Judgement Day (8 page)

Have we any
right to inferences – have we any ground whatever for visions such
as these? If we have a right to them in any degree, we have a right
to their infinite extension.

The human
brain has obviously a leaning to the
“Infinite,”
and fondles the
phantom of the idea. It seems to long with a passionate fervor for
this impossible conception, with the hope of intellectually
believing it when conceived. What is general among the whole race
of Man, of course no individual of that race can be warranted in
considering abnormal; nevertheless, there may be a class of
superior intelligences, to whom the human bias alluded to may wear
all the character of monomania.

The
sequel.

In speaking of
what is ordinarily implied by the expression, "Universe," I shall
take a phrase of limitation – "the Universe of stars." Why this
distinction is considered necessary, will be seen in the
sequel.

After reading
the above about “the sequel,” I didn’t believe that Poe himself
ever intended to write the sequel himself. I believed (and still
do) that Poe knew the significance of his theory, and he knew that
one day someone else would write the sequel. I decided that I had
written his sequel, I had written the sequel to ‘Eureka,’ and as
such I used his introduction as my own. Poe and myself, we are
kindred spirits, we share the same beliefs about science and
philosophy, and I am proud to have written his sequel.
Incidentally, this is one of the last
things he wrote, and the last time he was seen alive was a year
later, he was found delirious in the streets. He mentions the
effects of trying to comprehend the infinite above, I think it may
have driven him mad, like it did myself. You think it’s so easy to
keep your senses? There is literally no bigger discovery that any
man could make than the infinite Universe. It's almost as if he was
warning himself not to think about it, as if he knew what would
happen if he tried. Maybe he just couldn’t help but try to
comprehend the infinite, maybe that was what finally brought him
unstuck, maybe the infinite Universe blew his mind.

Anyway, when I
was really starting to make some serious progress with my theories,
I became curious about the ‘Dead Sea Scrolls.’ I had heard
something about them, but I didn’t really know what they were
except that they were very old Bible passages found preserved
around the Dead Sea. So I borrowed a book from the library, it was
by Michael Wise and Robert Eisenmann, which I took as something of
a small sign. (Note: Later I bought a book of Dead Sea Scrolls
translations by Geza Vermes, the quotes I use are more likely from
the Geza Vermes version.)

I was sitting
on the train reading the book, when I came across the following
passage...

The Birth of
Noah

…
When he is
born, they shall all be darkened together…he is born in the night
and he comes out Perfect…with a weight of three hundred and fifty
shekels…he slept until the division of the days…in the daytime
until the completion of years…a share is set aside for him…

…
Holy Ones
will remember…lights will be revealed to him…they will teach him
everything that…human Wisdom, and every wise man…in the lands, and
he shall be great…mankind will be shaken, and until…he will reveal
Mysteries like the Highest Angels…and with the Understanding of the
Mysteries of Existence…I will strengthen his Goodness…and he will
not die in the days of Wickedness, and the Wisdom of Your mouth
will go forth. He who opposes You will deserve death. One will
write the words of God in a book that does not wear out, but my
words you will adorn. At the time of the Wicked, he will know you
forever, a man of your servants…of the hand, two…a birthmark. And
there will be lentils on…and small birthmarks on his thigh. And
after two years he will be able to distinguish one thing from
another. In his youth, he will be like…like a man who knows nothing
until the time when he knows the three Books. And then he will
acquire wisdom and learn understanding…a vision will come to him on
his knees. And with his father and his ancestors…life and old age.
Counsel and prudence will be with him, and he will know the Secrets
of mankind. His Wisdom and Understanding will spread to all
peoples, and he will know the Secrets of the living. And all their
designs against him will come to nothing, and the spiritual legacy
for all the living will be enriched, and his rule over all the
living will be great. His designs will succeed, for he is the Elect
of God. His birth and the breath of his Spirit…and his designs will
endure forever…

…
Blessed be
he!…and he will not die in the days of Wickedness. Woe to you, O
fool, for your mouth will deceive you by…incurring the death
penalty. Who will write these words of mine in a book that will not
decay, and keep this word of mine in a scroll, which will not fade
away? Behold…and the pleasure of the Wicked will cease
forever…

[4Q534-536]

I couldn’t
believe what I was reading, “he slept until the division of the
days… in the daytime until the completion of years,” I worked
nightshift, “he will reveal Mysteries like the Highest of Angels,”
“the Mysteries of Existence,” “birthmarks on his thigh.” I started
breathing quickly, trying to come to terms with what I was seeing
on the page. I overheard people in a seat near me talking about
something out the window, I looked out of the train to see a huge
rainbow right across the sky! I put my head in my hands, “oh no!” I
thought, “it really is true!” Suddenly I was sucked right back in,
and everything I’d been trying to ignore came flooding back. Here I
was trying to get on with my life and make something of myself, and
God had called me back. That was on the 5th or 6th of November
2003, about 4:15pm on a train going up the Blue Mountains.

In the story
of Noah, the rainbow in the sky is a reminder of God’s promise that
never again will He destroy every living thing as He had done. The
rainbow I saw told me that God has promised not to destroy the
world, that it is my mission to save it, and that I cannot possibly
fail. I will always remember that rainbow, it is the sign of God’s
covenant of peace with the earth, and of God’s promise to myself.
The world, and the human race, shall endure forever.

A lot of
Christians who believe in the end of the world nonsense, they will
try to tell you that the rainbow is a sign that never again will
God destroy the world by a flood, this is just plain
wrong
.
T
he Bible clearly says “never again
will I destroy every living thing as I have done.” In short,
Christian theology about Judgement Day and the rapture and all that
shit just doesn’t match with the lessons of Genesis.

I began to
think about Jesus a lot, “if I’m the Messiah, who’s Jesus?” Work on
my theories of space had slowed a lot, I wasn’t having so many
ideas any more. My theories were nearing completion, so I began to
study the Bible a lot more intensely.

I realised
that if I’m the Messiah, I needed to be able to tell people what to
believe, I needed to somehow “judge the world.” I believed in
Jesus, but I didn’t know that Jesus was for real. The other thing
was that I tried to follow the rules of Christianity, but I wasn’t
very good at it. I just didn’t see why I could and could not do
certain things which to my mind didn’t harm anyone but possibly
myself. “Why would God choose me?” I asked myself. “Why would God
choose a Messiah that couldn’t even be a ‘good Christian’?” I
didn’t really understand it, but by this time I knew that I must be
a pretty smart cookie, so if anyone could figure out who Jesus was,
and what religion or rules to follow, I could.

I knew that
there were prophecies about me, so naturally I thought that the
best place to find out the truth about Jesus would be the prophetic
books, by reading the prophecies about Jesus, so that was where I
started. What I found really amazed me, I read the prophetic books
a lot, but I had never read them with the intention of finding out
who Jesus was, only to get advice or to find out who I was. There
is a very famous passage which all the Christians point to as being
about Jesus, Isaiah 53, ‘The Suffering Servant.’ I noticed
something in that passage which seems to have been overlooked for
the last two thousand years!

Who has
believed our message and to whom has the arm of the LORD been
revealed? He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a
root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us
to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him. He was
despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar
with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was
despised, and we held him in low esteem. Surely he took up our pain
and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our
transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment
that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our
own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all. He
was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was
led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before its
shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. By oppression and
judgment he was taken away. Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living; for the
transgression of my people he was punished. He was assigned a grave
with the wicked, and with the rich in his death, though he had done
no violence, nor was any deceit in his mouth. Yet it was the LORD’s
will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the LORD
makes his life an offering for sin, he will see his offspring and
prolong his days, and the will of the LORD will prosper in his
hand. After he has suffered, he will see the light of life and be
satisfied; by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities. Therefore I will give him a
portion among the great, and he will divide the spoils with the
strong, because he poured out his life unto death, and was numbered
with the transgressors. For he bore the sin of many, and made
intercession for the transgressors.

[Isaiah
53]

This passage
talks about a man being taken away by oppression and judgement, but
then it clearly says “he will see his offspring and prolong his
days, and the will of the LORD will prosper in his hand.” Somehow I
didn’t think that being childless and dying at the age of 32
constitutes seeing your offspring and prolonging your days, the man
in this passage is condemned by many, but he does not die by
execution. “By his knowledge my righteous servant will justify
many,” it was by my knowledge that I could save the human race.
What about the line “he had no beauty or majesty about him”? From
what I’ve always understood about Jesus, he was the most beautiful
man who ever lived, he was the embodiment of God, who they tell us
“is love.”

My next move
was to study the Gospels, I did this by putting all four Gospels up
against each other in columns and then moving each of the stories
from Jesus’ life that are the same events next to each other, so I
could compare the different versions of all the stories properly.
There were a lot of inconsistencies. The birth of Jesus is a great
example. According to Luke, Joseph and Mary went to Bethlehem for
the census and stayed in a stable because there was no room at the
inn, then returned to Nazareth via Jerusalem. According to Matthew,
Joseph and Mary lived in a house in Bethlehem, fled to Egypt to
escape King Herod, then returned to Israel and settled in Nazareth.
The other thing I noticed was that in the book of John there were
no stories about the casting out of demons. This I took to be a
sign that the Gospel of John was the most reliable, since everyone
knows that mental illness is caused by a chemical imbalance in the
brain, not by “demons
.
”
So
I studied the book of
John next.

The book of
John is interesting because a large number of miracles are
unwitnessed, like the fig tree withering overnight, or when Jesus
puts mud in a blind man’s eyes and tells him to wash in a pool some
distance away, or when the man comes to him who has a sick child at
home and Jesus tells him “go, your child will be healed.” Other
miracles can be easily explained away by a sceptical mind, for
example, the witness to the resurrection in John is Mary Magdalene,
a prostitute and the rumoured girlfriend of Jesus, or the
resurrection of Lazarus, a personal friend of Jesus who could quite
easily have just been hiding in a tomb waiting for Jesus to pretend
to resurrect him, or walking on water under the cover of darkness.
It was two thousand years ago, David Copperfield once made the
Statue of Liberty disappear, surely someone as smart as Jesus could
fool a few ancient peasants.

While studying
the Gospels, I also noticed that all of the prophecies quoted in
the Gospels aren’t actual prophecies about Jesus. There are cases
of history being written to fulfil prophecy, like being born in
Bethlehem, and even history being written to fulfil a mistranslated
prophecy, the virgin birth was based on a mistranslated prophecy at
the time which actually read “the young woman will conceive a
child,” rather than “the virgin will conceive a child.” There are
many cases of single lines being taken totally out of context, like
“not one of his bones will be broken,” quoted when Jesus’ legs
aren’t broken after being crucified, this passage actually comes
from a psalm about having divine protection, Jesus may not have had
any broken bones but he did get crucified. Just for the record,
I’ve never broken any bones. There are also cases of
self-fulfilling prophecies, like when Jesus tells his disciples to
fetch him a donkey because there’s a prophecy about it. I learned
that there are actually zero prophecies about Jesus in the Old
Testament, with the possible exception of a few prophecies
portraying Jesus as an antichrist, or a false god.