Authors: Gail Bowen
“What happened to her? The paper didn’t say.”
“She died of grief and guilt,” Stan said tightly.
Stan was a man who meted out his words sparingly, but I knew he had more to offer. I fixed my gaze on Lawrence Welk. He was thanking his band. A quartet of young women in Victorian Christmas dress appeared on screen. They were fresh-faced and unmistakably related. I grappled for their name and, amazingly, came up with it: the Lennon Sisters. In voices that were sweet and true, they began to sing “Silent Night.”
“She blamed herself,” Stan said. “To this day I don’t know why, but it was a terrible thing to witness. Are you familiar with the Catholic church down there at Lebret?”
“Yes,” I said.
“Then you’ve seen those crosses on the hill behind the church.”
“The Stations of the Cross.”
“So you’re Catholic.”
“Anglican.”
“But you know what those crosses are for.”
“They represent things that happened during Christ’s passion and crucifixion. Some people use the Stations of the Cross to help them pray and meditate on their sins.”
“That’s what Gloria did,” Stan said. “You’ve seen how steep that hill is. Even in good weather it’s a tough climb, and the tragedy happened in January. It was a bitter winter and that hill was sheer ice. Gloria went up that hill every day on her hands and knees. She stopped at every one of those crosses to pray. She blamed herself.”
The image of suffering was as vivid as an illustration in a saint’s tale.
“How long did she live afterwards?” I asked.
“A year to the day. She died on that hill. Of exposure, they said – and I guess you could take that in a lot of ways. When she died, some people said that she’d finally gotten God’s attention and that He gave her what she prayed for.” His gaze was piercing. “Do you believe in that kind of God?” he asked.
“No,” I said. “I don’t.”
“Neither do I,” he said. “Of course, I’m United Church.”
I arrived home to the news that Lily still hadn’t shown up, so the trip to Standing Buffalo was on. Gracie was uncharacteristically quiet on the way to the reserve. Her mood didn’t alter until we came to Betty’s house and saw Betty herself sitting on her porch, snapping beans. At that moment, Gracie became Gracie again, heedless of everything except her goal as she leaped out of the car and ran to Betty. At Rose’s direction, we loaded up the Tupperware containers of food she’d brought for lunch and headed for the house and a living room as fussily pretty as a midway doll. Under Rose’s watchful eye, the girls began to set the table with the good dishes, but when I offered to help, she waved me off.
“Why don’t you keep Betty company?” Rose said. “She’s a talker, which means she can always use a listener.”
It was an easy chore. I liked Betty. The family resemblance to Rose was marked but, in every way, they were very different women. Rose was wiry. She kept her grey hair in a tight, no-nonsense, wash-and-wear perm and limited her skin care to sunscreen. Betty was curvaceous. She was pushing seventy, but her long hair was still black and lustrous and her makeup was cover-girl perfect.
I pulled up a rocker and sat beside her. “So how are you doing?” I said.
“Fine. Except I’m mad at myself.”
“Rose said you fell down your porch steps.”
“And it was my own fault. Last time I was in the city, I went to Payless and bought myself a pair of backless shoes with stiletto heels. I knew it was foolish, but the shoes were on sale and they made my ankles look slim as a girl’s. You know how it is – I just had to have them. Whoever said ‘Pride goeth before a fall’ knew what he was talking about. I was proud, and boy, did I fall.”
“When do you get your cast off?”
“Not for five more weeks. Mind you, I’m not complaining. I’m still on the green side of the grass, and I’ve got Rose and I’ve got Gracie. Do you know that girl offered to come over here and stay with me for the summer if I needed her? She would have done it too.”
“That’s a selfless thing for a girl her age to offer.”
“That’s the kind of girl she is. She’s never lost sight of who she is or where she belongs. Do you know that from the time she could walk Gracie has danced powwow? She still does. Red hair, freckles and she’s a jingle dancer – a good one, too. She doesn’t just do the steps, she understands their meaning and stays in time with the drumbeat. People on the reserve used to wonder why she bothered to learn. They don’t any more. They respect her. I respect her too.” Betty snapped the last bean and handed me the bowl. “Would you mind taking those inside? Beans shouldn’t be in the heat.”
I took the beans to Rose; she dumped them into a colander and ran cold water on them. “Ten minutes to lunch,” she said.
I went back outside. “Ten minutes till we eat,” I said.
“And I’m going to make the most of them,” Betty said. “Come closer. I want to know what’s going on over at Lawyers’ Bay. Is Lily there or did she take off again?”
“Lily’s been away,” I said carefully. “She’s supposed to be coming back today.”
Betty’s lips became a line. “I knew it,” she said. “My sister didn’t tell me because she thought I’d worry, and she was right. I worry about Gracie. I worry about Lily, too, but that doesn’t mean I don’t get frustrated with her.”
“She’s had a hard life,” I said.
“So you heard about the tragedy,” Betty said. “Well, lots of people have hard lives. They get over it. What happened to Lily happened a long time ago, and it’s not as if she had to deal with it alone. Rose and I were there. So were a lot of other people on this reserve.”
“I’m sure that’s true,” I said. “All I have to go on are the newspaper articles, and of course they focused on the deaths. But in the photographs of Lily in the schoolyard, there was always a boy. It was Alex Kequahtooway, wasn’t it?”
Betty picked up a knitting needle, slipped it inside her cast, and rubbed. “I’ve never been able to leave an itch unscratched,” she said contentedly. “To answer your question, I don’t remember any photo, but it would have to have been Alex. He was just a kid himself, eleven or twelve. But he defended Lily against all comers, adults and kids alike. He walked her to school, and he walked her home. He was like a shield between Lily and the world.”
“Not much of a surprise that he grew up to join the police force,” I said.
“Not to me,” Betty said. “Once a person gets that badge, people have to pay attention, no matter who’s wearing it.”
“Alex went through a lot, didn’t he?” I said.
“Lunch!” Rose’s announcement from inside the kitchen ended the discussion.
Betty’s crutches were on the floor beside her chair. She stared at them with distaste.
“I’ll get those for you,” I said. I helped her to her feet and handed her the crutches. She positioned them under her armpits and heaved her body into place. She looked awkward, as if she didn’t remember the next move in the sequence. “Is there anything else I can do?” I asked.
“Yes,” she said. “Unlike my sister, you can remember that I broke my leg, not my brain. I can handle the truth. Keep me posted.” And with that she lurched forward and made her torturous way into the house.
Despite her protestations that she was fit as a fiddle, Betty seemed weary after lunch. The girls and I cleaned up the kitchen while Rose shepherded her sister into the bedroom and gave her a sponge bath. When she emerged, Betty was dusted with fragrant talc and wearing a peach-and-pink cotton muumuu. Rose settled her sister on the couch and handed her a Barbara Cartland novel. Gracie poured her a glass of cream soda and adjusted the floor fan so Betty could catch the breeze. Given the circumstances, Betty was as comfortable as a human being could be, but Gracie’s face was pinched with concern. She knelt beside Betty. “Are you sure you’re going to be all right?” she asked.
“How could I not be all right?” Betty said. “I’ve got you.”
Reassured, we said our goodbyes, piled into Rose’s Buick, and set out for home. We didn’t get far. As we were poised at the end of Betty’s driveway, prepared to turn onto the road that led to Lawyers’ Bay, Gracie leaned forward and tapped Rose on the shoulder. Her tone was beseeching.
“Could we go to the old graveyard, Rose? Please. There’s something I want to check.”
Rose craned her neck around so she could look at Gracie face to face. “Whatever do you need to check out there?”
“It has to do with our Inuksuit,” Gracie said.
“Top priority,” Rose said dryly. She glanced at her watch. “We’ve got time for a quick trip.”
Taylor groaned. “I hate cemeteries.”
Isobel played peacemaker. “I do too, but this one is neat in a tragic sort of way.”
“Well, okay,” Taylor said.
Rose and I exchanged glances. “Fine with me,” I said. The vote was in. We were on our way.
Like all very old cemeteries, Lake View had an elegiac charm, but it possessed something more rare and valuable in cottage country: it was waterfront property. On the open market it would have fetched the proverbial king’s ransom, but respect for the dead or fear of public outcry had kept speculators at bay, and Lake View looked much the same as it must have looked when it opened its gates more than a century before. The girls scampered down to the beach and, after some excited pointing and gesticulating, they resolved whatever question had drawn them to the shoreline and wandered back into the cemetery proper. Rose and I were walking among the graves too, and I wondered how the girls were reacting to these reminders of a past when entire families were wiped out by scarlet fever and brides not much older than the girls themselves died in childbirth.
We stopped by a grave that was overgrown with weeds. Rose pulled the weeds up and shook the dirt off them.
“Is someone you know buried there?” I asked.
“No,” she said. “I just hate an untidy grave.” Rose took a plastic Safeway bag from her pocket and dropped the weeds in. “Compost,” she said. She cleared her throat. “I want to apologize to you about Betty,” she said. “I know she was on you like a hawk on a mouse, but I’m the one who should be blamed. My sister had a right to know what was going on with Lily.”
“What
is
going on with Lily?” I asked. “Rose, I wouldn’t be asking this if it wasn’t important. Taylor told me that Lily was coming back because she had nowhere else to go. Is her relationship with Alex Kequahtooway over?”
Rose looked at me in amazement. “That relationship will never be over, but it’s not what you think. It’s not a man-woman thing. They’re like one person, one blood.”
“Betty told me Alex was Lily’s protector after her mother died.”
Rose made no attempt to hide her anger. Obviously, the wound I had touched was still fresh. “Did Betty tell you people in town blamed Gloria for what happened? They said she must have led the doctor on. They called her a squaw and a whore and worse.”
“And Lily heard it all.”
“Yes. And every day she had to watch her mother climb that hill, atoning for sins she never committed.”
A breeze came up and rustled the grasses along the lake. Voices from the dead.
“Lily never got over it, you know.” Rose thumped her heart with her hand. “Something broke in here. She should be happy – nice husband, wonderful daughter, good job, beautiful houses – but she isn’t.”
“The night of the fireworks, Gracie asked Blake why her mother couldn’t just see how nice everything was.”
“Lily does see how nice everything is,” Rose said. “That’s the problem. She can’t believe she deserves a good life. So when things are going good, she unravels them, like that Penelope in the Greek story. Did you ever read that story?”
“Not since grade nine,” I said. “It was a long time ago.”
Rose laughed. “Longer ago for me, but I never forgot it. Penelope’s husband went away and all these men wanted to marry her. She was weaving something, I don’t remember what, but she told the men she couldn’t get married until she’d finished her weaving. So the men waited and waited. They didn’t know that every night Penelope went to her room and ripped out her weaving and every morning she started over.”
“You think that’s what Lily’s doing with her life?”
“I know it. My sister always tries to get me interested in romance novels. I’ve read a few, but all those happily-ever-afters just don’t ring true to me. Those Greek stories rang true – that’s probably why I still remember them after sixty years.” Rose squared her shoulders. “Would you mind herding up the girls? There are some graves I’d like to check on.”
“You have family here?”
“Everyone around here does. My parents. The aunt I’m named after. Two of my brothers. More cousins than you can shake a stick at, and, of course, Gloria.”
“I didn’t realize you and Gloria were related.”
“We’re not – at least not by blood. But on this reserve you don’t have to share a family tree to be considered family.”
As soon as we got back, the girls marched off to work on their Inukshuk. Unencumbered by the obligation to leave signposts for future generations, I went back to the cottage. When I opened the front door, the heat hit me like a wave. The Hynds had not believed in air conditioning. The memory of Betty, cool and fragrant, propelled me. I turned on the ceiling fan, found a roomy cotton nightie in my drawer for the nap I needed, and made my way to the shower to wash away a morning of dust and melancholy. The phone was ringing when I stepped out. I grabbed a towel and ran to answer.
Zack’s voice was teasing. “So were you out back milking the chickens?”
“Nope. I was just getting out of the shower …”
“That mental image may just get me through the rest of the day.”
“Troubles in your kingdom?” I said.
“Well, let’s see. The courthouse air conditioning fried itself this morning, so the building is hotter than hell. And the Crown is cleaning my clock. Apart from that, everything’s swell.”
“Come back to Lawyers’ Bay. I’ll let you sit next to the fan and score all the points.”
“Best offer I’ve had all day,” Zack said wearily. “I’ll go back in there and throw myself on the mercy of the court.”
I wasn’t up to Virginia Woolf, and Harriet Hynd’s library was short of trashy novels, so I chose a worthy book on birds of the Qu’Appelle Valley and was asleep before I turned the first page. I woke with a post-nap sense of well-being. It was three o’clock. I walked out to the road and looked towards the gazebo to check on the girls. They were toiling away in the mid-afternoon heat. Feeling guilty that I had been cool and lazy all afternoon while they worked, I sliced a loaf of banana bread, filled a Thermos with lemonade, dropped plastic cups and napkins into my beach bag, and went to assess their progress.