When Rhys finished cooking, his food was only moderately edible, but I picked at it anyway. He pulled stools up to the island, explaining that he only ate in the dining room when it was absolutely required. He soaked his food in some kind of sauce, but it didn’t smell at all appetizing. He downed his Mountain Dew with fervor, but I just sipped at my water.
“So what do you think?” Rhys nodded at the plate of food I was trying to eat.
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“It’s pretty good,” I lied. He had obviously worked hard on it, and his blue eyes showed how proud he was of it, so I couldn’t let him down. To prove my point, I took a bite and smiled.
“Good. You guys are hard to cook for,” Rhys admitted sourly and took a mouthful of his own food. “I don’t know how you can eat this plain, though.”
“I don’t know how you can eat it with sauce.” I wrinkled my nose at the smell of it.
“To each his own, I guess,” Rhys laughed lightly. When he looked down at his plate, his sandy hair fell into his eyes, and he brushed it away.
“So… you know Finn pretty well?” I asked carefully, stabbing my fork into a mushroom.
Their banter earlier had left me curious. Finn seemed to genuinely enjoy Rhys, even if he didn’t approve of his cooking, and I had never seen Finn enjoy anybody. Patrick, he had kind of liked, but I think that had been more of a means of getting closer to me. He openly looked down on Matt, and while he respected and obeyed Elora, I didn’t think he really liked her.
“I guess.” Rhys shrugged like he hadn’t really thought about it. “He’s just around a lot.”
“Like how often?” I pressed as casually as I could.
“I don’t know.” He took a bite and thought for a minute. “It’s hard to say. Storks move around a lot.”
“Storks?”
“Yeah, trackers,” Rhys smiled sheepishly. “You know how you tell little kids that a stork brings the babies? Well, trackers bring the babies here. So we call them storks. Not to their faces, though. They don’t like it that much.”
“I see.” I wondered what kind of nickname they had for people like me, but I didn’t think that now was the best time to ask. “So they move around a lot?”
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of the more prestigious families. Finn’s been here off and on for like the past five years or so. But when he’s not here, somebody else usually is.”
“So he’s like a bodyguard?”
“Yeah, something like that,” Rhys nodded.
“But what do they need bodyguards for?” I thought back to the rod iron gate and security guards that had allowed our entrance into Förening in the first place. When I had looked around the entryway, I remembered seeing a fancy alarm system by the front door. This all seemed like an awful lot of trouble to go to for a small community hidden in the bluffs.
“She’s the Queen. It’s just standard procedure,” Rhys answered evasively, and he purposely stared down at his plate. He tried to erase his anxiety before I noticed and forced a smile at me. “So how does it feel being a Princess?”
“Honestly? Not as awesome as I thought it would be,” I replied, and he laughed heartily at that.
Rhys kind of straightened up the kitchen after we finished eating, but he explained the maid would be in tomorrow at ten to take care of the rest of it.
He gave me a brief tour of the house, showing me all the ridiculous antiquities that had been passed down from generation to generation. There was room that only had pictures of previous Kings and Queens. When I asked where a picture of my father was, Rhys just shook his head and said he didn’t know anything about it.
Eventually, we parted ways. He cited some homework he had to get done, and he had to get to bed because he had school in the morning. I wandered around the house a bit more, but I never saw either Finn or Elora. I played around with the stuff in my room, but I quickly tired of it. Feeling restless and bored, I tried to get some sleep, but I had slept too late in the afternoon.
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the dishes. If I were at home, Matt would be sitting in the living room, reading a book under the glow of the lamp light. He’d be telling me to get to bed, and I’d be trying to convince him that we should stay up all night and watch
The
Gladiator
again. I didn’t really like the movie that much, but Matt loved the architecture, so he would sometimes cave.
Right now, he was probably sitting in the kitchen, staring at the phone.
Or driving around. He had probably tracked down Patrick and threatened injury on him. Maggie was probably crying her eyes out, and I know Matt blamed himself for it. If he hadn’t let me go see Mom, I’d still be there. Or at least that’s what he thought, and it really wasn’t that far from the truth. But he hadn’t actually let me go see her. I’d made it so he didn’t have a choice.
My actual mother was somewhere in this house, or I assumed she was, anyway. She had abandoned me with a family that she knew nothing about except that they were loaded, and she knew there was a risk that my mother could kill me. It happens sometimes. That’s what she said. When I came back, after all these years away from me, she hadn’t hugged me, or even been that happy to see me.
I didn’t want to be here anymore. I threw off my covers and changed out of their chintzy pajamas into my regular old clothes I had packed in my bag.
Leaving behind everything they had given me, I crept quietly down the stairs. In a way, I felt bad for leaving them like that. Well, I felt bad for leaving Finn and Rhys without saying good-bye, but Rhys would understand. Finn might not, but maybe I didn’t care what he thought anymore. Hopefully, he stopped tracking me and had tuned into Elora so he wouldn’t notice I was leaving. That would be a damper in my plans.
Once I got outside, I realized I had no way to get home and no idea how to get there. The cold night air rested heavily on me, and I knew I had to figure something out. I looked around, but I didn’t have to look far. Rhys had left his motorcycle sitting out in the driveway. Thanks to my grand theft auto a couple years back, I knew how to drive one. I looped my arms through my backpack, and popped the bike in neutral so I could coast it to end of the 133
driveway. Just as I suspected, Rhys was the kind of guy who left his keys in the ignition. Luck was on my side tonight.
The bike sped easily through the winding streets of Förening, and I barely even noticed the houses sleeping in the trees. There was the iron gate at the end of the road to contend with, but when I got to it, it was just as I thought. They opened up as soon as they saw me approaching. They didn’t care who left; they only checked when you came in.
Once I was out of town, I topped out the bike and almost lost control a few times, but it felt worth it. I stopped at the first gas station I saw and bought a map. It was actually fairly easy to get back. It was mostly highway, and once I got to town, I’d be able to figure it out from there. I drove as fast as I could the whole way there, afraid that Finn or somebody would notice I was missing and chase after me. Even if it meant that I never got to see Finn again, I didn’t want to go back.
I might never see Finn again. That took a painful minute to sink in, and I actually started to slow the bike down. Then I reminded myself that he had no interest in me, and he’d be leaving shortly to track someone else. And even if he didn’t, I would barely see him. Since he was no longer tracking me, he would no longer be interacting with me. Fighting back tears, I pushed the bike harder and couldn’t wait to get back.
The sky had that eerie blue glow of very early morning when I pulled up in front of my house. I hadn’t even turned off the motorcycle before Matt threw open the front door and came jogging down the porch. Last time I had come home with a stolen motorcycle, he had freaked out on me and started yelling. This time, it was different. Even in the dim light, I could see how stricken he was. He threw his arms around me and held me so tightly to him, I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t care, though. I hugged him just as hard, and over his shoulder, I saw Maggie running out of the house, crying. I buried my face in his shoulder, breathing in his familiar scent and relishing the protection of his arms.
After a whirlwind few days, I was finally
home
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The joy of being home lasted about ten minutes. There was hugging and crying, and that was nice. Then there was Maggie yelling at me. It was a little shocking that she was the one that went to anger first, but Matt looked too exhausted to be mad. Maggie chased me into the house, yelling shrilly about how they had thought I was dead or murdered, and I was tempted to point out that those were pretty much the same things. I sat on the couch and let her go on and on, knowing that I really deserved it. I may have left for a good reason, even though I wasn’t that sure of it anymore, I definitely hadn’t left in the right way.
Sneaking out in the middle of the night when I know that their lives revolve around me wasn’t the nicest thing I had ever done.
All the while, Maggie walked back and forth in front of me. Tissues were still wadded up in her hand, and her eyes were red from all the crying she had been doing. Matt stood off to the side, leaning against the fireplace, watching me with this drawn expression on his face. He never said a word. I only mumbled yes or no when it was appropriate, but it was mostly just Maggie talking.
“I just can’t believe you would do this!” Maggie had started winding down, and she stood in front of me, one hand on her hip and stared at me. “I mean, of all the stupid things you’ve done over the years, you’ve
never
done anything like this. You never ran away. What on earth possessed you to do something like this?”
“I don’t know,” I shrugged.
“Were you mad at us? Did we do something wrong?” Maggie was almost pleading with me, that sad, desperate look in her eyes. I had messed up, and she was wondering what she had done wrong.
“No, of course not.” I swallowed hard and shook my head. “It wasn’t anything you did.”
“Then why?” Maggie demanded. “Where did you go?”
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“I went with Finn,” I said quietly. On the drive here, I had been trying to think of a good line to feed them, but I thought the easiest, most believable thing would be to just blame it on a boy. I actually had gone with Finn, and Matt already didn’t trust him, so that was the best way to go.
Maggie and Matt exchanged a look. That’s what he had been afraid of.
Maggie turned to look back at me, but Matt just stared out the window. She had tried a haphazard sex talk with me a few years ago, but neither of them were really prepared for me to grow up. When she looked back at me, she took a deep breath.
“Did…” She nervously played with the cross around her neck. “Did you go with him willingly? I mean… he didn’t force you or anything? Did he?”
“No, no, of course not!” I insisted.
“Did he hurt you at all?” Maggie asked carefully, and Matt tensed up.
“No! No, he didn’t do anything wrong!” The last thing I wanted was to get Finn in trouble. Things hadn’t turned out the way I wanted them to, but he had been nice to me. And I still liked him. My heart ached at the thought of him.
“Good,” Maggie sounded relieved. Matt had closed his eyes, preparing for the worst. I didn’t want to know what he would do if he found out that somebody had actually hurt me. “So then why did you go?”
“I don’t know,” I sighed. “Finn… Just to get away. I thought it’d be fun.”
“Where did you go?” Maggie asked.
“Um, just… a cabin. His friends’ cabin.” I looked down, afraid she could read the lie on my face.
“Where did the motorcycle come from?” Maggie pointed out the window to the bike, and I realized that I hadn’t really thought this plan through at all.
“It’s his friends.” Almost truth. Rhys was kind of his friend. I think.
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impound the bike. Oh, and I need to call them and let them know that you came home. I’ll feel like such an idiot too. They kept insisting that you’d just run away, but I kept saying, ‘No, Wendy isn’t like that.’”
“I’m sorry,” I mumbled.
“I have to make phone calls.” She shook her head and walked into the kitchen, preparing for the arduous task of explaining to everyone that I was home safe and that she was a fool.
Maggie left us alone in the living room, and Matt continued staring out of the window for a minute. I twisted my thumb ring around my finger and waited for him to say something. From the kitchen, I could overhear Maggie making apologies to someone that kept cutting her off.
“You can’t do that, Wendy,” Matt said finally. His voice was low and quiet, but it made far more of an impact than all of Maggie’s shouting. I suddenly felt like crying and I stared down at my lap. “If you’re unhappy here, or if you want to see a boy, we can work with that. But you can’t just leave like that.” He exhaled shakily. “I don’t know what I would do if something happened to you. I can’t even…” He shook his head. “You can’t ever leave like that again.”
“I won’t. I’m sorry.” I blinked back tears and looked up at him. He was chewing the inside of his cheek, the way he did sometimes when he was trying not to let on how upset he was. “I am so sorry, Matt. I know I screwed up. I promise it won’t ever happen again.” He looked over at me, appearing more haggard than he ever had before.
“Have you slept?” Matt asked, and I shook my head. “Why don’t you get some rest? We can talk more later.”
I had to go past him on my way to the steps, and I paused next to him.
He looked at me curiously, and without thinking, I threw my arms around him and hugged him. At first, he didn’t do anything, but he was probably in shock. I could count the times I had initiated a hug in my entire life on one hand. Then he hugged me back and kissed the top of my head.