The Bridge Beyond Her World (The Boy and the Beast Book 2) (20 page)

“I can’t help but wonder,” said Valcere, “what were you and Osiiun doing together out there, alone?”

Between the pain and the fatigue of the ride back to the Hold, Savarah had wracked her mind for a decent excuse to this question. There was only one, and she
hated
to have to use it. Hated vehemently the thought of it.

“Unbeknownst to many, I am a female. If I wore dresses and learned how to smile, you would not be asking me what I was doing out alone with a man in the wilderness.”

Valcere appeared genuinely surprised at her response.

“I’m heading to join Meluscia’s peace delegation,” said Savarah. “I assume that’s why you’re waiting here for me.”

“Yes and no,” said Valcere. “I want your help, Savarah. With Osiiun dead, I could use your cunning as a councilor. I could also use your eyes as you travel to the Verdlands. You and I both know any peace Feaor promises will only last as long as Trigon’s last breath. If Meluscia is made Luminess, the onyx throne will be sat upon by the weakest, most buttery ass ever to fart on its smooth black stone.”

Savarah snorted. “You are asking me to sabotage her delegation?”

Valcere gave a slight shrug. “Not in those terms. I am only suggesting you do everything within your power to keep the Hold from crumbling into chaos. If I am given the opportunity to rule, you would have a position of power at my side. I want to make the Hold strong once again, as it was not long ago in its history.”

“I share your desire,” said Savarah. “I’ll think about your offer on my trip to the Verdlands. And I promise you this: I will keep my eyes open.”

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MELUSCIA

Meluscia stood outside the stables, directing servants piling supplies upon the grass, but Rivdon’s words clouded her thoughts. Valcere had ears among many of the soldiers. This was becoming an issue that could hold serious repercussions. Rivdon had said a soldier had informed Valcere of her conversation with Heulan in her room. Meluscia realized it must have been the man who had escorted Praseme. The pressing need to leave quickly was stronger now than ever, but the question of what would happen once she left hovered before her like an oncoming storm.

Was Heulan in any danger? He’d voiced his support of her over Valcere. Was the man capable of treachery? He’d ridden with her father from before she was born. She wanted to feel confident her father would have known the man he had hand picked to succeed him.

But then, her father’s reasoning had not impressed her of late.

What could she do but ride like a black tiger was at her back, and pray her father held on until she returned.

The wind in the courtyard whipped her red hair across her face. She drew a hand through the stray strands covering her eyes and turned.

She froze.

Mica stood in front of her, his short hair blowing in the wind. He took a step closer. “These are my best horses,” said Mica. “They’ll outrun almost anything you can meet out there.”

Her tongue was stuck to the roof of her mouth. The wind brought a trace of his scent, refreshing the night’s memories when he had been so close, his fragrance had filled her every breath.

“Thank you,” she managed, and moved to turn away and escape the torrent of emotions.

“Please, I have one request.”

His eyes were waiting for her when she turned back.

Impossible things ran through Meluscia’s mind. One request,
take my love with you
. One request,
never forget how much I need you
.

“Please,” he said. “Take care of Praseme. Bring her back safe.”

Meluscia stared at him, then finally nodded.

He turned and left. She watched him. The urgency to leave was forgotten. Mica began cleaning the shoe of her horse, his strong arms making quick work of his task when another hand, not so gentle, came down upon her shoulder.

Meluscia turned.

“I’m going with you,” said Savarah.

Meluscia’s eyes combed over the ragged girl before her, stopping at the thick bandage wrapped around her shoulder. “I was hoping you could but…your wounds? Are you able to ride?”

“Don’t ask me stupid questions, sister,” said Savarah. “Who else is coming?”

“Our number will be small. To show King Feaor that the Hold can be humble and trusting. I’ve chosen to bring only four with us. Terling will be our scribe. Praseme for serving. Bezmerenna and Belen to serve under her…and, if need be, all of them can be listening ears among Feaor’s servants.”

“No soldiers?”

“Only you,” said Meluscia, “Unless you have different council. Is the road to the Verdlands more dangerous than I think?”

“Belen can fight, he’s joined us on patrol before. I say you’ve chosen well enough, sister.” Savarah looked out toward the Verdlands, her eyes bloodshot. “If you let me lead, I can promise our path will go uninterrupted.”

Meluscia nodded. “You have the reins.”

_____

The storm Meluscia feared back at the Hold manifested itself in pounding sheets of rain. Lightning cracked the sky, revealing momentary flashes of the perilous terrain Savarah had led them to.

The horses hugged the darkened cliff walls as they descended into Gagarin’s Gorge. Meluscia held tightly to the reins with one hand, while the other gripped the rain blanket made of goose wings she had wrapped around her head and body. The angle of the rain soaked her despite her efforts, her hand nearly frozen holding her head covering tightly together.

It was only when they reached the bottom of the gorge that the wind lightened, making the cold and rain more bearable.

“Can you keep going?” asked Savarah, her harsh voice issuing from the moonless dark beside Meluscia.

“Yes,” she forced herself to say. “But we should check on the others.”

Savarah twisted on her horse to face the rest of the party. “Your future Luminess wants to continue,” she shouted. “Does anyone have a problem with that?”

Meluscia cringed. Her sister had a way with words.

When there came no protests, Savarah twisted back around and silently took the lead again.

Meluscia knew that everyone in their party felt just as miserable as she. And even if Savarah hadn’t twisted their arms, she doubted any would have asked to rest. They knew how urgent their journey was. They had to return before her father passed from this life.

As they continued on, Meluscia brought her horse beside the dark form of Savarah’s mare.

“What happened to you and Osiiun? I was told Nightmares fell upon you.”

“I’m alive. That’s all I have to say of that.”

Meluscia remained quiet. The rain was lighter now and ahead, on the other side of the gorge, she found a break in the clouds where the stars shone through.

Savarah’s words broke the silence. “What does it feel like to love someone?”

There it was again, that strange change in her sister manifesting itself in words. The loveless void throbbed within Meluscia’s heart at her sister’s query.

“Ask someone else, for I’ll never know.”

Savarah laughed coldly. “You can’t hide it. It’s in your voice. All the time. All of you have it—or nearly all. A warmth. You’ve sucked from a mother’s breast. Been held. Cooed at. I never knew such kindnesses. Perhaps that is where it forms, this love you share.”

“Were your parents monsters? You’ve only ever told me about their deaths. What were they like when you were growing up?”

Savarah was quiet for a time. “Yes, I was raised by monsters. Cruel beyond words. It is not time to tell you about it. Not yet.”

Meluscia hesitated as questions filled her mind. Finally, she asked, “When you recount your parents’ deaths…you have always told it as a tragedy, their final moments have always sounded so horrible. Like you truly loved them.”

Her words were a kind of question, spilling out raw and unformed. They lingered for only a moment before the patter of rain drowned them away.

“We all long for something we do not have,” said Savarah. “I have my fantasies, you have yours.”

Meluscia ached with curiosity as to what Savarah’s life had truly been like. Savarah had claimed her parents were nomads from a distant tribe. Was that part of her fantasy, too? What really
happened to
that little eleven-year-old girl who showed up at the gates of the Hold. What was her true story?

The moon suddenly appeared overhead though the rain still fell lightly upon their party. Meluscia turned and looked back at the horses behind her. Praseme’s face was bathed in moonlight and a quiet smile came to her lips as she caught Meluscia’s eye. Meluscia pivoted back around, emotions tearing her heart in opposite directions. Mica’s request that she bring Praseme back safely had made Meluscia heartsick with sorrow.

Mica’s last words made clear, it was Praseme he wanted returned safely home.

Praseme. Sweet, beautiful, worthy.

A sense of dread began to creep over her. She shouldn’t have brought Praseme with her.

Meluscia watched the moon disappear behind the clouds again. She was not as strong as she should be. How quickly her shame had slipped away, when here she was, on the verge of winning her father’s approval and becoming Luminess, and the very desires she must shun were still raging fierce.

Instead of abstaining, she’d tasted what no Luminess should, dividing her more than ever into two persons, one frightened that the other would ruin everything, and the other so focused it could overpower that cowering woman inside and consume her with its ferocious hunger.

Devour her.

Control her.

Turn her thoughts upon the unthinkable.

The moon captured her eye again. She thought of the Makers. They must see her. But what did they see? Were they watching her now with pity or with scorn? Did they see her heart for her people and her passion to make peace? Or was she broken beyond repair—ruled by lust, destined for the trash heap of history rather than the annuls of the Luminaries?

…Or, were they watching at all?

LOAM

Damien,

I want to see you again, soon. Your kind eyes, your wise voice, they give me confidence. I know my decision is right. I’ve remained quiet here, among the Guardians, but it is hard. I want to speak and share my new knowledge of the charter, but I resist. I feel like a woman with eyes open, walking among the blind. No one realizes how it will be bad for Loam. They are full of easy answers.

It must be such a heavy burden for you, knowing the independence of your world rests on the Opposition Movement alone.

I have learned so much from you, Damien. You bear the weight with humble passion and determination. Your people are strong and their independence is worth fighting for.

I look forward to the pleasure of our next meeting.

Your faithful convert,

-Zoecara (Letter to Prince Damien of the third Quorum)

CHAPTER 20

AVEN

“We’re here,” said Arentiss. “Does this look promising?”

Aven pried Arentiss’s hand from his and walked a few paces past her, surveying the sprawling open space. He wished Winter was there to see this. Low, soft curving hills interspersed with dots of woodland. Cow and sheep pastures. Horses in wood fenced paddocks. The distant chatter of men and women working the fields in groups. It reminded him so much of his former life. Out among a low growing crop of lettuces were two dogs running down the rows. He had always wanted a dog, but the Baron had outlawed them as nuisances.

Aven breathed deep and tasted the scent of wild grasses and pollens and the faint traces of hay and manure. This was like home, but far better. A free farm. A land far away from tyrants.

He turned and grinned at Arentiss. “Yes, this land is gorgeous.”

Pike stood beside Daeymara, lost in the view as Aven had been, and Daeymara, so much shorter than Pike, stood beside him, her head barely up to his chest. Daeymara gave Aven a playful little smile, her eyes watching his face with interest. The wind swept her short, dark hair across her eyes, but it didn’t seem to bother her. The four of them wore the common clothing of Loam. Pike was a picture of what he could have become by his own will. A man. Aven was drawn to the longing he saw in Pike’s eyes, but he reminded himself it was only an enchantment. His sins removed without so much as a drop of real remorse. Without even the memory of who he was. A monster turned into a tame, idiotic buffoon.

Despite all these underlying feelings Aven held, the brain-wiped boy was almost beginning to grow on him.

“Isn’t it beautiful?” said Aven.

“Yes, but it’s strange too,” said Pike. “I feel like I’ve been gone so long from this. From the land. But it’s only been a few days. Funny how that is.”

“Yeah,” said Aven, looking at Pike’s unhaunted face. “I feel that, too, in a way. How was your trip to Zoecara's world?” asked Aven, forcing himself to be friendly.

Pike was oddly quiet.

“You went with her through the portal, right?”