Redeeming Kyle: 69 Bottles #3 (14 page)

“Okay guys, here’s the deal. Addison is pregnant with twins, which means a few things. One, she’s going to be more emotional. Things will upset her easier; she can go from happy to crying in a matter of seconds. Two, she needs to eat more, and it needs to be healthy food. I’m not pulling her from the bus, but she needs to have healthy food to eat. High fiber and folic acid.” She holds up the envelope, “In here you will find a lot of information on pregnancy, foods, activities, and what’s going on with her body. I’ve included three copies of some things. Those are the things that the two of you,” she points to Kyle and Talon, “need to read with her. Thirdly, be gentle with her. Sex is not off of the menu, so don’t deny her that, but just remember to be a little more gentle than normal.” She smirks. “Lastly, let her sleep. If she’s tired, let her be.”

Both Talon and Kyle nod their agreement with her. “I have a question,” I say.
 

“Go ahead…”
 

“I’m subject to migraines, I’ve already had one on this trip, prior to conception, what can I do if I get another one?”
 

“Do you know what triggers them?” She asks me.
 

“Stress can, but sometimes they just come on.”
 

“How often?”
 

“It depends. Sometimes it’s once or twice a month, other times I go three months without one.”

“Okay, you have medicine prescribed?” I nod. “Don’t take that. I can write you a script for an approved medicine, but I strongly suggest you do anything you can to avoid taking it.”
 

“That’s hard.”
 

“Oh I know, but ice can help. But I think you’ll find you’ll tolerate things differently when you know you can’t do anything about it. Like colds and things like that.” I nod.
 

“I don’t want a script for medicine. I can handle them without it, if I get one.”
 

She smiles. “A few things for you, missy…” she stares pointedly at me, “you’re now a high risk pregnancy, but please don’t panic on me, twins are usually upgraded to that because of the toll it can take on your body. No lifting more than five pounds.” The guys snort.

“They don’t let me do that now.”

She smiles, “Good. Limit stressful situations when possible. Keep some food in your purse, crackers or granola bars, if you start to feel faint, eat. If they bring you food, eat it, but guys, don’t over feed her. Last, but not least,” she hands me her card, “here’s my card, with office number, cell phone and emergency number. If it’s outside of office hours, call my cell, if I don’t answer, go to the emergency number, tell them who you are and I will call you back immediately.” She hands me another small piece of paper, “per Dr. Paige’s request, her office, cell and emergency number. Program them and use them, even if you just have a question.”

“Do you do this for all your patients?” I ask her.
 

She smiles sweetly, “No, just the ones that are carrying celebrity babies.”
 

“You’ve known the whole time?”
 

She laughs, “Oh honey, I knew who you were because Paige pointed it out. I knew who they were because I love 69 Bottles. I’m less than two years older than you are, darlin’.”
 

“Oh my god,” Talon says, “thank you for being discreet.”
 

“It’s my job. Though I have to tell you, I can’t keep this from Paige, she’s a huge fan.”
 

“Oh my god.” I burst out laughing. I even hear Kyle laughing, which is great, all the tension lifts and I take a deep breath.
 

“Thank you, Doctor Breckenridge.”
 

“Call me Sara,” she says.
 

“Thank you, Sara,” I say and stand. The guys follow me. “I think we’re okay, for now.”
 

“Thank you Doctor.” Talon and Kyle both say, shaking her hand and we leave. Mills and Tori have been standing by outside this whole time. I look at my watch, it’s only four-thirty but it felt like we were in there forever. Talon and Kyle both take my hands as we leave the building.

The guys don’t let me go the entire car ride home. “How did it go?” Tori turns back looking at me. I look to both of the guys.
 

“Can I show her?” Talon nods excitedly and Kyle just nods. He’s still in shock, but doing better. I pull the pictures out of my purse. I flip through them to see what we have. I could kiss Sara. There is a picture that has both babies and they’re labeled Baby A and Baby B. I hand it to Tori.
 

“No way?” she smiles back at me. “Twins? Seriously?” Her excitement is infectious and I nod excitedly. “Congratulations, guys,” she says and Kyle softens a little bit.
 

“Thanks,” Talon says.
 

“Thank you,” Kyle adds and for the first time since leaving the doctor’s office, he smiles.
 

Tori hands me back the pictures. “Where to?” Mills asks.
 

“Cheesesteak,” I say and Talon bounces in his seat like a little boy.
 

“Alright,” Mills says and he turns at the next light. I’m assuming he knows the place to go. “The band wants them too.”
 

“Awesome.”
 

Kyle looks at me, “We need to fill your script.” And my rock is back. I nod toward Mills. ‘Tell him’ I mouth and Kyle looks panicked again. I squeeze his hand. “Mills, we need to stop by a pharmacy, Addison has a script to fill.”
 

“Let’s do that first, then we can swing back and pick it up.” Mills looks at Kyle in the mirror and smiles.
 

“Okay,” Kyle says. “I’ll run it in.” He adds.
 

“You don’t have to do that,” Talon interjects. “We can all do it.”
 

“No, not if we want to keep this a secret longer. Let me do it,” Kyle says.
 

“Thank you, cowboy,” I tell him and he smiles at me.

 
A couple minutes later we pull into a CVS and Kyle goes in with my prescription and insurance card. Mills and Tori step out of the car, giving Talon and I some privacy. “When we get back, can I have the bedroom to talk with Kyle?”
 

“Of course. He’s really freaking out about this.”
 

“He is, but I think he just needs some time with me. He needs to see that this really is okay. When I’m done, I want you to talk to him.”
 

“What more can I say to him?” he pleads sadly. “I’m not very good at all this.”
 

“You’re better at it than you think. But I think this is going to take some time to settle in. I think it’s going to take some time for all of us. Yes, it’s exciting, but I am scared shitless. Not just about the twins but life in general. This really changes everything. It’s going to affect my career, regardless of what I choose to do. It’s going to affect a lot of things going forward.”

“You say that like you’re going to be doing this alone. You’re not, I’m not going anywhere and despite Kyle’s reaction, he won’t either. He just needs to let it soak in.”

“I know I’m not alone, and I’m not saying I’ll be doing it alone, but the bottom line is that this changes everything, but in a good way.”
 

“You’re right it does change everything, but it changes nothing about how I feel about you and it certainly shouldn’t change how Kyle feels about you.”
 

“I don’t think it does. I think he is positively freaked out because of the fact that he’s going to be a dad; maybe it has a lot to do with his mother, his brother and his father. Think about it, Talon. He’s on his own in this world, that’s scary. I have my mom, you have yours, Kyle has one who is alive and hates him because it’s convenient for her to do so,” I say, emotions filling me to the point of crying.
 

“Oh baby, don’t cry, please.”
 

“I don’t mean to.”
 

He chuckles, “I know you don’t. But he’ll be coming back in a minute. How about I take Tori and Mills into the restaurant for our food, you and him stay in the car.”

“Oh god, don’t do that. Let Mills do it.”
 

“No, I am capable of getting my two favorite people in the world cheesesteaks. You try talking to him. We’ll be in there for a bit, but why don’t you guys eat in the bedroom, I’ll sit with the guys.”
 

“Are you sure?”
 

He holds me close and kisses my forehead. “Of course.”
 

Kyle comes back and I lean into him, wrapping my hands around his arm, holding on for dear life. Kyle kisses the top of my head and my heart swells. No matter how bad he’s feeling, he doesn’t forget about me.
 

We arrive at the restaurant and Talon argues with Mills about getting dinner, but Talon wins the argument and Mills escorts him inside.
 

“I imagine social media is blowing up.”
 

Kyle laughs, “He grew up close to here, it might not be that bad.”

“I hope so.” I turn in my seat to look at him. “Are you feeling better?”
 

He snorts. “No.”
 

“You’re hiding it well.”

“Good.” He leans over and kisses my forehead.
 

“What’s freaking you out?” I ask bluntly.
 

“Is this really the place for this?”
 

I shrug. “You and I are eating in the bedroom. We’re going to talk, so we can either wait until then, or you can give me an indication so that I can figure out how to handle this with you. I don’t expect you to be all butterflies and roses when we’re done, but this, the way you are, it’s hurting me. I don’t like it, but I can’t let it go.”

“What if I asked you to tell me what’s on your mind first?”
 

I shrug, “If that’s what you think it will take to help you talk…” I let the thought trail off.
 

“I guess I just need to know whether or not we’re sharing some of the same feelings and it might make it easier for me to tell you what I’m afraid of,” he says quietly, I can tell he’s afraid that he’s alone in his fears and that is far from the truth in this situation.
 

“I’m scared because…” I take a deep breath, “because it’s all so fast, too fast. We’re barely beginning this journey together and now,” I can’t hold back the emotions anymore, “now we’re becoming a family. I’m terrified that you and Talon are going to realize that and bolt.” He shakes his head, sadness in his eyes. He opens his mouth to speak and I quiet him with my finger. “Please, I’ve started, don’t let me stop.” He nods his agreement. “I’m terrified that we’re testing the boundaries of our new relationship beyond what we’re ready for, what we’re capable of. That this is going to destroy whatever we have building between us. That it’s all too much for even me to handle, or process.” I wipe tears from my cheeks, “If you and Talon hadn’t been there or if I’d managed to do this on my own, finding out without you, I’m afraid I would have run away or that something is going to drive you both away from me.”
 

I pause, taking in the sight of Kyle’s tears in his eyes. “I’ve always wanted kids, but I’ve lived my life knowing that having them was nearly impossible and now, five weeks into all of this, here we are and I’m still scared shitless you’re going to run. You should run, you both should, and I don’t know that I would blame you if you did. We didn’t plan this, we didn’t spend days, weeks, months or even years trying for a baby, planning it, making this time an enjoyable time. Instead we didn’t try to stop it either.” I look down at my lap, fidgeting with my hands.
 

“I should have told you guys to wrap it back up after our first night in Phoenix, but I didn’t. I relied on too many things and every one of them failed me. I mean, hell Kyle, we never even talked about it. Neither of you asked me about birth control, we never discussed my problems, we never did anything to stop this from happening and I want to believe that we all knew the risks and we didn’t care.”
 

“Panda, I don’t want to interrupt you, but what do you mean everything failed you?” He asks me quietly. I can tell he’s looking at me, but I can’t look back at him.
 

“My PCOS, my birth control - I should have been checking for it all along. I shouldn’t have waited until that Sunday to try and pull it out. I should have stopped you both from unwrapping, then I shouldn’t have told you. I should have…”

“Don’t. Don’t say that. I’m glad we know, I’m glad we were there for you.” I finally look at him. I don’t know what else to say so I don’t say anything. He continues, “I have no doubt that at some point I will find true happiness in all this, but right now it’s hard because it’s all so new and I’m scared. I need it to sink in, but it certainly doesn’t change how I feel about you, or about where I see this relationship going.”
 

I wipe the tears again.

“What if they’re not mine?” he says bluntly.
 

“Is that really what’s bothering you?”