Authors: Robert B. Parker
We picked Gavin up on a rainy morning in Winthrop Square where Gavin and Warren had offices. We tracked him unseen and relentless to Starbuck's, where he had a coffee and a big bun. Then we tracked him back to Winthrop Square and stood in doorways alert for every development until about 6:45 that night when he came out and walked over to the Waterfront and went into his condo on Lewis Wharf. Hawk and I stood around for maybe half an hour more, to be sure the rain had soaked through evenly, and then we went over to the bar in the Marriott.
"Feel like a fucking haddock," Hawk said.
He ordered a Glennfidich on the rocks. I had a tall Courvoisier and soda.
"You see any clues?" I said.
Hawk looked at me without speaking. The rain had beaded brilliantly on his smooth head.
"No, me either," I said.
The bar was full of dark suits and white shirts and colorful suspenders and ripe cigars. There were a few women there, mostly in red dresses. Several were smoking cigars.
"This the best idea you got?" Hawk said.
I knew that being uncomfortable always made him peevish.
"When in doubt, follow someone around," I said.
"How come when you in doubt," Hawk said, "I get to do half the following?"
"Because you are my friend," I said.
"Oh," Hawk said. "That's good. I was thinking it was because I was an asshole."
"That too," I said.
The next morning it was still rainy, but I was better dressed for it in a brown leather trenchcoat and a Harris tweed scally cap. Hawk wore a black leather poncho and a big cowboy hat with silver conchos on the headband.
"First rule of good tracking," I said. "Remain inconspicuous."
"Exactly," Hawk said.
We stood as best we could out of the weather, drinking coffee and discussing some of our most interesting romantic encounters. Hawk's were more exotic and of a grander scale. So he got to talk more than I did. Gavin came out and walked over to Starbuck's and had coffee and a bun and walked back to his office. Hawk and I dogged his every footstep. That is, both of us dogged him on the way to. I dogged him alone on the way back, while Hawk bought us two large Guatemalan coffees and two lemon scones and caught up with me back in the doorway.
"Spot anything?" Hawk said.
"Shut up," I said.
"Shame they don't sell donuts," Hawk said.
"Pretty soon, I figure, Dunkin' will be selling scones."
"Don't it always seem to go," Hawk said.
We moved on from romantic interludes to Junior Griffey and Michael Jordan and Evander Holyfield, which turned us inevitably to Willie Mays and Oscar Robertson and Muhammad Ali, which segued into Ben Webster and June Christie, which then moved associatively to Gayle Sayers and Jim Brown, which led on to David McCullough's biography of Truman and an old Burt Lancaster western called Ulzana's Raid. We had started on naming our all-time all-white basketball team, which Hawk contended was an oxymoron, and had gotten as far as Jerry West and John Havlicek when Gavin came out of his office building with his collar up and got into a black Chrysler Town Car parked in front of the building with its motor running.
"Oh boy," Hawk said.
Hawk had parked on a hydrant at the right spot so that we could go whichever way Gavin could take in the one-way warren of downtown. It had denied us the comfort of a warm dry car, but we would have been warm, dry, and lonely had we done it another way.
We followed the Town Car through the maze of center city digging. Then we were on the Southeast Expressway and in time we were onto Route 3.
"This is the most excitement I had since that lemon scone," Hawk said.
The Town Car cruised at the speed limit. We lay pretty well back off of Gavin; there wasn't much traffic and the exits gave you ample warning. We were in no danger of losing him. In Hanover, they turned off and we drifted off after them and went west a few hundred suburban yards and pulled into the parking lot of an Italian restaurant named Elsie's. Gavin's driver pulled around behind the restaurant and parked. Hawk parked on the other side.
"He knows me," I said.
"I'll go in," Hawk said.
He took off the cowboy hat and the leather poncho and stepped out of the car. In two steps he was into the entryway, with barely a rain drop on his cashmere blazer. I slipped into the driver's seat in case we needed to be quick and tried to find jazz on the radio and failed. Besides all the current music, there was classical and there was a couple of music-of-your-life stations. I had long ago decided that Gogi Grant singing "The Wayward Wind" was not the music of my life, and I settled for a classical station.
In maybe two minutes Hawk came out and got in the passenger side. He was smiling.
"Richard having lunch," Hawk said.
"And you know with who," I said.
"Uh huh."
"And you are going to tell me as soon as you get through grinning like a goddamned ape," I said.
"That a racial slur?" Hawk said.
"Yes," I said.
Hawk grinned some more. "Haskell Wechsler."
I leaned back a little in the driver's seat.
"The worst man alive," I said.
"'That's Haskell," Hawk said. "Bet Gavin buys the lunch."
"Haskell know you?" I said.
"Of course."
"He spot you?"
"Of course not. Haskell don't notice nothing when he's eating."
"Let's join them," I said. "See what the specials are."
"Couple of bruisers at the table to the right," Hawk said as we walked in.
"If they try to shoot me," I said, "prevent them."
Hawk nodded. "I think I understand," he said and walked over and stood behind the table where the bruisers were carbo loading on linguine with clams. Gavin and Wechsler were sitting alone next to them at a table for four. I pulled out one of the empty chairs and sat down with them.
"Boy," I said, "good to see a familiar face, isn't it?"
Haskell had a mouthful of lasagna. He chewed it and swallowed and said to Gavin, "You know this guy?"
Gavin nodded. "And I don't like him," he said.
Haskell had a sloppy drink of red wine and put the glass back down and wiped his mouth on his napkin without untucking it.
"So," he said and looked straight at me, "you heard him. We don't like you. Take a fucking walk."
"I'm sure, Richie, you just give me half a chance, we could be pals again."
Without looking back, Haskell spoke to one of his bodyguards.
"Buster," he said, "move this douche bag away from my table."
Buster looked like the man for the job okay, but he was in a stare-down with Hawk.
"Got another guy here, Mr. Wechsler," Buster said.
"The nigger? So move him too."
"I know the nigger," Buster said.
Something in Buster's voice got Wechsler's attention. He half turned, his fat face made fatter by the huge mouthful of lasagna he was working on. He looked at Hawk and then turned back and looked at me, then he swallowed his lasagna and wiped his mouth again with his napkin.
"Hawk," he said, mostly to himself.
"You missed a spot," I said, "over there on the right. Where the smile lines would be in a human being."
"So whaddya want?" Haskell said.
His voice had a hoarse quality as if he needed to clear his throat. And he had some kind of speech impediment, not quite a lisp, that made his s's slushy.
"I want to know about Richie and you," I said, "and Carla Quagliozzi and Brad Sterling and Civil Streets, and Galapalooza and Francis Ronan and his lovely wife Jeanette, and a shooter named Cony Brown and how all of that is connected, or if it isn't, where the connections are and where they aren't."
Wechsler continued to eat as I talked. There was sauce on his shirt front and some on one sleeve of his suit jacket. His sallow face had gotten red from the energy he put into the eating. He looked at Gavin, still chewing, and said around his mouthful of food, "Who the fuck is this guy?"
"Private cop," Gavin said, "working for a loser named Brad Sterling."
"Who the fuck is Brad Sterling?"
"Nobody you know, Haskell."
"See. I don't know nothing," Wechsler said, "so take a fucking hike for yourself. Save yourself a lot of trouble, you do."
"Trouble is my middle name," I said.
"I never knew your middle name," Hawk said.
"So now you do."
"You have no obligation to converse with these men in any way," Gavin said to Wechsler. "My advice is to say nothing further to him."
"Are you Haskell's attorney?" I said.
"We'll have no further comment," Gavin said.
"How about the check," I said. "Who's going to pick up the tab?"
Gavin shook his head. I picked up a spoon and held it like a microphone toward Haskell.
"How about you, sir? Do you have any comment about the check."
"I got one comment for you, asshole. You just got yourself in serious trouble. Maybe not now, this ain't the time or place. But there will be a time and place, and you can fucking count on that."
"Just why am I in trouble?" I said.
"'Cause you fucking bothering me at lunch is why," Wechsler said.
Gavin gestured at the waiter, who was standing around uneasily. Nothing had happened to require calling the cops, but something was in the air, and he knew it. He came promptly with the check, and Gavin gave him a credit card and he scooted away.
"You don't even read the fucking check?" Wechsler said. "How you know they ain't cheating your ass."
Gavin shrugged and kept his eyes on the waiter, who returned very promptly with a credit card slip for Gavin to sign. Gavin signed the slip, added a tip, took his copy, and stood.
"Come on, Haskell," he said and he started out. Wechsler wiped up the last of his lasagna with some bread, stuffed the bread in his mouth, and stood up chewing.
"We'll be in touch, asshole," Wechsler said and waddled after Gavin. The two bruisers stood and followed their boss. Buster studied my face as he went by. It was the first time Buster had stopped looking at Hawk. When they left, Hawk sat down beside me at the table they'd departed.
"Well, you got their attention," Hawk said.
"'Bout all," I said.
"Looks to me like Gavin is Haskell's lawyer."
"Yes," I said.
"'That's something."
"I'm not sure it's worth dying for," I said.
"Most things aren't," Hawk said. "Why we don't do it more often."
"Yeah, well, let's try not to do it this time," I said.
"Have you any hint yet where Brad might be?" Susan said.
"How would I know anything?" Susan said.
"The question was idle," I said.
"If I knew something, wouldn't I tell you at once?" she said.
"Of course," I said. "And vice versa."
She thought about that for a moment and nodded.
"Yes," she said, "of course. My question was idle too."
The spaniel swam vigorously about in the pond, his owner standing right at the edge in case the dog needed help. Occasionally the dog would lap a little of the water. The ducks had apparently forgotten about him. They clustered about one of the swan boats on the other side of the bridge luring peanuts from the passengers. A stumble bum wandered by us wearing all the clothes he owned, muttering to himself as he went. Below us the spaniel finally had enough of the pool, swam to the side, and bounced up out of the pond. His owner took a quick step back out of harm's way just before the spaniel shook himself spasmodically. Then he bent down and attached a leash to the spaniels' collar and said something to him, and they went off toward Beacon Street together.
"You fooled me," Susan said suddenly.
"Which time," I said.
"When I met you. I thought you were rough and dangerous."
"And I'm not?"
"No you are. But I thought that's all you were."
I turned and looked at her. She was staring straight ahead.
"You've been talking to someone," I said.
"I called Dr. Hilliard."
"'The San Francisco shrink," I said.
"Yes."
I nodded, although she couldn't see me, since she was staring intently at the middle distance. She didn't say anything. I had nothing to say. We were quiet. The swan boat came under the bridge with its attendant ducks. The first three rows of benches were occupied by a group of Japanese tourists. Most of them had cameras. I always assumed that somebody in their passport office told them that if you travel in a foreign land, and you are Japanese, you are expected to carry a camera.
"She reminded me of some of the issues we had to resolve when I went away from you before," Susan said.
"Um hmm," I said.
"My attraction to inappropriate men, for instance."
Her voice had a musing sound to it, as if she weren't exactly talking to me.
"Um hmm."
"And I said to her, `Remind me again, if I had this need how did I end up with Spenser?' "
"You thought I was inappropriate," I said.
She turned her gaze away from the middle distance and onto me. She seemed startled.
"Yes," she said.
"And now you don't," I said.
"You are the best man I've ever known. If anything, I may not deserve you."
I didn't know what to do with that, but the conversation was going my way and I didn't want it to stop.
"Because the way your father was," I said.
"And the way my mother made me feel about it."
"Your first love was an inappropriate man."
"And my mother convinced me that I didn't deserve him."
"You only deserve men like Brad, or Russell Costigan."
"Yes."
"But when you get them, you can't stay with them because they aren't up to you."
Susan smiled tiredly.
"Something like that, though I wonder, sometimes, if there's anyone who wouldn't be up to me."
She said it in a way that put quotation marks around "up to me" and boldfaced "me."
"This is about why you asked me to help Brad Sterling." I said.
"I guess it is."
"So why did you?"
"Some sort of guilt, I guess. I married him for his failings and when they persisted, I left him."
"Doesn't seem fair, does it?"
In view from every place on the little bridge were flowers in spring luxuriance. On the Arlington Street side were beds of tulips which would dazzle you if you were a flower kind of guy. The ornamental trees were in lacy blossom as well, their flowers much less assertive than the tulips. There were a lot of other flowers as well, but I didn't know what they were. I wasn't a flower kind of guy.
"Brad's only fault," Susan said in a voice that seemed to come from somewhere far off, "was to continue to be what I married him for being."
I waited. Susan sounded like she might be through, but I didn't want to say anything to keep her from going on. We were quiet. The small wind moved through the flowering trees and shook some of the blossoms loose and scattered them on the surface of the pond. A brown duck with a bottle green head went rapidly over to investigate, found it not to his liking, and veered away. Susan remained still looking at the pond. She was through.
"A number of other people have left him," I said. "Including his own sister."
"I know," she said and started looking at the distance again. "Poor guy, he's lost so much in his life. Maybe…"
She shook her head and stopped talking again. "Maybe if you'd stayed, he would have turned into something else?" I said. "That's some power you've got there, toots."
"I know, I know. But… he very much didn't want the divorce."
"Of course he didn't. But you can't stay with someone because they want you to."
"I know," Susan said.
She knew it was true, but she didn't believe it. I took in some air and let it out.
"You made a mistake marrying Brad," I said. "And you corrected it. You took up with me for the wrong reasons and then found out they were wrong and made a mistake with Russell Costigan and corrected that. It may have been bad for them, but it was good for me and, I think, for you. There's no reason for guilt."
"And now I've got you involved in a big mess," she said.
That seemed a separate issue to me, but I thought it wise not to be picky.
"Big Mess is my middle name," I said.
She paid no attention, or if she did she was not amused.
"What kind of person acts like that?" she said.
I thought about looking at the distance for a while. But that didn't seem productive. I took in more air and let it out again, even more slowly than last time.
"A person like you or me, an imperfect person, hence human, like you or me. I have nearly all my life tended to solve problems by whacking someone in the mouth. I contain that tendency better than I used to, but it hasn't gone away. I have killed people and may again. I haven't taken pleasure in it, but in most cases it hasn't bothered me all that much either. Mostly it seemed like the thing to do at the time. But the capacity to kill someone and not feel too bad is not one that is universally admired."
"Your point?"
"You said I was the finest man you ever knew. Probably am. Most of humanity isn't all that goddamned fine to begin with. I am flawed. You are flawed. But we are not flawed beyond the allowable limit. And our affection for each other is not flawed at all."
She had stopped looking at the distance and was looking, for the first time, at me.
"And every day I have loved you," I said, "has been a privilege."
She kept looking at me and then soundlessly and without warning she turned from the bridge railing and pressed her face against my chest. She didn't make a sound. Her hands hung by her side. I put my arms around her carefully. She didn't move. We stood that way for a time as the pedestrians on the bridge moved spectrally past us. After a while, Susan put her arms around my waist and tightened them. And we stood that way for a time. Finally she spoke into my chest, her voice muffled.
"Thank you," she said.
"You're welcome."
And we stood some more and didn't say anything else.