‘Let’s get Fearne Cotton for the campaign,’ he says. ‘Have you got her agent’s number?’
‘Devron, I think if you mean Fern Britton she actually did Ryvita already …’
He pauses, a chunk of lobster flesh half way to his mouth. ‘Oh. Well you guys can fine-tune the celeb, it was just a thought.’ He reaches for the plate of belly ribs and grabs one in his fist. ‘Well? What do you think?’
I think if you’re going to have a pizza, have a pizza. Do things properly or don’t bother.
‘How do they cut the calories so significantly?’ I say.
‘Sell punters half a pizza, ha ha ha!’ says Devron.
‘Seriously, how?’
‘Something to do with fat sprays, flavour substitutes … ask Jeff the recipe guy.’
‘What’s the name of the range?’
‘Legal are checking trademarks, I’ll confirm end of next week, but it’s a goody,’ he says, waggling a rib in the air like it’s a sixth finger, Anne Boleyn but with pork.
‘Have you researched it?’ I say.
‘No need, I feel it in my gut. Head, heart, guts.’ This is one of Devron’s favourite phrases. It’s the title of some management book he’s obsessed with and every time he wants to justify anything moronic he reels it out. His other favourite phrase is
JFDI
. Which is like the Nike slogan,
Just Do It
, but with added swearing.
I smile weakly as the waiter clears our plates.
‘Can I see the wine list?’ Devron says to the waiter, though there’s practically a full bottle on the table.
‘Don’t you like the Bordeaux?’ I say.
‘I just want to look at the list. Do me a favour? Go call Tom, fix up a meeting for Friday with him and Jeff to talk you through the range.’
‘Shall I do it after lunch? Our main courses will be here any minute.’
‘JFDI.’
There’s no reception down here so I pop upstairs and out onto the street. Opposite the restaurant is a dance studio and I pause to watch a class of ballerinas stand at the barre warming up. Beautiful. Their bodies are not like normal people’s bodies. They move so fluidly, it’s impossible to imagine them doing anything other than dancing. I wish I had an innate talent, other than the ability to eat a little bit too much.
I take my phone out to call Tom
,
Devron’s underling, and find a text from Rebecca: ‘I think the guys paid last night?’ Great. That’s exactly what
won’t
have happened. I’ve got away with it now, but still … I phone Tom and leave a message, then go back to join Devron and discover the real reason he sent me upstairs. There is now a second bottle of the same Bordeaux open on the table next to the first which is barely touched. I am witnessing a master at work. I’d forgotten that I have to watch Devron like a paranoid hawk at all times. Yet this is a new low – an act of such shameless greed that I almost have to take my hat off to him. Except he’d probably nick my hat and sell it on eBay while I was blinking.
‘Ah look, the mains,’ he says, nodding at two waiters en route with large trays.
The waiter puts my burger down in front of me. I immediately put my master plan into action: grab the burger and hold on for dear life. If Devron wants any he’ll have to fight me for it. For once he is not going to ruin my lunch. Devron looks at the burger. He looks at me. His brain goes into overdrive. Even though it’s dark in here, I swear I can see his pupils dilate. Hell, I can actually see the cogs inside his brain start to rotate. My grip on the burger tightens.
In my years at NMN I’ve learnt a smidgen about Greek mythology; board members often quote the Greeks as a way of making themselves look like intellectuals rather than men who spend all day fantasising about shagging the grads. One thing that comes to me, as my fingers sink into the bun and I struggle to contain the meat, lettuce and tomato inside, is the concept of the Pyrrhic victory. Named after a king who won a battle but lost a war, it loosely equates to a tiny gain offset by a gigantic loss. For, after two delicious bites, my over-tight grip causes the beef to slide from my bun, and Devron, quicker than a Venus flytrap, reaches out, stabs the beef and drags it across the table to his own plate. Game over, and he didn’t even blink.
‘So, Devron …’ I say, wondering how it’s possible that I’ll be paying two hundred pounds for this meal and I’ll still need to pop to M&S for a sandwich on my way back to the office, ‘this brief. Is the airtime still planned for the start of May?’ He nods.
‘OK: I’ll brief a creative team next week,’ I say. ‘That’ll mean shooting the ad after Easter and, and … and …’
‘And what?’
And the barman from last night’s just walked in.
‘And … yes …’ There he is, talking to my waiter, and now he’s turning and shit, yes, he’s looking this way. ‘And … yes … good, yes, Easter.’ Shit. ‘Easter.’
‘Yeah, shoot after Easter,’ says Devron. ‘Blah … blah … blah … timing plan,’ he carries on.
Oh God. The barman is totally staring at me, and now smiling. No, that’s not a smile, that’s a grin! He is
grinning
in a way that does not bode well.
‘Blah … blah … blue sky thinking … blah … blah … Nike ad …’ says Devron.
‘Absolutely, Devron,’ I say, nodding. Oh no! Now the barman’s scribbling something down … the bill!
‘Blah … blah … super-tight deadlines … share the process early …’
‘Yes, of course …’ I nod. Oh good grief no! He’s coming over. Get back behind the bar, this is not on!
He’s half way across the floor heading towards us. I’ve got to move. Right now.
‘Blah … blah … three weeks on Friday, yes?’ says Devron.
‘Sure, yes, whatever you want, back in a sec,’ I say, darting out from behind the table and heading speedily towards the toilets, head down.
Christ. Lucky escape. How long can I hide in here for? Too little time and the barman will still be lurking. Two and a half minutes? La-di-dah … Quick make-up check … Oooh, nice wall tiles in here, didn’t notice those last night. White rectangular subway tiles, very classic … Right, I think that’s about time.
I pull the bathroom door open to find the barman standing waiting for me, arms folded. He really is embarrassingly good looking: thick black hair and green eyes, with thick lashes. And that body! His black t-shirt stops at the perfect mid point of his arm, showing off perfect, not too large, but very defined, tanned biceps.
‘You again! I couldn’t believe it when I saw you in here!’ he says. Ditto.
‘Well … Sorry,’ I say, ‘but I have to get back to my table …’
‘Hang on a minute,’ he says. ‘I’m glad you’re here, there’s something I didn’t manage to give you guys last night, you ran out before I could get over to you!’
Hurry up and get this over with then.
‘Yep, sorry about that … just give it to me, I’ll sort it,’ I say, holding out my palm and turning slightly away so that Devron can’t see what’s going on.
‘Cool! I didn’t want to hand it over at the table, I thought it might not be appropriate,’ he says, handing me a little green paper umbrella. Ah, nice touch. Giving me the bill inside the umbrella, that’s a classy move. I look over to see if Devron’s watching but he’s otherwise occupied, knuckle-deep in my sundae.
‘Aren’t you going to open it?’ he says.
‘Bad luck opening an umbrella indoors,’ I say.
He smiles. ‘Go on, before you go back.’
I quickly open the little parasol, and sure enough, there’s a figure written down inside. Except there’s no pound sign. And no decimal point. And while the drinks here are expensive, they’re not
that
expensive. This number’s eleven digits long.
His phone number. Oh my goodness. This super-hot young barman is giving me his phone number. The game is not over yet! – I have
still
got it going on! I must stop being so hard on myself. Evidently I don’t look bedraggled at all. I look good. Better than good: Very Good. Sexxy. Hot enough to attract this chisel-jawed guy who looks quite like David Gandy. I don’t think anyone this handsome has chatted me up for years. Maybe I’m entering a pre-Mrs-Robinson stage of allure? A little firework of delight goes off inside me. I try not to show a reaction but I’m already grinning like an imbecile.
‘What’s her name?’ he says.
‘Susie,’ I say. ‘It’s Susie.’ Hang on.
Her
name? What? Whose name?
Oh no.
‘Susie.’ He says it like a handshake. ‘Sorry if I was staring at you girls last night, I just think your mate’s properly beautiful. If it isn’t too cheesy, would you ask her to call me?’
I nod silently, trying to keep my smile up.
‘I’m Luke by the way. What’s your name?’
I feel a substantial part of my self curl up into a ball and start to howl, though I stay standing, one arm resting on the door frame, pretending not to be acutely embarrassed.
‘I’m also Susie actually.’ I say, realising that I’m about to pay the bill with my credit card, which clearly says Susie Rosen on it. ‘We’re both Susies.’
‘That’s funny,’ he says.
‘Isn’t it just,’ I say. ‘Ha! We’re like the Two Ronnies … you know, well actually she’s more a Sue-becka. Some people even call her … Becka … Subecka … her middle name’s Becka, that’s why … just to tell us apart …’
‘Subecka! Sounds Japanese! Well anyway, say hi from me.’
‘Will do, got to go!’ I say, heading back to Devron, who is arranging with the waiter for his two bottles of wine to be re-corked and put in a bag for him.
‘Bit young for you, wasn’t he?’ says Devron, as I sit back down. ‘It’s good ice cream, have some,’ he says, poking his spoon at my sundae glass.
‘I’m stuffed,’ I say.
‘Right: see Tom and Jeff end of the week and get scripts to me three weeks on Friday.’
‘That soon, Devron?’
I’m pretty sure the Amish can erect a wooden house in twenty-four hours. Apparently God created the Universe in seven days. But it takes our creative teams one month to write a few piddly scripts.
‘That timing’s too tight, Devron.’
‘You said it was OK a minute ago!’
I have zero recollection of agreeing to anything of the sort. And if I did it was only because I wasn’t listening to a word he was saying … OK, let me think: if I brief a team early next week I might manage it, if Robbie gives me one of the more amenable, mature creative teams. Maybe lovely old Andy Ashford.
‘Theoretically it’s possible …’ I say.
‘We’re good, right?’ he nods.
‘It does depend on the team’s availability and workload, I’ll do everything I can …’
‘You’re late on this project already.’
‘To be fair we haven’t had your brief yet. And we haven’t got a name for the range. And we haven’t seen the products either.’ So technically, Devron, I should be the one sitting across the table giving you a menacing look, not the other way round …
‘So that’s a yes then,’ he says nodding again. (Last year Devron spent a week on a ‘How to Influence People’ course. He spent five days glued to YouTube videos of Tony Blair and Obama. Now whenever he wants something unreasonable he nods like a plastic dog in a car. Horrifically, this technique seems to work.)
I nod back at him. ‘Yes, Devron,’ I say, ‘yes, that’s totally fine.’
I have a nasty feeling in my head, heart and guts, that I shouldn’t have just said that.
The first thing I do when I’m back at my desk is fill out my expenses – two hundred and forty quid with that second bottle of wine! Just once before I quit I’d like to do what Steve Pearson, Board Director on pessaries, does regularly: take the person I’m having an affair with out for lunch and bill it as a client lunch. (Sam – premier source of intel, as per usual.) I’d never actually fake my expenses; more to the point, there’s no one here I’d have an affair with. What am I even talking about? I would never have an affair
full stop
. Why can’t anybody ever leave anybody without another body to go to?
I wander down to the mail room to see if Sam’s around. I fancy a coffee and a gossip but he’s nowhere to be found. He’s probably in the pub with Jinesh from IT, swotting up on some dodgy new computer software that can read your emails from outer space.
Finally (and this should have been first, but I’ve put it off because it’s the least fun) I take the lift up to the creative floor to visit Robbie Doggett’s secretary, Alexis. It’s impossible for me not to associate anyone called Alexis with Alexis Colby Carrington from
Dynasty
. So even if this Alexis wasn’t already a cold, manipulative bitch, I’d probably project that onto her anyway. She’s lying on the leather sofa outside Robbie’s office, wearing sequinned hot pants and her favourite Patti Smith t-shirt. Sam’s the only man in the building who doesn’t think she’s the most beautiful woman in W1. As a consequence she hates him. She hates him even more since last year’s Christmas party when he asked her – in front of her new pop star boyfriend – to name a single Patti Smith song.
She’s deep in concentration, studying
Grazia
.
‘Alexis. Have you got a sec?’
She puts her magazine down on the floor and checks out my outfit. Her gaze lingers briefly on my belt, then moves swiftly back to the mag. ‘Hi babe,’ she says wearily.
‘Can you please ask Robbie to allocate me a team for the Fletchers brief asap?’
‘Babe, he’s shooting in New York, not back for a week.’
‘Yes. I know.’ And as far as I’m aware they do have telephones and the internet in America. It might just be a rumour but I’m pretty sure it’s true. ‘He knows the brief’s urgent.’
‘He didn’t mention it to me,’ she says, flicking over the page. She pulls her head back as if she’s seen a burns victim. ‘Look at this cellulite!’ she says, her fingers tracing the thighs of some poor A-lister as if the paper were her own skin.
‘And tell him Devron wants scripts three weeks on Friday.’
‘You’ll
never
get that,’ she says.
‘I’ll call him myself and explain?’
‘Babe, you know that I’m The Gatekeeper. Leave it with me.’ End of conversation.
It’s pitch black outside by the time I finish, and a particularly cold March evening with no sign of spring in sight. All I want to do is head home and have a large glass of wine and a curry, but I’m trying not to drink every night. Plus I can’t justify splashing out on a mid-week take-away when I’m meant to be saving for my eventual escape.