The Cruel Twists of Love (40 page)

“
That it Helen, just relax” his soft voice sends her into overdrive and she cum’s, crying out his name as she shakes.

“Helen, I love you” he whispers as he gently turns her onto her back
, massaging again from shoulder to toes. The slow process has Helen in heaven. Phil offers a piece of chocolate to Helen.

“
Here baby, this will help” Helen sucks on the sticky chocolate slowly as it melts in her mouth. Phil keeps up the wondrous caresses on her skin when Savannah keeps feeding her the chocolate

         Phil
lies down beside her and kisses her neck, stroking her hair and face gently and gazing at her adoringly and kissing her lips when Savannah caresses her back and hips slowly. Helen is shocked to find she is being turned on by their attention and moans quietly. Phil stops kissing her and stares into her eyes.

“You are unquenchable Helen” Savannah turns her face to hers and kisses her. Savannah’s hands slipping in-between Helen’s legs at the same time as Phil hands, both fighting for the softness inside Helen body. Phil turns Helen face back to his
and moves Savannah hands off her body. Savannah laughs and kisses Helen neck when Phil kisses her lips. Savannah lifts Helen hair and kisses up her neck under Helen’s hair. Savannah caressing her breasts when Phil slips his fingers inside her, Helen moans into Phil’s lips. He pulls her to his body when he kisses her passionately. Savannah kneels and Phil pulls Helen leg over his body. Exhausted she sits on his body when he lifts her onto his erection with Savannah supporting her from behind they help her move. Savannah encasing her in her arms when they kiss, both of their hands on her body Helen is in heaven. Phil sits up and they both hold her and kiss her tenderly. Keeping up the slow rhythm until Helen cries out from her orgasm. Phil lays Helen on the bed without climaxing himself kissing her softly.

“
Sleep, I will keep you safe” Helen is too wired to sleep and kisses him with the intensely she feels for Phil. Phil grabs her and pushes inside as he holds her down on the bed. Their tongues hungry for each other, their body’s desperate to feel each move the other one makes. Helen arching her back and pushing her hips to him and pulling him deeper with her hands. Phil slows his passion and moves slowly inside. Every move has Helen crying out with pleasure. Whispering over and over

“I love you”

         Helen feels the tears from Phil as they cum together, holding each other as they fall asleep in each other’s arms.

             Helen awakes confused by arms around her. Looking around her and Helen surprised that she is cradled in Savannah and Phil’s arms. Savannah smiles at her.

“
Hi, sleepy head” Helen blushes and Phil kisses her nipple gently in his sleep and Savannah kisses her lips gently.

“I need to be going soon” Helen struggles o
ff the bed and Phil nuzzles up to Savannah’s body. Phil opens his eyes suddenly and moves quickly away from Savannah like if he was burnt by her skin.

“
Sorry, I thought you were Helen for a moment”

“I need the bathroom Phil”

“I will come, I need to have a shower and you can join me” Phil closes his eyes as Savannah gets off the bed. Savannah catches up with Helen and they go to the bathroom together. Helen goes to the cabinet for some pain killers. Savannah comes behind her and puts her arms around her waist.

“
These one’s Helen, they will not make the bruising worse” and Helen swallows two down without water when Savannah offers Helen a glass of water. Helen is starting to get irritated by her fussing.

“
Can you just stop with the fussing please I’m fine apart from the pain in my entire body”

“
Sorry, everyone reacts differently from a sub-drop and I don’t know you enough”

“
How are you feeling emotionally?”

“
Guilt, shame and repulsed that I enjoyed it with you”

“
Why? Because you paid for me to fuck or because I am a woman?”

“
Both”

“
We made love Helen and that was free because I wanted too not because of the money” Savannah kisses Helen lips.

“
And I’m going to do it again before I leave just me and you in the shower, Phil said if you wanted we could” Helen starts crying, Alan was right she had become a girl people wanted to fuck but not to make love to. Helen collapses on the floor and weeps. Savannah arms go tenderly around her.

“PHIL, she’s sub-dropping” Phil races in and cradles Helen on the floor as she weeps.

“I never do it again, Helen this is torture watching you like this. We see that doctor next week and he will help me stop you see. I want to stop Helen, believe me I’m begging you”

“I see myself out Phil
lip sorry I said the wrong thing and set her crashing”

“
Stay” Helen says in a whisper. Phil lifts her gently and Savannah shares Helen’s weight as they cuddle and soothe Helen together. Helen feels safe with Savannah here with her. She knew without her help she would never have coped.

           Helen feels dirty and pushes Phil away, he made her feel dirty. She crawls to the bath
. She needed him off her skin. Turning the shower on and turning the heat up to full she steps in. Phil gets in the scalding water with her and holds her to his chest.

“
My sweet Helen” squeezing shower gel in his hands and gently washing her, then her hair. Helen crying uncontrollably as he tenderly washes her.

“Where is Savannah?”
Helen desperately looking for her and the terror when she realises she was alone with Phil.

“
She gone baby, shh” Helen tries to run but Phil grabs her.

“
Are we going to see your parents today?” Helen shakes her head, how can she? They will know she dirty inside she thinks.

“
Come on baby, we take Jackson shopping and pop in on the way back” Helen just cries in his arms, she felt she wanted to die. The shame and guilt she felt was crippling her.

         Helen feels the water being turned off and Phil steps out and fetches a towel. He gently wraps a towel around her and Helen flinches from the pain.

“Bad Helen, have you taken some pain killers?”

“
What do you fucking think?” Helen pushes him away angrily and walks to the bedroom. Phil follows and offers the bottle of painkillers. Helen tips them into her hand and swallows the lot down before Phil can stop her.

“H
elen, NO” Phil grabs her and sticks his fingers down Helen’s throat. Keeping them there until she is sick and repeating until nothing comes up.

“
Oh baby what have I done?” Phil nurses her in his arms when they both cry.

            Helen listens to his heart beat and closes her eyes trying to remember the time she felt safe in his arms. The strange feeling she still did but did she trust him
but she knew in her heart she did. But the fear that he would want to do this again to her was terrifying.

“I not right for you Phil and I can’t live like this, I’m sorry Phil” Helen pushes him away and touches his face gently.

“You know you can never change Phil it’s what you are and I can never do that again for you, the baby’s gone so why struggle to be something we not”

“Helen please let me try” Helen shakes her head sadly.

“What about Jackson? He needs you Helen”

“
That up to you Phil, I will take him and love him as my own but I don’t want anything to do with you apart from that”

“
Can I visit him?”

“
We can arrange something, but I can’t think of that right now”

“
Can you take us home, I will get my things later in the week when you in work.”

“
The house is your Helen, I will phone Max to watch you for a few days. You still in sub-drop Helen so you will be at risk for a few days. I do love you Helen, please never forget that”

“I need to go home” Helen slips a dress on, but leaves her underwear off as every bit of skin hurts when she moves and matching the pain in her heart and she starts packing a bag.

“Please take the house you can sell the dammed place if you want” Phil kisses her briefly and walks out without another word.

         Phil slams the front door as he leaves her. She hears the car starting up and Phil speeding off in the car

Chapter 10

         It has been seven months since he left her. She couldn’t say she missed him as she kept herself busy with Jackson and decorating the house when he was in school. She been working at Jackson’s school as an administrator and it was the best job Helen could have wished for. The pay was good and the hours fitted in with Jackson school times.

         Helen has been going to see Doctor Yamins every month and she knows Phil has been too, but they never had a meeting together. Phil picks Jackson up once a week at her
parents’ house and has him to stay over at his flat on his days off from work. Jackson sleeps with her at night as that was when Helen feels herself missing Phil. Helen still dreams of Phil and wakes sweating from both with fear and pleasure most nights. Her feelings of him in control of her was like a drug and Helen feels like she in withdrawal from Phil. Helen even craved him whipping her and that was the hardest part for her to come to terms with. 

          Helen was waiting for her monthly meeting but this was going to be different and she paced his office anxiously. Dr Yamins walks in and smiles at her warmly.

“Early again Helen”

“
Sorry, it’s my bad habit”

“
You making me nervous, I do wish you sit down for the meetings” Helen sits politely and playing with her hair absently and Helen jumps when the knock comes.

“
Come in” Helen sinks down in the chair as the door opens slowly.

“Mr Taylor
will you have a seat” Phil sits before spotting Helen huddled in the chair. The confusion on his face makes Helen giggle nervously.

“
Your wife requested this meeting, I do understand if you don’t want to proceed”

“
No it fine, you and Jackson alright?” Helen sits up it now or never and he needs to know. Phil turns white when he looks at Helen properly.

“
It’s yours Phil, we were having twins. Sorry but I wanted to be sure it was healthy before telling you, but then I didn’t know how too” Phil gently puts a hand on her stomach.

“
Dear god, I could have killed our baby with what I did”

“
Come home Phil, we need you”

“
But you said you couldn’t live like that?”

“I know but I realised I can’t live without you, I miss you and I even miss what you do to me. Doctor Yamins has helped me realise
that I like the lifestyle but I will not be shared and we do need to discuss other boundaries. Doctor Yamins can help us with that. Phil pulls her into his lap and kisses her passionately. Helen feels a kick in her stomach and places Phil’s hand on her stomach so he can feel the life they created.

“
The children can never be home when we play Phil, so we need to have an arranged time”

“Helen, Phil’s feelings of how he felt when he flogged you have changed, but he needs to tell you I think”

“Helen I hated every minute of it, the impressions it made on your skin sickened me to the core.”

“
But why didn’t you stop?”

“
Because you asked me too, I do like to slap your behind but I hated how you shut yourself off from me” he smiles at Helen when the baby kicks again under his hand

“Helen because you refused to scream for Phil, his pleasure was reduced
by the act” Helen closes her eyes in frustration.

“
But Phil I liked some of it so maybe we can meet in the middle?” Phil laughs and hugs her

“
Take me home Phil, please” Helen whispers softly in his ear.

“I don’t get you Helen, how can you still love me?”

“I have no idea but I do, so please come home to us”

“
But you not damaged like me”

“
No I’m not and neither are you, it’s just something we like to do”

“
Oh Helen, I love you when can I come home?”

“
Now silly”

“
You still got under half an hour on your meeting left but you not going to do much talking here are you? Phillip I will see you next month and maybe Helen if the baby is not here by then” Helen reluctantly gets off Phil lap and shakes Doctor Yamins hand and the Doctor offers his hand to Phil. Phil shakes it warmly.