Twenty years to go. Simple as that.
But he’d bought a big life insurance policy. Just in case.
3.
FBI SPECIAL AGENT KIM OTTO had made a quick dash to Wisconsin over the weekend because Grandma Louisa Otto was dying. Not shocking, given her age. Modern medicine had pulled her through heart arrhythmias, osteoporosis, micro-strokes, and cancer, twice. This time she’d had another heart attack.
Kim doubted Grandma Louisa would actually die. Ever. Pure German stubbornness had kept her alive more than 102 years. Kim figured she had inherited the stubborn gene from Louisa.
But if death was to happen, Kim didn’t want to be there to see it. She was not comforted by bodies in coffins or funerals or memorial services and avoided them whenever possible. Closure? Humbug.
“God knows how much longer she’ll last, Kim,” her father said, probably noticing Kim’s lack of enthusiasm for the trip.
“Is mom going?” Kim asked. Her stomach was already churning without the prospect of playing referee between Grandma Louisa and Sen Li. Kim reached into her pocket for an antacid and slipped it under her tongue.
“We’ve been there all week. We’ll return Monday,” Dad replied, subdued. “Just go to Frankenmuth, honey. Say goodbye while you still can. You’ll be glad you did.”
In what universe?
Still, her father rarely asked her for anything. Sen Li had drilled into her children from infancy—when there’s only one choice, it’s the right choice.
So she went.
Just in case.
Kim had flown out early, before she could chicken out. Adding two plane flights to her life was never her first choice, but too often it was her only option.
Miraculously, the plane didn’t crash and she made it to Madison in one piece. Frankenmuth Otto Regional Hospital was a twenty-mile cab ride from the airport. She’d booked a two o’clock flight back to D.C. God willing, she’d arrive at Reagan National by five thirty. Plenty of time to take care of the things she needed to do before she met Gaspar Sunday. Get in, get out. That was her plan.
This could work,
she thought, right up until the cab dropped her at the hospital’s front entrance, when her internal response became,
In what universe?
Nothing ever worked according to plan where her family was concerned. Dad had said he and his five siblings were posting a constant bedside vigil for Grandma Louisa, who had been a widow for decades. Kim shouldn’t have been surprised to see the line of Ottos, all blonde and oversized, that snaked down the block from the hospital’s entrance.
Mid-November was bleakly cold in Frankenmuth, Wisconsin. Men, women, and kids alike wore jeans, boots, and sweatshirts under coats, hats, and gloves. Practical, comfortable clothes. The kind Kim favored when she wasn’t dressed for work. After all, she was German and oversized herself on the inside.
Only Kim’s father had strayed from the family farm in Wisconsin, and he had traveled to neighboring Michigan at figurative gunpoint because his parents had refused to welcome his pregnant Vietnamese wife.
These Ottos served their community as farmers, shopkeepers, teachers, nurses, military, and a few, like Kim, were cops of one kind or another. Otto cousins lined up today because they worked during the week and Sunday was reserved for church.
Kim paid the cab driver and nodded to her cousins as she walked back to take her place at the end of the line. Shivering began immediately. Her suit was too thin a barrier for the Wisconsin wind. She turned up the jacket collar, stuffed her hands into the pockets, and shifted her weight from one foot to the other, attempting to gin up some body heat. The strategy didn’t work well. Soon, the snowy concrete had transferred its glacial cold upward through the soles of her shoes.
Eventually, Kim reached the interior waiting room that had been overtaken by the Otto clan. She was in no hurry to approach Louisa’s sickbed. She left the line and stood in a corner near the heat vent.
Kim absorbed the warmth through her pores while the noxious citrus scented air purifier attacked her sinuses, causing a sharp pain between her eyebrows at the bridge of her slender nose.
She was too cold to make conversation, but no one spoke much at all, and certainly not to her. Which was just fine. She felt as much an overwhelmed fish out of water as she always had among her fair-haired, blue-eyed, giant-sized cousins. None of the right-sized Ottos were older than eight and their conversational abilities would probably be all about age-appropriate video games anyway. The Ottos rarely spoke to her under normal circumstances; no reason to change things now. Kim shrugged.
As a child she’d wondered what it would feel like to be welcomed into this big, warm family. A long time ago, she’d realized she would never know that feeling. Every family needed its flock of black sheep. She was a Michigan Otto, born on the wrong side of the blanket as far as the Wisconsin Ottos were concerned. Period. End of story. She shrugged again. It was what it was.
A low murmur from the group interrupted Kim’s thoughts and drew her glance toward the doorway. Attired in a full dress blue Class A Army uniform complete with ribbons, hat in hand, another Otto had entered the waiting area. Only one Otto was currently serving in the Army at that level, and only one Otto would compel the immediate respect that settled palpably over the room.
Kim had seen him maybe three times in her life before today and never in uniform, but she recognized Captain Lothar Otto instantly.
Literally the fair-haired boy of the moment, sported the unmistakable Otto family countenance, complete with caterpillar eyebrows and what Kim’s father called a high, intelligent forehead, also known as a rapidly receding hairline. He’d grown up in Frankenmuth like all the normal Ottos, attended West Point, and then served the Army and fought in its wars. She’d heard he’d been wounded two years ago, but he looked fit enough today.
Ottos were not a demonstrative bunch by nature and Kim observed Lothar make the obligatory rounds seeming no more comfortable than she would have been. Men shook his hand or saluted respectfully; women nodded and smiled or saluted; children kept their distance and saluted.
Lothar’s identification was positively confirmed when he passed close enough for Kim to read his nametag, but he merely nodded toward her without stopping or noticing whether she nodded in reply. She didn’t mind; she was no better at small talk than the rest of her family. She did not salute.
When Kim had absorbed enough real warmth to feel her toes again, she became aware of the lateness of the hour. She needed to do what she came for and get back to Madison for her flight back to DC.
Yet the never-ending line of Ottos continued unabated toward Grandma Louisa’s room. When she could stall no longer, Kim joined the cousin trail, feeling as if the guillotine waited at the end of the line. The piercing pain between her eyes made the prospect of losing her head almost welcome.
Kim shuffled along with the line advancing at warp speed of two feet a minute, closing the distance in an orderly fashion as each cousin slipped into the sick room alone and stayed precisely sixty seconds before emerging without flowing tears or evidence of sobbing via fists-full of damp, crumpled tissues. Lack of hysteria salved Kim’s anxiety; the inexorable forward movement did not.
Grandma Louisa had never inspired open affection from anyone and Kim wondered how she coped when her stoic progeny remained composed. Did Grandma think no one cared? Or was she, herself uncaring? This mystery had plagued Kim most of her life. Was it she who felt nothing for Grandma first? Or, as a small child, had she absorbed the message that Grandma Louisa felt nothing for her and defended against apathy thereafter?
Kim sighed and raised her hand to knead tension from the back of her neck. Again, she was glad Sen Li was absent. Mom would have created a spectacle of some kind about the Otto family’s cold nature, the way she always did, and Kim had no desire to cope with such scenes on top of everything else. At the moment, Kim couldn’t recall the precise nature of their last battle. None of it mattered any more. The old lady was on her way out. Whatever the source of their problems, now was the time to set them aside and move on.
Hushed words hummed quietly among the cousins at volumes too low to comprehend, Kim realized. She was sure the conversations were about crops and kids and church and plans for Thanksgiving. Nothing she would feel comfortable discussing with these near strangers, even if they tried to include her, which they did not. Not that it mattered. She’d be gone soon, and so would Grandma Louisa.
Too quickly, the Otto in front of her entered Grandma’s room. The door closed quietly behind him. Kim was next and she had no idea what she’d say. She had not seen Grandma Louisa for ten years and the last time they’d met ended badly, as had most of their encounters. Grandma Louisa could not forgive Sen Li for taking Albert away from the family. That grudge engulfed Albert’s daughters because they resembled their mother. Kim had accepted years ago that she would never be tall and blonde and German on the outside; it wasn’t enough for Grandma Louisa that Kim was as fierce as any Otto on the inside.
Swiftly, the door opened, the cousin came out, looked Kim in the eye and said, “You’re up. Good luck.”
Kim considered whether it was too late to run, but she stood as tall as a four foot eleven and a half inch, ninety-nine pound Asian-American woman could stand, squared her shoulders and marched past the threshold, checking for a quick escape route, but finding none. Someone pushed the door and it sucked solidly shut behind her.
Grandma Louisa’s bed filled most of the room. An oxygen cannula rested in her nose but otherwise had changed not one iota since the last time Kim had seen her. She wore a pink brocade bed jacket, her grey hair was teased and lacquered as usual, and her hands were folded on her lap the better to display her rings and manicured nails. She wore pearl and sapphire earrings and a double strand of pearls around her sizeable neck. Mauve lipstick emphasized her still-full lips. Blush rosied her cheeks. Stylish eyeglasses rested on her nose visually enlarging her blue eyes to bowl size.
Louisa Otto, matriarch of the Frankenmuth Ottos, held court as she always had, as if she were not just the head of one sizeable but important farming community but Empress Augusta herself.
Whoever had closed the door gave Kim a little shove in the small of her back, prodding her closer to the bed.
“Kimmy,” Louisa said, a moment before she reached out with a strong claw, restraining Kim by engulfing her hand inside a big fist, holding tight. Rough callouses on Louisa’s palm scraped Kim’s skin.
Perhaps Grandma Louisa was near death, but she seemed a lot more alive than Kim had been led to believe.
“You look great,” Kim said, clearing her throat and covering surprise as she leaned over to kiss a papery cheek dotted with lipstick from previous kissers.
Grandma Louisa replied, “I really do, don’t I?”
Kim had to laugh. What could she possibly say in reply?
Not that Grandma Louisa gave her a chance. Maybe Kim’s mind had misplaced the facts of last argument, but Louisa’s had not. She launched again as if the dispute had concluded ten minutes ago, not ten years ago. “Kimmy, I want to see you married to a good German Lutheran before I die. A baby on the way. Maybe two.”
“You’ll need to live a good long while then, Grandma,” Kim said, struggling to eliminate annoyance from her tone as the old feelings flooded back. They’d fought bitterly ten years ago because Grandma had arranged such a union for Kim and Kim had secretly married already, not to a German Lutheran but to a Vietnamese immigrant. Kim was divorced now, but she simply refused to have any part of the old tyrant’s nosey meddling.
“I will if you will,” Grandma Louisa said flatly, steely-eyed and uncompromising. She squeezed Kim’s hand tighter before releasing her completely. “Now would be a good time to find good husband material before you leave Wisconsin. I’ve lined up a few prospects for you to see this afternoon back at my house.”
Kim felt anger bubbling up from her now toasty feet, rising to levels that would have the family comparing her to Sen Li, and not favorably. Kim clamped her jaws closed and replied, “Thanks. I’m on my way.”
She didn’t say on her way where.
Grandma Louisa beamed as if she’d settled the fortunes of the crown princess. “You’ll be glad when you’re settled, Kimmy. Like your cousins.”
Damn that woman!
Kim said nothing. She glanced at the uncles standing on either side of their mother, but neither could muster the guts to meet her gaze. She nodded, pulled her hand away, turned and left the room, saving thirty seconds for the next cousin in line, who was also single and probably wouldn’t thank her for the extra time.
No one seemed to notice when Kim continued walking, out of the waiting room, down the hallway, and left the hospital through the front exit where Otto cousins continued to throng the entrance.
She stood at the cabstand and fumed, muttering suitable rejoinders to the old bat under her breath and louder epithets in her head. She barely noticed the frigid outside air for the first five minutes while the heat of her rage kept adrenaline pumping.
Where are the damned taxis?
Too quickly, the cold bulldozed into her bones. She hunched inside her suit jacket, stomped her feet to knock the snow away from her soles and keep her circulation going. It was freezing out here. Even colder than Grandma Louisa, if that was possible.
Why in the name of God didn’t you bring a coat and boots? Better yet, why didn’t you just say no, Dad, I’m not going. Not now. Not ever. Forget it.
Ranting didn’t heat the atmosphere even one degree.
Global warming, my ass.
Kim felt her corneas might frost. She squeezed her eyes shut and shivered a bit more attempting to raise her body temperature. She wasn’t going back inside to wait, even if her feet froze to the sidewalk and her eyelids ice-glued themselves together.
She heard the growl of an engine and opened her eyes expecting to see a yellow cab. Instead, a black SUV had pulled up alongside, Captain Lothar Otto at the wheel. He lowered the passenger window and said, “I’m headed toward the airport. Can I drop you somewhere?”