Authors: Sydney Bauer
And David saw the irony in her words â âkids', âsodas' â mere days before she was trying them for murder as adults in an adult court.
âHow are they doing?' he asked.
âPretty good under the circumstances,' she said, before adding, âDavid, I am so sorry. It's just that the evidence pointed directly at the boy and . . .'
âIt's okay.'
âNo, no it's not. I should have listened to you, I should have listened to
myself
when my instincts told me Jeffrey Logan was . . .'
âLogan fooled a lot of people, Amanda.'
âMaybe so, but in my case I think I let it happen â for selfish reasons. Do you understand?'
âI understand you are doing the right thing by the kids by helping their grandmother,' he said.
Amanda smiled. âThanks.'
âHow's Sara?' she asked after a pause.
âAs of ten minutes ago she was still resting.' Moments after leaving the ME's office, David had called Lisa to check on Sara's status and his sister assured him she was still sound asleep. âThey call it a false labour. The pains stopped late last night and the baby seems to be doing fine so . . . all they recommend now is for her to rest and me to wait.'
âNot something you're good at.' She smiled.
âNever been my strong point.'
She smiled again. âI have arranged for the children to go into foster care
until their grandmother's situation is sorted out. With any luck she'll be free to take them before the week is out.'
âSo maybe things have a way of working out after all,' he said, before they drifted into silence once again.
And then Amanda lifted her eyes, her bright blue orbs meeting his pale green ones. âListen, David, I . . .'
âIt's okay,' he interrupted, knowing exactly what she was going to say. âI think we were both scared of what we had gotten ourselves into, and the consequences it had for us, and the people that we loved.'
She nodded once again, perhaps deciding there was no more to be said. âSo we're good then?'
âWe're good.' He smiled, before standing to take her hand. âThank you,' he said.
âWhat for?' she asked.
âFor doing your job.'
âI went about it the long way, David.'
âThat's okay â you got there in the end.'
J.T. Logan ran to him the minute he walked in the door â his long skinny arms reaching around David's middle, his face now buried in his chest. David held him tight, before looking up at his sister â her wavy hair free, her blue eyes moist, her face the spitting image of her mother's â and lifting his arm so that she might join them in their huddle, which she did, placing one arm around David, and other across her brother's shoulders.
Moments later they sat down at the conference table, David on one side, the kids on the other. David took a breath before saying what he needed to say.
âWhen were you going to tell me?' he asked, Chelsea lifting her head sharply in response, J.T.'s deep brown eyes darting between Chelsea and David and back once again.
âTell you what?' Chelsea asked.
David said nothing, merely pulled the New England Organ Bank report from his inside jacket pocket and placed it on the table in front of him.
âWhat's that?' she asked.
âIt's an organ and body tissue transplantation and research report. The NEOB issues one for every donor and sends it to the ME's Office as part of
their obligatory paperwork. This one lists the organs and tissue that were taken from your mom â her brain, liver, her spleen, her kidneys, sections of her lower intestine and so forth â and explains what happened to them post-removal.'
The kids said nothing.
âThe Center for Liver Research and Diagnostics who were given your mom's liver rejected it for any productive research outright given it was in the final stages of cancer â a secondary cancer which, according to the report, had most likely started in her bowel.'
âI . . . ah . . .' began Chelsea.
âI know she was dying, Chelsea,' he said, wanting her to know that there was no point in denying it. âSo now you need to tell me what happened, starting with . . . how long did she have?'
âShe . . . two weeks, maybe a month,' Chelsea offered, this time without hesitation. âShe didn't find out until the cancer was well advanced.' She took a breath. âThe doctors said chemotherapy would most likely be a waste of time so she made the choice to set things straight so that we would be okay after she was no longer around to look after us.'
âSo it was her idea,' said David. âAll of it.'
âNo,' said J.T. âIt was Father's idea. It had
always
been Father's idea. It's just that Mom came up with the plan to beat him to it.'
âYour father did not know that your mother was dying?'
âNo,' said Chelsea.
âSo you told your mother of your father's plans and she took control of her own murder so that she might liberate you two from him.'
âYes.'
âShe committed suicide.'
âYes.'
âWith your help.'
â
Yes
,' said Chelsea. âAnd despite how it all went down, we have no regrets,' she said, gripping her brother's hand on top of the table. âShe said it was the last thing she would ask of us and, given all that she had sacrificed on our behalf, it was the very least we could do.'
And then Chelsea Logan took another long, deep breath before starting, once again, at the beginning.
*
âHe's here,' said Chelsea, after seeing her father's car turn into their narrow Beacon Hill street. She had been standing at the window for the past half hour; her father was running late
.
Chelsea met her mother in the hallway, and Stephanie felt the nausea boil in her stomach as she took her daughter's hand
.
âAll right,' she said, praying that she would have the courage to see this through. âWe don't have much time so you must do exactly as we discussed.' She turned towards her son, crouching so that she might meet his eye
.
âJ.T., as soon as it is done you must remove the evidence and put it in the laundry and down the toilet like we discussed.' They had gone over the details a million times, but for some reason, she felt the need to voice them one more time. âThen you have to come back here and wait in the hallway so you can play out the rest as part of your father's plan. This will not work unless you stick to his strategy, do you understand?'
But J.T. was sobbing, unable to respond
.
âPlease, my love,' she said, her own tears now streaming down her face. âThis is the only way. I love you both so much.' She grabbed for Chelsea's hand once again. âI will always be here,' she said, her other hand now flat against her little boy's chest. âIn your heart, and he will be gone and you and your sister will be free and I will live on in you and your grandchildren and their grandchildren and . . .'
But then they heard the grinding of the automatic garage door, and she held them quickly and kissed them both before moving into the kitchen
.
The rifle had been set up over an hour before. The heavy red oak hat stand had been placed at the end of the table, her husband's long-sleeved T-shirt then stretched and pulled over the top. She had slotted the rifle through the right T-shirt arm, before tying it to the hat stand with the strongest string she could find â an extra length of twine looped around the trigger and draped lengthways, across the table, waiting for her to take her seat
.
âQuickly now,' she told herself. âThere is no time, you have to move.'
She checked on her props â the wine and the
Vanity Fair,
now placed equidistant on the table before her â and then she reached forward to grab the string so that she might pull, tightly, and force the trigger into compression
.
She took a breath, and then another, counting them down until she had the courage to choose the one that would be her last. Then she closed her eyes
and said a prayer for her children, and a final one for herself, before grasping the string and
. . .
Snap!!!!
Nothing
.
The string broke! The STRING BROKE, and she had no choice but to call for her children
.
âGod, no,' she said, pushing back her chair and rising from the table and rushing into the hallway once again. âJ.T.,' she said, sadly, simply, because he was the closest to the kitchen door. âQuickly. Chelsea,' she yelled towards the top of the stairs, âstay exactly where you are.'
She grabbed J.T.'s hand and pulled him into the kitchen before getting on her knees and placing her hands on his cheeks and clasping them, hard â willing him to focus, forcing him to listen to what she had to say
.
âJ.T.,' she began. âThere is no time. Your father will walk into this house at any minute. The string has broken. You need to get behind that hat stand and underneath that T-shirt. You need to place your finger on that trigger and you need to squeeze.'
âNO!' he yelled
.
âYES! There is no other way.' She was sobbing. âPlease J.T. Do this for me. I cannot die knowing you are left with him. Please, my son. Please give me this gift. Allow me to end this the way I want to. Let me die so that you can live the way you and your sister deserve. I beg you, my love. Please, DO THIS FOR ME SO THAT I CAN DO IT FOR YOU.'
J.T. nodded, ever so slightly, as his mother pressed her lips firmly on his forehead and whispered, âMake sure you close your eyes. I love you,' then moved back to the chair for the very last time
.
And then a shaking J.T. manoeuvred himself underneath his father's T-shirt, and slotted his long skinny arm through the now tight right-arm hole. He placed his finger on the trigger, closed his eyes, and then he yelled, âI LOVE YOU, MOM,' and then . . . and then . . . he fired
.
âSo you pulled that trigger?' asked David.
âYes.'
âAnd flushed the string?'
âYes.'
âAnd removed the T-shirt so you could take it to the laundry and
make out that . . . that your father killed her and was trying to hide the evidence.'
âWe used the toilet off the kitchen to flush the string,' said Chelsea. âBut we had to go down the hallway to reach the laundry, and by that stage Father had heard the shot and was already well inside the garage. So . . .'
âHe met you in the hallway on the way to the laundry,' continued David. âYou lost time, after the string broke, which ruined your entire plan.'
âYes.' Chelsea nodded. âAnd the funny thing was, Father knew exactly what we had been up to. He didn't even need to go into the kitchen. He just took control. He told J.T. that unless he put on the T-shirt he would kill me. He wrapped his handkerchief around the rifle and held it to my head â and then he called 911.'
âAnd all this explains why your father's ears were intact and why yours, J.T., were not,' he said, looking at the boy. âAnd why, given the gun was resting on the T-shirt that was still draped over the hat stand when it exploded, you had no recoil burns on your shoulder and . . .'
âEverything else was as we told you,' said Chelsea, as if imploring him to understand. âDon't you see, David, my father's way . . . that is the way it
would
have been if we had not intervened. Father changed Mom's insurance, he drilled us on how it would all go down. It was just that in the end, Mom wanted it to happen on
her
terms â so that we would be free.'
âIt was a stupid idea,' David said, the fruitlessness of it all adding to his frustration. âStephanie â she knew better, she should have come to me, she should have asked for my help.'
âBut she
did
ask,' said Chelsea. âShe just waited until she was dead, for if she had approached you while she was still alive, my father might have found out . . . and then, she knew, it was me or J.T. who would have suffered.'
And then a memory came back to him â a conversation he had had with Joe Mannix many weeks ago. Joe had asked why a smart woman like Stephanie did not run â why, if she knew her husband was planning to kill her, she did nothing but sit there and wait for her moment to die.
But now David understood exactly why Stephanie had made that decision. It was not because Logan had sucked the life out of her, the cancer was doing that. On the contrary, if anything, it told him that Stephanie remained the fighter she always was. Logan simply fuelled her
determination to use her own death for his demise â so that, in a manner of speaking, she could take him down with her, effectively setting her children free.
âAnd then your father confessed,' said David.
âYes.'
âAnd everything . . .'
â. . . everything went wrong,' said J.T.
âUntil now,' said Chelsea.
And then there was silence once again.
âYou should have told me earlier,' said David.
âWe tried to â at least, I tried to tell Sara.'
David recalled Sara's report of Chelsea's odd behaviour in their very first meeting together â her fixation with the hat stand and the concept of âreaching' across the table.
âBut I knew Father was listening so there was little that I could do. J.T. and I . . .' she paused â. . . we decided it was safest to stick to Mom's story. And then I was arrested and realised that nobody would believe us in any case. So we kept our mouths shut until we had the chance to meet with you together. And then . . . then I guess we left out some of the details, so that we could point the finger at my father, exactly where it belonged.'
David could think of nothing more to say.