them. And the Valdani had gained power in Sileria precisely commensurate with the Society's loss of it.

Elelar had no love for the Society, but the Valdani were the only enemies that mattered. They were not Silerian; the waterlords and their assassins
were
.

"The Society's power is
our
power, too," Gaborian had taught her. "They are of our blood and born of this land. But Valdani power, even when we marry them, is always
theirs
."

So while she would try to convince Kiloran not to kill Tansen, she was willing to give her life to prevent Tansen from killing Kiloran. What a mess Tansen was making. She wished that he had given into her urging to leave Sileria again.

Tansen studied Srijan for a moment, refused Elelar's suggestion that he sit down and dine with them, and asked her, "He'll do it, then?"

"The woman does not speak for me,
sriliah
," Srijan growled.

Tansen's brow rose. His swords were not concealed now. They were sheathed in the leather harness he wore over his shabby
shallah
clothing. Elelar wished Srijan would refrain from insulting him, since it struck her as extremely stupid and rather risky.

"When do we leave?" Tansen asked.

Srijan smirked. "When I say so."

Josarian sighed and folded his arms across his chest.

"Today? Tonight? Tomorrow? Make up your mind," Tansen advised.

"In the morning."

"We'll be ready." Tansen turned to leave.

Srijan suddenly leapt from his chair,
shir
in hand, and launched himself at Tansen's back. Before Elelar had time to draw breath for a scream, Tansen whirled around, his swords flashing through the air as they wove around his attacker. Srijan cried out and fell to the floor, clutching his forearm. Elelar rose to her feet, her scream dying in her throat. It had happened so fast, she didn't had time to form a thought or follow the flurry of action.

She took three faltering steps forward, halting when the toe of her slipper touched something deadly cold. Shivering, she looked down and saw Srijan's
shir
lying on the floor. She jerked her foot away and looked at the assassin again. His arm was bleeding profusely, staining his fine clothes and spilling onto the floor around him. A slender Kintish blade, gleaming beautifully and engraved with the elegant writing of the Kints, was poised at his throat.

"Don't kill him," she choked out. This was Kiloran's
son
. Kiloran would
never
forgive this death.

"If I killed him," Tansen said regretfully, "then I suppose we'd just have to find some other sheep-molesting, dung-smelling, half-witted assassin who knows where Kiloran is." He shook his head. "What a pity."

Srijan's reply was couched in mountain dialect so vulgar and obscure that Elelar understood little more than the general implication, which was disgusting enough.

"Act like a man," Tansen chided. "I could have cut off your arm, sliced your nose in half, or..." He drew a line down Srijan's body with the tip of one sword, pausing significantly at his crotch. “...ensured that you never molested another woman or fathered another bastard. So count yourself lucky."

Srijan's servant, wide-eyed with fear, stumbled forward to help his master, suggesting that the bedchamber Srijan had claimed for the night would be the best place to clean and bandage the wound. Before leaving the room, Srijan tried to reclaim his
shir
, earning another cut of Tansen's sword as he reached for it.

"It's useless to you unless you kill me,
sriliah
," Srijan snarled. "So give it back!"

"You're making it very
tempting
to kill you," Tansen said in a bored voice.

"You have no right—"

Elelar interrupted, "You said you would take him to Kiloran, not attack him while his back was turned. How could you do something so dishonorable?"

"You weren't expecting this?" Tansen eyed her as if re-assessing her intelligence.

Then it struck her. "You were, weren't you?"

His mouth quirked. "Even more than I expect the sun to rise tomorrow,
torena
."

Tansen finally resigned himself to Josarian's accompanying him on this journey, aware that nothing short of physical force (and being securely tied to a tree) would keep his bloodbrother from his side when he faced Kiloran. He was annoyed, however, that Elelar wouldn't leave him, either. He hadn't counted on having to protect her, too, while trying to deal with the old waterlord.

"I haven't observed a noticeable improvement in your tact and diplomacy since your youth," she had snapped when he tried to convince her to stay behind in Zilar, or even return to Shaljir. "Who do you think is going to talk Kiloran out of killing you?"

"I don't need
you
to do it." She seemed to be forgetting who had convinced Kiloran to kill him in the first place, he thought irritably.

"And after he kills you, who do you think will convince him that Josarian is more valuable to all of us alive than dead?"

That was the argument that had made him give in and let her accompany him as he set off for Kiloran's lair, wherever it was. Josarian must be left alive to fight for Sileria and the
shallaheen
. Besides... apart from his
shatai-kaj
, whom he hadn't seen in some time, Josarian was the only living person he loved, and he didn't intend to be the instrument of his death.

As for Elelar... This wasn't love, this sickness that ate away at his soul, that weakened his manhood and clouded his judgment. This mingled anger and desire, this bitter yearning, this shameful passion... If this was love, no one would ever sing sweet songs about it.

As a boy, burgeoning with instincts beyond his control and naively imagining how he could win her love, he had always been two steps behind, leaving Elelar in control of every moment between them. As a man, he knew better. He had seen wild Widow Beasts in the strange lands far to the east of Kinto, and he had seen deadly shapeshifters in the misty hills of the Moorlands... and he recognized Elelar in them all. However, as a man, he also knew things he had only vaguely imagined as a boy, and the certain, experienced knowledge of what he wanted from this woman tormented him when he was in her presence.

He kept himself in check by recalling the dripping jaws of the Widow Beast, which devoured a mate once satisfied with his virility.

He was at least wise enough to recognize what he hadn't been able to understand or accept as a boy: If Elelar opened her arms to him, she would invariably have an ulterior motive. When Elelar came to a man, he might not know why she had come, but he'd be a fool to believe passion alone had driven her into his arms.

Last night, as they camped in the hills, Elelar had sought a moment alone with Tansen to make one last attempt to convince him to give up, turn back, and go into hiding or leave Sileria. Almond blossoms had sweetened the night, and the pale glow of the waning-moons had highlighted the embroidered silks she wore. She had been all soft woman last night, wooing him with her flattery, seducing him with her concern, weaving a spell of unspoken erotic promises around him as she tried to win him over.

The word
no
, which he repeated a few times, had finally sent her stalking off in frustrated silence. Never had the self-control of his arduous training been so essential as it was when she took her warm hand from his arm and turned away from him. Never in his life had he felt such a hunger. Standing still for his branding ceremony hadn't been as difficult as standing still and watching her walk away last night.

Darfire, sometimes he wished he'd thrown her off the cliff right after Armian.

They had left Elelar's servants back at Zilar for their own safety, so Tansen, Josarian, and Elelar now traveled only with Srijan and his submissive servant. Srijan favored his wounded arm and sulked about the loss of his
shir
. Tansen figured he was afraid of what his father would say about it. Elelar plotted, schemed, and stared into the distance most of the time. Only Josarian was good company, and most of Tansen's amusement was derived from watching him irritate the
torena
. After two days of traveling west on horseback at a reasonable pace, they made a late camp near the shores of Lake Kandahar. Srijan estimated they would reach their destination tomorrow.