Promises to Keep (20 page)

Jay jerked his head up as if from a trance, and looked around at his exhausted companions.
“Sorry,” he said. “I keep feeling …” He trailed off, and shivered. “I think it’s the
same magic that tried to hide the road from me.”

“I’m no expert at magic,” Exequías said, “but doesn’t it take power to maintain something
like this? What kind of spell is still this strong two hundred years later?”

“The kind of spells Midnight would buy,” Rikai answered, shouldering past them at
a slower but no less inexorable pace. The rest of them fell in line behind her, Jay’s
steps tense, as if he were still fighting the instinct to run. “They were first crafted
through sacrifice. When Midnight was attacked, the spells were fed with slaughter,
and enough magic to leave stone smoldering for centuries.”

“You mean the spells got stronger after the attack?” Brina asked. She had no magical
expertise personally, but she knew some of the witches who had supported Midnight.
Black
was not a dark enough word to describe some of their rituals.

“More than that,” Rikai answered. “I think it’s no coincidence that the civilizations
who lent their power to this attack have all fallen into decline since. Before that
attack, even Midnight feared the Shantel, the Azteka, and the shm’Ahnmik. They were
worth
fearing. Now they’re so insignificant that many
consider them myths. The wreckage their actions left behind has been like an open
wound that any parasite could use. I doubt Midnight’s defense spells were the only
opportunistic leeches who noticed.” With a glance back and an unsettling smile, she
added, “I know that
I
certainly intend to return, once other matters are—”

She broke off, going still. Brina moved up beside her and realized what had made the
witch stop: the road was gone.

Looking back revealed more of the same. Without warning, they were in the middle of
pristine wilderness.

“How did we lose the path?” Jay asked, looking around.

“We must have crossed into Shantel territory,” Brina replied. “There are no paths
here.” She had never traveled through Shantel land, but she had heard stories from
others who had. Once within the forest’s magical snare, no compass or map could save
you.

“But we were just
on
a path,” Jay protested.

“And now we’re
not
,” Rikai snapped. “The Shantel were masters of illusion. Jay, what do you sense?”

Jay closed his eyes. “Power,” he answered. “It has a feline flavor. I can’t sense
where it’s coming from.”

“Let me see if I can pierce a hole in this veil,” Rikai said, and she folded her legs
to sit cross-legged on the ground. From her pack, she pulled what looked like a long
silver chain. As she made a circle in the snow around her, the metal glowed so white-hot
that Brina had to look away from its glare.

Brina paced a little, and opened a water bottle to take a few careful sips. Her throat
was sore from panting as she’d
struggled to keep up with Jay’s near-run, and her legs felt stiff and tingly. If she
sat down, she doubted she would be able to get back up quickly.

Unexpectedly, she met Jay’s gaze. Something in those hazel eyes made her want to reach
out to him, but before she could give into the impulse, Rikai stood up and announced
confidently, “This way.”

They continued, but less than an hour later, Lynx let out a frustrated yowl, and Jay
said, “We’ve turned around.”

“No, we haven’t,” Rikai replied.

“If we’re heading east, the sun shouldn’t be in front of us this time of day,” Jay
insisted. He paused to turn on the watchlike compass on his wrist, and then turned
it off again with a sound of disgust.

Brina explained, “You can’t trust the sun in the Shantel forest, any more than you
can trust your gadgets.”

“I trust my power,” Rikai replied firmly.

Lynx growled, but what choice did they have? They followed Rikai. With sore legs and
an increasingly aching head, Brina forced one foot in front of another, until, as
the woods began to darken, Jay announced, “We’ve been here before.”

“We haven’t—”

“We
have
,” the witch interrupted sharply. “Lynx can recognize his own scent markers. We’ve
been here.”

“You trust cat pee over magic?” Rikai asked incredulously.

“I do,” Exequías broke in. “Cat pee never lies. And it’s too dark to travel farther
tonight. We’ll have to come up with another plan in the morning.”

Morning came far too soon.

“Brina?”

She mumbled a complaint in response to whoever was saying her name and touching her
shoulder. Then her cheek, and her neck.

“Brina, can you hear me?”

She attempted to swat at the irritation, and found her wrist caught. Didn’t they understand
she was
tired
? Couldn’t she sleep a little longer?

“Go away.” Her voice cracked. Her throat hurt. Swallowing hurt more.

“She’s sick?” Exequías asked.

She sat bolt upright, protesting, “Of course I’m not.” But moving so quickly made
her head spin and her stomach twist. She gagged, and that made her cough, and once
she started, she couldn’t seem to stop.

Oh, God, it hurts
.

“Brina, calm down,” Jay said. “You’re hyperventilating.”

He didn’t know. He couldn’t understand, no matter what his magic told him about her.

She wasn’t sick
.

She couldn’t be sick.

She just needed some air.

She slapped hands away as they tried to keep her from pulling on her boots, and then
she shoved her way out of the stifling tent. She fled the accusation of illness. She
fled the memory of
clutching Angelica’s cooling body. She fled the nights of huddling in doorways, trying
to get out of the rain and wondering if the rattling in her lungs was pneumonia, or
tuberculosis … or plague.…

Once outside, however, the winter cold cut straight through her. She tucked her bare
hands inside her fleece sleeves as she turned back toward the tent, trying to hold
her head high as if she hadn’t been panicking.

The campsite had vanished. Her footprints filled in as she watched, as if an unfelt
wind were drifting the snow until there was no path to follow back.

“Hello?” she called.

Foolish
, she thought.
The Shantel never liked our kind
.

But I’m not one of my kind anymore
.

I’m talking to myself
.

She tried to focus, but exhaustion coupled with fever to cloud her thoughts. Maybe
if she took a nap, she would be able to think.

“No, stupid,” she said.
Now I’m talking
out loud
to myself
. But she kept doing it, because thinking silently was harder. “You can’t sleep in
the snow. Humans don’t wake up when they do that. Need to get back to camp. They’ll
look for me. Won’t find me, if the Shantel magic doesn’t want them to.”

She started walking. She couldn’t make a straight line. She drifted; she stumbled
and occasionally bumped into trees. Her vision was blurry, and it seemed to take a
monumental effort to lift each leg.

“Don’t want to die,” she said, over and over, until her throat hurt too much and she
couldn’t speak or swallow anymore.

“Brina!”

She turned, awash with gratitude. “Jay!”

He caught her up in his arms. Warmth seeped off him; she snuggled close.

“I tried to tell you before you ran off that I can help you,” he said. “This isn’t
like before, Brina. You’re a little sick, but it’s probably just a cold,
maybe
the flu, but nothing I can’t help with. You’ll be okay, I promise.”

His voice was comforting.

“Let’s get you back to the tent,” he said. “We should eat before …”

He trailed off, which made her glance up. He was looking around, obviously concerned.

“Xeke? Rikai?”

No reply.

“They were right here,” Jay said. “Damn it. I didn’t go that far. I didn’t think we
could be split up when we should still be close enough to
see
each other.” He rested his cheek on her hair.

Brina yelped, startled, as a furry beast suddenly tumbled into sight. Lynx! He yowled,
then turned about, took two steps, and glanced back at them with an impatient expression.

“He’s found something,” Jay said. “Let’s go.”

Brina was still a bit unsteady, but it was nice to walk without layers of clothes,
the heavy pack weighing her down, and the sled snagging on rocks and brambles every
few minutes.
Jay’s hand was solid in hers, and his power wove a sphere of warmth around them. Her
headache started to fade.

The feeling of unreality continued as they emerged from the forest and found a low
stone wall, with deep drifting snow leading up to it but barely a dusting of powder
on top or on the other side of the wall, as if the wind and trees and structures had
colluded to prevent the snow from falling there. Jay placed one foot atop the wall,
twisting to reach back to take her hand, and suddenly her fingers itched for a paintbrush.

A variation on Cernunnos
, she decided,
the stag lord of the hunt
. Except, instead of a stag, Jay had his lynx companion. She hadn’t had an image appeal
to her so powerfully since … since the days before she had wept over her brother’s
dead body.

“If we survive, I’ll happily model for you,” her Cernunnos said, shaking his hair
back. It billowed around his face, the sunset behind him bringing out all the gold
and copper highlights in his deep auburn hair.

Maybe he wasn’t Cernunnos. Maybe he was Dionysus, Greek god of revelry. In his many
forms and stories, Dionysus—also known as Bacchus—was wild and free-spirited, but
with a dark side. He taught mankind to make wine, but also caused the vicious dismemberment
of a prince who’d dared insult him and question his godliness. He was often depicted
with a leopard.

Jay grinned. “I like that one,” he said.

It was nice, not needing to speak aloud to him. She could perform near-magic with
oils, but even she could never perfectly create the images she saw in her head. The
colors didn’t
exist, and canvas for all its versatility could still only capture a single, still
moment. So limited.

She froze the image in her mind and then let him help her across the wall.

Inside the courtyard, it was warm, and bright with dappled springlike light. The magic
was still alive and breathing, willful.

She drew a breath, coughed once, lightly, but then completed the breath, laughed,
and tossed her hair back from her face. If Jay was Dionysus, who was she? Not some
little lost girl. No. Never again. Maybe Artemis, goddess of the hunt?

I could be Artemis
.

Jay smiled at her again, a beautiful, feral expression, and said, “If I have a goddess
at my side, how hard can it possibly be to conquer an elemental? C’mon, let’s hunt.”

It was false bravado, and yet it wasn’t. They both knew the next moment could be their
last, that if they had really lost the others, they had no way to fight and no plan
to move forward. But that was later. This was
now
, and right now was an instant of pure beauty.

T
HE
S
HANTEL LAND
was neither empty nor lifeless. The wood buildings were centuries old and crumbling,
roofs collapsed inside and taken by rot and woodland creatures, but the forest had
not overgrown these open spaces the way it should have. Though Jay’s eyes revealed
no shapeshifters prowling through the clearings, he did not feel alone. Echoes of
power and personalities lingered—trapped by Shantel magic?

No animal smells
, Lynx said,
or marks
.

Brina edged closer to both of them. This felt like a haunted place to her, and even
if it was not malevolent, that didn’t mean it had their best interests at heart.

“What happened to the shapeshifters who lived here?” Jay asked. “Could they not survive
after losing the
sakkri
?”

“I do not think they would have sold the
sakkri
if they could not survive without her,” Brina reasoned, “but the Shantel may not
have been able to survive after losing Midnight. It was a hard time.”

“Hard for the vampires, I’m sure,” Jay replied, his mind distracted by trying to make
out the currents of thought and power around him. He kept thinking he saw the sleek
movements of hunting cats out of the corner of his eye, but turning made the illusions
disappear. “The less-fortunate species rejoiced.”

Something glittered in the dirt, and Brina knelt to pick it up as she said, “They
rejoiced in their freedom, but freedom and comfort rarely go hand in hand. Do you
think Midnight was nothing more than an empire of slaves?” The item she had found
turned out to be a silver pacifier, which she stared at for several moments, unable
to avoid picturing little Angelica.

“Do you want to talk about her?” Jay asked.

Not yet
, she thought. She had loved that child, the first infant she had ever held.