Authors: C.J. Skuse
âI haven't seen you for ages!' The rabbit wriggled in her arms but she held it steady. âWow â you got cute, Max!' Max laughed and rubbed his mouth. âAnd Corey! This is brilliant! Zane's not with you, is he?'
Max rose to the challenge of answering that one. âNo. We don't see him any more.'
âOh,' she said. âIt's almost like the old times, isn't it?
âIt was only four years ago,' said Corey.
The joy disappeared from her face as quickly as it had arrived. I knew she was thinking about the funeral â the
last time she'd seen us. âHow are you, Max? How's your mum?'
âOK, thanks. Well, she has her days â you know. Dad's cool, though.'
âAnd, Corey, how's your nan and granddad? Have you still got all your Harry Potter stuff? How's baby Voldemort?'
I cut in at that point. âActually, Mort's the reason we're here. He's gone missing, and we were wondering if you'd seen him?'
I flapped away a rogue canary, nudging Corey. âHas he got a collar on, Corey?'
âYeah, a blue one. It's brand new,' he said, stepping behind me, cheeks so red I thought his head might explode. I'd forgotten he'd had a crush on Fallon four years ago. By the look of him, it had resurfaced.
âNo, I would have recognised Voldy.'
âMort,' Corey corrected.
âActually, we haven't seen any gingers lately,' she pondered. âWe had one come in with one eye. That was ginger
ish
. You can have one of the tortoiseshells. Got loads of them.'
âNo,' said Corey. âHis collar says “Malinowski” and it's got my number on it.'
âCan't you just take that one?' said Max, pointing to a scrawny black cat licking its backside on an upturned bucket.
âYou can't have Esmerelda,' said Fallon. âShe's ours. Mum might have some more on the truck that she's picked up this morning, but she's not back yet. She shouldn't be too long though, if you want to wait?'
Max and Corey failed to answer â they were both in a trance, looking at her bottom as she bent over to put the rabbit down. She looked quite fat, under her frilly white
vest, tiny denim shorts and mud-speckled moon boots. She started back up the steps to the farmhouse. âYou can wait for Mum inside, if you like. She should be back soon. We've got Sprite.'
Obediently, we all traipsed into the farmhouse behind Fallon, as if Sprite was the most golden carrot she could dangle. Cobwebs drooped in the corners of the kitchenette like forgotten Halloween decorations; the room opened up onto the same dingy lounge area, with the same tired leather three-piece and walls seemingly made from stacks of old newspapers. The shelving all around the top of the room was packed with ornaments, stuffed birds and woodland animals in small glass cases and clean white animal skulls acting as bookends and paperweights. The only light in the room came from two small windows and a box beside the fireplace with a nightlight inside, illuminating photos of Kate Middleton.
A little bird fluttered in from the lean-to and landed on a beam above our heads.
âDon't mind the mounts,' said Fallon, having seen Max staring up at the shelves of stuffed animals. âThey all died naturally.'
She retrieved three jam jars from a kitchen cupboard and put them on the breakfast bar. Not trendy jam jars like in some upmarket shabby chic restaurant either â actual old jam jars with the labels still glued on.
âWhere's your mum gone?' I asked, moving aside a broken hamster cage to sit on a stool. Max stood beside me, hands still in his pockets.
âGone to collect some pigs who died in the night. Sudden Pig Death Syndrome.'
âWhat does she do, exactly?' asked Max. âI mean, I know she's a farmer or summing.'
Fallon turned to the fridge to get the Sprite and poured it
out into the empty jam jars, handing them to us. âShe
used
to be a farmer. She had to disintegrate, cos supermarkets are bastards with milk prices.'
Corey smiled. âDo you mean diversify?'
âYeah, that's it. We sold off most of our livestock; kept a couple back for milk and wool. Nowadays she's an ARS. Makes quite good money from that.'
âA what?'
âAnimal Rescue Specialist. We look after sick animals, nurse them back to health. Kinda like vets, but a lot cheaper. We euthanise too, and cremate, all at cut-price. People report dead sheep or horses or large roadkill to Mum and she'll go out to them and pick them up. We've got a furnace out the back where we burn 'em, if they're no good for meat or black pudding.'
âGross,' said Corey.
âNo, it's not,' said Fallon. âIt's a good business. I help out when I can, but it's a bit difficult at the moment.' She looked at me and smiled again, so genuine it was kind of unnerving. A three-legged white cat, wearing a small plastic tiara, limped across the worktops, stopping by the stove to nuzzle the kettle; the kettle, potentially, with the you-know-what in it. A guinea pig ventured in and Fallon picked up a broken tennis racket and lightly tapped its tangly little arse back down the steps. While she was gone, Max moved over to the stove, prized off the lid of the kettle and peeked inside. Corey looked at him expectantly but he shook his head
After we'd gulped down the jam-jar Sprite and some stale smoky bacon Mini Cheddars, Rosie still wasn't back, so Fallon said she'd take us round the farm.
It was sad, really. The fantastic playground the farm used to be â giant tractors, rope swings, creeks, orchards,
haunted corners and woods to ride our bikes through at breakneck speed â it was all still there, but we could see it now for what it was. Just a small, downtrodden smallholding in the middle of nowhere, housing dead or dumped animals, full of rust and mud. As kids, we saw the magic there. We saw magic in everything. Something about growing up kicks that out of you without you even realising it's happening.
âIt's a shame Zane's not here,' said Fallon. âDo you remember when those boys chased us at the swimming pool, Ella? We told them to get lost, but they kept on trying to kiss us.'
It was a memory I'd forgotten until Fallon unlocked it. âGod, yeah, I do.'
âZane saw them off. He hated anything like that. His dad used to beat up his mum.'
âI never knew that,' said Max.
âYeah,' said Fallon. âThey split up. Zane still lives in that ground floor flat on the seafront with her.'
âHow do you know?' I asked her.
âI've seen him a few times since the â funeral,' she said, guiltily. âI'm so sorry about what Mum said at Jessica's inquest, Max. She really didn't mean any harm, I promise you.'
There was a brief silence and awkward looks all round. Then:
âWhere are we going, exactly?' asked Corey, bringing us back to the matter in hand.
âWe could go down as far as the old railway line if you want,' said Fallon, as we crossed the road to the field gated by the three shopping trolleys. âNine times out of ten, if someone's lost a cat, that's where they'll be. Get loads of
mice down there, cos loads of rubbish gets dumped. Mum's had to go down a few times cos of a fallen cow.'
So we headed across the lane to the fields and orchard, in the direction of the old railway line â a long road cut into the hillside, leading from Brynstan Bay through the interconnecting villages, and on towards Bristol. We used to race our bikes down there as kids. The big attraction was the Witch's Pool but you had to go miles down the track to get to it. There was an old railway tunnel halfway along the Cloud section of the line; we used to race through it at top speed, pretending a witch lived in the darkest part. If we went too slowly, there was a danger she'd reach out her bony fingers and grab us, dragging us screaming to our deaths. Zane was the most scared of all of us â I'd never seen anyone ride a bike as fast as him.
Past a chicken coop and a pen where four silky black goats were chomping on large heads of lettuce, we came to a rickety barn. Inside it, behind a mountain of hay bales, was a stash of small brown bottles. Each had a label on the front that read âAcid Rain'.
âMum's home brew,' said Fallon. âWe've got a ton of the stuff. Help yourselves.'
Max grabbed four bottles, and Corey put two in his bag of sweets from the Pier. I didn't take any, and Fallon said she preferred Capri-Suns. I couldn't work out if she was joking.
Fallon had grown up in a different way to us three. She hadn't grown up in the town like we had, so she was quite oblivious to a lot of the things we said, some of our slang. I almost envied her, a child wearing teenage skin that was never going to fit. I wanted to ask her if she had kept my secret, but I couldn't with the boys around. It was too much to hope she'd forgotten all about it.
Max pulled his phone out of his pocket to check the time. Along with it came a small see-through bag, with a clump of what looked like dried grass. I'd seen it before. He'd dropped it at the garden centre the other night. I was first to reach it this time.
âWhat's this?' I said, handing it back to him.
âNothing. Just a bit of weed.'
âWeed? You mean, drugs?'
âKeep your voice down, or they'll want some.'
Still processing his answer, I followed Fallon through the orchard and across a field into the mottled darkness of the forest, making our way down a dirt track veined with tree roots. On either side of the track, the forest grew thinner and the pale yellow fields grew thicker. I scratched my now burning neck all over. I hadn't realised how annoyed I'd become.
âCan't you take a pill or summing?' said Max.
âLike you, you mean?' I snipped.
âWhat?'
âNothing.'
âOh, I get it. You're pissed I didn't tell you about the weed.'
âYeah, all right, I am. I know everything about you, Max. I know that still sleep with the same Buddy Bear that your nan bought you when you were born.'
âSsh,' he said, looking back for the others, but they were way behind us now.
âI know you love tomatoes but hate ketchup. I know where you got every single bracelet on your wrist, cos I was with you when you got them all. I know you still use the peach shampoo Jessica used to like. I even know why that little tuft of hair won't grow at the base of your neck. So why don't I know you do drugs?'
âIt's not like it's heroin, Ells; just a bit of skunk. It's no big deal.'
âYou said weed, now it's
skunk
? Isn't that the strongest one?'
âNah, it's cool. It relaxes me. Seriously. Don't sweat it.'
âBut people have gone mad on that, Max. Like, proper schiz. Are you high right now?'
âStop making such a big deal out of it! It's nothing. I just didn't tell you cos I knew you'd get a hair up your ass about it.'
âHow often?' I asked.
He was getting antsy. âJust a few spliffs now and again.'
âWhat does that mean?'
âOh for God's sake, just now and again, all right? A couple of spliffs in the morning. A shottie or summing before I go to bed. It helps me sleep.'
I couldn't believe what he was saying. I was waiting for him to smile and say he was joking. But he didn't.
âYou should try it. Might loosen you up a bit.' He swigged from his Acid Rain bottle â the final straw.
âGod, you are being the biggest arsehole today!'
âNo, I just meant to relax you. I didn't meanâ¦'
As I barged past him, he threw me a look like I'd taken his Buddy Bear and given him a bundle of barbed wire to cuddle.
The descent through the long grasses stopped at thick walls of leaves, and the long grey road of the Strawberry Line. The trains that used to run along there had taken strawberries and cheese to Bristol, and beyond. Now the tracks were gone and all the way along was an overgrown archway of trees and hedges, broken up in one direction by a huge black arc â the tunnel. A jogger huffed past and two cyclists were mere dots on the horizon. Apart from a dog
walker with four elderly shih-tzus, we four were alone. We started walking, Fallon and Corey chattering away like old friends. Max was swigging Acid Rain, and I was ignoring him.
âPete jogs down here,' I said. There was a definite eye roll from Max but I didn't draw attention to it. âI've done some sprints along here too, at West Brynstan where the bend is.'
âWho's faster, you or Pete?' asked Corey,
âOh Pete of course,' Max butted in. âPete's good at everything. You should see him curing lepers.' He sniggered and swigged at his bottle. I gave him the stink eye but he was ignoring
me
this time.
The air became colder as we reached the mouth of the tunnel; the smell of the limestone took me straight back in time. The slimy feel of the walls at the darkest point â the drip of rock water on my hair â all gave me a familiar thrill.
A little way along, Corey called out âOh my God' and it echoed around us. He'd seen a group of cats, all crowded around the carcass of a dead rabbit. As soon as they saw the torch, they began to scatter; some running back the way we'd come, others straight on into the tunnel.
âI told you there were cats down here,' said Fallon. âWas any of them Mort, Corey?'
âNo,' he called back, his voice sounding strangled.
âYou really love Mort, don't you?'
Corey sniffed. âHe means a lot to me. I found him in a skip. He was only a few days old. I took him home and stayed up all night, giving him milk, keeping him warm. Granddad said I could only keep him if I laid out for all his food. So I did. He was my
reason
.'
None of us asked what Corey meant by that. I think we all just knew.
All of a sudden, there was chaos behind us. We looked
back into the darkness to see four figures on bikes, all hollering. As they got nearer, I realised they were just kids. But they were shouting abuse â mostly at Fallon.