The Dark Angels: Tied Together (20 page)

After a while, Robin got up to get a warm washcloth. He cleaned himself in the bathroom then tended gently to Josh.

When he was done, he curled himself around Josh.

Josh thought he had fallen asleep but then Robin asked, “You were in the bar with Dusty right? So why would she give you Cialis?”

Chuckling, Josh answered honestly, “I think it’s gotten around that my drinking prevents me from physical involvements.”

Feeling Robin stiffen and start to withdraw. “Shhhh, listen. I always used it as an excuse. Dusty thought it was funnier than hell. I couldn’t really blurt out the truth.”

Robin pulled back to look deeply into his eyes. “The truth?”

“Yeah.” He frowned not knowing how much he should say to him at this very moment. But he decided he would cut to the chase. “I can’t even jerk off without having fantasies about you.”

Watching Robin’s face as this little tidbit registered, he said, “I love you. Don’t want anyone else.” Josh shrugged as if it couldn’t be helped. And it really couldn’t. “I never have wanted anyone but you.”

“Really?” Tears ran down Robin’s cheeks. “Me, either.” He giggled when Josh tried to brush them away with his big-bandaged hands. “Love you so much. Sometimes, it hurts so bad,” Robin whispered through his tears.

“I know. I don’t want you hurting anymore.”

“Yeah, but there isn’t a choice. We aren’t supposed to be in love with each other.” Robin looked like he was going to cry again.

“Why the hell not?” This interlude with Robin helped him put things in perspective. “Is there a rule that says since we grew up in the same house we can’t be together? Fuck the rules. I am tired of having my heart ripped out.”

Robin’s breath hitched.

Josh continued. “Look, we have money now. We are family and always will be family. But for the love of Buddha, we aren’t related and I want so much more.” Josh was still feeling woozy from the alcohol, the pill, and now the confession. But he continued to talk. “Let everyone talk. Who the fuck cares? It’s not like it has hurt the band. Hell, with us, the band has a whole other level of groupie.” Josh chuckled at Robin’s grave expression.

He waited as Robin turned it over in his head. Giving him time to process was key to Robby accepting the idea. Josh bit his lip to help himself remain quiet allowing Robin the space to think.

When Robin was still staring off into space after five minutes, Josh moved his body flush next to him. Skin to skin. Cock to cock. He leaned in and gave him a small inviting kiss. “Imagine it, Robby.” Another soft moist kiss was given. “You and me.”

Josh cupped his face and kissed each cheek. “Together. Really together.” His tongue licked out to trace Robin’s beautiful lips.

“Exactly how we want to be together.”

Robin looked at him.“You really won’t just leave me?” Finally his complete and total fear of abandonment was making an appearance.

“Never. Whether you keep me as the kid you grew up with, non-related stepbrother, your best friend, or let me be your lover, I am not going anywhere. As a matter of fact, I think I might have a way to tie you to me in a way you will clearly understand.” He fingered Robin’s collar. “Would you like us to be tied together?”

“Yes.” Robin answered without hesitation. That gave him something to think about. He kept talking nervously as if he were trying to talk the pieces into place.

Josh hated hiding his feelings but if that’s what it would take to make Robin comfortable, he would do it. “And no one needs to know for certain. Let the rumor mill spin.”

Robin frowned for a moment. “The guys know.”

Josh shrugged. “So?”

Giggling, Robin snuggled into him. “I guess they seem to like it.”

“You think?” Laughing, Josh asked, “What gave it away?”

Josh kissed Robin soundly on the mouth. “Angel inviting us to play with him? Or Darius’s birthday? Or Dare cuddling you every chance he gets now?”

“It’s not like that, Josh.”

Josh couldn’t stop his laughter on seeing Robin’s almost prudish expression. “I see nothing wrong with you snuggling with Darius once in a while. You two are pretty cute together. I think it helps you see your needs aren’t so different.” He held him tightly against him. “Just as long as you belong to me.”

Robin looked up at him through his impossibly long lashes. “I think I really do, but...”

That seemed to be the tipping point. Robin groaned and rocked his body into Josh’s. Aroused and needy, Robin welcomed his advances. He rolled on top and starting sucking Josh’s neck.

Josh groaned. He loved getting hickeys from Robin. “Be inside me, Robby.”

Robin pulled back and smiled at the request. “You sure?”

Robin couldn’t resist teasing him. His fingers already slick and preparing him for their joining.

Heated from the inside out, Josh pushed down on Robin’s wet digits. “Yeah. Don’t make me wait. Not anymore.” They both knew they were not talking about sex but right now that’s all Robin seemed to be able to handle. “Please!”

Robin answered Josh’s agonized plea almost immediately.

Robin slid inside and didn’t stop until he was balls deep. Closing his eyes, Robin just stopped to savor the feeling.

Josh couldn’t stop the words. “Every night.” Robin pulled out slow and pushed in fast and deep. “Every morning.” Robin’s eyes were locked onto his and he didn’t say no, so Josh took that as a yes. “Mine. Together.”

Robin’s intensity was focused solely on fucking him. Josh thought he almost appeared possessed. He moved his shaft in and out going harder and faster. Robin seemed to lose control as he took him.

Josh wanted to cup his rounded ass and pulled him in even deeper but with his hands out of commission that was impossible.

Robin had never taken Josh liked this; it was flat out hot. Josh would be feeling it tomorrow but he relished the thought. Proof that Robin loved him. Needed him. Wanted him.

Robin started moaning his enjoyment. With each and every thrust, he got a little louder until he was trembling in an effort not to spend before his soul mate. “Josh. Close. So close.” He reached between them and fisted Josh’s prick. Josh was stroked inside and out.

It didn’t take much for Josh to come again. His passage clamped down tight on Robin, and then as the waves of orgasm carried him away he felt his opening pulse in time with the ribbons of white that coated his chest. His body forced Robin to find the same release. On a broken cry, Robin filled Josh. Josh’s body kept squeezing the cock inside him as release was given and received.

Robin fell forward onto Josh. When Josh tried to cup Robin’s face lovingly, they both wound up laughing because Josh’s bandaged hands just bumped into Robin’s face. Laughing, Robin held Josh’s face so he could press a kiss that held all the love that was possible. Robin settled back down and cozied right up to Josh.

“Mind if I sleep here?” Robin mumbled as if he needed permission.

Wrapping his arms around him, Josh replied, “Not at all. This is our bed now.”

Robin giggled and rested his head into the crook of his shoulder. “No, I mean right here.” Robin snuggled down onto him.

Josh tried to pet his hair but was unable to so settled for stroking his back in circles with his bandaged paws. Grinning with pleasure at the question, Josh answered, “Yeah, Robby.

Right here is just fine.”

Soon Robin was sleeping right on top of Josh. Josh found himself still smiling and feeling completely at peace with the world. Until he remembered Robin hadn’t agreed to anything.

Sighing as his adorable lover cuddled closer to him in his sleep. Josh knew this is how things should be. How things needed to be. He just needed to keep Robin convinced of that!

“Oh God! Yeah, yeah!” The scream ripped through their quiet apartment as Robin woke up orgasming in Josh’s mouth.

Robin blinked awake as he shot off another volley of come in Josh’s hot greedy mouth. When he was done, he sighed with relief and satisfaction. “Mmmmm.” Robin quietly moaned with a smile on his face looking down at Josh.

Josh squirmed his way up to kiss Robin on the mouth. He knew he tasted of Robin’s cum, but he wanted a kiss. Robin gave him a nice open mouth French kiss sharing his taste, then he seemed to remember. “How are your hands, Josh?”

Laughing, “Fine. But I think you were more worried about my mouth a couple minutes ago.”

Robin rolled his eyes and then grinned. “True. Great way to wake up.”

“Really, I wouldn’t know.” Josh teased making it plain what he was hoping for. His hard cock was tenting the sheet.

A sexy smile crawled over Robin’s face. “Really? Hmmm, well, I would have to say it is the very best way to wake up.” Robin pulled the covers back up from where they’d slipped down as if he were going to go back to sleep.

Josh growled and waited for some attention.

Robin just lay there. Then when Josh frowned, he pretended he just begun to understand. “Oh, I see.” He giggled. “Would you like me to…you know?” Robin gestured towards Josh’s arching cock.

“Yes!” Josh loved when Robin teased, so he fairly shouted as his dick was throbbing. He was pretty sure it had nothing to do with the Cialis left in his system and more to do with Robin in his bed.

Robin was terribly sexy when he chose to tease. Josh loved it and he loved him. Right now though his dick wanted to be inside that sweet sucking mouth so he could come.

Josh was a bit off centered not being able to rest his weight on his hands and Robin took full advantage of that as he knocked him flat on his back. Slithering slowly down Josh’s body, Robin paused to look up at him.

“Come on.” Josh was certainly not above begging. He knew what he needed and it was very clear whom he needed it from.

Robin batted his extra long eye lashes, flirting sweetly with Josh. “Yes, Josh?”

“Need you,” Josh grumbled as his bandaged hands moved uselessly at his sides.

Robin’s eyes were drawn to his injuries and he hurried to rectify the situation. Yeah, he would use guilt if it meant…Josh groaned loudly as Robin’s mouth slid over his cock.

“Damn!” Josh just about whimpered as those gorgeous pillowed lips began dragging up and down his shaft. “You are so freaking good at that.”

He sucked up to the tip and released it, giggling cutely when the cock swayed back towards his mouth as if it were trying to re-enter. “You taught me everything I know.” Robin smiled around Josh’s cock and shockingly enough the boy blushed. It was puzzling to him how Robin could blush at a time like this, but Josh didn’t have much time to ponder this thought or any other for that matter.

His cock was being giving the royal treatment. A tongue was stroking up and down as hot suction was being administrated. It was that combination along with his aroused state that sent him keening over the edge much sooner than he anticipated. On a harsh cry, come gushed out of him and Robin swallowed him down quickly until his balls ran dry.

Robin’s lips pulled off his cock with a pop. “There. So now what do you think? Is that the best way to wake up or what?”

Robin was still teasing Josh.

Josh laughed then sobered. He couldn’t let their love dangle between them anymore. “Waking up with you is the best way to wake up.” They shared a long open mouthed kiss that was flavored with their seed.

There was shift in the mood between them. A lot was said last night and resolution was needed. They couldn’t go on like this. It hurt too much and at some point the hurt would turn into anger.

“Robin, I love you. I have always loved you.” Josh looked away from his beautiful face afraid of what he would see. Unsure why he was telling him other than proving the point of how much he really did love him, he said, “You know, I don’t even know if I am gay or bi.”

“What?”

“Seriously. I have never been attracted to anyone other than you. Not male or female, just you,” Josh stated a little sadly. It was a bit pathetic but there it was. There was no one else for Josh before or in the future. There was only Robin.

“No. Don’t say that.”

“Have you been attracted to anyone else?” Josh couldn’t keep the jealousy out of his voice.

Robin stared at Josh for a long moment. Josh wondered if he would refuse to answer. Biting his lip, he confessed. “Well, no not really. But I’ve always known I was gay.”

Josh wanted clarity. “Not even Darius?” He wasn’t jealous, more curious.

Robin looked shocked then he giggled. “Nope. I mean, he and Angel are hot together. I liked watching them. It was cool…you know on his birthday…” Josh could see Robin was fighting to find the right words to convey his true meaning. “We’re both the same.” Robin’s big eyes looked up at Josh to ask for assistance.

“Submissive,” Josh stated.

“Yeah, I guess.” Blushing Robin nodded. “We both, I don’t know, understand each other. I don’t have to explain everything from the beginning to him; he knows.”

Josh actually did understand. He had never felt threatened by Darius at all. He didn’t mind Robin kissing or hugging Darius because well, as Robin implied he was ‘safe’. Darius was all about Angel.

Robin’s involvement with Dare seemed to help him come to terms with his confusion about his submissive streak. He had never been with anyone without Josh being there with him, participating and watching. Josh was always a part of it and he enjoyed it too, so jealousy didn’t come into play.

Robin looked away from Josh. “It isn’t easy, you know.”

Josh tried to stroke Robin’s face but wound up just pushing his bandaged hands over his cheeks. But Robin leaned into them and Josh was thrilled to see the love shining in Robin’s eyes.

Josh smiled. “I know. I admire that you are willing to explore that part of yourself with me.” Josh had always suspected that Robin was interested in Domination/submission since those parts of Robin’s romance novels were so well read.

He knew Robin needed firm boundaries to feel safe. It wasn’t until Darius’s birthday that he realized he could be the one to set those boundaries. That he needed to man up. Robin didn’t need or want to be controlled constantly but he needed the security it provided.