Authors: Roland Smith
“Small increments all the way to the river,” Ãmile said. “You will wait for me to retrieve my rope, then reset. No one descends until I tell you to. When I say stop, everyone stops or everyone gets shot. Go.”
Of course, Ãmile stopped when he had something to grab on to or a toehold. We stopped when he told us to, which meant that most of the time we had nothing to hang on to but our ropes. To avoid this problem, I picked a spot below that looked like it had something I could latch on to, then slowed down or sped up my descent, trying to time it for when Ãmile shouted for us to stop. This took my mind off the fact there was a French maniac rappelling down behind me with a gun pointed at my head. The only hope we had was that he would screw up and fall to his death. I nearly got my wish halfway down the cliff when his rope got jammed.
“Stop!”
At first I didn't know what was going on. He'd only descended about fifteen feet from his anchor and was dangling in a terrible spot. From where I was, I couldn't see anything for him to grab on to.
“He's stuck,” Mom said. She was the closest to him.
So what?
I wanted to say.
Let him dangle.
It was scary, but relatively safe if your anchor held, which I hoped his didn't. The way out of it was to climb back up the rope to the anchor and reset your rope. Of course Ãmile's problem was a little more complex than that, because when you're climbing up, you have to look up. Hard to do when you're trying to point a rifle down at your climbing partners or, in our case, his climbing targets.
“Old man! Get up here and help me!” There wasn't any panic in his voice. Just extreme irritation.
Zopa was the farthest away from him.
“I'll do it,” I said. “I'm closer, and I have a good route up to you.”
It wasn't a great route, but it was better than Zopa's or Mom's, although she was even closer to him than I was.
“Yes,” Ãmile said. “You do it.”
As I climbed up, I wondered if I would have the courage to drop him if I got the chance. I stopped to rest and glanced down at the others. Everyone was looking up at me, but none more intently than Zopa. His dark eyes were locked on to me like lasers. He shook his head as if he knew what I was thinking and wanted me to stop thinking it. Was my thinking a
want
or a
need?
Clearly Zopa felt it was a want. But I wasn't so sure. Weren't there times when a want and a need were the same thing?
“Get up here,” Ãmile growled.
“I'm coming,” I said.
But I hadn't decided if I was going to kill him or not. I climbed up next to him. He was dangling like a spider on the end of a thread about six feet out from the wall. His rope had fallen over an outcrop, which was why he was hanging so far from the wall when he got jammed. It was an amateurish mistake. Maybe Ãmile wasn't the climber I had thought he was. If I'd had a knife, all I'd have had to do was touch the rope with the blade and he'd have been gone. I didn't have a knife. Or the will. But I was working on that. I glanced back down at Zopa. He was still zeroed in on me.
Yeah, yeah, I hear you, cagey monk.
I peered up at Ãmile's anchor. It looked like the rope had doubled over and knotted as it slipped through the carabiner. I'd need slack to get it loose.
Ãmile had unslung his rifle and was pointing it down in the general direction of Mom, with his finger on the trigger. He was smiling, trying to act like dangling a thousand feet above a river was no big deal, but I could tell he was nervous about it.
“What will you do?”
“Pull you to the wall, anchor you, climb up and untangle your rope, and drop it down to you.”
“Do it,” he said.
It was easier to explain it than it was to
do it,
but I managed. After getting him hooked to the wall on a new anchor, I climbed to the top of the outcrop and paused to catch my breath. He'd insisted on keeping his original rope tied to his harness, saying he wanted it there for safety. I think he wanted it tied to the harness in case he butterfingered the rope when I dropped it down to him. I glanced down at his rope and realized that if I grabbed it, I might be able to make him dance like a marionette, maybe even hard enough to make him drop the rifle. I might even be able to dislodge the anchor holding him and drop him into the river. I looked down at Zopa. Mistake. He was still locked on to me. He gave me another head shake. I didn't believe he was reading my mind. I thought he was putting himself in my place, knowing that he'd be tempted to rope-a-dope Ãmile too. The dope with the gun was moving his weapon from head to head. I didn't think he'd be able to hit anyone intentionally as I was shaking him, but if he managed to hang on to the rifle and hold the trigger down, he might hit someone accidentally. It was a risk, but a risk that might be worth taking.
“What's taking so long?” Ãmile shouted.
“Just looking for a handhold,” I said.
Debating whether I should try to kill you,
I thought.
Zopa had stopped shaking his head. For a second I thought he was giving me the go-aheadânot that I needed his permissionâbut no such luck. It looked like he was nodding at something to his right. I scanned the cliff face. There was nothing I couldâ
The
shen
was back, not thirty feet away from me. The ledge it was standing on was no wider than my boot. It actually looked like it was floating in thin air. I quickly turned my head. I didn't want Ãmile to see it. For all I knew, Ãmile had shot the other snow leopard. Our guesses about how they got here were pure speculation. Ãmile had made some dumb mistakes during this climb, but he wasn't without skill. He could have come up this way originally with the help of someone who knew what he was doing. I scrambled up to his anchor.
“I need some slack!” I yelled.
Ãmile sent some my way, and I had him untangled in an instant. I dropped the rope down to him, hooked on to the anchor, and lowered myself with regret.
I'm convinced that we are no longer hostages. That Ãmile has no intention of releasing us, whether the ransom is paid or not. He is using us to get down the cliff. This is the only reason we are alive. He gets tangled two more times. Zopa frees him, then Mom frees him. And each time, I'm disappointed. Ãmile lives. If he gets tangled again, I'm going to volunteer to free him. I'm going to . . . I'm not sure what I'll do, but I want another chance to decide.
“Stop!” Ãmile shouts.
We stop, dangle, wait for him to catch up. A sliver of light from the cliffs illuminates the gorge, but it's getting darker with every pitch.
The
shen
is still stalking us, pausing when we stop, moving when we drop, nearly invisible, always about thirty feet above, alighting like a gray moth on bits of rock and ledges I can't see. The only real climber among us is the
shen
. . .
I COULD HEAR
the roar of the rapids two hundred feet below and see the black inflatable boat pulled up on a shelf cut into rock by the fast water. Alessia had been inching her way closer to me the last several pitches and was now only ten feet away. Her face was streaked with dirt and sweat, her black hair powdered with rock dust, her pale blue eyes bloodshot, her lips swollen and chapped. We'd finished the last of our water a thousand feet ago.
“Zopa says that we will be fine,” she said.
I shrugged. I seriously doubted it, but I didn't want to tell her that.
“He told me that we would be saved from above,” she said.
I glanced up. Ãmile was making his way down and had just about reached the end of his rope. Above him the
shen
was carefully picking its way down the wall. As terrible as our circumstances were and as exhausted as I was, I couldn't help but be amazed and awed by the cat's ability to balance on what looked like nothing.
“Do you think he meant God?” Alessia asked.
The question threw me. I didn't know what she was talking about, which must have shown on my face, because she gave me a gentle smile.
“Zopa,” she said. “Do you think that by
above,
he meant that God would save us?”
“I don't know. It's sometimes hard to know what Zopa means. His idea of what
saved
means might be different from ours.”
It was Alessia's turn to look confused. I gave her a cracked-lip smile. “I'm just saying that he doesn't think like you and I. He doesn't see things the same way. He's comfortable with mysteries like the
shen
.”
“
Shen
?”
“Snow leopard. It's been following us all the way down the face.”
“I didn't see aâ” She started to look up.
“Don't look! I don't want Ãmile to see it.”
Ãmile had reached the end of his pitch and was hammering in his next anchor.
“Go!” he shouted down at us.
Alessia and I started down side by side. The lower wall of the gorge was rougher than the upper part, with more hand- and footholds. We were able to rappel all the way to the ends of our ropes. Two more pitches, and we'd reach the river and find out if we'd be saved by something from above. I just hoped I'd be able to get a drink of water before we were murdered.
Once again, Alessia stopped right next to me, and Zopa stopped right next to her. Mom was about thirty feet to my left. Ãmile was coming down slowly above us.
“I still do not see the snow leopard,” Alessia said.
“Thirty, maybe forty feet above Ãmile, to his left. Just make sure you look away when Ãmile stops.”
“Oh, yes! I see it. It is
magnifique
!”
The
shen
was nearly sprinting down the face now. I was afraid Ãmile was going to see it, but once again, it stopped the instant Ãmile stopped, as if it knew who its enemy was.
“I'm out of anchors!” Ãmile shouted. “Bring me one.”
He hadn't directed this to anyone in particular, but Mom was closest to him.
“Hang on,” she said.
She started free climbing up to him. I guess he didn't realize that he could free climb tooâwe all could.
“There are enough holds to get down the last hundred feet to the river blindfolded,” I said.
“Not if you want to use a rifle,” Zopa said. “And not if you are an unskilled climber.”
Both good points. I hadn't had a chance to talk to Zopa since he had warned me off trying to murder Ãmile, which I still thought was a mistake.
“He's just using us to get to the river,” I said.
“No doubt,” Zopa agreed.
“So what happens when he gets to the river?”
“He will try to kill us.”
“Then why didn't you let meâ”
“I said he would try,” Zopa interrupted. “He will not succeed.”
“You think the
shen
is going to attack him?” I asked sarcastically.
Sarcasm was about as effective on Zopa as it was on Alessia.
He looked confused, then said, “The
shen
is not here to save us. That is not the cat's role.
Shen
s are not violent creatures unless you are a deer or small mammal or a bird.”
“Yeah, I get that, but you told Alessia that we would be saved from above.”
“And I believe we will be. Do you remember the eagles?”
The eagle attack seemed like it had happened a hundred years earlier.
“I remember.”
I also remembered that Zopa seemed to understand what the birds were going to do before the birds knew they were going to do it, like some kind of raptor whisperer.
“The eagles are going to help us?”
Zopa shook his head. “Very doubtful. Eagles are territorial. I don't think they use this gorge.”
“Then whatâ”
“You have been so focused on Ãmile and the
shen,
you have missed something. You have lost your focus. It happens. You will see what you missed when we reach the river.”
I heard a familiar
ping
above. Ãmile was hammering in an anchor. Mom was nearly back to where she had started from. She was climbing easily and seemed pretty relaxed. I wondered if she had seen what Zopa said I had missed.
“Go!” Ãmile shouted.
Two more pitches, and we were on the ground, standing on shaky legs with the cliff in front of us, the river roaring behind. Ãmile hung twenty feet above, pointing his rifle down at us.
“You can unhook and drink,” he said.
Which I think meant he wanted to get to the ground and unhook while we were a safe distance away, not that we were stupid enough to rush him. If we'd wanted to take him out, we would have done it on the face. I was still mad about that as I dropped my harness and walked over to the river to get a drink.
I put my head completely underwater. When I came up for air, I found I was sandwiched by Mom and Alessia, both shaking out their long wet hair. I scooped several handfuls of water into my parched mouth.
“What do you think Ãmile will do?” Alessia asked.
I thought he was going to shoot Mom, me, and Zopa in the back, tie Alessia up, and take her downriver. But I didn't tell her this. I shrugged.
Zopa had already slaked his thirst and was back on his feet facing the cliff. We got up and turned around. Ãmile was on the ground, unhooked, thirty feet away, pointing his rifle at us.
“The boat is not big enough for all of us,” he said.
The boat was plenty big enough for all of us if one of us hadn't been a kidnapper worried that we would jump him in the confined space.
I looked at the cliff face. The
shen
was twenty feet above him, moving to his right, slowly descending. I wanted to shout and warn it off, but that would draw attention to the cat.
Ãmile put his rifle to his shoulder. I looked at Mom. Tears rolled down her cheeks. A sad smile on her face. She put her arms around me.