“
Yeah, lucky me,” said Pauline, picking up on my thoughts.
She did her readings out of a small office near downtown Los Angeles, usually working with just one or two clients a day. Some of her sessions lasted longer than others and tonight she was home later than usual, hitting the booze hard, as she often did. I wouldn’t call her a drunk, but she was damn close to being one.
“
I’m not a drunk,” Pauline said absently, reading my thoughts again. “I can stop any time I want. The booze just helps me...release.”
“
Release?” I asked.
“
Yeah, to forget. To unwind. To
un
everything
.”
“
You should probably not drink so much,” I said.
She regarded me over her martini glass. Her eyes were bloodshot. Her face gleamed with a fine film of sweat. She wasn’t as attractive when she was drunk.
“
Thanks,” she said sarcastically. “And do you even remember what it’s like being drunk?”
I thought about that. “A little. And that was below the belt.”
“
Do you even have a belt?”
I looked down at my slightly glowing ethereal body. Hell, even my clothing glowed, which was the same clothing I had been wearing on the night I was murdered two years ago: a white tee shirt and long red basketball shorts, my usual sleeping garb. I was barefoot and I suspected my hair was a mess, since I had been shot to death in my sleep. Dotting my body were the various bloody holes where the bullets had long ago entered my living flesh.
“
No belt,” I said. “Then again, no shoes, either.”
She laughed, which caused some of her martini to slosh over the rim. She cursed and licked her fingers like a true alcoholic.
“
Oh, shut up,” she said.
“
Waste not, want not,” I said.
She glared at me some more as she took a long pull on her drink. When she set it down, she missed the center of the cork coaster by about three inches. Now part of the glass sat askew on the edge of the coaster, and the whole thing looked like it might tip over. She didn’t notice or care.
Pauline worked with spirits all day. Early on, she had tried her best to ignore my presence. But I knew she could see me, and so I pursued her relentlessly until she finally acknowledged my existence.
“
And now I can’t get rid of you,” she said.
“
You love me,” I said. “Admit it.”
“
Yeah,” she said. “I do. Call me an idiot, but I do.”
“
Idiot,” I said. “Besides, I’m different than those other ghosts.”
“
Yeah? How so?”
“
I’m a ghost on a mission.”
“
Could that sound more corny?” she said.
“
Maybe after a few more drinks,” I said.
“
So how’s the mission coming along?” she asked. We had been over this before, perhaps dozens of times.
“
I don’t know,” I said. “It’s not like I’m getting a lot of feedback from anyone—or anything.”
“
And when will you be done with your mission?” she asked.
“
I don’t know that either.”
“
And what, exactly, is your mission?” As she spoke, she peered into the empty glass with one eye.
“
To save my soul.”
“
Oh, yeah, that. And you’re sure it’s not too late to save your soul? I mean, you are dead after all.”
“
It’s never too late,” I said.
“
And you know that how?” she asked.
“
Because I’m not in hell yet.”
“
You’re haunting an old apartment building in Los Angeles,” she said. “Sounds a bit like hell to me.”
“
But I can see my wife and daughter whenever I want,” I countered. “Can’t be that bad.”
“
Your wife has re-married,” said Pauline. “And weren’t you two separated at the time of your death?”
We had been, but the details of our separation were lost to me. We had financial problems I seemed to recall, which had led to many arguments. What we had argued about was anyone’s guess. But the arguments had been heated and impassioned and in the end I had moved out—but not very far. To stay close to my daughter, I had rented an apartment in the same building.
“
Yes, we had been separated,” I said. “And thank you for reminding me of that.”
“
Just keeping it real,” said Pauline indifferently. “Besides, there is no hell.”
“
How do you know?”
“
I talk to the dead, remember? And not just ghosts,” she added. “But those who have passed on.”
“
Passed on to heaven?” I asked.
“
Passed on to
something
,” she said. “Neither heaven nor hell. A spirit world—and it’s waiting for you.”
I didn’t believe that. I believed in heaven and hell, and I was certain, as of this moment, that I was going to hell. “Well, it can keep on waiting. I’m not ready to pass on.”
“
Obviously.”
“
I need to work some things out,” I said.
“
And then what?” she asked.
“
And then I will accept my fate.”
She nodded. “But for now you hope to change your fate.”
“
Yes.”
She looked at me with bloodshot eyes. Sitting on the couch, she had tucked her bare feet under her. Now her painted red toes peaked out like frightened little mice.
“
Nice imagery,” she said, wiggling her toes. “So you still can’t remember why you are going to hell?”
“
No,” I said.
“
But it was something bad.”
“
Very bad,” I said.
“
Bad enough to burn forever?” she asked.
“
Somebody died, I think.”
“
So you’ve said, but you still don’t remember who or why.”
I shook my head. “No, but it happened a long, long time ago.”
“
And with your death,” she added, “it was the first of your memories to disappear.”
She was right. My memories were disappearing at an alarming rate. The earlier memories of my life were mostly long gone. “Yeah, something like that,” I said.
“
And now you’re afraid to pass on because you think you are going to hell, even though you can’t remember
why
you are going to hell.”
“
It’s a hell of a conundrum,” I said.
She nodded, then got up, padded into the adjoining kitchen, and poured herself another drink. When she came back and sat, some of her drink splashed over the rim of her glass.
“
Don’t say a word,” she cautioned me.
I laughed and drifted over to the big bay window and looked out over Los Angeles, which glittered and pulsed five stories below. At this hour, Los Feliz Boulevard was a parking lot dotted with red brake lights as far as the eye could see. I had heard once that it was one of the busiest streets in the world. Standing here now, I believed it.
After a while, Pauline came over and stood next to me. Actually, some of her was standing
inside
me. She shivered with the sensation, apologized, and stepped back. Ghostly etiquette.
I thought of my sweet music teacher. According to the paper, she had been just days away from her sixtieth wedding anniversary.
Sixtieth.
Anger welled up within me. As it did so, a rare warmth spread through me. Mostly my days were filled with bone-chilling cold, minus the bones. But whenever strong emotion was involved, such as anger, I became flush with energy. And when that happened—
“
Hey,”said Pauline.“Someone’s making a rare appearance.”
And so I was. So much so that I could actually see myself reflecting in the big, sliding glass door. Next to me was Pauline, looking beautiful, but drunk. Bloody wounds covered my body; in particular, my forehead, neck and chest.
I didn’t get to see myself often, and, despite my anger, I took advantage of this rare opportunity. Pale and ethereal, I was just a vague suggestion of what I had once been—and I was growing vaguer as the years pressed on. There was stubble on my jaw, and my dark hair was indeed askew. Eternal bed head.
Great.
“
But you’re still a cutie,” said Pauline, giggling, now almost entirely drunk.
And with those words and that infectious giggle, my anger abated and I started fading away again.
“
Tell me about your murdered friend,” said Pauline.
“
She wasn’t necessarily a friend.”
She explored my mind a bit more. “My apologies. Your piano teacher from grade school.”
“
Yes.”
“
Why would someone kill her?” she asked.
“
I don’t know.”
She paused, then nodded knowingly. “I see you intend to find out.”
“
Yes.”
“
And perhaps save your soul in the process?”
“
That’s the plan,” I said. “For now.”
“
You do realize you have limits to where you can go and what you can do, right?”
I shrugged. “Minor technicalities.”
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Chapter One
The dream was always the same.
It’s a warm day with the sun hot on the back of my neck as I set up the tripod on the steep mountainside. The sky is clear and Mount Ararat, fabled resting spot of Noah’s Ark, sits in silent repose, a dormant volcano that dominates the landscape of Eastern Turkey. A small wind works its way over the rocky surface, bringing with it the scent of wildflowers, ancient dust and something else.
Death.
The great mountain shakes suddenly, violently. I look up, my heart racing. A single word instantly crosses my thoughts:
landslide.
And it’s nearby.
Immediately, I snap my head around to where Liz, my fiancé, has disappeared around a bend in the trail to, as she puts it, “go potty.” We’d been engaged for the past two years, traveled the world together on assignment with the
National Geographic
, and still she can’t pee in front of me. Cute, right? Endearing, right?
Except now I didn’t find it so cute and endearing. Now we were separated, and something bad was happening, and it was happening
now.
And it was happening directly above her.
I’m moving. I snatch my tripod and camera, hastily shoving both into my lightweight field backpack.
The mountain shakes harder.
Angrier
.
“
Liz!” I shout, but my voice is instantly swallowed by the deep, primeval rumblings of the legendary mountain.
The outcropping of boulders she had chosen to pee behind is fifty yards to my left, along the face of a steep slope. Above, the mountain continues to shake. Dust drifts lazily across the upper slopes. Something is coming, something very bad, and it’s coming down on top of her.
I see to my horror that there is no easy trail to the outcropping. Indeed, the path is paved in loose shale, akin to walking on bowling balls. Earlier I had watched as she carefully picked her way over the shifting rock, arms outstretched, balancing herself with amazing cat-like grace, marveling once again at the extremes she was taking for privacy. But, alas, I respected her need for a peaceful pee, although I didn’t completely understand it. Indeed, I loved her for all her quirks.
I had never been in love before. Not true love. I was never around long enough for anything to develop, at least anything substantial. I was a photojournalist. The world was my home.
But this was different. Liz was different. We had met in Nepal three years earlier, and the chemistry between us was frightening. She was all I could have imagined—and often more than I dared imagine. Hell, I don’t think we left the hotel for a week. It was love and I knew it and I was terrified to leave this one behind, as I had left so many others. So I asked her to join me, to work together as a team. To my utter shock, she had agreed, and now I was traveling the world with the girl of my dreams. Part daredevil and part Mother Teresa, she was unstoppable in her pursuit of justice and equality for those less fortunate. We had been jailed twice for her beliefs, and once sentenced to hang. But that’s another story. She was the best photojournalist I knew, stronger than any man and heartier than even me. And, of course, sexy as hell.
Ultimately, she made me happy. Very happy.
* * *
From high above, beyond a rocky cornice to the east, I can see movement. Big movement. Rock and dirt and debris are in motion. Moving slowly at first, but picking up steam, gaining momentum. Massive boulders are soon mixed into the fray.