STORM: A Standalone Romance (106 page)

Levi’s townhouse had become something of a playground for me. I loved to while away an afternoon by lurking through the sumptuous rooms, not having to pretend very hard that they belonged to me.

              Each time I decided on a room that was my favorite, the designation lasted for all but a handful of minutes until I revised it, settling on something different. I would love the foyer for its rich wooden floors, the way my shoes sounded when I walked across it, the curve of the staircase up to the second floor, the high ceiling and its dangling chandelier. It was the room that set the tone for the rest of the house, and it did not disappoint.

              But then I would remember everything about the master bedroom—the enormous four-poster bed with long, maroon curtains, the shaggy alabaster rug that shielded my bare feet from the cold floor, the way the lights could dim and fade and brighten according to whatever mood needed to be lit, and, of course, the amazing sex I was having in there. It was perhaps the room I spent the most time in—though that didn’t stop Levi and me from christening other parts of the townhouse with our coupling.

              He hadn’t been joking when he’d told me several weeks ago that he thought he was getting addicted to me. We had sex at least twice every day, his appetite just as rampant as mine. I was always after that light at the end, the physical release that would temporarily calm my inner turmoil. Sex with Levi was better than sex with anyone I’d ever experienced it with, and my view on my own sexuality was shifting.

              Sex was something I’d binged on back in my hometown. I’d seduce any man without knowing him, knowing that if I could manage to get off at the end, the orgasm would remove me from my cares—if only for a few brief moments. That relief would be enough for me to throw myself at whoever came by, whatever they looked like, with no regard for my personal safety or their personalities.

              I hated myself for my weakness and lack of resolve. I hated the fact that I used sex as a coping mechanism for the very real horror I’d undergone—the one that continued to torment me, even though it was in the past. And I especially hated that my anxiety about my sexual proclivities just continued to pile on top of all the other anxieties I already had.

              It was a cycle I couldn’t break.

              Then Levi had come along, out of the blue, to see what he could do to save me. My brother, in death, had pushed the exact person I needed in my direction, and I had seized upon him with no intention of letting him out of my grasp.

              With Levi, sex was a sure thing. Our bodies were in tune with each other from the start, and we never said no to each other. We never wanted to say no. That’s how good it always was. We never failed to bring each other to completion, to make each other feel desired and cherished. Levi once missed an entire week of work simply because neither of us wanted to get out of bed or put clothes on. It was like a fever dream of pure carnal ecstasy.

              His hands roamed every inch of my body; his tongue followed the paths his fingers decided on.

              Our lips locked so that we had to breathe for each other, taking in air that was exhaled in moans, the only language we needed for the entire week.

              Our fingers threaded together, my arms pushed up over my head, gripping his hands as he pumped again, and again, and again.

              The way my whole body ached when it wasn’t being touched, making me press myself up to him, torso to torso, belly to belly, my legs against his, wishing that I could simply sink into him and never resurface as only myself.

              If we weren’t already addicted to each other, that was the week when it happened, barely stopping to eat or drink, continuing our affections in the shower whenever one of us decided it was time to take one.

              I cringed to think of what the staff members at the house thought of us. We were neither discreet nor quiet, not bothering to cover up when we’d go for a bottle of water down in the kitchen, or a quick bite of something to eat from the refrigerator—perhaps bringing back up to the bedroom a bottle of chocolate syrup for a little fun.

              I hoped that, after the first day, the staff members had just decided to make themselves scarce.

              It was a novelty, realizing that I was living in a place that came with its own staff. The townhouse, itself, wasn’t that much bigger than my old house had been. It was two stories, but it came with a butler, a cleaning army of two, and a full-time chef.

              For someone used to getting her primary nutrition at a gas station in my walking rambles around my hometown, the chef was a real novelty—as were the meals she made whether I requested them or not.

              Full breakfasts magically appeared on a table by the bed: crispy bacon, succulent sausages, eggs fluffy, over easy, poached, hardboiled, pancakes as light as air, thin crepes encasing fresh berries and cream, oatmeal in all incarnations, omelets stuffed with mushrooms and crisp peppers, and muffins I’d prefer even over cookies and cakes.

              There wasn’t a food item that was off the menu during lunch. I could wander down to the kitchen and request something from the chef or just give her free rein over what I’d be eating, which was what I did most often. I liked to watch her bustle over the stove. No matter what a person did, if they loved it, it was always apparent while they were doing it. She watched each pot and pan boil and simmer, stirring and tossing its contents, never burning or undercooking a single item. It was a glorious sight to behold, and I always felt that the food tasted even better after I’d watched her make it.

              I often requested breakfast items just because they were so good, but she also made a mean soup and sandwich combination, pastas, meats, Asian fusion, tacos, wraps, everything.

              The chef was on call for dinner, but we often didn’t utilize her services then. Levi enjoyed returning to the townhouse after work to find me there, waiting for him. He had been taking me to a different place for dinner every night since I’d arrived in the city, and I had yet to be disappointed.

              “What if I liked last night’s place so much that I wanted to go there tonight?” I’d tease him as he drove us to yet another restaurant.

              “You’ll just have to wait until it rotates back into our dinner schedule,” he’d say, those blue eyes sparkling even if his mouth was set in a straight line.

              “And just when will that be?”

              “Years and years from now.”

              It made me laugh, but it was true. There were so many restaurants just within a couple blocks of the townhouse. The idea that we were going to eat at every restaurant New York City had to offer without repeating one of them—as some restaurants closed and new ones opened in their places every single day—was exciting. My hometown’s claim to fame was a brand-new McDonald’s restaurant that I’d refused to eat in. I could get whatever I needed at the gas station for cheaper, usually. Coming to the Big Apple had broadened my world more than I could’ve possibly imagined. We saw everything—Times Square, the Empire State Building, the Statue of Liberty, Central Park. We did everything—ice skating, the movies, Broadway, boat rides. We went to museums together, to art galleries, to libraries and shops and shows. Even though I had the money I’d brought to the city with me, Levi insisted on buying me new clothes and shoes. We made a game of it, me trying on nearly every item in the little boutiques he took me to, modeling each and every one of my new outfits for him.

              In the end, I had more clothes than I ever had, even growing up, back in my hometown. And he still didn’t think I had enough. Sometimes he would come home from work and surprise me with a soft cashmere scarf or a silky dress or a handbag.

              “You have more fun shopping than I do,” I told him as he handed me a lingerie set of satin so soft that it seemed to have been spun from clouds.

              “I just happened to see it in a window somewhere,” he said, laughing. “What, you don’t like it? I can take it back.”

              “Don’t you dare,” I gasped, hugging it to my chest. “It’s mine, now. Too late.”

              “I could do without shopping,” he admitted, smiling as I held the lingerie out to admire it in the light from the window. “I just like the look on your face when I bring you something new.”

              I flushed and gave him a chaste kiss. The man had good taste in women’s fashion—good enough to doubt certain things about him. But then we had a delicious romp in bed and all of those misunderstood assumptions were laid to rest.

              “Why are you still single?” I’d ask him.

              “Who says I’m single?” he teased, dodging the question with humor until the day I demanded to know.

              “Do you want me to have a girlfriend?” he asked, folding his hands on the table between us like I imagined he must do at his business.

              “I don’t know,” I said, shrugging roughly. “I just think you’re a good catch, that’s all. I’m curious why you don’t have one.”

              “Never had time for one before,” he said, handing me a piece of pie the chef had prepared earlier that day. It was still warm.

              “Bullshit,” I snorted at him, taking a bite. God, she outdid herself with every dessert I tasted. This one had delectable, buttery, flaky crust encasing sweet peaches. It was perfect in every way.

              “I’m serious,” he said, sipping the brandy he preferred for dessert. “I’ve been focused on work for more years than I care to admit. It’s the reason I’ve enjoyed the business success I’m fortunate enough to have. But that also means that other areas of my life have been…sadly lacking in attention.”

              “Well, I hope those areas that have been sad are happy now,” I said, leaning back in my chair and resting my bare foot in his lap, fondling his cock through his pants.

              “Oh, I promise that part of me is very happy these days,” he said, winking at me, snagging my foot, and giving me a massage that was almost as good as the pie I continued to inhale.

              “I don’t want anyone else to know about you,” I said. “You promise me you’ll never tell anyone just how good of a boyfriend you are. You’re all mine.”

              “Oh, so I’m a boyfriend now?” he asked, raising his eyebrows at me. “Whose boyfriend?”

              I laughed, feeling self-conscious. “A boyfriend in training. You still have much to learn.”

              Even as my life broadened, and my relationship with Levi broadened, as well, there was still one area of my existence that wasn’t broadened, and it troubled Levi all the time.

              “When are you going to figure out what you want to do with your life?” he asked me one night after we’d gotten back from our nightly dinner explorations, after we’d made love slowly, gently, our stomachs full of rich wine and food.

              I raised myself up off of his chest to look at him, trying to gauge the seriousness of his words.

              “When are you going to get off my back about it, Dad?” I half joked. His half smile told me that he was serious.

              “Don’t get me wrong, I like coming home to find you here,” he said, “but I don’t want you to get bored. Or fall behind. Or, I don’t know, Meagan. Help me out here. What do you want to do with your life?”

              We’d had a version of this conversation while aboard Levi’s jet, flying into the city that fateful day we’d met. I’d been able to distract him from a resolution then by joining the mile-high club, but it was looking like he wanted an answer, now.

              “Well, there are a lot more bars here than there were in my hometown,” I said, shrugging. “I know how to pour a beer and mix a cocktail, more or less.” Most of the patrons there had taken their liquor straight, but I figured I’d learn fast, if I had to.

              “But you don’t want to work in a bar forever, do you?”

              “What’s wrong with that?”

              Those blue eyes were worried, and I couldn’t figure out why. He had all the money in the world that he could possibly need—billions of dollars. Why was he so interested in what I was going to do with money? In a flash of shame, I realized that I was mooching off of his kindness. He probably wanted me to get a job and move out of his townhouse so he could go back to his own life. At the very least, I expected that he’d like to see a little help with the rent. I realized it probably wasn’t very affordable.

              “If your passion is working in bars, then I applaud you,” he said. “Do you want to own your own bar? Manage one? Oversee the operation of a whole string of franchises?”

              “I’ve overstayed my welcome, haven’t I?” I asked him. It was an awkward question when we were both lying naked in bed, pressed up against each other.

              “No, absolutely not,” he insisted. “I’m just concerned about you.”

              I didn’t want his concern, or his attention, for this area of my life.

              “I’m not bored,” I said. “How could I be bored in this place?”

              His television got more channels than I thought possible, and one of my favorite pastimes had become watching foreign-language soap operas. It was fascinating trying to figure out the dramas without the aid of English subtitles, and I found myself more entertained by the explanations I came up with to make sense of the characters’ overwrought interactions.