Judgement Day (27 page)

I saw
heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose
rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and wages
war. His eyes are like blazing fire, and on his head are many
crowns. He has a name written on him that no one knows but he
himself. He is dressed in a robe dipped in blood, and his name is
the Word of God. The armies of heaven were following him, riding on
white horses and dressed in fine linen, white and clean. Coming out
of his mouth is a sharp sword with which to strike down the
nations. “He will rule them with an iron sceptre.”
He treads
the winepress of the fury of the wrath of God Almighty. On his robe
and on his thigh he has this name written:

King of kings
and Lord of lords.

[Revelation
19:11-16]

Chapter 19,
this is my return as my alter-ego (I also get married too).
 My other personality, or should I say, the guy who lives
inside me, descends “from heaven”.  “His eyes are like a
blazing fire,” this is talking about marijuana, bloodshot eyes,
this is how I can change personalities.  When I smoke pot I’ve
got the reddest eyes you’ve ever seen, I don’t always change into
the other guy, in fact I haven’t for quite a few years, but I think
he’s coming back.  Not taking my
medication
like I did in Tasmania is different, when
I do that we’re both present, there’s an internal battle, it’s very
difficult to exist like that, the medication keeps him suppressed.
 Smoking pot can actually change me into him, my posture
straightens, I have a big smile across my face, I can feel God
surrounding me, I can see the world for what it is and I know how
powerful I truly am.  Although it’s not really me, it’s some
guy from heaven, I just know how he feels.  We’ve been teamed
up by God to do this together, I’m the brains of the operation,
he’s the divine one.  His time is coming soon, I think I’m
going to need his help, I’m much too shy.  I used to call him
“The Leader” but when I’m him he doesn’t have a name, this is why
it says “he has a name written that no one knows but He Himself”.
 “He is dressed in a robe dipped in blood” because he’s
wearing the clothes I was murdered in in Chapter 10.  “On his
robe and on his thigh he has this name written: King of kings and
Lord of lords,” the thigh is obviously my birthmark, but it’s taken
me all this time to figure out the robe, it was only because I’d
worked out a basic narrative already and simply had it confirmed
while reading Revelations.  He is the one who wrestled with
Jacob in the book of Genesis
,
notice that when Jacob asks his name he replies “why do you ask my
name?” that’s the guy I know, the guy with no name.
 I
found it interesting that Jacob was left with a limp, both times
I’ve wrestled with him (while off
my
medication) I was also left with a limp, although
from my foot, not my hip.  I think it is also he who talks to
Daniel and gives him strength, he says “no one supports me except
Michael, your prince,” this is very interesting.  There may be
other appearances of him in the Bible, I haven’t read the whole
thing for many years.  I don’t know who he is, except to say
that he isn’t God, because he can’t believe that God has teamed him
up with such an embarrassment.  Yes, that’s what he thinks of
me, he thinks I’m embarrassing.  I think he should get a
reality check, because I'm the one who did everything.  It’s
like, I know who I am in theory, but I can’t really comprehend it,
while he knows exactly who he is.

Chapter
20-end, the happy ending.  The Devil is bound.  God lives
among His people.  Peace on Earth.  People now live
forever.  Etc, etc, etc...  Actually, it says that the
Devil is bound for a thousand years and then he comes back for a
short time.  I doubt this literally means a thousand years,
but it sounds like after an extended period of peace on earth there
will be one final rebellion.  This rebellion sounds short
lived and then the Devil is finally thrown into the lake of fire
forever and ever.  Isn't it weird that this shit is actually
coming true?  I doubt that anyone seriously believed this was
ever going to happen.  Pretty cool, eh?  God is real, and
not just as a lawmaker or a judge, God is a real living being.
 Is that amazing?  God has a personality, and He is who
He is.  God is the infinite Creator of the Universe, He has
been planning this day since the moment of Creation, and He cannot
possibly fail.  As for me, I’m just lucky.

Yeah, I’m
lucky.  God created me specifically for this purpose, a
combination of third generation crazy theories on one side, and
third generation scientist/engineer on the other.  God never
spoke to me, but He implanted ideas in my head without my
knowledge, He guided me towards all of my discoveries.  Sure
I’ve been through some hard times, but I’m a very unsympathetic
person, I’ve also got a terrible memory, so I don’t sit around
feeling sorry for myself.  I was robbed of the best years of
my life, but I don’t dwell on the past, I spend my days dreaming of
a better tomorrow.  Even in my darkest days I’ve always had
hope.  I’m lucky because I knew God was with me, I’ve never
had faith in God,
faith is for
the weak,
I’ve always known.  I haven’t done
anything particularly extraordinary, all I’ve done is believed in
myself, even when everyone told me I was crazy.  I haven’t
done anything that was ever beyond my capabilities, but I have been
reluctantly pushed to the limits of my capabilities.  I may
have been treated like a loser my whole life, but God has always
believed in me, and for that I am eternally grateful.  Who
would have thought I could make a career out of daydreaming?
 Even if I die tonight, I’m the luckiest son of a bitch that
ever lived.

You laugh at
me now, but you laughed at me when I told you I’d discovered the
Universe.  You laughed at me when I told you I’d overthrown
the theory of Relativity.  You laughed at me when I told you
I’d discovered the definition of sin.  You laughed at me when
I told you I was going to start the world’s biggest religion.
 Laugh all you want, I’ve been proven right every time.
 I am right about everything, I know the Mysteries of
Existence, I know the meaning of life, I know God.  I have
been proven right about everything so far, so you can laugh all you
like, but I will continue to be proven right.  This is your
last chance at peace.

This is not
the Judgement Day you wanted, but it is the one that was
foretold... “From the nations no one was with me, so I have trodden
the winepress alone,” “he was assigned a grave with the wicked and
with the rich in his death, though he had done no violence nor was
any deceit found in his mouth,” “you will see the sign of the Son
of Man in the sky and all the nations will mourn because of it,”
“the prophets had tormented those who live on the earth,” “out of
his mouth comes a sharp sword with which to strike down the
nations,” “your covenant with death will be annulled.”

The path of
the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the
selfish and the tyranny of evil men.  Blessed is he, who in
the name of charity and goodwill, shepherds the weak through the
valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and a
finder of lost children.  And I will strike down upon thee
with great vengeance and furious anger, those who attempt to poison
and destroy my brothers, and you will know my name is the LORD when
I lay my vengeance upon you!

[Ezekiel
25:17] - From Pulp Fiction

Go ahead, make
my fucking day.  This is the fulfilment of all prophecy, so
are you with me, or are you against me?

The thing is,
we don’t have to do this.  I don’t want to do this, I don’t
want a third of the world to be destroyed, I don’t want to be
relying on aliens coming to resurrect me.  All you’ve got to
do is keep one law, the First Law of God, “No one touches Spears.”
 Can you keep just one law?  If I die, it’s the
apocalypse, and God beats the fuck out of you, but it’s inevitable,
isn’t it?  Because that’s what you’re like.  I’ve spent
my whole life trying to save a world that doesn’t give a fuck about
me, and when you find out you’ll kill me, is that fair? I wasn’t
punished because of something I did, I was punished for you, I was
punished so that I could save you from yourselves, and you would
hate me for it?  Open your eyes, this isn’t normal, God
shouldn’t have to do this shit.  You deserve everything that’s
coming to you. Fuck you.

Happy
Judgement Day!

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The Other Guy

Before I go, I
wanted to talk about “the other guy,” the one with no name. After
realising that Revelations 19 is about him, and finding other
scriptural references to him, I’ve been thinking a lot about who he
is and what I know about him. So what do I know about him?

He is not me, and I am not him. He thinks
and speaks of me as a different person. My name is Michael, while
he does not have a name. This is similar to God, we call Him “God”
but do we have any right to do so? I rarely say the name “God” out
loud, preferring to call Him “the Creator” or something similar,
because how can a being who was not born, who did not have a mother
to give Him a name, be called by a name? Can any infinite and
eternal being truly have a name? In the story of Moses, when Moses
asks the name God, He says “I am who I am.” He is who He is, names
are a mortal concept. This other being who lives inside me, he is
not human, he was sent here to assist me, he is eternal, he has no
name.

He is from
heaven and he knows God. While I know God exists and is everywhere,
I still somehow feel distant from Him. I forget that God is in
complete control, and I worry that things won’t work out. He can
feel God surrounding him, light shines from heaven upon him, and he
sees God everywhere. He is divine, but me, I’m just a man. He is
some sort of angel, an important one.

He was sent here to assist me. Judgement
Day is a two person job, it is too much for one man. I have spent a
lot of years working on my theories and philosophies, but that is
all they are, theories, philosophies, ideas. I
have done all the hard work, all I know is
theory, but he knows God. He gives me strength when I need it, he
lifts me up, he encourages me. I am timid, weak, and distant from
God. He is bold, arrogant, proud, and he walks side by side with
God. I am the brains of the operation, he is the muscle. I am from
earth, he is from heaven. I am human, he is something else. While
he is above me, he is also beneath me, because it was he who was
sent to help me, not I who was sent to help him. This is my work,
this is my earth, and this is my Judgement Day, but I cannot do it
without his help.

When I am him, what else can I learn about
him? It seems like he is not God, but he knows God, because he
can’t believe who God has teamed him up with. Although he respects
my intelligence, he thinks I am too angst ridden, melancholic and
timid, and that God could have made someone better. I am under the
impression that although he walks side by side with God, he is not
the only one of his kind, but this is his present mission, he has
been sent to assist me. There appear to be other scriptural
references to him, so perhaps this is the planet he takes care of,
or perhaps he takes care of several. I do not know, except that I
believe that he is not the only one of his kind in heaven, there
are others. I will now show you a few scriptural references to him,
but there may be others…

That night
Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and
his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. After he had
sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So
Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.
When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the
socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled
with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is
daybreak.”

But Jacob
replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”

The man asked
him, “What is your name?”

“
Jacob,” he
answered.

Then the man
said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you
have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”

Jacob said,
“Please tell me your name.”

But he
replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.

So Jacob
called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to
face, and yet my life was spared.”

The sun rose
above him as he passed Peniel, and he was limping because of his
hip. Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon
attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob’s
hip was touched near the tendon.

[Genesis
32:22-31]

I have already
spoken about this, about the limp, and about wrestling with the man
with no name, but this is the transcript of the passage. This is
the first appearance of him in the Bible. He also appears in the
book of Daniel…

On the
twenty-fourth day of the first month, as I was standing on the bank
of the great river, the Tigris, I looked up and there before me was
a man dressed in linen, with a belt of fine gold from Uphaz around
his waist. His body was like topaz, his face like lightning, his
eyes like flaming torches, his arms and legs like the gleam of
burnished bronze, and his voice like the sound of a multitude.

I, Daniel, was
the only one who saw the vision; those who were with me did not see
it, but such terror overwhelmed them that they fled and hid
themselves. So I was left alone, gazing at this great vision; I had
no strength left, my face turned deathly pale and I was helpless.
Then I heard him speaking, and as I listened to him, I fell into a
deep sleep, my face to the ground.