The Holy Terrors (Les Enfants Terribles)

with illustrations by the author
translated by
Rosamond Lehmann

Part One

Part Two

Copyright

Warriors

Dargelos makes a snowball

The terrible snowball

Paul is hurt

In the cab

Brother and sister

As if manipulating an imaginary train

The Room

The bath for two

The new game in the dining room

The loved faces resemble each other

The husband

The Chinese city

Paul and his letter

Elisabeth finds Paul’s letter

The washing of the hands

Dargelos and his poisons

Elisabeth dreams

She controls herself

She pulls the trigger

T
HAT PORTION of old
Paris known as the Cité Monthiers is bounded on the one side by the rue de
Clichy, on the other by the rue d’Amsterdam. Should you choose to approach it from
the rue de Clichy, you would come to a pair of wrought iron gates: but if you were to
come by way of the rue d’Amsterdam, you would reach another entrance, open day and
night, and giving access, first to a block of tenements, and then to the courtyard
proper, an oblong court containing a row of small private dwellings secretively disposed
beneath the flat towering walls of the main structure. Clearly these little houses must
be the abode of artists. The windows are blind, covered with photographers’
drapes, but it is comparatively easy to guess what they conceal: rooms chock-a-block
with weapons and lengths of brocade, with canvases depicting basketfuls of cats, or the
families of Bolivian diplomats. Here dwells the Master, illustrious, unacknowledged,
well-nigh prostrated by the weight of his public honors and commissions, with all this
dumb provincial stronghold to seal him from disturbance.

Twice a day, however, at half-past ten in the morning and four o’clock in the
afternoon, the silence is shattered by a sound of tumult. The doors of the little
Lycée Condorcet, opposite number 72b rue d’Amsterdam, open, and a horde of
schoolboys emerges to occupy the Cité and set up their headquarters. Thus it has
reassumed a sort of medieval character—something in the nature of a Court of Love,
a Wonder Fair, an Athletes’ Stadium, a Stamp Exchange; also a gangsters’
tribune
cum
place of public execution; also a breeding-ground for hazing
schemes—hazing to be hatched out finally in class, after long incubation, before
the incredulous eyes of the authorities. Terrors they are, these lads, and no
mistake—the terrors of the Fifth. A year from now, having become the Fourth, they
will have shaken the dust of the rue d’Amsterdam from their shoes and swaggered
into the rue Caumartin with their four books bound with a strap and a square of felt in
lieu of a satchel.

But now they are in the Fifth, where the tenebrous instincts of childhood still
predominate: animal, vegetable instincts, almost indefinable because they operate in
regions below conscious memory, and vanish without trace, like some of
childhood’s griefs; and also because children stop talking when grown-ups draw
nigh. They stop talking; they take on the aspect of beings of a different order of
creation—conjuring themselves at will an instantaneous coat of bristles or
assuming the bland passivity of some form of plant life. Their rites are obscure,
inexorably secret; calling, we know, for infinite cunning, for ordeal by fear and
torture; requiring victims, summary executions, human sacrifices. The particular
mysteries are impenetrable; the faithful speak a cryptic tongue; even if we were to
chance to overhear unseen, we would be none the wiser. Their trade is all in postage
stamps and marbles. Their tribute goes to swell the pockets of the demi-gods and
leaders; the mutter of conspiracy is shrouded in a deafening din. Should one of that
tribe of prosperous, hermetically preserved artists happen to pull the cord that works
those drapes across his window, I doubt if the spectacle thereby revealed to him would
strike him as copy for any of his favorite subjects: nothing he could use to make a
pretty picture with a title such as “Little Black Sweeps at Play in a White
World”; or “Hot Cockles”; or “Merry Wee Rascals.”

There was snow that evening. The snow had gone on falling steadily since yesterday,
thereby radically altering the original design. The Cité had withdrawn in time;
the snow seemed no longer to be impartially distributed over the whole, warm, living
earth, but to be dropping, piling only upon this one isolated spot.

The hard, muddy ground had already been smashed, churned up, crushed, stamped into slides
by children on their way to school. The soiled snow made ruts along the gutter. But the
snow had also become the snow on porches, steps, and house-fronts: featherweight
packages, mats, cornices, odds and ends of wadding, ethereal yet crystallized, seemed,
instead of blurring the outlines of the stone, to quicken it, to imbue it with a kind of
presage.

Gleaming with the soft effulgence of a luminous dial, the snow’s incandescence,
self-engendered, reached inward to probe the very soul of luxury and draw it forth
through stone till it was visible; it was that fabric magically upholstering the
Cité, shrinking it and transforming it into a phantom drawing-room.

Seen from below, the prospect had less to recommend it. The street lamps shed a feeble
light upon what looked like a deserted battlefield. Frost-flayed, the ground had split,
was broken up into fissured blocks, like crazy pavement. In front of every street drain,
a stack of grimy snow stood ominous, a potential ambush; the gas-jets flickered in a
villainous northeaster; and dark holes and corners already hid their dead.

Viewed from this angle, the illusion produced was altogether different. Houses were no
longer boxes in some legendary theater but houses deliberately blacked out, barricaded
by their occupants to hinder the enemy’s advance.

In fact the entire Cité had lost its civic status, its character of open mart,
fairground, and place of execution. The blizzard had commandeered it totally, imposed
upon it a specifically military rôle, a particular strategic function. By ten
minutes past four, the operation had developed to the point where none could venture
from the porch without incurring risk. Beneath that porch the reservists were assembled,
their numbers swollen by the newcomers who continued to arrive singly or two by two.

“Seen Dargelos?”

“Yes … no … I don’t know.”

This reply came from one of two youths engaged in bringing in one of the first
casualties. He had a handkerchief tied round his knee and was hopping along between them
and clinging to their shoulders.

The question had come from a boy with a pale face and melancholy eyes—the eyes of a
cripple. He walked with a limp, and his long cloak hung oddly, as if concealing some
deformity, some strange protuberance or hump. But nearing a corner piled with school
haversacks, he suddenly flung his cloak back, exposing the nature of his disability: not
a growth, but a heavy satchel eccentrically balanced on one hip. He dropped it, ceased
to be a cripple; the eyes, however, did not alter.

He advanced towards the battle.

To the right, where the footpath joined the arcade, a prisoner was being subjected to
interrogation. By the spasmodic flaring of a gas lamp he could be seen to be a small boy
with his back against the wall, hemmed in by his captors, a group of four. One of these,
a senior boy, was squatting between his legs and twisting his ears, to the accompaniment
of a series of hideous facial contortions. By way of crowning horror, the monstrous
ever-changing mask confronting the prisoner’s was dumb. Weeping, he sought to
close his eyes, to avert his head. But every time he struggled, his torturer seized a
fistful of gray snow and scrubbed his ears with it.

Circumnavigating the group, threading a path through shot and shell, the pale boy went on
his way.

He was looking for Dargelos, whom he loved.

It was the worse for him because he was condemned to love without forewarning of
love’s nature. His sickness was unremitting and incurable—a state of
desire, chaste, innocent of aim or name.

Dargelos was the Lycée’s star performer. He throve on popular support and
equally on opposition. At the mere sight of those disheveled locks of his, those scarred
and gory knees, that coat with its enthralling pockets, the pale boy lost his head.

The battle gives him courage. He will run; he will seek out Dargelos, fight shoulder to
shoulder by his side, defend him, show him what mettle he is made of.

The snow went flying, bursting against cloaks, spattering the walls with stars. Here and
there, some fragmentary image stood out in stereoscopic detail between one blindness and
the next; a gaping mouth in a red face; a hand pointing—at whom? in what
direction? … It is at him, none other, that the hand is pointing; he staggers;
his pale lips open to frame a shout. He had discerned a figure, one of the god’s
acolytes, standing on some front door steps. It is he, this acolyte, who compasses his
doom. “Darg….” His cry is cut off short; the snowball comes
crashing on his mouth, his jaws are stuffed with snow, his tongue is paralyzed. He has
just time to see the laughter and within the laughter, surrounded by his staff, a form,
the form of Dargelos, crowned with blazing cheeks and tumbled hair, rearing itself up
with a tremendous gesture.

A blow strikes him full on the breast. A heavy blow. A marble-fisted blow. A
marble-hearted blow. His mind fades out, surmising Dargelos upon a kind of dais,
supernaturally lit; the arm of Dargelos nerveless, dropping down.

He lay prostrate on the ground. A stream of blood flowed from his mouth, besmearing chin
and cheek and soaking into the snow. Whistles rang out. Next moment the Cité was
deserted. Only a few remained beside the body, not to succor it but to observe the blood
with avid curiosity. Of these, one or two soon made off, not liking the look of things,
shrugging, wagging their heads portentously; others made a dive for their satchels and
skidded away. The group containing Dargelos remained upon the steps, immobilized. At
length authority appeared in the shape of the proctor and the college porter and headed
by a boy, Gérard, whom Paul had hailed upon entering the battle, and who had run
to fetch them after having witnessed the disaster. Between them the two men took up the
body; the proctor turned to scan the shadows.

“Is that you, Dargelos?”

“Yes, Sir.”

“Follow me.”

The procession started.

Great are the prerogatives of beauty, subduing even those not consciously aware of it.
Dargelos was a favorite with the masters. The proctor felt the whole baffling business
to be excessively annoying.