Read The Falconer (Elizabeth May) Online
Authors: Elizabeth May
‘He’s not
my
Lord Hamilton,’ I say. ‘Good heavens, he’s old enough to be my father.’ I lean in and whisper, ‘And if he pats my wrist again, I shall surely scream.’
Catherine lets out an unladylike snort. ‘You’re the one who agreed to dance with him.’
I cast her a withering glance. ‘I’m not a complete boor. I won’t turn down a dance unless someone else has claimed it.’
Lord Hamilton stops before us. Today’s cravat has mauve, green and blue dye splashed in a strange pattern on the silk. Ever the gentleman, he smiles politely.
‘Good evening, Lady Aileana,’ he says, then nods at Catherine. ‘Miss Stewart, I trust you’re well.’
‘I am indeed, Lord Hamilton,’ she says. ‘And may I say, that is quite a . . .
striking
cravat.’
Lord Hamilton peers down at it fondly, as though someone has complimented his greatest achievement. ‘Why, thank you. The dyes form the outline of a unicorn. Part of the Hamilton crest, you see.’
I blink. If anything, it resembles a sea creature of some kind.
Catherine, however, simply nods. ‘How wonderful. It suits you very well, I think.’
I remain silent. I’m so terribly out of practice with social niceties that I might actually tell him the mauve splashes look like tentacles.
The orchestra strikes a few more chords as couples move to the centre of the room and take their places for the dance.
Lord Hamilton extends his gloved hand. ‘May I have the pleasure?’
I place my fingers in his palm, and – hell and blast – he pats my wrist. I distinctly hear Catherine’s stifled giggle as she is led off by her own suitor. I glower at her over my shoulder as Lord Hamilton and I walk to the dance line. He deposits me at the end and stands across from me.
But just as the orchestra begins to play, an odd taste sweeps across my tongue from front to back. Like a volatile mixture of sulphur and ammonia, hot and burning as it trickles down the inside of my throat.
A vile swearword almost escapes my lips. There’s a faery here.
I
close my eyes and try to swallow the faery’s power. The chemical tang in my mouth is so sharp that I want to cast my accounts over the ballroom floor. Heaving once, I lose my footing and pitch forwards.
‘Oof!’ I careen into the lady nearest me. The wide skirts of our dresses collide and we almost topple onto the marble tiles. Just in time, I grip her shoulders to steady myself.
‘My apologies,’ I say, my voice hoarse.
I look up at the woman then. Miss Fairfax. She regards me with well-controlled mild distaste. My eyes dart to the other dancers. Many couples in the strathspey crane their heads to see the commotion. Though the jaunty music plays on, everyone –
everyone
– is staring at me.
Some of them whisper, and I catch their accusations again. Or I think I do.
Murderess. She went mad. The marchioness’s death was
—
I pull myself away from Miss Fairfax. It takes every ounce of effort to tamp down the memories that threaten to surface, to stay where I am and not run. I know what Father would say. He would tell me that I am the daughter of a marquess, and I am responsible for representing the family name at all times.
‘So sorry, Miss Fairfax. Lost the count,’ I say.
Miss Fairfax merely straightens her skirts, pats her mussed brunette hair and lifts her chin as she rejoins the dance.
‘Lady Aileana?’ Lord Hamilton says. He appears quite concerned. ‘Are you all right?’
I force a smile and speak without thinking. ‘I’m terribly sorry – I must have tripped.’
Oh, dash it all.
I feel faint
, I should have said. That would have been the perfect excuse to get up and leave. How could I be so stupid?
Too late now. Lord Hamilton simply smiles, grips my hand and guides me back to the line. I avoid the prying gazes of my peers and swallow down the last remnants of power on my tongue.
I have to find the blasted creature before it lures its victim. My instincts tell me to leave the dance, find the faery and slaughter it. I spare a glance towards the exit. Dash my reputation and the idiotic notion that a gentlewoman shouldn’t cross a ballroom – or leave it – unescorted.
I feel the dark part inside of me stir and rise, desperate to do only three things: hunt, mutilate, kill.
Oh, I want to, more than anything. The faery is nearby, just outside the ballroom. I step out of the strathspey and head towards the door. Lord Hamilton intercepts me and asks a question. I can’t hear it over the pounding need, my murderous thoughts.
Responsibility
, I remind myself.
Family. Honour
. Damnation.
I reply to Lord Hamilton’s question with a simple, ‘Of course.’
He smiles again. I feel sorry for him, for all of them. They think I’m the only monster in their midst, but the real danger is the one they can’t even see. Faeries select their victims and compel them with a small push of mental influence, then feed from them and kill them.
Five minutes. That’s all I need to find the creature and shoot a capsule into its flesh. Only a little time unobserved to—
I grip Lord Hamilton’s hand hard. I’ve been out of society so long, and the hunt has become second nature. I have to hush my barbaric thoughts or I’ll act too soon and lose myself. My etiquette lessons repeat in my mind.
The daughter of a marquess does not charge out of a ballroom. The daughter of a marquess does not abandon her partner in the middle of a dance
.
The daughter of a marquess does not hunt faeries.
‘—don’t you agree?’ Lord Hamilton is asking, pulling me back into the dance.
I shake myself. ‘Of course.’ I actually manage to sound reassuring.
Lord Hamilton pats my wrist and I grit my teeth against a violent response as we circle another couple.
The strathspey seems to go on for ever. Left foot hop, right foot back, left foot into second position. Instep, third position. Right knee bent, second position. Over and over again. The music doesn’t register any more; it has become a background of screeching strings, and the dance is only halfway over.
My hand brushes the side of my blue silk dress, right over the spot where my lightning pistol is hidden. I envision myself hunting in the corridors, taking aim—
Calm
, I tell myself. I study the fine details of the room again, the mosaic lanterns that continue to float over our heads. Above them are the clicking brass cogs and wiring along the edge of the ceiling, all of it connected to New Town’s electricity system.
I focus on the clicks, on mentally reciting my lessons. Propriety.
Click
. Grace.
Click
. Smile.
Click
. Kill.
Click
.
Hell and blast.
The fiddles screech on. Lord Hamilton says something else and I manage to smile and give a non-committal nod.
I try again. Politeness.
Click
. Modesty.
Click
. Civility—
At last the music stops, and I turn to Lord Hamilton. He offers his arm without comment and leads me to the perimeter of the ballroom. I eye the door again.
‘I say,’ Lord Hamilton murmurs, ‘where is Miss Stewart? I shouldn’t leave you alone.’
Thank heavens Catherine is nowhere to be seen. She is one less person I have to excuse myself from.
‘You’re forgiven,’ I say in that charming voice I hate. ‘If I might beg your pardon, I must take my leave to the ladies’ parlour for a few minutes.’ I touch my temple lightly. ‘A headache, I’m afraid.’
Lord Hamilton frowns. ‘Tch, how dreadful. Do allow me to escort you.’
Once we reach the double doors that exit into the hallway, I stop and smile. ‘There’s no need for you to leave the ballroom, my lord. I can find the parlour on my own.’
‘Are you certain?’
I almost snap at him, but force myself to breathe deeply and regain some composure. My desire to hunt is pounding, unrelenting. If it consumes me, politeness won’t deter me. I’ll want nothing but blood and vengeance and release.
I swallow. ‘Indeed.’
Lord Hamilton doesn’t appear to notice a change in my behaviour. He simply smiles, bows from the waist and pats my wrist again. ‘Thank you for the pleasure of your company.’
He turns to leave and I step into the hallway, breathing a sigh of relief.
At last
.
As I tiptoe down the corridor, away from the ballroom and the ladies’ parlour, my mouth tingles when the faery power returns. My body is growing more used to the taste after its initial violent response, and I recognise the particular breed it comes from. A revenant.
I have only ever killed four revenants, but never on my own, so I haven’t yet grown as accustomed to the potent taste of their power as I have to that of the other breeds of fae I kill more often. In my limited experience, they have three vulnerabilities: an opening along the thoracic cage, just over the left pectoral; an abdominal cavity with a slight soft spot in otherwise impenetrable skin; and rather sub-par intelligence.
Revenants make up for their weaknesses with solid muscle, which makes them difficult to kill. Then again, I do love a challenge.
I reach into the small pocket sewn into the folds of my ball gown and pull out a thin, plaited strand of
seilgflùr
. A rare soft thistle nearly extinct in Scotland,
seilgflùr
gives me the ability to see faeries.
The thistle was almost entirely destroyed by faeries thousands of years ago to prevent humans from learning the truth – that the plant is a faery’s only true weakness. Oh, they all have some spots on their bodies that can be punctured by an ordinary weapon, but that would still only injure one of them.
Seilgflùr
, though, is deadly enough to burn their fae skin and even inflict a mortal wound. I use it in the weapons I make to hunt them.
I tie the
seilgflùr
around my neck and start forward again. My muscles are ready, relaxed, honed from twelve months of gruelling training with Kiaran. My techniques have improved during the nights when I have slaughtered faeries without his help. Kiaran claims I’m not ready to hunt on my own. I have proven him wrong a dozen times. Of course, he doesn’t know I’ve been disobeying his direct order not to hunt alone, but I have a distinct tendency to disobey him when the opportunity arises.
The taste of the faery’s power leaves another strong pulse against my tongue. It must be somewhere around the next corner. I stop abruptly. ‘Brilliant,’ I mutter.
The corridor leads to the bedrooms. If I’m caught inside, there would be no preventing the ensuing scandal. My reputation is intact only because the rumours about me haven’t been proven. Being caught nosing around the Hepburns’ private quarters would be a real issue my already questionable reputation can’t afford.
I shift on my feet. Perhaps if I’m very quick—
‘Aileana!’
I whirl. Oh . . .
hell
.
Catherine and her mother, the Viscountess of Cassilis, stand in the corridor behind me by the double doors leading into the ballroom. As they approach, Catherine stares at me with surprise and confusion, and her mother – well, she regards me with blatant suspicion.
‘Aileana,’ Catherine says again when they reach me. ‘What are you doing over here?’
Both women share the same shining blonde hair and wide blue eyes, though Lady Cassilis’s gaze is shrewd rather than innocent. She has the keenest ability to notice even the smallest infraction in propriety. Nay, even the merest hint of disgrace.
Dash it all. This is bad, being caught heading in the direction of the Hepburns’ private wing. This isn’t where a respectable woman would be. Or, at least, she wouldn’t get caught here. That’s the important bit.
‘Catching my breath,’ I say hurriedly, breathing hard for emphasis. ‘Lord Hamilton is very quick on his feet, you know.’
Catherine looks terribly amused. ‘Oh? Well, for a man of his age, I suppose.’
‘
So
,’ I say, narrowing my eyes at Catherine, ‘I’m here to relax a moment. That’s all.’
‘My
dear
,’ Lady Cassilis says with heavy emphasis, ‘you should relax in the ballroom, which is
this
way.’ She inclines her head towards the doors down the hall.
The faery power leaves a distracting pulse against my tongue – it must be extending its powers again to draw someone in. My body tenses in response. ‘Oh, aye,’ I say. My voice sounds strained. ‘But—’
‘
Yes
,’ the viscountess corrects. ‘“Aye” sounds so
terribly
unsophisticated.’
Lady Cassilis is among the small but growing number of Scottish aristocracy who believe that if we speak like the English, Scotland will be considered a more civilised nation. It’s a load of rubbish, if you ask me. We’re perfectly urbane as we are. But I’d rather not debate the matter in a hallway while there’s a bloodthirsty faery on the loose.
‘Aye, of course. I mean,
yes
,’ I respond. Heavens, isn’t there any way to gracefully extricate myself from this conversation?
‘Mother.’ Catherine inserts herself between us. ‘I’m certain Aileana has a reasonable explanation for . . . loitering here.’ She turns to me. ‘I thought you promised this dance to Lord Carrick.’
‘I have a headache,’ I say, trying to sound as innocent as possible. ‘I was searching for the ladies’ parlour to rest.’
Catherine raises an eyebrow. I return it with a glare.
‘Well, do let me come with you,’ Catherine says.
‘Ah, the ever-persistent headache,’ Lady Cassilis says. ‘If you intend to nurse it in the ladies’ parlour, you’ll find that at the
other
end of the corridor.’
The viscountess narrows her gaze at me. I have no illusions that if she had proof of my ill behaviour, Catherine would have been barred from spending time with me long ago. Lady Cassilis might be my escort to formal functions, but only because Catherine asked her to, since the viscountess and my mother were friends. I can’t imagine what on earth they had in common.