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THE AFFAIR

Copyright © 2011 by Frances Dyanne Davis

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This book is a work of fiction. Characters, names, locations, events and incidents (in either a contemporary and/or historical setting) are products of the author’s imagination and are being used in an imaginative manner as a part of this work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual events, locations, settings, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

 

ISBN: 978-0-9844348-3-1

Manufactured in the United States of America

First Edition

Cover Design

A.M. Wells

 

 

 

THE AFFAIR

 

BY

 

DYANNE DAVIS

 

 

Dyanne Davis TITLES:

 

The Critic

Another Man’s Baby

Many Shades of Gray

Two Sides to Every Story

Forever And A Day

Let’s Get It On

Misty Blue

The Wedding Gown

The Color of Trouble

 

Anthologies:

 

Continental Divide (Lotus Blossoms Chronicles 11) Anthology

On My Knees (Destination Romance) Anthology

 

Titles under F.D. Davis:

 

In The Beginning

In Blood We Trust

The Good Side of Evil (Carnivale Diabolique) Anthology

Lest Ye Be Judged

 

 

Dedication:

 

To David Abrahamson: Thank you so much for sharing your journeys with me. I don’t think I would have felt Jeremy and Dimitra’s story so deeply had it not been for you. You didn’t believe me when I told you it might take years to see the book in print, did you? (smile) It’s been years since we communicated but you are often in my thoughts and more so during the editing of this book. Here’s wishing you light to guide you on future journeys.

Acknowledgements:

 

As always, thanks and glory to God for allowing me without censure to tell the stories of the voices in my head.

 

To Jeremy and Dimitra, thank you for choosing me to tell your story. I’m honored

 

Mary O’Gara, a great psychic and teacher. The years of studying with you will no doubt be reflected in this and future work. Thank you for telling me of your own experiences to offer validity to a scene contained in this book that felt so real to me that I knew it had to be true. You confirmed that not only is the unbelievable possible, but happens each moment of every day.

 

To Debbie Pfeiffer for putting me in touch with people who were willing to talk to me. Even fiction requires research and were it not for you I would not have been able to do such a thorough job.

 

To Peggy Scolan and Patricia Smith: Thank you both for being so willing to share your impressions with me.

 

Sidney Rickman, I wonder if you’ve goggled your name. I don’t think I go a month without mentioning you somewhere in the cyber regions. I know you can’t help wondering what’s next and groaning when you see another mss arrive for you with my name on it. I promise you it’s the characters that like talking so much, not me. (smile) As always, Sidney, I couldn’t do this without the world’s best editor.

 

A shout out of course to the members of my Yahoo family. Hello family!

 

Starting and ending with the best. Bill and Bill Jr. My prayer is that God continue to bless the three of us with a long and healthy life together

 

THE AFFAIR

 

Blood was everywhere. The smell of copper filled my nostrils and I gagged. My hands were covered with the warm sticky substance and my eyes burned with tears from the pain of leaving my beloved. One look at my husband Jeremy and the truth was evident. I was dying. His fear wiped away my own. I had to be brave for him. My dear sweet husband, my soul mate forever and ever.

He was holding me in his arms, his own hands covered in my blood. His tears ran freely down his brown cheeks as he struggled with what he knew but couldn’t accept. And he obviously ached from the knowledge, determined to heal me, unwilling to let me go. It was apparent our gifts would not help. In all of the world there was but one mystic with powers great enough to combat the inevitable, but he was too far away and my link with him was weakened by the loss of blood. I gazed on my husband. His pain was more than I could bear. I listened for sounds of the baby I’d just given birth to and didn’t hear him.

“Jeremy, the baby,” I said with all the strength that was left in me. “I want to see our son. He’s not crying. Bring him to me, please.”

For the longest time Jeremy didn’t move. He was holding me so tightly that the bones in his hands were pressing into the small of my back, revealing his desperation. He seemed determined to link with me, have me take from his life force to sustain my own. He would die for me. I knew that as surely as I knew I would never allow it.

“Jeremy, bring me our son,” I said, pushing him away from me. “Get the baby,” I cried, desperate to hold our son.

I waited, praying for just another breath. I couldn’t die before I touched my son, made sure he knew he was loved. I passed my hand over his limp little body. “Breathe, little one,” I urged, “breathe, and live.”

I stuck my bloody fingers into his small, silent mouth, pulling out the remnant of the hard birth he’d endured. “I love you, my son,” I cried. “I love you.” Then I gave him the only thing I had left to give, his birthright. My gifts.

“Love him,” I urged my husband, pulling him toward me, laying his hand on the son I knew he no longer wanted. “Promise me you’ll love him. It wasn’t his fault. I wanted to give you a son. Love him as I do, Jeremy, and take care of him. Do you promise, Jeremy?”

“I promise,” he said with a steady stream of tears cascading down his brown cheeks. My heart broke anew for my husband’s pain. I clutched his hand, kissed it with lips that even I knew were chilled and I placed his hand on the back of our son. I blessed them both, loving them, pledging to love them always, to find them in the next life.

With my lips pressed firmly to my baby’s, I breathed the last of my life’s breath into my son. I could feel my spirit leave my body. Blood filled my lungs and I choked.

I woke gasping for breath, tears streaming down my face.

“Are you alright? Did you have the dream again?” Larry asked.

“Yes,” I answered, looking at my husband Larry, feeling dazed that one moment I was with a man I knew I was married to, the other part of my soul, and the next I was in bed with this man I’d been married to for an entire lifetime. I trembled, shaken by the intensity.

“Larry, it didn’t feel like a dream.” I wanted to explain but he shushed me as he usually did.
“It has to be,” he asserted. “You’re not crazy enough to think it means anything. Go back to sleep, honey. It was just a dream.”
“Larry, it was real.” I pleaded with him to listen. “I don’t know how, but it was real. I lost my son, I lost my baby.”
“Your son is alive and well, Mick. Derrick is fine. Now stop this nonsense and go back to sleep. You need your rest.”

His voice was stern, a bit of the anger, the disappointment he felt at my continuing to have the dream coming through in his words to me. In the beginning of our marriage, he’d comforted me. Now he merely wanted me to stop the dreams. As if I could.

I lay back down afraid to sleep. I’d had some version of this dream for most of my life. Even as a child I’d dreamt of my husband with hair the color of night and our baby son, and my heart ached for both of them. I wanted to find them.

My mother had taken me to a shrink, demanding that I stop my nonsense, stop my obsession with the voices I heard calling to me. So I had. At least that was what I told her. But it hadn’t mattered; when my parents’ marriage fell apart my mother blamed the collapse on me, on what she called my craziness.

For a while the dreams came less often and were less vivid. My life was so busy, consumed with everyday problems, a husband, children and a job. I had no time for the lover in my dreams, no time for a child I’d held for only a moment, a child to whom I’d given my dying breath. Still, I grieved, but I grieved alone, afraid to have Larry call me crazy as my mother had.

Eventually I slept again, and the next day my husband and I woke at the same moment. It was the day of our twenty-sixth anniversary. I could tell in his eyes, in his kiss, that the memory of the dream lingered with him and it hurt him.

I felt that he blamed me for having the dream and I knew that for the rest of the day I would walk on eggshells doing everything in my power to make him happy. Denying my own truths would do that. I was very aware of that fact and I resented it. But like everything else in my life, I would shove my own feelings aside. Larry’s wishes would come first. They always did.

We gave each other several kisses and wished each other a happy anniversary. I knew my husband was still upset over this part of me that he wished he could banish. I couldn’t blame him. I had no business dreaming of another man, real or imagined.

“Michelle, I’m thinking maybe you should see someone. Those dreams of yours are becoming more frequent. I don’t understand why you’re having them. Maybe you’re not happy with me, with us. There has to be something going on.”

I looked at Larry, about to tell him that I wasn’t happy, hadn’t been happy for a long time. His next words stopped me before I could arrange the words I wanted to say.

“Of course you’re happy,” Larry declared. “Who wouldn’t be? We have a good solid marriage, four beautiful daughters, a handsome son and wonderful grandchildren. You’d be crazy not to be happy.”

And that was what stopped me. I’d be crazy not to be happy. I’d be crazy to keep thinking of this dark-haired lover, this child that had never existed.

“Anything special you want to do for our anniversary?” Larry asked, giving me the look that said he did. He wanted to make love and I knew it was in part because he loved me, in part because he wanted to drive the thoughts of another man from my mind and my heart.

So we did. We made love and I clung to my husband as memories rolled over me, memories I couldn’t shake. A supreme knowing filled me. This time I could not push it away. Something was going to happen to tear apart our home. I could feel it with every atom of my being and I didn’t know if I could stop it. I didn’t even know if I wanted to stop it.

We exchanged no gifts, no cards for our anniversary. We simply made love, made that our declaration. Larry thought we had everything that we needed; he thought we should save our money for the kids, help them out, not waste it on useless gifts when we already had everything that we wanted.

The only problem was that I didn’t have everything that I wanted. The home and cars meant nothing. I wanted to feel validated. I wanted to stop feeling dead inside as if I’d lost something very special to me and would never find it. I wanted to talk about this with my husband without fear that he would want to commit me. I wanted to find one person who understood what I was saying, who didn’t think I was crazy.

Larry had an entirely different view of our marriage. He was happy. We were friends, we enjoyed each other’s company and we had sex regularly. The only fly in the ointment was my dreams, and those he dealt with by reprimanding me, advising me to get more rest, to stop watching romantic movies that were putting crazy ideas in my head.

I suppose that was our main difference. He felt my dreams were something I needed help for, and I felt they were more. There were many times I felt that if Larry would simply talk with me about the dreams I could put them into proper focus. But he either couldn’t or wouldn’t. And what I felt in the end was cheated.

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