Sarah: Women of Genesis: 1 (Women of Genesis (Forge)) (2 page)

“I’m ten,” said Sarai, wondering even as she said it why she imagined that he would care.

“Before your age is doubled, I expect I’ll be coming back for
you.
”

“Why? Have you another nephew?”

He laughed at that as if it were the cleverest thing she could have said. She had no idea why.

“No more nephews,” he said. “But still these two feet, much in need of washing.”

She poured more water as Father came into the courtyard, followed by servants carrying cups of beer and a basket of bread. “Barley for the traveler,” said Father. He took one cup from the servant’s hand and gave it to the visitor himself.

“If the elder daughter is as pretty as the younger,” said the visitor, “my brother Lot will be the happiest man in the world.”

Sarai was astonished. No one spoke of her as pretty.

“Oh, now, don’t be getting thoughts,” said Father. “The younger is already spoken for.”

“Before the elder?” asked the visitor.

“Spoken for by the goddess Asherah.”

At once the visitor’s face was transformed into a mask of rage. This was no game of making faces with a child, either. “You mean to slay this child?”

“Abram!” said Father. “You misunderstand me! She is marked to be a priestess. One daughter of the king’s house has always tended a shrine of Asherah.”

Abram was his name.

His body relaxed a little, but he was still upset, Sarai could see it. “Even though you live six days upriver from the city where your great-grandfather was once king?”

“The duty of kings does not end just because the gods are pleased to let another have our throne. A king is a priest before he is a king, and he still must intercede for his people, even if he no longer rules them. What right would I have to return to the throne of ancient Ur, if I slack in my duty now, with my people under the harsh rule of the Amorite?”

Sarai poured another ladle of water over Abram’s feet and lower legs. The dark slime was almost gone, and the bronze color of his sunworn skin was visible now. His legs were strong—this man ran as much as he rode.

“You speak the truth,” said Abram. “But God does not ask parents to give their children to him. He asks people to give themselves, by their own free choice.”

“Well,” said Father, “it’s not as if we’re going to force her. But she was god-chosen from her infancy. She sang in the cradle. She danced before she walked.”

“One can be chosen by God, and yet still marry and raise children. The soul with many children is rich, though there is no bread, and the one without is poor, though there is oil enough to bathe in.”

This idea struck Sarai like a thunderclap. Who had ever heard such a thing? Marriage was fine, and these princes of the desert had their own sort of prestige. But to be a priestess of Asherah was the highest work of all. She would make music in the temple and sing before the goddess and minister in her holy name. Yet this man seemed not to understand it.

No, he understood—he simply did not believe it.

“Sarai,” said Father, “I fear that our visitor is too weary for company right now.”

“I have spoken too boldly,” said Abram. “I did not mean to give offense. But you see, your news came as a surprise to me, for I had already promised Sarai that I would return in ten years to marry her.”

Sarai dropped the ladle. To marry her?
That
was what he meant when he said that he’d be coming back?

“My daughter is normally graceful,” said Father. “But look—you’ve made her clumsy. Leave the ladle, Sarai. Go inside with your spinning.”

Still blushing, Sarai strode to her distaff, gathered up wool and yarn and all, and rushed into the house.

But she did not stay indoors—it was too dark for good work, wasn’t it? In moments she was on the roof looking down into the courtyard. Without quite planning it, she found herself positioned so that Father’s back was to her and she could see the face of this earnest stranger, this Abram, who had been so furious when he thought that Father meant to slay her in sacrifice to Asherah. It was as if he thought himself fit to judge a god. To judge a king in his own house!

Was he joking when he said that he would return to marry me?

No matter. Sarai knew her life’s work. It had no marriage in it.

But such a man as this. Filthy from travel, yes. But there was a light inside him that even the dust of the desert could not hide. Everyone in Ur-of-the-North treated Father with great respect and honor, even though he was a king without a city. But this Abram did not need to have others give him his honor. He carried it within himself. He was more a king, arriving filthy from the desert, than Father was, here in his fine house.

The disloyalty of this thought made Sarai blush with shame. She would never speak it aloud. But she would never deny it, either. If the desert is traveled by such men as this, no wonder they are fit husbands for the daughters of kings.

* * *

Qira was born to be a queen, and this marriage covenant with a desert man was the disaster of her life. When Father returned from the temple of the Lord of the city full of talk about a desert priest named Terah, Qira had to fight to stay awake. Why would Father bore her with talk about some Amorite who claimed a special kinship with Ba’al? It was Sarai who was going to be a priestess. Qira was going to be a queen!

So when Father said, “And I want you to marry his heir, Lot, the son of his eldest son,” Qira did not quite understand.

“Whom?” she asked. “You want me to what?”

“Marry him. Terah’s grandson, the heir to his great and ancient priesthood. Not to mention the greater portion of his flocks and herds.”

“
Marry
him? What city is
he
king of?”

“Not king of any
one
city. He says that the Ba’al of one city is only a statue that reminds us of the true Lord, who has a true name known only to a few, written in signs known to none outside the lineage of the true priesthood.”

Qira could not resist throwing some of Father’s own teachings back in his face. “‘It’s an arrogant man who says that the worship of others is false, and only his own is true.’”

Father shook his head. “Daughter, theirs is the lineage of Utnapishtim, who rode above the flood. What is the royalty of a mere city, compared to him who is priest to all the world?”

“If they don’t live in a city, how are they any better than the wandering Amorites?”

“The Amorites are barbarians who raid from the desert and destroy what they cannot conquer. As we know to our sorrow.”

“What cities has this Terah conquered?”

“He is no Amorite, that is my point, Qira. There is no need for him to conquer cities, when he is the chief priest of God in the world!”

“Father,” said Qira, “with all respect, I must still point out to you that a beggar could say the things this man said to you, and it doesn’t make him a king unless there are people somewhere who obey him.”

Father’s face turned red then, and Qira realized that in denigrating this Terah, she had said the unspeakable thing: She had denied that a king without a city could truly be a king. “I did not mean . . .” But there was no way she could put a good face on what she had said.

“Very well,” said Father. “Let me speak no more of priests and kings. Let me speak of money. A real prince, to marry you, would demand a dowry, and we have no dowry for you, living as we do on the gifts of my brother, king of Ur-of-the-North. While this Terah is rich in herds, and promises me a very sizeable bride-price for you.”

“Everyone knows the Amorites trade in slaves,” said Qira savagely, “but I never thought you would sell your own daughter to one.”

“As a slave,” said Father coldly, “you wouldn’t be worth two shoats, since you do no work and have no skills.”

“Should I callus my fingers with spinning, like a common woman?”

“Your sister is not ashamed.”

“Sarai is born to be a temple servant. I am born to be consort to a king!”

“And I was born to rule a great city,” said Father. “We don’t always live the life we were born for. Would you rather marry some tradesman who will put you in the house behind his shop and trot you out to show his visitors that he has married royalty?”

“Once you decide that my shame can be purchased for money, what difference does it make?”

At once she saw that she had goaded Father too far. “Your tongue is enough to drive a man to beat a woman!” shouted Father. But he quickly got control of himself. “If I marry you to Terah’s grandson Lot, you will be the wife of a wealthy man with a claim to an ancient priestly lineage. No one will say you married down.”

“Yes they will,” she murmured.

“Despite the fame of your beauty and the majesty of my rank,” said Faither dryly, “there has been no queue at our door of ruling princes begging for your royal company.”

Qira burst into tears. “I will not live in a tent!”

“Is that all?” said Father. “I’ll make that a condition of the wedding—that you never have to live in a tent. But this is the best marriage I will ever be able to arrange for you.”

Qira was no fool. She might be bitterly disappointed, but she knew that Father would not lie about such a thing. “I will do my duty,” she said miserably.

And so it was that she consented to this miserable wedding, wrecking all her hopes, discarding all her dreams.

Ever since then, she had wondered: What god was it who hated her so much?

Still, for days at a time she had been able to forget what lay in her future. Desert men were unreliable. They changed their minds. They broke their word. Or perhaps her future husband died in battle and would never come for her. Or starved to death out in the deep desert where not even grass could grow. She had all sorts of hopeful fantasies like that.

But now the filthy uncle was here, and Father insisted on parading her forth as if he were selling a milk cow.

“Wear the scarlet,” Father said.

Her most precious gown. Well, she would not wear it, not for the mere uncle. What did desert men know of scarlets and other bright and precious colors? Everything was the yellow of grass and sand to them, everything smelled of the hair and dung of animals, and the only music that they knew was mooing and bleating. Scarlet would be wasted on him. If Father was unhappy that she disobeyed, what would he do? Beat her with a stick in front of the uncle? Father could insist on the marriage, but she would show her independence where she could. Qira was not one for submissive obedience, and Father had better remember it.

So it was her blue and brown woollen dress that she pulled on over her linen shift, only one step up from what a tradesman’s wife might wear.

“Qira, what are you doing?”

Sarai stood in the door of her room, looking stricken.

“Showing proper respect to my uncle-to-be,” said Qira, feigning innocence.

“You mustn’t,” said Sarai.

“He’s a desert man—what will he know?”

“He
will
know,” said Sarai. “He’s not what you think. He doesn’t talk like an Amorite—his speech is as pure as ours, the speech of Ur the Great. And he’s a man of refined senses, I know it—he’ll understand what you mean by this coarse dress.”

“It is a dress belonging to the daughter of a king,” said Qira. “All my clothing is far above
his
station.” Why she was bothering to argue with a ten-year-old was beyond her, anyway.

Sarai stood in the doorway, contemplating her.

“Yes, after all, I think you’re right,” said Sarai.

Since Sarai never changed her mind easily, Qira grew suspicious. “What do you mean?”

“It’s good to begin your marriage with honesty, not pretending,” said Sarai. “With this dress you’ll show him that you’re the daughter of a fallen, beggarly house that lives on the gifts of another king. The royal scarlet would be nothing but a sham.”

“I hate you,” said Qira. “Asherah may never forgive Father for giving him such a nasty daughter.”

“You don’t hate me,” said Sarai. “You love me because I remind you to do what you already know that you should.”

“I don’t
like
doing what I should.”

“Neither do I,” said Sarai. “But we both do what we must.”

Qira burst into tears and embraced her sister, who also wept. But as they clung to each other, Sarai spoke softly. “If your bridegroom is like his uncle, you’ll not be cursed by this marriage, you’ll be blessed. The uncle is a handsome man, and he speaks like one who is born to rule.” She told Qira all about Abram, saying several times that since this was only the uncle, the husband was bound to be even better.

But Qira saw the truth behind the words, and she was astonished. “You’ve fallen in love with the uncle!” she said.

Sarai looked startled, then embarrassed. “I
like
him,” said Sarai.