Pushing Reset (14 page)

Chapter 31

“Daaad!” Noah was like a siren as he threw the door open and Brandon gasped as he sat up and his heart slammed against his ribs as he reached for Noah, hoping to grab him before he could see anything. Jude groaned softly as Noah launched himself at Brandon. “Uncle Jude’s gone! He’s not in his room, I can’t find him and I…” Noah’s voice fell away and his eyes were wide as they found Jude. Brandon cursed under his breath as he clasped Noah’s face to his chest and took stock of the situation.

It could have been worse,
Brandon’s brain pointed out as he looked down at his pajama pants. He looked over his shoulder and Jude was covered from the waist down, thankfully. Brandon glared at the door and remembered that he’d gone downstairs for a book and hadn’t locked the door behind him when he came back to bed.
At least you put on pants to go downstairs
. He sighed as he kissed Noah’s hair.

“I’m so sorry,” he whispered and he wrapped his arms around Noah. Partly because he felt like hell and was convinced he’d just scarred his son and partly because Jude was slipping on his robe. Once Jude was decent, Brandon loosened his hold on Noah and let him look around. “Are you ok?” He asked and Noah’s lips twisted as he stared at Brandon. His eyes flicked to Jude and Brandon’s followed. Jude was pale and completely still as he leaned against a post at the foot of the bed. Noah looked back at Brandon and his mouth opened and he took a deep breath as Brandon’s and Jude’s necks craned forward.

“Is Uncle Jude my dad now too?” He asked and both Jude and Brandon leaned back in shock.

“Umm… What?” Brandon screeched and Noah looked impatient as his head swung back and forth between Brandon and Jude. Brandon looked at Jude and he look terrified. Noah took another deep breath and they held theirs.

“Poppy Crane has two mommies and she says they share a room and are married just like everyone else’s mommy and daddy. I told her I kind of had two daddies and she said ‘
Nuh uh because they aren’t together because they don’t share a room and don’t hold hands and kiss like mommies and daddies and mommies and mommies do
’. But now you and Jude are sharing a room and you look like you were kissing…” He stopped when Brandon held up his hands.

“We were sleeping! You didn’t see us doing anything!” He argued as his eyes swung to Jude but he was still staring and useless. Noah shrugged then covered his mouth as a huge yawn attacked.

“That’s what grownups do before they go to bed,” he explained. “They kiss and hold hands and they don’t wear pajamas the right way.” Noah rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand and Brandon prayed that his face wasn’t as red as it felt. He cleared his throat as he tried to think his way out of the mine field he’d found himself in.

“Right. Well…” He looked at Jude and he just shook his head frantically. Brandon narrowed his eyes and hoped that Jude stubbed the fuck out of his toe or got a hemorrhoid in the near future.
Maybe not a hemorrhoid
, he corrected before he looked back at Noah. “I planned on talking to you about this at some point. I’m sorry you had to find out like this.” Brandon watched as another huge yawn hit Noah. He looked bored as he reached for the glass of water on Brandon’s bedside table. Brandon waited as Noah took a long drink. “So… Jude and I care very much for each other…” He shook his head as he decided on a different approach. “Look. There are two kinds of love. There’s the way you love me and Jude and your gramma and grampa, right?” Brandon waited for Noah to nod. “And that’s how we love you. But there’s the other kind of love. That’s what mommies and daddies, mommies and mommies and daddies and daddies feel…”

“But you don’t have to actually be mommies and daddies and all the rest to feel that kind of love. You just really love someone and want to be with them in a different way,” Jude interrupted and Noah’s eyes flicked between the two of them before he shrugged again.

“Is Uncle Jude going to be my daddy too?” He repeated and Jude’s hands dragged down his face and Brandon couldn’t feel his. He chewed on his thumb for a minute as he weighed his words.

“We don’t know,” he admitted. “It’s kind of complicated and we haven’t had a lot of time to think about that. This is kind of new for us too,” Brandon said and Jude relaxed. Brandon raised a brow at him before he turned back to Noah. “All that matters is that nothing is going to change for you. We’re both going to take care of you and we both love you very much.” Brandon saw Jude nod in agreement. Noah looked unimpressed as he watched them.

“So, you two love each other and you’re going to share dad’s room and Jude might be my new daddy?” He asked and Brandon felt Jude’s eyes on him. He took a deep breath and nodded.

“I love Jude and he loves me. We’re going to share my room from now on and we’ll have to wait and see about him being your dad.” Brandon saw Noah take a deep breath in preparation for an argument and held up his hand, quieting Noah. “That’s the best we can do right now,” he stated and Noah’s lips pulled tight before he shrugged again.

“I had a bad dream but I’m ok now,” he said and Jude laughed. “I’m going back to bed,” Noah announced as he raised his arms and looked at Brandon expectantly. He leaned forward and kissed Noah on the forehead as he squeezed him.

“Goodnight, bug,” Brandon whispered before he released Noah so he could run to Jude.

“I love you more than all the stars in the sky,” Jude murmured into Noah’s hair and hugged him. Noah smiled drowsily at Brandon and Jude before he turned for the door. He stopped as he was pulling it shut.

“I like this,” Noah announced softly before the door clicked shut.

The room was completely silent for several moments before Brandon exhaled loudly and fell back on the bed. He pressed his hands to his face to smother the scream he’d been stifling from the moment Noah burst into the room. He heard a click and looked up to find Jude locking the door. He gave Brandon a pointed look as he approached the bed and Brandon grimaced before he let his head fall back.

“My God, if this had happened on any other night…” Brandon laughed weakly and reached for Jude as he felt the bed dip. Jude stretched beside him and a loud sigh left him as he buried his face in the corner of Brandon’s neck.

“You handled that really well,” Jude mumbled and Brandon snorted.

“No thanks to you,” he pointed out and Jude laughed as he rolled onto his back next to Brandon.

“I think that has to be the most awkward and complicated position a person has ever been placed in,” Jude argued as his head flopped toward Brandon’s. “I decided that since you are his father, it was best for you to decide what he needed to know.” He reached for Brandon’s hand and twined their fingers together. Brandon couldn’t help but chuckle.

“It seems like someone did half of the work for us,” he said and Jude snorted.

“I don’t know if we should thank Poppy Crane or send her mommies a harshly worded note,” Jude mumbled as he raised their hands and kissed Brandon’s. He rolled toward Jude and was about to brush his lips against Jude’s shoulder when a terrible thought came to him and he gasped. Jude’s brows rose as he waited.

“One of us needs to talk to Noah in the morning and tell him that he shouldn’t talk about this outside of the house.” Brandon saw Jude frown and knew he hadn’t picked up on it yet. “I’m not completely certain that Noah understands that you aren’t actually my brother,” he explained and Jude’s jaw dropped. Brandon nodded. “So, if he tells people…” He waited as Jude’s hand clapped over his mouth and his eyes flared.

“Holy shit. If he tells people that his dad and his uncle are in love and sharing a bedroom…” They both dissolved into hushed hysterics. Brandon was the first to regain his composure.

“We’ll have to explain that too,” he said as he wiped his eyes and Jude nodded then rolled toward Brandon.

“You told him you love me,” he whispered and Brandon nodded in agreement as he slid a hand around Jude’s jaw.

“I did. Because I do,” he said and Jude’s smile was brilliant. It warmed Brandon completely as he pulled Jude’s lips to his. Their lips brushed tenderly until Jude sighed and cringed.

“I guess this means I’m moving all of my stuff in here,” he said and Brandon nodded. “Are you sure you’re ready for that?” Jude asked gently. “I’m sorry that you were backed into a corner on this.” He looked troubled and Brandon regretted not telling Jude before.

“I was ready. I should have said something but I was just trying to figure out how to tell you and handle Noah. I wasn’t worried about the rest,” Brandon explained and Jude looked surprised. “I hate letting go of you early in the morning and the idea of waking up to you and being able to touch you and taste you as your eyes open makes my chest hurt, I want it so bad,” he whispered and Jude’s lips crashed into Brandon’s as he was rolled onto his back.

“You’re sure?” Jude asked and Brandon slid his hands into Jude’s hair.

“I’m sure, Jude. You keep worrying about me freaking out or other men but you don’t have to. You’re my soul. When I look at you, when we touch, it goes so much deeper than physical need. I’m not even sure if I’m actually gay. I just want you. I don’t feel anything when I look at other men. But when I look at you, I need to be with you. No matter what I do, I can’t get close enough. If there was some way to get you deeper inside of me or to crawl inside of you I would. I’ll never want anyone else like that,” Brandon promised and Jude’s eyes flooded with tears. “I love you, Jude,” he whispered and a loud watery laugh burst from Jude.

“I love you so much, Brandon.” He breathed the words against Brandon’s lips as tears spilled down his cheeks. “You’ve given me everything. As long as I have you and Noah, I have everything.” Jude’s tongue slid between Brandon’s lips and stroked and rolled tenderly through Brandon’s mouth, slowly pushing warmth through Brandon’s body. When Jude rested his forehead against Brandon’s they were breathing heavily and Jude’s cock was hard and hot as it pressed against Brandon’s thigh.

“Fuck me, Jude,” Brandon murmured as his hand reached for the lube. Jude nodded and nibbled at Brandon’s lips and he took the tube.

Jude rose and sat back on his heels between Brandon’s thighs. Brandon rose on his elbows and watched as Jude opened the tube and coated both of his hands. Brandon raised a brow in question and was about to argue as Jude wrapped a hand around Brandon’s cock. It gripped and twisted, spreading lube all over his length and making Brandon harder and more desperate. He felt fingers rubbing in firm circles around his hole and his jaw fell as the hand around his shaft stroked faster. Two fingers pushed past the tight ring of Brandon’s ass and he hissed at the fleeting sting and fell back on the bed. Jude’s fingers slid back and forth, reaching deep now and then to tease Brandon’s prostate only to reverse and rub and stretch his hole until he was shaking with need. Just as Brandon was about to beg, Jude’s slick hand stroked over his erection, coating it as he positioned himself at Brandon’s entrance. With a slight twitch of his hips, the head of Jude’s cock pressed into Brandon in one slow, smooth stroke. Heat and pressure filled Brandon and his body quickly softened around Jude. Just as Brandon was about to reach for Jude and pull him close, Jude withdrew and Brandon blinked in confusion as Jude reached for a pillow. He quickly lifted Brandon’s hips and shoved the pillow beneath his ass and sat back on his heels. Brandon opened his mouth to ask why but stopped when the head of Jude’s cock pressed into his ass and he was pulled against Jude’s groin.

“Oh, shit,” Brandon gasped. “That’s really deep,” he breathed and Jude only nodded as he leaned back on one hand and rocked his hips. Brandon’s shoulders came off the bed as intense pressure and pleasure radiated from his ass and rolled through his limbs as Jude ground against his prostate. “God!” Brandon whispered weakly as his eyes crossed.

Instead of withdrawing and thrusting, Jude just rocked against Brandon, grinding his groin against Brandon’s ass and the thickest part of his shaft against Brandon’s prostate. A slow, heavy, pulsing pleasure rolled through Brandon and as much as he wanted to make words and participate, all he could do was babble and drool as his hands twisted in the sheets.

“I fucking love how you leak, Brandon.” Jude’s voice was rich and deep and the swirling pleasure in Brandon’s groin and sack became more intense. Brandon vaguely registered fingers sliding across his stomach and up the length of his erection then a soft humming from Jude as he sucked on his fingers. “So much of it. And I’ll have every drop of it before we’re finished,” Jude promised. Brandon nodded drunkenly as pressure gripped his sack and he squeezed tight around Jude. Jude hissed and his head fell back as his hand wrapped around Brandon’s cock. “Your ass feels so good. It’s so tight and when you come, you always take me with you,” he rasped as he began to stroke.

Brandon stuffed the sheet into his mouth and sobbed as pleasure swelled and everything in his body tightened until he thought he’d shatter. Then, he did. His nerves sparked and it was as if goosebumps exploded beneath his skin and everything went bright and electric. Searing heat pushed up his shaft and Brandon jerked and arched on the bed as come shot from his cock, hitting him in the chest and neck as he writhed and prayed Jude’s name. He heard a stifled cry from Jude before nails dug into Brandon’s thigh and Jude buried his cock deep in Brandon’s ass and froze. Jude’s head was thrown back and his chest heaved before molten heat flooded Brandon’s passage. Jude bucked and swayed before he fell forward. Jude’s breath huffed against Brandon’s skin as he crawled and licked his way up Brandon’s body then collapsed on his chest, his body slick and limp as he struggled to catch his breath. Brandon wrapped his arms tight around Jude and sighed into his hair.

“Are we going to talk about Noah’s other question?” Brandon asked as Jude rubbed his cheek against Brandon’s chest. He heard a soft groan and looked down.

“We could tell him that I’d love for him to call me dad and that we don’t need a piece of paper to make it mean more. You know how much I love him.” Jude’s voice was low and careful. Brandon nodded in agreement but he couldn’t help but frown.