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Authors: Alyssa Rose Ivy

Tags: #The Allure Chronicles, #Book 2

about getting felt up by Shaun. “I

got bored and was wandering

around in the French Quarter and

found a Voodoo shop.”

“You simply happened upon it?”

The man asked.

“No. A photographer

recommended I check it out.”

“Who was the photographer?”

“Harold something. He had a

shop on Royal Street, but he’s not

there anymore. I met his son

though.”

“Based on the suggestion of a

complete stranger you walked into

a Voodoo shop.” The elder didn’t

hide his disbelief.

“It was a tourist trap kind of

place. It’s not like I went to a

witch’s house or anything.”

“Continue.” He waved me on.

“The witch said she had just the

thing for me, and she put the paste

on my forehead. She called it

Seduction’s Kiss.”

“Again, you allowed a woman

you didn’t know to put a paste on

you?” Instead of disbelief, his

expression had become one of

disapproval.

“I was young and stupid. Is that

what you want to hear?”

“No. I don’t want to hear

anything but the true story.”

“Yes, I allowed it. I thought it

was just a touristy thing.”

“What happened next?”

“I went out on Halloween night

with a guy who turned out to be a

vampire stripper.”

The elder raised an eyebrow. “A

vampire stripper?”

Arabella laughed, and the man

gave her a stern glare.

“I apologize, Abe.” She bowed

her head. Evidently he was the

leader.

“Yes. And he introduced me to

more vampires, and I ended up

being dragged back to their nest in

a body bag. As did my friends.”

“And what did they do to you at

their nest?” Arabella appeared more

interested now. I guess I was

entertaining her.

“The leader tried to drain me,

but I was saved by a Pteron.” I

smiled thinking of Owen.

“A Pteron happened to find

you?” Abe raised an eyebrow.

“It turns out he’d noticed me

previously, although he hadn’t

shown it.”

“So you’d met the Pteron

before?” Arabella asked.

“Unofficially.” I started to sweat.

I felt like I was standing under hot

lights.

“Why didn’t you tell us?” Abe

questioned. “I told you we needed

the full story.”

“I didn’t think that mattered.”

“The whole truth means the

whole truth, not the things you

think are important.” Abe leaned

back in his chair.

“Well, then I was also felt up by

the roommate of my friend’s ex. Is

that important?”

He nodded. “Maybe to your

state of mind.”

“I don’t want to be this.” I

gestured to myself. “I want to be

human. I want to go back to my

normal life.” I’d had enough of the

interrogation. I needed to know if I

had a chance of convincing them to

help.

“But with Owen.” Roland

grunted.

“Who’s Owen?” Arabella asked.

“Her Pteron savior. Whom she

professes to love.” Roland’s voice

dripped with sarcasm.

“Something else she failed to

mention.” Arabella tapped her nails

on her armrest.

“I hadn’t gotten that far.”

“You had. You were telling us

you wanted to go back to your

normal life.”

“Why don’t you want the gift?”

Another male elder addressed me.

“Doesn’t immortality and power

appeal to you?”

I shook my head. “Love and

happiness appeal more.”

“Love of this Pteron?” Abe

questioned.

“Yes, and my family.”

“But does this Pteron even love

you?” Arabella asked with a hint of

a smile. “Maybe he finds you

amusing, a fun distraction. Is he

worthy of your love?”

“Yes.” I didn’t hesitate. I knew

his feelings were genuine, and he

was definitely worthy. “He loves

me, and I love him.”

“How do you know he loves

you?” Arabella leaned forward.

“Because he’s waiting for me in

the valley. He came all the way

here for me.”

“Are you sure? Maybe he had

other reasons to desire entry to our

home.” Arabella caught Abe’s eye.

“He didn’t. I’m tired of people

trying to convince me of everyone

else’s ulterior motives. Some people

actually do things because they

care.”

“Like Violet?” Roland turned to

me. “You still think that’s why she’s

here?”

“That doesn’t really matter.

She’s here. She brought me here. In

the end that’s what matters.”

“Is it?” Roland’s eyes were cold

as he leaned in close to whisper in

my ear. “What if the Elders won’t

help you because of her?”’

I let out a deep breath. I could

handle this. “The Elders’ decision to

help me or not will have little to do

with Violet.”

“Correct. You do have intelligent

things to say when you stop asking

questions.” Arabella beamed at me.

I jumped at the opening. “Can

you stop the change? Can you make

me human again?”

“They won’t destroy the

essence. They can’t.” Roland turned

his back to me.

“You are both right.” Abe caught

my eye. “We can stop the change,

but we must not destroy the

essence.”

“Then what will you do?” Violet

asked calmly.

“That depends.” Abe kept his

eyes on mine.

“Depends?”

“On how much Daisy and what

was the Pteron’s name?” He waved

his hand again.

“Owen,” I quickly supplied.

“Owen. On how much Daisy and

Owen value their love.”

“What do you mean?” I asked

nervously.

“I don’t remember my human

life well, but I remember love.” Abe

leaned back and broke eye contact.

“I will know the real thing when I

see it.”

“It’s real.” I stepped toward the

elders. “It’s completely real.”

“I’m sure you think so, but I’ll

have to see you together.”

“I’ll get him.” Violet nodded.

“Wait, you’re leaving already?” I

wanted her to get Owen for me, but

I felt nervous about being left

alone.

“I’m here.” Roland smirked.

“Why would it matter if she left?”

“Because you don’t want me to

stop the change. You aren’t on my

side.” I stomped my foot.

“I’m always on your side.” His

expression didn’t change.

“I won’t be long, if permission to

bring the Pteron is granted.” Violet

bowed slightly.

“Permission granted.” Abe

nodded. “But use haste.”

“I will.” Violet hurried out of the

room.

“I would like to talk to the girl

alone.” Arabella stood up. “Come

with me.”

“Now?” I’d been hoping to wait

for Owen. I couldn’t wait to see him

and prove we were truly in love.

They’d have to see it. It was so

strong anyone would be able to.

“Yes, what other time would I

mean? You really should stop

asking questions.” She flipped her

long blond hair off her shoulder.

“Okay.”

I followed the tall woman, she

was well over six-feet, away from

the chairs. She walked outside into

a courtyard area.

“Have you thought things out?

Are you sure you know what you’re

doing?” She stopped in front of a

stone fountain situated between

two Japanese maple trees.

“I don’t want to change.”

“But why? And do you

understand what you’ll be giving

up?” She sat on the edge of the

fountain. “Although you did not

initially consent to become an

Allure, you should be fully informed

before you decide to forgo your

gift.”

“No offense, but being an Allure

doesn’t excite me as much as it

seems to excite everyone else.”

“Sit,” she ordered.

“Ok.” I sat down next to her,

leaving plenty of space.

She nodded in approval. “Has

anyone explained the power?’

“The manipulation?” It wasn’t a

good ability to have. “Yes.”

“There’s more than that. So

much more than that. So many

secrets left to share with you.” Her

eyes twinkled.

“I don’t want to know the

secrets.”

“Yes you do.” She leaned toward

me. “I can tell. It’s in your eyes, in

the way you hold yourself. You’re

desperate to know more, to fully

change, but you’re scared.”

I shook my head. “I’m not giving

up my humanity.”

“Why? Because of a Pteron who

will forget you? For your family

you’ve barely mentioned? What

reasons?” She crossed her legs.

“For those and more. I have my

whole life left to live.” I stood up.

“My whole life.”

“And being an Allure will be

more than a life. It will be an

eternity. You can live any life you

want over and over,” she jumped to

her feet.

“It doesn’t count if I’m not

human. It doesn’t count at all.”

Nothing she could tell me would

change my mind.

“Why not? What is it about

being human that makes it

different?” She leaned back on her

hands.

“Everything.”

“Like?” She twirled hair around

her perfectly manicured finger.

“Being able to feel. What’s the

point of experiencing anything if

you can’t feel it?” I’d never thought

about the importance of emotion

before I started to change, but now

it was everything. I realized I would

be nothing but a shell of myself

without it. No one would be.

“You can still feel things. You

can still feel the adrenaline rush

when you jump out of a plane. You

can still feel the heat of the sun

when you lie on the beach. You can

smell the intoxicating scents of

exotic cuisines. You can feel the

wind, hear the birds.” She stood

and twirled around like a child.

“But that isn’t emotion. That’s

not what I mean.”

“The surge from manipulating

replaces your need for emotions. I

promise. Who needs their own joy,

when you can use it?” She smiled

broadly. “It’s better that way. You

can choose what emotions you

touch and experience. The power

and control is in your hands.”

“It matters to me. I want to feel

joy and love. I even want to feel

pain if it’s for the right reasons.

That’s what being human means,

and that’s who I am.”

She shifted her weight from one

high heeled clad foot to the other.

“Sex is still sex when it’s with your

maker, or the one you make.” She

ran her teeth over her lip. “In case

that’s what’s holding you back.”

Had she been listening to a

word I said? Did she really think it

was all about sex? Even if it was,

which it wasn’t, she was wrong.

“Physically, but not emotionally.”

“With your maker it’s emotional.

It’s one of the few exceptions.”

“I don’t have a maker.” And

everyone knew it. That’s what

made my situation so strange and

made me wonder if they really

would ever welcome me into the

fold as an Allure.

“Not technically, but you share

the bond with Roland. It will work

the same way.” She stepped toward

me. “He knows it. Why do you think

he’s being so pushy?”

“That has nothing to do with it,

and either way, I don’t want to

have sex or be with anyone but

Owen.”

“Why?” She seemed genuinely

curious.

“Because I love him.”

“Why? And is that love truly

stronger than your desire for

immortality?” She sat back down in

the same spot she’d been in. I

hoped she didn’t ask me to sit,

because I couldn’t. I had too many

nerves coursing through me to sit

down.

“Yes. I have no desire to live

forever. None.”

“Everyone does to some

degree.”

“I don’t. I don’t want to die now.

I want to live a long life and grow

old. With Owen. I want to have

children and grandchildren and

watch them grow older.” Having

kids wasn’t something I planned to

do soon, but it was still something I

wanted someday.

“Why?” She leaned in. “Do you

say that because it’s what you think

you’re supposed to say?”

“No, it’s what I know. What I

feel.”

“But your feelings are just that.

Feelings. They are fleeting and

easily changed.” She glanced

behind her into the pool of the

fountain. She smiled, and I realized

she was checking her reflection.

“I don’t want to live forever, and

I don’t want to live if I can’t feel.”

She turned back around. “You’re

going to change your mind.”

“I’m not.” I crossed my arms.

The action reminded me I was

standing in a simple white robe.

Why was I wearing this while

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