The Cruel Twists of Love (26 page)

“
Hope to see you very soon Miss. Evans” shit she signed her name, it was the only time Helen was relieved that Phil told everyone she was his wife. She watches his shadow move from the door and she gasps for air, she never realized she was holding her breath. Calm down you overreacting again Helen scolds herself. Helen went to the room with all the books and settled down with another one, she been having trouble sleeping so she read a different book every night until she fell asleep curled up on the couch. Waking each day sweating from the flash back of what Phil did to her. Helen thought Phil was right it was just role-play getting out of hand. But she still could not shake the feeling of being violated. But they had a safe word now so he would never do that again to her.

        She couldn’t get into the book so Helen started alphabetically tiding the books. She
has been cleaning the house from top to bottom since that night because it made her feel normal doing something routine. When Helen finished at two in the morning she stood back to admire her work and went for a shower. She couldn’t shake the feeling of feeling dirty, and Phil would be home soon.

       Helen hears the front door closing when she steps out of the shower. Her heart beating faster with a mix of dread and excitement, with not knowing which Phil came home to her. Helen wraps her towel around herself and goes to the top of the stairs and she sees Phil going into the kitchen. Helen follows Phil a few seconds later and sees Phil pulling his body up on the wooded rack.

“We are going to have some fun with this Helen”

“
Is that why you asked for a movable worktable?”

“
Of course Helen, Keith is an expert in bondage gear that why I asked him.”

“
He gives me the creeps”

“
He a good workman Helen and he done me a very big favour in doing this so quick”

“
He has done a great job Phil, but as long as you don’t expect me to like him”

“
No Helen, you are mine only. Now, are we going to make up?” Phil grabs Helen and pushes her onto the work bench.

“
Are you up for a little bondage Helen?” Phil looks up at the rack and raises his eyebrow suggestible

“
If I say Pizza you will stop?”

“
Yes my sweet Helen, I love you” Helen is not sure if she can trust him because there darkness to Phil’s eyes but she needed to know if she could trust him to stop if she asked him to so she nods.

“
Good girl, I want you to call me Master for the game”

“
You said you didn’t want a submissive?”

“It’s just role-play Helen
and I said I didn’t want a slave”

“
Alright”

“
Good girl” Phil picks up a bag from the kitchen floor

“
Put these on upstairs and kneel for me when you come back down” Helen quickly goes upstairs with the bag.

         Helen removes the skimpy underwear from the bag
, a red lacy bra that had no cups and pushing up her breasts when Helen puts it on. The matching crouches thong has sparkling Jewels draped over the middle and a red lace collar and sparkling red shoes with a satin red ribbon. Helen looks at herself in the mirror, she thought she looked stunning and not a plain Jane she always thought she looked like. She puts some make-on and nervously goes downstairs.

        Phil naked except for a black mask
over his eyes and Helen kneels down before him. Phil walks behind her and hooks his hands into Helen hair

“I
am not going to stop you breathing” Phil slips a noose around Helen neck from the rack above and pulls Helen to her feet with Helen hair. Tying Helen hands behind her back and attaching the rope to the wooden rack and pulling on the rope and fastening it tightly. The rope tightens around Helen neck when she is forced to bend slightly.

“
You are very flexible Helen so we going to play a little harder. Let me take some pressure of your neck” Phil lifts Helen right leg up and attaches Helen’s knee with more rope to Helen hair then to the rack and the pressure moving to her leg and to Helen’s hair when she balances with the help of the rope.

“
You are very beautiful Helen, are you going to please me?”

“
Yes” Phil slaps Helen bare breast very hard

“
Yes what?” he sneers at her

“
Yes Master”

“
Good girl, you are going to do all the work Helen and serve your master” Phil pulls Helen arms from behind and making the muscles in her shoulder pull painfully

“
Yes Master” Phil’s hand rubs her exposed lower body and pushes his two fingers inside of her

“I do love bondage Helen and I think you do too” pulling his fingers out and pulling Helen body down onto him. Helen closes her eyes to
his sensation.

“
Move for me Helen” Helen hesitates and Phil slaps her harder on the breast.

“
Yes master” Helen moves down onto Phil body and pulling the rope painfully on her restrained body.

“
Faster slave” Helen moves faster down on his erection.

“
Yes master” the pain and pleasure mix Helen feels making her cry out.

“
Shut, you’re fucking mouth” And he slaps Helen hard on her behind.

“
Sorry master” Helen was trying to block out that this was beginning to become a lifestyle and not play. Phil loses control of his emotions and holds Helen hips when he builds in his pleasure.

“
Ah Helen I love you, I really do love you” grunting when he thrust into Helen and digging his fingers into Helen hips when he climaxes.

“
Sorry Helen” pulling out of her quickly and untying her and he supports her weight. Helen collapses to the floor from her weakened muscles when he releases her.

“
Did you like that?”

“
No Phil”

“
No what” Helen screams when Phil pulls Helen hair hard

“
This is getting too much for me to handle, so no more or that is it Phil” Helen rubs the ugly red marks on her wrists

“I thought you liked bondage?” Phil says looking hurt and confused by Helen anger

“Oh Phil a little yes but I’m turning into some convenient doll for you to fuck.”

“
Why didn’t you safe word if you hated it?” Phil anger blaring in his eyes

“I was too busy trying to stay up right to speak
and what the hell are we doing Phil?” that’s not true Helen, she thinks confused by her feelings.

“I don’t follow, we lovers Helen that what we doing”

“No Phil you were my lover now you the man who fucks me”

“
Don’t be so stupid, Helen” Phil laughs angrily

“I don’t even
recognize the man I met at the club. You were so gentle, now you love to hit me Phil?”

“It’s not like that Helen,
we were just playing”

“
You hit me and forced me to give you a blowjob the other night and sometimes I’m in pain for days after we have sex. I managed to hide the marks the last few times but I can’t live my life covering up the bruises Phil”

“
Don’t do this Helen, I love you. Just give me four months to prove to you I can change back”

“I don’t know Phil”

“Just four months Helen. We have the board meeting at the hospital in April then if you want to end it after the meeting I will not stop you. I’m begging you Helen just give me four months” Helen closes her eyes and nods.

It’s only four months why not what has she got to lose Helen thinks.

Chapter 6

            
Helen and Phil had gone back to the basics of dating in the last three months. No sex and just the occasional dates when Phil was not working. Helen missed the sex but she knew it was the only way she could bring back the trust and safe feeling she used to have with him. She had to admit that she was enjoying the sex free dates maybe she did rush things with him she thought. Phil has been sweet and patient with Helen and not pressurizing her to have sex with him, and Helen was slowly coming round to loving him again.

         The hospital board was looming closer and in two days time. Helen would then have to decide to move on or to forgive Phil
and she still was undecided on what she should do. Maybe she needed to start having sex with him again she thought. Helen still wore his ring but choosing to wear it on her other hand.

           It was her twenty-first birthday
today and Helen was getting ready for her party. Her parents insisting she had to have one and organizing a surprise party for her. Max being his usual self blabbing to her the first chance he got.

“
Come on Helen hurry up Richard dying of thirst here” Helen puts the delicate locket Phil gave her for Christmas around her neck

“
Just coming Max” quickly going downstairs bare footed

“
Wow Helen, you could turn a gay man straight” Helen blushed crimson, she was used to comments of Max like this but not from Richard.

“I told you Rich that she
was hot”

“Phil bought me the dress ages ago” Helen twirls in her silk dress.

“Let’s not talk about him Helen you know how I feel about him” Max warns her.

“I wish you two could get on” Max smiles at Helen pitifully

“Helen he is a control freak and you will never be happy with him, but it your choice and I will stand by you no matter what”

“But he
has been really good lately”

“
He will change back Helen they always do, come on Helen we got a surprise party to go to” Helen forces a smile for Max and he pulls Helen hair playfully.

“
Why do men like pulling hair?”

“
It’s a caveman thing Helen, you woman me man” Max says deeply at her

“
Are we going you two?” Richard says irritably

“
Ohh Helen, Rich has his knickers in a twist we better not keep him waiting” Richard and Max laughs at each other and Helen slips her shoes on and smiles sweetly at Richard.

“
Let’s get this over with?” Helen says with a sigh

“
It’s a party Helen, not torture” Helen smiles weakly but follows Max out to Richards’s car

              Helen hopes she managed to look surprised when she sees her friends from collage at the Dragon’s Arms. She smiles sweetly but she feels crowded
when she hugs and kisses her friends.

“
Just relax Helen, he in work so you can have some fun at last” Helen was surprised by Max statement was she that obvious. She just wished Phil could have had some time off from work but the first part of his training was nearly coming to an end so he needed to get in as much experience as possible. Helen gives Max a wide smile

“
Better?” she says falsely

“It’s a start Helen” just four hours and I can go home Helen thinks to herself

           Helen finished her drink and sneaked out after two hours because she has had enough of the fussing from her parents and went to have some fresh air

“
Happy birthday Helen” she knows who it is before she turns around

“Alan?” she looks
up at him and he hands her a golden drink

“I don’t drink
Whisky no more, sorry” Alan looks hurt so Helen accepts the drink and takes a small drink

“
You look stunning Helen do you want to go for a drink?”

“I don’t think that a good idea” Alan gently tucks a loose hair behind Helen ear and leans forwards towards Helen and she steps back quickly
from him

“
Don’t Alan” Alan looks wounded

“
Sorry I couldn’t stay away when I heard you would be here” Alan looks troubled but studies Helen closely

“Ali
is pregnant Helen, I need to talk to someone about it, please Helen one drink as friends” the news of Ali having Alan’s baby rips through Helen heart

“
Not tonight, can you meet me tomorrow?”

“
Where do you want to meet me?”

“
Here at ten. But I cannot see you for long only Phil taking me out later”