Silvia Day (6 page)

“Dr. Bates?”

“Yes?”

“I appreciate your care for Lady. She hates shots, and shakes like a leaf when we come to the vet.”

Lyssa rubbed Lady behind the ears. “You were very brave, Lady. One of my best patients ever.” She glanced up. “She’s a wonderful dog, Mr. Dawson.”

“Call me Chad, please.”

She smiled, but her stomach did a little flip that was partly excited and partly panicked.

“I hope you don’t mind,” he began with a sheepish smile, “but I noticed you’re not wearing a wedding band. Are you seeing anyone?”

The urge to say yes was strong and confusing. “Not unless you count grumpy cats.”

His returning grin was dazzling. “In that case, I’d like to take you out to dinner sometime, if you’re open to dating owners.”

“I never have before,” she admitted, “but there’s always a first time.”

She pulled a notepad featuring a pharmaceutical advertisement out of a drawer, and they exchanged numbers and set a date for the weekend.

Lyssa stayed in the room a short while after Chad and Lady left, trying to figure out why a date with a hunky fireman who liked dogs was making her sad.

Hidden beyond the edge of the Twilight, Aidan stared at the woman writhing on the bed. She keened softly, her naked body arching upward as she stroked her clit with one
hand while thrusting two fingers deep into the drenched cleft of her sex with the other.

He barely blinked, refusing to look away, his mind urging his errant body to cooperate and become aroused. Around him, he felt and heard the Nightmares moving in, drawn to the energy the Dreamer was exuding into the Twilight. She was as vulnerable as it was possible to be, and it was his job to lead her to safety. But despite his sincere wish to help her, he couldn’t find the tiniest bit of desire for the task ahead.

Sighing, Aidan closed his eyes and sent out a silent call for help. As the woman on the bed moaned in the beginnings of a climax, he felt a presence at his side.

“I was coming to find you anyway,” said the laughing voice next to him.

“Oh?” Shooting a sidelong glance at Connor, Aidan tried not to look too relieved when his friend began to strip with obvious anticipation.

“I was assigned to your Dreamer tonight, Cross. I figured once you knew, you would want to swap again. You’ve been giving me all of your sexual assignments for weeks, but I strongly suspected you’d want to have another dream with her. And you need it, man. Bad.”

Aidan tensed as emotions he didn’t understand flowed through him. “Lyssa Bates?”

Connor nodded, and rubbed his hands together. “Whatever your fascination is with her, I hope it lasts awhile longer. Trading places with you rocks. Now, if you’ll excuse me…”

The other Guardian stepped into the dream and his outward appearance instantly altered to suit the woman he
approached. Aidan turned away and departed swiftly, his thoughts once again fully consumed by the Dreamer he should never see again, but couldn’t seem to resist.

A month had passed since he’d last been with her. A month of questioning other Guardians to find out who had spent the evening with her, and then grilling them about what had been said and what she was doing. She was seeing someone now, a man named Chad, and Aidan told himself it was best that her life was now back on track. He had tried to follow her lead and forget her, taking on assignments that would have distracted him in the past.

Nothing worked.

Now he moved through the Twilight with barely suppressed excitement, his heart racing at the prospect of seeing her again. The sweet tone of her voice and softly flowered scent stayed in his mind, as did the deep color of her eyes and the golden strands of her hair. But like a Twilight morning, the details were shrouded in mist and fading. If he gave it a little more time, he could forget.

But he didn’t want to forget. For the first time in many, many centuries his blood ran hot, and for the first time ever his heart ached with yearning. He couldn’t let her think she was only a job to him. Before he moved on, he needed her to know that he’d made love to her because he wanted to and for no other reason.

Lowering to the ground, Aidan paused before Lyssa’s door. He wanted to hold her again, to be the recipient of her passion and seducing caresses. Did Chad benefit from such play? The thought burned, making him sweat.

She hadn’t fucked the other man…yet. Aidan knew because he inquired every day.

Growling his anger at the thought, he reached for the shiny new handle that hadn’t existed the last time he was here. He stepped inside without forewarning, and found the same beach he remembered from before. A short distance away, Lyssa swung in a hammock between swaying palm trees, her long legs revealed by the part in a sarong, her lush breasts barely restrained by the tiny triangle cups of a crocheted bikini top. In her lap, she held a drawing pad, and her lovely features were shielded by the wide brim of a straw hat.

Arrested by the sight of her golden skin and the loose strands of hair the tropical breeze blew across her glossy lips, he stood unmoving.

Why did she affect him this way? He was so eager for her, he could barely walk. A woman had been nude and masturbating before him, eager for a hard cock, and he’d felt nothing.
Nothing.
Just like all the other women he had avoided over the last month.

Steeling himself inwardly, Aidan walked toward her. As she raised her gaze to meet his, the wariness in her dark eyes tightened his chest. The trust she’d given freely when he’d bedded her was gone, and he felt its loss keenly.

Sighing, she moved to a seated position and tossed her notepad to the sand. Kicking her lithe legs, she set the hammock rocking like a swing.

He came to a halt before her. “Hi.”

“Hi,” she said in a husky whisper, her dark eyes watching him carefully.

“How are you?”

“Fine. And you?”

The meaningless banter made his teeth grind. “Not so well.”

“Really?” Her demeanor changed instantly, became more genuine, less stilted. It was her nature to feel concern for others. It was one of the reasons he liked her so much.

“I’m not supposed to be here, and I can’t come back after tonight.”

“Why?” The hammock slowed to standstill.

“There are laws.” He stepped closer. “We are forbidden to form attachments to Dreamers.”

“Oh.”

“And I can’t allow it to happen even if it were permitted. Not with my job being what it is.”

Lyssa pushed up the brim of her hat. Her beautiful face so open, so revealing. “Are you speaking hypothetically?”

He shook his head.

“Are you saying it would be possible for you to form an attachment to me?”

“It’s not just possible,” he admitted gruffly. “It’s highly likely.”

Frowning, she turned her head to stare at the ocean. Aidan watched the fall of her sunlit hair as it cascaded over her bare shoulder. His mouth went dry and his fists clenched. The desire to rub those golden strands between his fingertips was nearly overwhelming.

“So why did you come then?” she asked, dropping to the sand.

“Because of the way we parted.”

She returned her gaze to his.

“I couldn’t let you think that what happened between us was part of my job.”

Lyssa was so much shorter than he was, she had to tilt her neck back to study his features. “Thank you.”

Her quiet dignity was too much for him. Closing the distance between them, he tossed her hat aside. Then he cupped her nape and kissed her. A hard, quick kiss. “I made love to you because I couldn’t bear not to. Because I wanted to more than anything. I don’t regret it, and I don’t want you to regret it, either.”

Her small hands circled his wrists. “I don’t.”

He rested his forehead against hers and breathed in her scent of soft flowers.

“I feel as if I’ve known you a long time,” she whispered. “As if I’m saying good-bye to an old, dear friend.”

“I will miss you, too,” he admitted, before taking her mouth and kissing her deeply. A kiss that was meant to say farewell, a memento to last him an eternity. Then her taste, sweet and heady like wine, flowed over his tongue and intoxicated him.

“Lyssa.” He groaned his misery and need into her mouth.

Her slender arms tried valiantly to encircle his broad shoulders, then gave up and slid down to embrace his straining back. All the while he drank the flavor of her, stroking his tongue between her parted lips as he wanted to do with his cock, sliding his callused hands down the smooth skin of her sides.

His eyes closed, Aidan tilted his head, fitting his lips to her softer ones, swallowing her whimpers with a shudder that wracked the length of his frame. She gave as good as she got, her hands sliding beneath his shirt, caressing his bare skin, her hips arching into him, the invitation
blatant and tinged with the same desperation he felt.

When her tongue tangled with his, he pulled away with a curse, every muscle on fire with tension. He nibbled her jaw, licked and bit at her neck, distracted her as he cupped her full breast, kneading it, feeling it grow heavy with her desire. Impatient, he shoved away the fabric that intruded, and caught her nipple with his fingers, rolling it, tugging it, squeezing it with varying pressure.

“Yes…” she breathed, urging him to take all that he wanted, failing to see how starved he was for her, starved for the feeling of connection he had found with her.

Lowering his head, he took her in his mouth, her nipple a hard, silken delight. He suckled her with hunger, his cheeks hollowing with every drawing pull, his tempo rhythmic and designed to make her cunt clench for him, to make her ache as he did.

She cupped his ass, squeezed, urged him against her. Through the thin fabrics between them, he felt her heat, and he squeezed his eyes shut, his nose pressed to her skin so that every breath he took was Lyssa, a scent that would forever be imprinted on his memory.

Sadness welled within him, and he lifted his head. How much worse would his attachment be if he took her again? Already all other women had lost their ability to entice him.

Her eyes fluttered open. With her ravished mouth and swollen nipple, she was a picture of wanton abandon. He could lower her to the sand, and free his cock. A quick tug would pull her swimsuit aside, allowing him to sink into her creamy depths. In all his life, he had never wanted anything as much.

“I’m afraid of what will happen,” she breathed, her chest rising and falling with her labored breathing, “if we make love again. I want more, Aidan.”

Pulling her tight against him, Aidan rested his cheek on the top of her head. “I’m sorry I can’t give it to you.”

He forced himself to release her, to relinquish her warm, curvy body. Forever.

She righted her swimsuit and looked at him with big, dark eyes. “I’m happy you came, even though you can’t stay.”

His thumb caressed the curve of her cheekbone. “Goodbye, Lyssa.”

“Good-bye.”

Turning on his heel, he left her.

He felt her watching him all the way until the door shut and became an impassable barrier between them.

“You have broken one of our most sacred laws, Captain Cross.” The sea of gray-shrouded faces before Aidan nodded as one. “We do not choose the assignments given to Guardians lightly. It is not your place to reassign yourself and others to suit your own needs.”

He stood impassive, his hands laced at his back, his stance wide as if prepared for a blow, which he was. He’d known the risks when he went to Lyssa. He had accepted them in return for a few moments with her, and the price was worth being able to hold her as he had.

“You set the example for others,” the Elder continued. “Any transgressions on your part can start a chain of disobedience. Because of this, you will spend the next fortnight at the Gateway.”

He flinched inwardly. The contrast of his new assignment to the joy of Lyssa’s presence was similar to the contrast between hell and heaven.

But perhaps his time at the Gateway would be good for
him. He certainly would not have the luxury of thinking of her there.

“You will begin immediately, Captain.”

He bowed before turning on his heel. Having expected some onerous task, he had dressed for battle, and his glaive hung securely in the scabbard that crossed his back. His boots tapped ominously on the marble floor as he left the
haiden
and descended the steps to the open courtyard. Around him, casually robed Guardians stared. Some furtively, others openly. He’d broken a law that had not been broken in centuries, and everyone wanted to know what the punishment would be for so grave an offense.

With a leap, he departed, gliding rapidly through the misty Twilight toward the reddish glow that illuminated the tops of a distant mountain range. As always, he was grateful for the hours-long length of the journey. It allowed him time to sort his thoughts, and then clear them away. At the Gateway, Guardians could think of nothing besides maintaining their grip on their glaives and ignoring the exhausted burning of their muscles. There would be precious little rest and food over the next two weeks. All Guardians who wished to join the ranks of the Elite were required to spend a month at the Gateway. The vast majority failed in that task.

Once every century he returned, as all the Elite did, to remember how vital their task was. The stay was only a few days in duration, just enough to reinforce, but not enough to lose hope.

Two weeks would seem an eternity.

He paused at the top of the range and stared down at the horrors below. The vast door to the Outer Realm
bulged with the effort to contain the Nightmares within. A mere crack of red revealed how the portal strained at the hinges and lock. From that tiny opening, black shadows flowed like water, pouring out and infecting the Twilight around the Gateway until lava-spewing pustules formed from the ground. Guardians by the thousands fought an endless battle, their glaives flashing with ruby light as they cut down Nightmares in countless numbers.

Misery and despair was a fetid stench in the air. His stomach roiled, but that, too, was thrust away from his thoughts. Descending the rocky cliff face while cutting a swath through the flood of shadows, Aidan tried to ignore the screams the Nightmares made just before they burst into puffs of foul-smelling ash. Their cries were high-pitched, a near whine that sounded like a child’s call for help. It was a horrifying sound that could drive a man mad, and it battered him from all sides.

The Guardians at the bottom noted his approach and began to fight with renewed vigor, taking comfort in his presence. Their regard depleted him, sapped his strength, weighted him down. He could not show fear or hunger or exhaustion in front of the others, and the energy required to maintain the façade had long ago become too draining.

Suddenly the plan to forget Lyssa in this hell was forgotten. Instead her memory floated above all others, a shining beacon of hope and happiness until all he thought of was her, and how he could be himself with her, take comfort in her, as he could with no one else. She was the power behind every swing of his glaive, every gasping breath, every growl that tore from his throat.

She was the hope he had thought long dead, the goal to reach, the dream to work toward. It was no longer the Key.

It was
Lyssa
.

The door pushed open on well-oiled hinges. It was a near soundless whoosh of air, but as had happened every day for the last two weeks, the hairs on Lyssa’s nape rose and her muscles tensed. Her entire body was anxiously awaiting the return of the man who stirred it so thoroughly, a man who never came.

She stared down at her drawing pad and forced herself to relax. Against her back, the bark of an oak tree pressed into her skin. Around her, a green meadow with yellow wildflowers swayed gently in a softly fragrant breeze. Nearby, a stream flowed. Though she loved the beach more, she couldn’t find it in her heart to imagine herself there again. The beach was Aidan and lust and longing, things she wanted desperately to feel, but refused to allow herself to. He would not return, and hoping for what would never be was a wasted endeavor.

Still, she felt him. The power and strength he’d given to her with his caring had made her surroundings possible. Without him, she would still be sitting in the dark, going crazy.

She sighed and went back to waiting for the night’s Guardian to appear, telling herself that she had to move on and be grateful for what she had shared with Aidan, even if she still wanted more.

His people were an odd bunch, approaching her so cautiously, clearly uncomfortable with their inability to in
tegrate themselves seamlessly into her dream world. The Guardians requested that she perform odd exercises, but she remembered Aidan’s admonishment to reveal nothing of importance. She never complied or showed them the skills she practiced when she was alone. They, in turn, never revealed very much about themselves. It was a bizarre arrangement, and she couldn’t help but wonder how long it would go on.

She also couldn’t help but wonder where Aidan was, and what he was doing. Was he fighting with his sword somewhere? Or living out some woman’s fantasy?

The last thought made her shiver with a cold chill that swept across her skin in a wave of goose bumps. It was then that she lifted her gaze and saw him.

Aidan.

She blinked to make certain it was he, and when his lusciousness didn’t disappear, her heart raced with joy.

He entered her dream with that carelessly arrogant stride she loved, but there was something different about him…an invisible mantle of great weight that seemed to hang on his shoulders. His chiseled features—so harshly, blatantly gorgeous—were set in hard, unyielding lines. His eyes cold. His steps relentless as he passed her and went to the stream.

He began to strip off his garments, which were blackened by ash and singed in places. The golden skin of his back was bared to her hungry gaze, and then an ass so perfect it made her want to weep in awe. Still he said nothing. Lyssa struggled to think of something to say.

Instead she made the stream deeper and the water warmer, and put soap on the pebbled bank to assist his bathing.
She widened the blanket she rested on and pictured a picnic basket. Then wine. All the while she watched him, her blood heating and then becoming sluggish with desire. His large hands soaped his chest, gliding over mouthwatering pecs and ridged abs, his biceps flexing and bunching with latent power.

He was a sexual fantasy brought to life. The sight of him did crazy things to her nervous system, but what most affected her was the desolation in his blue eyes. What had he seen? Where had he been? His clothes and demeanor made it seem as if he’d gone to hell and back. What had they done to him to make him so…
empty
?

When Aidan sank beneath the surface to rinse his hair and then reemerged, the sunlight caught the droplets on his skin, turning him into some ancient pagan god. Dripping and unabashed, he stepped naked onto the bank and made no effort to retrieve his clothes. She drank him in, every inch of his tawny skin, her gaze lingering on the heavy cock and balls that were impressive even without an erection. He sank to his knees beside her and then caught her close before rolling to his back.

They lay there, his embrace laced with an underlying possessiveness that thrilled her. His breath was hot at her crown, his hands kneading her spine. Inhaling the clean scent of his damp skin, Lyssa stroked his chest in a rhythmic, soothing caress and felt at peace for the first time since he left.

“It was selfish of me to return,” he said finally, his soft brogue making her nipples ache.

“If you need something from me, I want to give it to you.”

“I’m going to hurt you, but I couldn’t stay away.”

Lyssa lifted her head and made a soft moue at the torment so evident in his features. “Why?”

Why would he hurt her? Why couldn’t he stay away?

“I need you,” he whispered hoarsely.

“I’m here.” She ran her fingers through his damp hair, then toyed with his pendant. “Tell me what happened.”

His large hand slid up to cup the back of her neck, and then pulled her down to his waiting lips. “I ache for you.”

He took her mouth with a deep glide of his tongue across hers.

“Aidan…” She sighed, her craving for him nearly unbearable.

“Do you love him?”

She blinked in surprise at his question, but didn’t misunderstand. “Chad? No. We’re just friends, although he would like to be something more, and I’m considering it.”

“Then let me have you again, one more time, before he takes you from me.”

The raw plea made no effort to hide within the brogue. That he should need her so much…that he would come to her despite the rules that said he shouldn’t…that he would open himself to her so completely, broke open something inside her.

She had heard tales of his prowess from the other Guardians. She knew how fearsome he was, how powerful. He was a near legend among his people, held up as a model for others to emulate. Captain Aidan Cross was said to have no weakness, no qualms, only a single-minded pursuit of the destruction of his enemy.

But that wasn’t true. She knew him to be sensitive and kind, in his own brooding way.

His solitary house on the hill, far away from the nearest community, told her how he kept to himself. He was estranged from his family. Reclusive and alone, he was said to be a far different man from the one who had graduated from Elite training with unbeatable scores and boundless optimism for the future.

He leaned on no one, yet he reached out to her.

“What can I do?” she asked, lost. This was not a medical problem with textbook answers. This was a wound to the soul, and she had no clue how to treat it.

“Touch me.” As he caught her hand and held it over his heart, his gaze locked with hers. “Seduce me. Like you did that first night on the beach.”

For a breathless moment she stared at him. Her fierce warrior retained his humanity, his generosity of spirit, his capacity for kindness. Perhaps it was because of his ability to feel and empathize that his calling wounded him so deeply.

Self-preservation be damned. He needed her, and she would do whatever was required to make him whole again.

She crawled over him, her hips pressed to his, her hands on his chest, her only desire to tend to him and console him. Bending at the waist, Lyssa licked his lips. “Like this?”

“Yes…”

Her fingertips found the flat points of his nipples and rubbed. “This, too?”

He shivered, the sensation traveling up her arms and
heating her blood. “Hell, yes…” His eyes drifted shut.

Her lips to his ear, she asked, “What’s your favorite color?”

There was no hesitation. “The color of your eyes.”

She blinked, startled. “They’re shit brown.”

“They’re beautiful,” he murmured, stroking her back in a rhythmic caress. “I look into them and forget everything.”

Melting inside, she realized his tenderness was the catalyst her dreams had been missing her whole life. Only when she was with him did she feel the peace she needed to rest and recharge.

She imagined away her clothes, leaving behind a chocolate-colored lace bra and thong set. In her waking life, she would never wear such an impractical bit of nothing, but this wasn’t her waking life. Aidan was the man of her dreams, in every possible sense.

Wiggling her hips, she let him feel her suddenly bare skin against his rock-hard cock. “How about this?”

When his thick lashes lifted, she found herself staring into fathomless blue of such stark intensity, her heart skipped a beat.

“I’m not leaving this time.” His tone was a warning.

“You better not,” she retorted. Reaching up, Lyssa cupped her breasts through her bra, kneading them, her thumbs and forefingers pinching her erect nipples.

“Tease,” he growled, his eyes half lidded with lust.

“Look who’s talking, Mr. Get-Her-Hot-and-Leave.”

A smile tugged at the corner of his beautifully sculpted lips. She traced their shape with a fingertip, admiring their perfection. As her mind filled with images of what she
wanted him to do with that mouth, a sharp flare of awareness spread across her skin, making her sweat.

“I’ll do all of that,” he murmured, cupping her bare buttocks in his hands and squeezing. “And so much more.”

“Not fair that you can read my mind, but I can’t read yours.”

“You’ll enjoy it better if I
show
you what I’m thinking.” His voice was pure sin and sex.

Restless and achy, she wiggled deeper into his touch. “How much time do we have?”

“Not enough.” Aidan rolled and lay beside her, one hand supporting his head, the other running along her side.

She laughed and pushed his hands away.

“You’re ticklish.” This time his smile broke free and transformed his features.

Amazed, she touched his face because she couldn’t bear not to. “Christ, you’re gorgeous.”

The smile faded, and she remembered—what she saw was not who he was. He was an alien.

A sudden chill moved through her, making her shiver. Noting her discomfort, Aidan pulled her closer, sharing his warmth, and then she didn’t care about the fact that they came from different dimensions.