Authors: Helen Frost
on your hands.
(Oh,
right
, Mom, like I've never stopped a
dog fight by myself.) When Mom finally stops talking
and starts thinking, I know enough to quit arguing.
She looks me up and down like we've just met,
then takes a deep breath.
You really want to
do this, don't you, Willow?
It takes me by
surprise, and I almost say,
Never mind,
Mom, it doesn't matter.
But it does
matter. I swallow hard and nod.
Mom says,
I'll think about it
and decide tomorrow.
What if she says
yes?
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You
would
trust her
to take Roxy
by herself?
Mom
questions Dad. They
don't know I'm listening.
I know my dogs,
Dad answers,
how
they
are with Willow. It's more
that I'd
trust
Roxy to take her. Honey, if
it's up to
me
, I say let's let her do this.
I slip away before they see me.
I'm pretty sure they're
going to say yes.
(Yes!)
I go out
and talk to Roxy
and Cora and Magoo.
I think they're going to let us go
to Grandma and Grandpa's by ourselves!
I get out at noon on Fridayâit's the end of the
quarter. We'll leave by one, and be there before dark.
We'll have almost two days out there, and come home
Sunday afternoon!
Even as
I
let myself say it,
I'm trying not to
hope
too hard.
I know all
I can do
now is
wait.
It
will jinx
it for sure if
I keep on
begging.
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Yes,
I have a
wool sweater
under my jacket.
Extra socks, gloves,
and, yes, I have enough
booties for the dogs. I have
my sleeping bag and a blanket,
in case I get stranded somewhere
(which of course won't happen).
Yes,
I have matches, a headlamp, a hatchet.
Dad keeps adding things to his checklist.
Zanna comes up as close as she dares, keeping
her distance from the dogs, to give me a card she
made for Grandma. It's cute, a picture of an otter
sliding down a riverbank.
Okay
,
Dad says,
it looks
like you're all set. I know you
can
do this. Take it
slow.
He keeps on talking as
I
take my foot off
the brake and let the dogs
go
. He might still
be talking even
now
, yelling out last-
minute warnings:
Don't forget to
call us when you get there!
Watch where the trail â¦
And I can picture Mom,
standing beside Dad,
her arms folded tight,
like she's holding
me, wrapped
up inside
them.
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Fox
tracks,
new snow,
red-streaked sky
and full moon rising.
I know
this
trail, know
where it
gets scary
. I know
where it
sometimes
floods and
freezes over.
And I
know Grandma
and Grandpa will
love it
when they hear
the dogs, knowing that it's me mushing
out to see them. I'm almost there.
Can't be more than half an hour
to go. Down this small
hill, past the burned
stumps. ThereâI
see the light
by their
door.
Helen Frost
is the author of several books for young people, including
Hidden
,
Diamond Willow
,
Crossing Stones
,
The Braid
, and
Keesha's House
, selected an Honor Book for the Michael L. Printz Award. Helen Frost was born in 1949 in South Dakota, the fifth of ten children. She recalls the summer her family moved from South Dakota to Oregon, traveling in a big trailer and camping in places like the Badlands and Yellowstone. Her father told the family stories before they went to sleep, and Helen would dream about their travels, her family, and their old house. “That's how I became a writer,” she says. “I didn't know it at the time, but all those things were accumulating somewhere inside me.” As a child, she loved to travel, think, swim, sing, learn, canoe, write, argue, sew, play the piano, play softball, play with dolls, daydream, read, go fishing, and climb trees. Now, when she sits down to write, her own experiences become the details of her stories. Helen has lived in South Dakota, Oregon, Massachusetts, New York, Vermont, Scotland, Colorado, Alaska, California, and Indiana. She currently lives in Fort Wayne, Indiana, with her family. You can sign up for email updates
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CONTENTS
I Found a Place   Â
(KEESHA)
Some Little Thing   Â
(CARMEN)
I Hate to Be the One   Â
(STEPHIE)
Surprised to Hear Myself   Â
(JASON)
Questions About Joe   Â
(KEESHA)
I Look Around and Wonder   Â
(HARRIS)
On Her Own   Â
(STEPHIE'S MOTHER)
You Dream About a Kid Like This   Â
(COACH HARDEN)
It Would Be Good for Him   Â
(DONTAY'S CASEWORKER)
Lord, Give Me Strength   Â
(CARMEN'S GRANDMOTHER)
Can't Risk Taking Any Action   Â
(ASSISTANT PRINCIPAL)
Not Much I Can Do   Â
(KATIE'S ENGLISH TEACHER)
Across Whatever Secret   Â
(STEPHIE)
Low-key, Keepin' Quiet   Â
(DONTAY)
I Don't Call This Stealing   Â
(HARRIS)
We Pass Each Other   Â
(STEPHIE)
Runnin' Outta Couches   Â
(DONTAY)
Sometimes I Wonder   Â
(CARMEN)
Do Not Leave Children Unattended   Â
(HARRIS)
Same Old Story   Â
(DONTAY'S FATHER)
He's Got a Place   Â
(DONTAY'S FOSTER FATHER)
Who'd Be Hurt? Â Â Â
(JUDGE DAVISON)
She's Doing Okay   Â
(KEESHA'S FATHER)
Where's Harris? Â Â Â
(HARRIS'S MOTHER)
Skating Off Alone   Â
(KATIE'S MOTHER)
Keesha's Brother   Â
(STEPHIE)
Invisible Shield   Â
(JASON)
Ready to Try Again   Â
(DONTAY)
A Long, Hard Talk   Â
(CARMEN)
Light Through the Window   Â
(HARRIS)
Finding Heartbeats   Â
(KATIE)
PART VIII: PAINT AND PAINTBRUSH
The Wide Blue Door   Â
(STEPHIE)
One Step Higher   Â
(CARMEN)
Paint and Paintbrush   Â
(KATIE)
A CONVERSATION WITH HELEN FROST