Temporary Perfections (18 page)

“Anyway, I had a boyfriend, too. The first, and the last, for now, in my second life. For the first time I didn’t have to worry about concealing how I made a living.”

“How did it go with him?”

“He was—is—a shithead. So it went the way it always goes with a shithead. After less than a year, it was over.”

“And since then?”

“Since then, nothing.”

I tried to calculate mentally how long it had been. She understood and spared me the effort.

“I haven’t been with a man for close to a year.”

It seemed like a good time not to say anything.

“I feel as if I’m living my life backwards, if you know what I mean.”

I nodded my head. I don’t know if she saw me, because she kept looking straight ahead.

“What about the Chelsea Hotel?”

“That’s the last part of the story. I really like going to college, but it’s not enough for me. I needed something more. I had too much time to think, which isn’t always a good thing.”

“It almost never is.”

“Exactly. So I figured it was time to find a job, and the idea of opening the Chelsea Hotel came to me while I was talking to a gay friend of mine. I like the hours: We get started around eight in the evening, and we go home around four in the morning, and then I sleep until lunch-time. Plus, having a place to go every night, lots of people to see, makes me feel a little less lonely.”

There was a boy walking a dog of indeterminate breed on the sidewalk across the street. The dog started barking ferociously, doing his best to yank his leash from the boy’s hand. Pino/Baskerville calmly turned his head in the barking dog’s direction, stopped, and gazed across the street at him. He neither barked, nor growled, nor showed any intention of lunging at the dog—though he certainly could have, because he wasn’t on a leash. He looked over and did nothing, but I imagined that in those seconds terrible images ran through his head—the sounds of violence, the metallic taste of blood, the pain when his ear was ripped off his head, fangs, claws, life and death. Nadia whispered a command and the huge beast methodically arranged
himself horizontally, assuming a sphinx-like position. He didn’t even look in the other dog’s direction.

At last the boy managed to drag the barking dog—by now in the throes of hysteria—down the street. The nocturnal silence was restored, and we resumed our stroll and our conversation. The gaps between the clouds were bigger now, and the sight of the night sky made me happy.

“Do you think I told you the whole truth? Or do you think I changed things to make it less depressing?”

“No one ever tells the whole truth, especially when they’re talking about themselves. But if you ask a question like that, it means that in one way or another, you know that and you’ve done your best. So, if I had to guess, I’d say you probably told me something pretty close to the so-called truth.”

She looked at me with an expression that mixed curiosity and concern, as if she’d just heard something with unexpected consequences.

“Really? No one ever tells the truth?”

“The whole truth, no, no one ever does. The ones who tell you that they’re being completely honest—and they may even believe it—are the most dangerous. They don’t know that lying is inevitable. They have no self-awareness, and they’re prisoners of themselves.”

“Prisoners of themselves. I like the sound of that.”

“That’s right, prisoners of themselves, and incapable of figuring out who they really are. You just go ahead and ask one of those people who claim always to tell the truth how he does his work, what his personal strengths and weaknesses are, how he interacts with other people, or anything else that has to do with his, or her, self-image. You’ll discover something interesting.”

“What’s that?”

“They don’t know how to answer. They give rote answers and rely on stereotypes, or they describe the qualities they wish they possessed but don’t. Qualities that correspond to the false image that they have of themselves. Have you ever heard of Alan Watts?”

“No.”

“He was an English philosopher. He studied eastern cultures, and he wrote a beautiful book about Zen. Watts wrote that an honest person is someone who knows that he is a complete impostor and is nonchalant about it. According to that definition, I’m halfway there. I know that I’m an impostor, but I still can’t quite pull off the nonchalant part.”

“You are completely crazy.”

“I hope I can take that as a compliment.”

“You can.”

“I think it’s time to go to sleep,” I said, glancing at my watch.

“That’s right, you have a serious person’s job. You can’t stay in bed until noon like I do.”

“I’ll walk you back to your car.”

“There’s no need. That is, unless you need a ride home. I don’t know where you live, but if it’s far away, let’s go back to the car and I’ll take you home.”

“I live just a short walk from here.”

“Then there’s no need for you to come all the way back to the car.”

“Well, thanks for the talk, and for everything.”

“Thank you.”

“Baskerville is a good sort of demon after all.”

“Right.”

After a moment’s hesitation she leaned toward me and
gave me a kiss on the cheek. Luckily, Pino chose not to view this as an act of hostility, so he didn’t rip me limb from limb.

“See you.

“Bye.”

“Well, that’s ridiculous.”

“What?”

“I’m blushing.”

“I hadn’t noticed.” When I really make an effort, I manage to say some truly idiotic things.

“Well, now I really should go.”

“Are you sure you’ll be all right walking back by yourself?”

I said the words, and then my eyes met Pino’s.

He had the kind of patient expression reserved for those who aren’t necessarily bad, but clearly are not very bright.

The next day, I asked Maria Teresa to step into my office. I still relied on her for anything having to do with clients and files that had been archived prior to Pasquale’s arrival. She knew exactly and immediately how to find things and she remembered every file that had come through the office.

“Do you remember Quintavalle? He was a member of that little group.…”

“Of course I remember him. I’m never happy when we take on drug dealers as clients, but at least he was a well-mannered and likable young man.”

“That’s right, he was likable. We haven’t heard from him in years now.”

“Either they never caught him again or he’s stopped dealing, which would make me very happy.”

“Or else he has a new lawyer.”

“Impossible. You literally saved his life that time. Winning a plea bargain with the evidence they had against him …”

“Do you remember who the prosecutor was?”

“Of course I do.”

“Then you have to admit it wasn’t all that amazing an achievement. He’d sell his parents into slavery if it would
clear a case off his desk. Anyway, do we have Quintavalle’s phone number lying around somewhere? I need to talk to him.”

“It’s definitely in his file, unless he has a new number.” Maria Teresa is perfectly aware of how drug dealers operate. They frequently change their cell phones and SIM cards to elude police monitoring, so their phone numbers tend to be somewhat unstable. That, however, applies to their work phones. Their personal phones tend to have a longer half-life.

I asked her to take a look in the file, and five minutes later there was a piece of paper with his phone number on my desk.

Quintavalle answered on the second ring.

“
Buon giorno
, this is Guido Guerrieri, I’d like—”

“Counselor Guerrieri,
buon giorno
! What a pleasure. What an honor. To what do I owe the pleasure? I didn’t forget to pay last time, did I?”

“Damiano, how are you?”

“Doing fine, Counselor. And you?”

I hate it when people say they’re doing fine, but from Quintavalle it didn’t bother me particularly.

“Doing fine myself, thanks. I need to ask you something, but I don’t want to talk about it on the phone. Would you mind terribly dropping by my office?”

“Of course, it’s no problem at all. When would you like me to drop by?”

“If you could come by today, you’d be doing me a favor.”

“How about seven o’clock?”

“A little later would be better, that way I’ll be done with my appointments and we can talk without being interrupted.”

“Okay, I’ll see you at eight.”

“Thanks. And … Damiano?”

“Yes?”

“I’ve moved. We’re not at the old address anymore.”

“I know, I know. I’ll see you there at eight o’clock.”

When I talk with someone like Damiano Quintavalle—a professional criminal, who makes a living from his illicit activities—I’m even more doubtful than usual of my ability to decipher the world and distinguish between so-called good and so-called evil.

In the first place, Quintavalle is an intelligent young man. He comes from a normal family. He attended college, though he never got a degree. He reads the newspaper and occasionally reads books. Also, as Maria Teresa said, he’s nice. Funny, without being vulgar. Well-mannered. Courteous.

But he earns his living by dealing coke.

He’s one of those dealers who operate on their own or with a very small group; they tend to make house calls, like the client whose case I had appealed to the Court of Cassation, unsuccessfully, the week before. Quintavalle gets a call, for instance, about a special party. He shows up at the party as an invited guest, then he fills the order, gets his money (with a substantial bonus for home delivery), and leaves. Or else he travels around Italy making deliveries to wealthy purchasers who are reluctant to dirty their hands by having contact with ordinary drug dealers.

The police and prosecutors have gone after him repeatedly, but he is fanatically cautious, he’s very careful about his cell phones, and he’s only been caught with drugs in his possession once. The quantity was small, so he got off with a few weeks in jail and a highly advantageous plea bargain.
Quintavalle has a wife who owns and runs a
profumeria
and a son who’s in middle school. Quintavalle’s son is a great kid; his one shortcoming is that he wants to be a lawyer when he grows up. He thinks his father is a businessman who travels frequently for work. And in a way, he’s right.

Quintavalle walked into the office at eight o’clock on the dot. I jumped up to greet him—I’ll admit that I don’t do this for all my clients—and clasped his hand.

“Counselor, how are you?”

“Fine, and you?”

“Pretty good, though these aren’t easy times.”

“Why not?”

“Oh, I don’t know. Maybe I’m just getting old, but I sense a threat, an imminent danger.” That’s exactly what he said: “an imminent danger.” It’s not the sort of expression commonly used by a professional drug dealer.

“As if something terrible might happen any day now. That they might arrest me with ironclad evidence of everything I’ve done over the years. Or—much more likely—one of the thugs who run the city now might come to tell me that I can’t work independently anymore, that I have to work for him.”

“What thugs?”

“That’s right, you don’t take on cases involving organized crime, so you might not know about it, but things are grim here in town. There are new gangs in the city, and they want to take charge of everything. They’ve formed an alliance to monopolize all the neighborhoods, and in particular they want to control extortion, loan sharking, and, of course,
drug dealing. If someone really does come around and tell me that I have to work for them, well, that would be the time that I finally quit this racket and find an honest job.”

“That wouldn’t be the end of the world, you know. Maybe there’s nothing happening. Maybe it’s just your subconscious telling you that it’s time to quit dealing.”

“Right. My wife tells me more or less the same thing. The problem is that with a normal job, you just don’t make the kind of money I’ve gotten used to.”

“You have the shop. You wouldn’t starve to death. And your son is growing up.”

“Right, maybe that’s the real reason. I’m not afraid of prison, but I couldn’t stand it if my son found out how I make a living. Anyway, I doubt that you asked me to come in so we could chat about my future. What can I do for you?”

“To tell the truth, I’m not even sure what it is that I need. I don’t quite know where to start.”

“Try starting from the beginning.”

It was good advice. I did as he suggested and told him the whole story. I told him that I was trying to figure out what had happened to Manuela—he’d never heard of her—and that the only lead I had involved Michele Cantalupi, who was a regular and fairly heavy user of cocaine. That was why I had called him and wanted his help. Did he know Cantalupi, had he ever had him as a customer, and in general had he ever heard of him in his dealings?

“Michele Cantalupi?”

“Yes. I don’t know if this is helpful, but they tell me he’s good-looking.”

“Michele. It sounds familiar, but after all, it’s not an unusual name. Do you have a picture of him?”

“No, I don’t. I can try to get my hands on one. But never
mind the photograph. There’s something I want you to tell me. If this guy was dealing to people in the upper echelons of society, would you know him?”

“Not necessarily. Of course, I know lots of people in town, but Bari is a big city and there are a lot more people consuming—and therefore selling—cocaine than you might imagine. There are times when I deliver fifty grams of cocaine to a party, and then find out they used it all up. That night, at the party.”

“Do you mind if I ask you a few questions about how the system works?”

“No, of course not. You’re my lawyer, and anyway, it’s for something important. Ask me anything you like.”

“Say a young man goes to these kinds of parties. How would he evolve from a mere user to a …”

I realized that for some reason I was embarrassed to use the term “drug dealer,” as if I might offend Quintavalle, who was in fact in that line of work, by using a slightly distasteful phrase. He noticed my discomfort.

“A drug dealer. Really, Counselor, don’t worry about it, I’m not offended. It’s a fairly typical process. Let’s imagine that there’s a group of people who want to buy a certain quantity of drugs, to divide up, or even to use all together, as friends. They take up a collection and then one of them goes and meets with the dealer. By the way, the Italian Court of Cassation has ruled that the purchase of drugs for group personal consumption is not a crime under the law and … well, I guess I don’t have to tell you that. In other words, this one guy is making the buy for his little group of friends and at a certain point it occurs to him that he could make a little profit on the arrangement. So he starts to buy the drugs on his own and sells them just to his friends at a mark-up.
Then word starts getting around: This guy can get drugs in a hurry. If you need some coke, he’s the guy to call. He gradually builds up a network of customers, he gets to know more and more suppliers, maybe he goes out of town to buy the product because it’s better or cheaper somewhere else, and anyway, out of town is always better, and that’s how someone turns into a drug dealer.”