I
hate
fenweed soup.
The door opened, and Siris turned to face the town’s elders. Master Renn stood at their forefront, a short, bald man with a round face and red ceremonial robes now faded with age. “Siris,” Master Renn said. “We were wondering . . . what it is you intend to do next.”
Siris thought for a moment. “I intend to visit my mother,” he said. “I’d assumed she’d be in the town, as it’s midday. I should have gone to her hut first.” She lived outside of the main cavern, in the open air.
“Yes, yes,” Master Renn said. “But after that . . . ?”
“I’ve given that a lot of thought, master,” Siris said, tucking away the book. “And . . . well, I’ve come to a decision.”
“Yes?”
“I’m going swimming.”
Master Renn blinked in surprise, then turned to the other elders.
“After that,” Siris continued, “I’m going to eat an everberry pie. Do you realize I’ve never tasted everberry pie? I was always on too strict a diet to eat the pies during feasts. A warrior cannot afford such frivolity.” He rubbed his chin. “Everyone says everberry is the best type of pie.”
I hope I like it,
he thought.
I’d hate to have spent all of these years envying everyone else for nothing.
“Siris,” Master Renn said, stepping closer. His eyes flickered toward the corner of the small room, where Siris’s armor lay piled, bundled inside his cloak—which doubled as a pack. The Infinity Blade rested against the pile. “Did you
really
do it? You didn’t . . . just sneak in and steal his sword, did you?”
“What?” Siris said. “Of course not!”
The fight flashed in his mind. Sword against sword. The God King’s voice, commanding, dismissive—yet surprisingly honest. It had been an unexpectedly honorable duel, after the ancient ideal.
“And the others?” Master Renn asked. “The other six members of the Pantheon? You killed their king. Did you face the others?”
“I dueled some captives in the dungeon,” Siris said. “I think they might have been important, but they didn’t look like members of the Pantheon. I didn’t recognize them, at least.”
Master Renn glanced at the other elders. They began shuffling, uncomfortable.
“What?” Siris demanded.
“Siris,” Master Renn said, “you can’t stay here.”
“What? Why not!”
“They’ll come hunting you, son,” Master Renn said. “They’ll come hunting for
that
.” He looked toward the sword again.
“All Deathless covet the Infinity Blade,” Master Hanna said from behind Renn. “Everyone knows that.”
“They’ll be angry,” Master Hord said. “Angry at you, for what you’ve done.”
“We
can’t
let you remain in the town,” Master Renn said. “For the good of us all, you have to go, Siris.”
“You’re exiling me?” Siris said. “Hell take me . . . I
saved
you. I saved all of you!”
“We appreciate that,” Master Renn said.
Several of the others didn’t look like they agreed. Just a week before, these people had toasted his bravery. They’d sent him off with a feast and fanfare. They’d praised him and lauded him.
They didn’t want me to win,
he thought, looking into those hostile eyes.
They’re afraid. They spoke of freedom, but they don’t know what to do with it.
“You should go quickly,” Renn said. “We’ve sent word to Lord Weallix, inviting him back.”
“Him?” Siris demanded. “You’d serve that
rat
?”
“Our best hope now,” Master Hord said, “is to look cowed, placated. Dominated. When the other gods come searching, they must not find a town in rebellion.”
“It is the best way, Siris,” Master Renn said.
“You’ve been slaves so long,” Siris spat, “you don’t know how to be anything else. You are fools! Children.” He was shouting, he realized. “After all of these centuries, time after time feasting and dreaming, now you throw it away! Now you throw
me
away!”
The elders shied back before his rage. They seemed frightened of him. Terrified.
Siris formed fists, but then found his rage evaporating. He couldn’t be angry at them. He could only pity them.
“Fine,” he snapped, moving to pick up his gear. “Fine, I’ll go.”
A
N HOUR LATER
, Siris lifted up an old, worn axe. Its blade was chipped, the haft grayed and weathered with time. He hefted it, judging its weight, and tried to ignore the tempest of emotions inside of him. Betrayal. Frustration. Anger.
His training let him banish all of that for a moment, as he stared at the axe. In his mind, he saw the ways he could use it to win a fight.
Smash his foe at the knees, then bury the axe into his chest as he fell . . .
Hack at the neck, coming in furiously, using the long haft for additional reach . . .
Bash the axe against an opponent’s shield time and time again to throw him off balance, then step back and strike unexpectedly from the right . . .
He raised the axe . . .
. . . then swung it down at a log resting on the stump before him. He hit the log off-center, and the axe
bounced
away, as if the wood were stone. Siris growled and swung again, but this time only managed to hack a chip off the side.
“Damn,” he said, resting the axe on his shoulder. “Chopping wood is a
lot
harder than it looks.”
“Siris?” a shocked voice asked.
He looked up. A middle-aged woman stood on the pathway up to the forested hut, clutching a bucket of water. Her hair was starting to silver, and her clothing was of the simplest wool. His mother, Myan.
His mother would know what to do. Myan was
solid
, in the same way that an ancient tree stump was solid, or the balanced boulder outside of town was solid. He’d tried to push that over as a child. Though it seemed delicate, he hadn’t been able to shove it an inch.
“Mother,” he said, lowering the axe. She hadn’t been in the hut when he’d arrived a half hour ago. Fetching water. He should have known. That task he’d always done for her, as the jog to the river and back fit well with his training.
“Siris!” she said, putting down the bucket. She hurried to him, stepping with a limp from her fall ten years back. She took his arm tenderly. “You saw reason, then? You actually refused to go to the God King’s castle? Oh, lights in the heavens, boy! I never thought you’d come to your senses. Now we . . .”
She trailed off as she saw the object that Siris had set down beside the woodpile. The Infinity Blade. It almost seemed to glow in the sunlight.
“Hell take me,” Myan whispered, raising her hand to her mouth. “By the seven lords who rule in terror. You actually did it? You
killed
him?”
Siris swung the axe down again on the log. He hit it off-center again.
It’s the grain,
he thought.
I’m trying to hit it across the grain, instead of with the grain.
Strange. He could kill a man seventeen ways with this axe. He could imagine each one in perfect order, could feel his body moving through those motions. Yet he couldn’t chop wood. He’d never had a chance to try.
“So you didn’t see reason,” Myan said.
“No,” Siris replied.
His mother had never wanted him to go. Oh, she hadn’t been overt about her displeasure. She hadn’t wanted to undermine what the rest of the town—the rest of the land itself—saw as his destiny and her privilege. Perhaps she’d sensed, in some way, that it
had been
his destiny. He’d never given serious thought to fleeing. That would have been like . . . like climbing the tallest mountain in the world, then turning back ten steps from the summit.
No, she hadn’t tried to undermine his training. But what mother would
want
her son to go off to certain death? She’d tried to talk him out of it the night before the Feast of the Sacrifice, the most forward of her attempts. By then, it had been too late. For both of them.
“We have to take you to town,” she exclaimed. “Talk to the elders. There will be celebrations! Parties! Dancing and . . . and . . . And what is that look on your face, my son?”
“I’ve been to town,” he said, pulling his arm from her grip. “There will be no celebrations, Mother. They sent me away.”
“Sent you away . . . Why would they . . .” She paused, studying him. “Those small-minded fools. They’re afraid, aren’t they?”
“I guess they have reason to be,” Siris said, putting the axe aside and sitting down on the stump. “They’re right. People will come looking for me.”
“That’s nonsense,” she said, crouching down beside him. “Son, I’m not sending you away again. I’m not going through
that
again.”
He looked up, but said nothing. Perhaps with the support of the town, he’d have stayed. But with just his mother . . . No. He wouldn’t endanger her.
Why had he even come to her, then?
Because I wanted her to know,
he thought.
Because I needed to show her that I’m alive.
Perhaps a greater kindness would have been to stay away.
“You’re not going to let me choose, are you?” she said.
He hesitated, then shook his head.
Her hand tightened on his arm. “Ever the warrior,” she whispered. “Well, at least let me feed you a good meal. Then perhaps we can talk further.”
H
E FELT
immeasurably better with a good meal in his stomach. His mother hadn’t had any everberries for a pie, unfortunately, but she’d fixed him some peach cobbler. He carefully noted in his logbook:
I like peach cobbler.
Definitely
like peach cobbler.
“How many times did I try to feed you that when you were growing up?” she asked him, sitting across the table and watching him as he spooned up the last bite.
“Dozens,” he said.
“And you refused every time.”
“I . . .” It was hard to explain. He’d
known
his duty, somehow. Even from childhood, he’d known. The town’s expectations had held him to high standards, but the truth was that he’d held himself to them as well.
“You always were an odd child,” she said. “So solemn. So dutiful. So focused. Sometimes I felt less like a mother to you, and more like a . . . an innkeeper. Even when you were young.”
It made him uncomfortable when she talked like that. “You never speak of Father. Was he the same?”
“I didn’t know him long,” she said, looking wistful. “Isn’t that odd to say? We met like it was a dream, married in under a month. Then he was gone, off to be the Sacrifice. He left me with you.”
She’d come here to Drem’s Maw in order to get away from her old life. She had cousins here, though she’d never really fit in. Neither had he, even though the townspeople had claimed to be proud of being the ones to raise the Sacrifice.
“He did have a sense of purpose,” she said, nodding. “The same as you.”
“I wish I had that still,” Siris replied. He looked down at his empty plate, then sighed and stood. “I had hoped that now . . . finally . . . I could go about being myself. Whoever that is.”
“Must you go, Siris?” she asked. “You could stay, hide here. We could make it work.”
“No,” he said.
I won’t bring this down upon you.
“I can’t make you stay, I suppose.” She didn’t seem pleased about that. “But where will you go?”
“I don’t know,” he said, gathering the cloak, wrapped like a pack with his armor inside of it.
“Are you at least willing to listen to a little advice?”
“From you?” he said. “Always.”
“I wished to the lights of heaven that you hadn’t set your feet on this path. But you did, son.”
“I didn’t have a choice.”
“That’s foolishness,” she said. “You always have a choice.”
Foolishness or not, it was still how he felt.
“You set your feet on this path,” she continued. “So now you need to finish what you began.”
“I
did
finish it,” he complained. “I killed the God King! What more could they ask of me?”
“It’s no longer about what people are asking of you, son,” she said. She reached over, taking his hand. “I’m sorry,” she said more softly. “You don’t deserve this. It is true.”
He looked down.
“Don’t despair.” She rose, taking him by the arms. “You’ve done something
wonderful
, Siris. Something everyone thought impossible. You have fulfilled the dreams of your fathers, and avenged their deaths.” She pulled away and looked up at him. “Do you remember what we spoke of, on that night before you left?”
“Honor.”
“I told you that if you are going to do something, son,” she said, “you need to do it with all of your heart. You have something you didn’t have before. Hope. You’ve defeated one of them. They
can
be beaten.”
She held his eyes, and he nodded slowly.
“Good,” she said, squeezing his arms. “I’ll pack you food for your trip.”
He watched her limp away.
She’s right,
he thought.
I’ve done the impossible once. I’ll do it again.
This time, however, he wouldn’t be hunting someone to kill. This time his quest would be more personal. Somehow, he would find the one thing he’d always wanted without realizing it.
He’d find freedom.
T
HE
G
OD
K
ING
came awake with a deep gasp. It was the uncontrolled gasp of one who had been without breath for too long. The gasp of the dead returning to life, his heart pounding, his eyes opening wide. It was a terrifying, yet exhilarating feeling.
It was a feeling he had
never
wanted to feel again.
Around him floated the serene sounds of his Seventh Temple of Reincarnation. Soft rain outside, hitting leaves and the quiet rooftop, leaving the air cool and damp. A few muted beeps from the deadminds that monitored his vital signs. The swishing of robes in the hallway outside; his Devoted, hurrying to obey the call of reincarnation.
Yes, outside was serenity. Inside was chaos. That would not do. Thousands of years of life had taught Raidriar many things, but the most important was to be in control. He sat up, reaching out to pick up the helm that lay on the nearby table. The faces of the Deathless were not to be seen by common mortals.