“I love you too, baby. I love you so much. I'm sorry for what I did to you.”
“I'm sorry for hurting you too. Come home. Please come home. I . . . We need you.”
“I need you too,” I said.
Scorpio sat up. When I looked at her, I'll be damned if it wasn't Nokea. She smiled at me and wiped the tears from her eyes.
In a sweat, I quickly sat up and rubbed my eyes. When I opened them, I was sitting in the tub filled with cold water. The music was still playing and the TV was still on. I looked around and there was no Scorpio or Nokea in sight. What a fucked up dream was all I could think. My dick was hard as ever, but I had a solution for that little problem.
Chilly, I got out of the water and dried myself. I wrapped the towel around my waist and went into the main room by the windows. I looked at the area rug, thinking about my dream. I smiled, pushing the button to close the glass windows. Afterward, I poured myself a shot of Remy. Once that was gone, I poured another one. I gulped it down, put on my jeans and reached for my keys on the table. Before leaving, I downed another shot of Remy for the road.
I was buzzed, weaving in and out of traffic at one o'clock in the morning. There weren't too many cars on the road, but there were enough. Either way, I managed to make my way home and quietly crept into the house. When I went to Jaylene's room, she wasn't there. I checked Nanny B's room that was on a different level and Jaylene was in bed with her. I didn't want to wake them, so I made my way to LJ's room. He was sound asleep. I leaned down and gave him a kiss on his cheek. I rubbed his soft hair like mine and stood for a minute thinking about him. The room slightly spun, so I closed my eyes and rubbed them with the tips of my fingers. Once I cleared my thoughts, I left LJ's room and went to my bedroom. Shirtless and only in my jeans, I stood beside my bed, looking at Nokea. It was good to know that one of us was resting well. Her light snores said that she had no problem sleeping. I searched her body with my eyes. She wore a cream silk nightgown with very thin straps. The lace parts of it covered her breasts and the gown's length was right at her thighs. I stared at her for a few more minutes, and then unhooked the belt on my jeans. They fell to my ankles and I stepped out of them. I then leaned over Nokea, removing her straps from her shoulder and lightly pecking it with my lips. I eased over the lace part of her gown, exposing her right breast. How beautiful it was, and it invited me to it. A few times, I plucked her nipple with my mouth, then twirled my soaking wet tongue around it. When I felt Nokea move I got on the bed and lay on top of her. She was startled and lifted my face to make sure it was me.
“Jaylin,” she said in a sleepy voice. “What are you doing?”
“What does it look like I'm doing?” I continued to suck her right breast and made my way to the other one. When I massaged them together with my hands, Nokea put an arch in her back, moaning for more pleasure. She wasted no time reaching for my dick to put it in her. Her insides were a slippery slope, and giving it to me just how I liked it, Nokea wrapped her legs around my back. Her pussy was delivering a clear message that it missed me and wanted me to come home soon. I, however, barely moved, and when she grabbed my face to kiss me, I avoided her kiss, but continued to give her breasts the attention. Still, there was so much going on inside of me and my stomach was turning in knots. She couldn't see my face, but I was full of emotions. Physically I was there, but mentally, my mind was fucked up. I removed Nokea's legs from around me and placed them high on my shoulders. I plunged deep into her, slamming myself against her as if I were hammering a piece of meat. She tried to lower her legs, but I had a tight grip on them.
“Jaylin,” she said while taking strained breaths. “That . . . It hurts my stomach. And your grip . . . it's too tight.”
I pretty much ignored Nokea. I loosened my grip, but not by much. I continued at my pace, and when she tried to kiss me again, I wouldn't let her. She stopped the motion and pushed her hands against my chest.
“Put my legs down, now,” she demanded.
“I'm not finished yet.”
“Oh, yes you are,” she said. “Now, get up.”
I was in the midst of coming and wasn't about to pull out. Nokea felt my release inside of her and pushed me off her. She reached for the light on the nightstand and looked at me.
“What is wrong with you? Have you been drinking?”
I got off the bed and snatched up my jeans from the floor. “No, I have not been drinking.”
“Quit lying. I smell alcohol all over you. Please don't come into our home like this again.”
“You're the one who asked me to come home. Now, you don't want me here. Make up your mind Nokea, or is Shane on his way here to take my place?”
Nokea turned her back to me. “I'm not going to entertain your comments. You are drunk and you have no idea what you're talking about. Call me when you're sober, and there are serious consequences for drinking and driving. You wouldn't want to cause anymore problems for this family, would you?”
I stepped into my jeans and zipped them. As I slid the belt back into the hoops of my jeans, I looked at Nokea. “That pussy was awfully wet. By any chance, did you serve things up for Shane like that?”
Nokea turned around and snapped her finger. “As a matter of fact, I did. How could I not? After all, he excited the hell out of me. It was way more excitement than the lame sex you just put down and if you continue to throw up Shane in my face, I'll have no problem hurting your feelings.”
I chuckled and leaned down over Nokea to give her a kiss. She put her hand up in my face. “Save it. Your breath stinks and so does your attitude. Don't come back here until you get your mess together.”
“Okay,” I nodded. “See, you didn't want me to have sex with anybody else, and even though I'm mad at you, I . . . I still respected your wishes. I was in need for some loving so I came to my wife. Now, what is a man supposed to do, if his wife shows him no love?”
“Jaylin, at this point, I don't care what you do or who you do it with. You are living somewhere in your own little world and you haven't even called me in over a week. I'm not going to beg for your forgiveness anymore. Whatever happens, it just happens.”
“You're right, Nokea. Whatever happens, it just happens.” I touched her ass and squeezed it. “I'll see you soon.”
I stumbled to the door and left. Somehow, I made it back to my neighbor's house. When I got there, I dropped back on the bed. The room spun some more and I reached over to the phone and dialed out. It was almost four thirty in the morning, but I knew she'd answer her phone.
“Did I wake you?” I asked Scorpio.
“Jay . . . Jaylin, what is it? Of course you're waking me up, and possibly, the rest of my family too.”
“Have you worked things out with Shane yet?”
“No, I haven't. We're not speaking right now, but I plan to discuss some things with him soon.”
I paused and Scorpio called my name.
“Whaaaat?” I slurred.
“What is up with you? You've been drinking, haven't you?”
“A li'l bit. But, uh, do . . . do you still love me?”
“It's obvious that you've been drinking more than just a li'l bit.”
“Don't avoid my question. I just had this amazing dream and you could not stop telling me how much you loved me.”
“Sounds interesting. And, uh, what else took place in this dream of yours? I'm sure if I told you how much I loved you, then you must have been doing something worthy of my love.”
“Woman, without getting a hard on, I can't begin to tell you about my dream.”
“Well, calm yourself and tell me about it.”
“I will, but you gotta promise me something.”
“What's that?”
“That if I tell you about it, and my dick starts to rise, promise me that you'll take care of it for me.”
“How am I supposed to know if and when your dick rises?”
“Because I'm gon' let you in on it.”
“I don't trust you to be honest. Let's hear about this dream and we can pretty much go from there.”
I laughed and started to tell Scorpio about my dream. She was real quiet, and by the time I finished, my hardness was in my hands.
“You mean to tell me, I gave you permission to explore me like that?” she asked.
“Every single inch of you. Like I said, I explored you to the fullest. And, baby, it was spectacular. You should have been there.”
“Damn, by the sounds of it, I wish I was. Even though your dream sounded so enticing, it doesn't come close to the dream I had the other night.”
“So, you dreaming too, huh?”
“Regularly. I can't control my dreams, but how do you feel about making some of this a reality?”
“After tonight, I feel damn good about it. What you trying to say?”
“I don't know, Jaylin. I really don't understand why we're doing this to ourselves, because, at the end of the day, you and Nokea are going to remain together.”
“Maybe so, and you and Shane might stay together too. For now, though, I'm going to take advantage of this situation and do what I want to do. That's talk to you when I feel like it, and if we can agree on a location, I'd love to see you.”
“See me? Is that all you want to do is see me?”
“Don't make me get specific.”
“Why not? You've never had a problem expressing yourself before.”
“Scorpio, I, Jaylin Jerome Rogers, want to fuck you so badly. I'm talking hours or possibly days of ongoing sex until we both are exhausted. Do you remember all the sex we used to have, and all the love making and sweating we did in the shower? My favorites were our intimate moments on the balcony where I bent that ass over and wore it out from behind. What about that time we did it in the rain and inside of the car? Those were some good ass times and . . .”
I listened to the dial tone, as Scorpio must have hung up on me. When I called back, she answered.
“Don't take me back to the past like that Jaylin. I know you're going through some things and I'm dealing with my issues too, but this can't be the right thing for either of us. I remember everything about our relationship and those thoughts stay with me a lot. Are you prepared to go back to what we used to have? If so, I'm making it clear to you that Nokea better get ready for the fight of her life. I'll play for keeps, Jaylin, and this time, you will not control the outcome. Just think about us hooking up, and if your mind is made up, call me in a few days and tell me my destination.”
Scorpio hung up. I lay back on the bed thinking hard about what I intended to do.
Chapter 12
Scorpio
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Jaylin really had me hyped! I was attempting to sort through my feelings for Shane, but with Jaylin calling me it had me looking at things a little differently. At this point, I felt as if I had nothing to lose. To me, I had already lost Shane, and under the circumstances, there was no way for me to continue our relationship. A part of me thought that I could get over the incident between him and Nokea, but when Jaylin told me Shane and Nokea had previously kissed, that was a bad sign. I pretended as if Jaylin's words didn't bother me, but I stayed up all night thinking about this kiss between Nokea and Shane. He hadn't mentioned one word about it, and with all the secretive shit that was going on with him, I didn't expect him to be honest.
Either way, today, I was ready to confront him. I'd held my peace long enough and it wasn't fair for me to keep him dangling on a string, knowing I wanted closure. So, while at Jay's, I picked up the phone and dialed his number. I figured he was probably at home working, so I called his office phone. After two rings, he answered.
“Shane, it's me. Would you like to meet somewhere later so we can talk?”
“Meet for what Scorpio? If you have something to say, go ahead and say it. There's no need to waste my gas and time if all you intend to do is end this with me.”
“How do you know what I've decided? You act as if I should forgive you for everything you do. I'm sorry, but it's not going down like that this time.”
“I figured it wouldn't, especially since I'm sure you've already spoken to Jaylin. This is the perfect opportunity for the two of you to patch things up. Now that I'm out, he's in again, right?”
“How dare you blame Jaylin for your lies. He has nothing to do with this and you need to take responsibility for the damage you've cost our relationship. Do you think I have fool written across my forehead? Well, sorry, but I don't. First, you lied to me about your life long booty call chick, Amber, not calling you anymore. Then by
accident
you put your dick inside of Felicia. Now, you and Nokea were forced to have sex, but I guess you and her were forced to kiss at your place, too.”
“Yeah, you've been talking to Jaylin. And, if you two hot motherfuâidiots wouldn't have started this shit, then maybe Nokea and I wouldn't feel the need to be there for each other.”
“So, the two of you have been there for each other, huh? Well, you can keep on being there for each other, Shane, and that's why you can take your ring and stick it where the sun doesn't shine.”
“This conversation is so fucking stupid! Why did you call here, Scorpio? The only thing you wanted to do was throw Nokea and Jaylin up in my face.”
“You're darn right I did, especially Nokea. You pretend that you don't have feelings for her and you do. If you had moved to Florida, God help us all! I truly believe that your decision was based on you wanting to connect with her. Be honest about it, damn!”
“You do sound like a fool. How many times am I going to have to tell you that Nokea and I were on the verge of losing our lives? You or Jaylin's stupid asses don't give a shit. If the two of you were in the same situation, nobody would have had to force nothing! I'm not going to let you raise my blood pressure and stress me out. If you want to end this, then do it! Don't call here trying to convince me that I've been such a terrible man to you, especially when you know I'm the best man you ever had. So, free yourself so you can go back to Jaylin. When he disses you, don't come running back to me because I will not be willing or able to clean up his mess again.”
“Stop letting Jaylin's name flow freely from your mouth. Was Jaylin there when you kissed Nokea? Was he there when you put your dick inside of her? For fifteen long minutes, I might add, you were inside of her. And, there is no way that you didn't enjoy the feel of her. You could have done something to free yourself from that man, Shane, but you didn't want to. When Jaylin called and asked you to pick her up from the airport, you broke out of your house like a bat out of hell. There was a winter storm and warnings were up all over the place. You rushed me home like I meant nothing to you, and ran off to get your queen. Then out of guilt, you called and lied to me about your sleeping arrangements. How?”
“Okay, Scorpio. I'm going to put this shit to rest, once and for all. You want the truth, so here it is. Yes, somewhere along the line, Nokea and I developed some feelings for each other. Even though we were forced to have sex, I liked . . . loved it. On the drive to her house, we discussed our feelings. We wound up pulling over to the side of the road and lip-locked with each other. Afterward, we agreed not to act upon our feelings and move on with our lives. Unlike you and Jaylin, we have not contacted each other or even discussed hooking up. We're going through some shit too, but we're not searching for ways to make this situation more complicated than what it already is. I know Jaylin, and I definitely know you. If y'all haven't already had sex, the plan is in the making. Go ahead and do what he wants you to do, and don't call my fucking house anymore with no bullshit about how you want to talk! Right now, I'm talked the hell out and you don't have to end this shit 'cause I just did!”
Shane hung up and I lightly put my phone on the receiver. To hell with him. I knew I was right about his feelings for Nokea. After all I've done for him, having any kinds of feelings for her was a stab in my back. I was so angry. I never wanted to see or hear from Shane again.