Authors: Penny Jordan
'He
seems
fine,' Louise told her cautiously. 'He was sick after the travelling, but he's over that now, and he seemed chirpy enough this evening. The four of us went out for a meal—my apartment isn't really equipped for any serious cooking, but...' She hesitated.
'But what?' Olivia pressed her.
'Well, he
seems
okay, Livvy, but, easy as it would be to put all the blame for his upset on Max's shoulders, I can't help thinking that there's more to the situation than that. Jack is a sensible enough boy. He knows how Max is, and he knows as well how much my parents love him. I can't help wondering if this desire to find your father is perhaps something he's been brooding on in secret for some time.'
'You've just put into words exactly what
I've
been thinking,' Olivia agreed. 'I feel
so
guilty, Lou. I should have seen
...guessed.
But I've been so tied up in my own life, the girls and Caspar. And Jack seemed so happy, and well adjusted to the fact that Dad and Mum were no longer on the scene, that I'm afraid I just assumed that he felt the same way about the situation as I do. But of course I was an adult when it all happened. Jack was only a child.'
Louise knew, without her cousin having to explain, what she meant by 'when it all happened'. She was referring to the disappearance of her father.
Louise's own father had tried to trace him, and so too had Olivia and Jack's mother, who was now divorced from him and remarried.
'Mmm... I was thinking about... every thing... this evening while we were out,' Louise told her. 'Do you think, Livvy, that by trying to protect Jack from the truth we've perhaps made the situation more difficult for him to cope with? He's an intelligent boy, and from what Joss has let slip I get the impression that the pair of them have a pretty good idea of what actually happened. Of course your father's disappearance is bound to have left Jack with an awful lot of unanswered questions—and an increasing number of them, perhaps, as he grows up. After all, looking at it from Jack's point of view, he perhaps feels that when your father disappeared he took with him the answers…'
'You're very perceptive, Lou,' Olivia told her. 'I must admit I hadn't put myself in Jack's shoes and tried to see things from his point of view. When Dad took off, to be blunt, I was so shocked and traumatised by the discovery that he had virtually stolen someone else's money that I was glad he'd disappeared. I don't know
how
I would have dealt with the situation if he hadn't... By going he relieved me of the necessity of having to do anything other than let your father and Aunt Ruth clear up the mess that he had left behind.'
'I think you're being too hard on yourself, Livvy,' Louise protested. 'I don't know how I would have coped in your shoes. I have to admit that I can't help sympathising with Jack, though. I know that
this
time we've managed to nip his plans in the bud, but—'
'But what happens next?' Olivia interrupted her wryly. 'That's what's been worrying me...'
'Well, I've had a thought,' Louise began hesitantly. 'And it
is
only a thought, that's all...'
'Go on,' Olivia commanded.
'Well, perhaps if Jack felt less isolated, if my father could involve him in his own enquiries to try and locate your father... If Jack could be
involved,
somehow, that might at least stop him from bunking off school and help him to feel he has some say, some control in things.'
'I hear what you're saying,' Olivia told her. 'And, yes, I think you could be right. I'll talk to your father about it,
and
to Jack. Which reminds me. The reason I'm ringing is to tell you chat Saul will be flying over to collect both boys. *Ie was due to come over on business any v. a apparent!/, and he says it's no trouble for him to bring Joss and Jack back with him.'
'What...when will he be arriving?' Louise asked her quietly.
'He's advanced his meeting and he's leaving first thing in the morning; he says his business should be over by mid-afternoon. Look, I must go; I can hear Alex crying. Thanks again, Lou...I'm
so
grateful to you. It was such a shock when your mother rang to tell me what had happened.'
'I know what you mean.'
Olivia paused. 'Lou, it won't be a
problem
, Saul coming to collect the boys, will it?' she asked tentatively.
'Not in the least,' Louise replied promptly and truthfully—meaning it.
'No...that's what Tullah said,' Olivia agreed after another small pause, and Louise knew that it was a measure of how far she had come that she felt not the least degree of chagrin or resentment at the thought of her cousin and Saul's wife discussing her.
Another measure of her maturity, she acknowledged with far less pleasure, was that she did not have the least inclination to confide to Olivia just
why
it was that she knew so positively that her feelings for Saul were no more than those of a cousin—and had been for a very long time. Since Tuscany, in fact...
Louise opened her eyes abruptly. She had been asleep, dreaming about Gareth. In her dream she had been trying to reach out towards him, to hold him and kiss him, but every time she'd tried to do so he'd moved away from her.
A glance at her alarm clock warned her that it would soon be time for her to get up. Not that she particularly
wanted
to go back to sleep. Not if she was going to have
those
kind of dreams.
After a quick breakfast, she rang her boss at home, explaining to her what had happened and asking if she might have the day off to look after the boys until Saul arrived to collect them.
'By all means,' Pam Carlisle assured her. 'How's the migraine, by the way?'
'Gone,' Louise told her. 'Fortunately.'
After she had finished talking to Pam she cleared away her breakfast things, wondering what time Gareth would bring the boys round, and what she was going to do with them until Saul arrived.
She had just finished tidying up the kitchen when she heard Gareth and the boys arrive. Going to the door to let them in, she was relieved to see that Jack was smiling.
'Thank you for giving them a bed for the night,' she said to Gareth as he followed them into her flat.
'I've been on the phone to the parents,' she informed both boys as she ushered them into her living room, a little disconcerted to realise that instead of leaving Gareth had closed the door and joined them. 'And Saul will be calling round later to take you both home.'
'Saul?' All three of them repeated his name with varying degrees of emotion, but it was Gareth's quick, sharp demand that overrode the other voices as they made eye contact and she saw the critical condemnation in his look.
She could see that Jack was beginning to look slightly uneasy, and quickly she reassured him.
'It's all right Jack,' she told him. 'Mum and Dad
do
understand. You should have told them that you wanted to find your father,' she pointed out gently to him, and when she saw that he might still be determined to head off for Spain, added, 'And maybe Dad has been a little at fault in neglecting to keep you informed of...things. He
has
tried to find your father, you know, and—'
'Is it true that Dad will have to go to prison if he comes back to England?' Jack blurted out, his face going scarlet as he focused anxiously on Louise.
'Who on earth told you that?' Louise asked him, shocked.
Jack shook his head.
'No one...at least not in so many words. But Max...'
'Max is a trouble-maker. He's like—'
'Like my father,' Jack interrupted her.
Louise bit her lip in consternation. Gareth was still there and showed no sign of planning to leave, but this was not a conversation she particularly wanted to have with him as an observer—a critical observer, no doubt, she decided irritably.
'So far as I know, Jack, your father
has
never been,
was
never motivated by malice, which I have to be honest and admit Max very often is. But it's true that your father and Max do share certain personality traits...'
'Uncle Jon once told me that the reason Dad was the way he was is because... because Gramps spoiled him...' Jack told her uncertainly.
'Gramps
did
spoil him,' Louise agreed. '
And
he has spoiled Max too...given him...given them both the impression that they have the right to put themselves first.'
'Uncle Jon told me as well that no one should blame Dad completely, because Gramps' expectations of him had put him under a lot of pressure...'
'Yes, Gramps does have very, very high expectations of his favourites,' Louise agreed dryly.
'Dad can't have loved
us
very much, me and Livvy, can he?' Jack asked her huskily. 'Not and have done what he did. Uncle Jon would
never
disappear and leave all of you...'
'I'm sure that he
does
love you, Jack,' Louise contradicted him. 'The fact that he disappeared isn't a reflection on you, you know, and it
certainly
doesn't mean he doesn't
love
you. In fact, I expect that one of the reasons he left was because he
does
love you both, very, very much.'
She saw the look that Jack was giving her, and explained quietly, 'By leaving, he probably thought that he was helping to protect you.'
'Do you really think so?' Jack questioned her uncertainly.
'I'm sure of it,' Louise confirmed, sure now that Jack would return to Haslewich, and the loving family awaiting him.
'What time's Saul arriving?' Joss interrupted.
'He has some business, which will take him until after lunch, so I doubt that he will be here until late afternoon,' Louise informed him. 'Is there anything that either of you would like to see or do while you're here? I've taken the day off work so...'
'Gareth's going to take us to this place where we can surf the net,' Joss informed her excitedly.
Louise opened her mouth to point out that Gareth had no right to make any such arrangements without checking with her first that it was all right, and then closed it again.
'You can come with us if you want to. Can't she, Gareth?' Joss added.
'Gee, thanks,' Louise drawled as she looked across at Gareth, half expecting to see him sharing her amusement that Joss should think she might consider j this a high treat.
But instead of smiling Gareth was frowning, his voice curt and terse as he demanded, 'I take it it was
your
idea that Saul should be the one to come for the boys?'
Louise looked at him.
'No, as a matter of fact, it wasn't—' she began.
But before she could finish he cut across her and said sarcastically, 'I see. So it was just a fortunate coincidence, was it?'
Louise looked across to where Joss and Jack were too deep in a highly technical discussion about some new computer technology to be aware of what was going on between Gareth and herself.
'I don't know
what
you're trying to imply,' she began in a heated, low-pitched voice, 'but for your information Saul is—'
'I know
exactly
what Saul is to you,' Gareth interrupted her savagely. 'My God, haven't you—?'
He stopped abruptly as Joss looked across at them both questioningly.
'I'd better get my coat,' Louise informed Gareth. 'How far is this place? Can we walk, or...?'
'No. I'll drive us there in my car,' Gareth informed her brusquely.
'If you've both finished, I think we ought to be heading back to the flat,' Louise informed Joss and Jack as she glanced quickly at her watch. Gareth had insisted on taking them for a late lunch at a small trattoria close to where they had spent the morning, and now, as they all stood up, Louise gave him a dismissive smile and told him, 'There's no need for you to drive us back. I'll get a taxi.'
All day she had been conscious of a very definite brooding hostility in his attitude towards her, and despite her determination not to let either him or the boys see how much it was affecting her the strain was beginning to take its toll.
She already knew, of course, that he neither liked nor approved of her, but the contempt she could feel emanating from him today had brought home to her just how very vulnerable she was where he was concerned.
'We can't go home without going to Gareth's fiat to collect our stuff,' Joss reminded her practically.
Louise's heart sank. But he was right, of course. However, when they arrived at the apartment block, a little to Louise's consternation they discovered that Saul was already waiting in the foyer for them.
'Saul, I'm so sorry,' she apologised. 'I didn't think you'd be here until later.'
'Don't worry,' Saul reassured her as he smiled at her, and then looked thoughtfully towards Gareth. 'My business was completed earlier than I expected.'
'You must be Gareth.' Saul smiled, extending his hand towards the other man. 'I'm Saul Crighton, Louise's cousin...'
'And ours,' Joss added.
'Yes, I know,' Gareth acknowledged tersely, ignoring Saul's outstretched hand and turning instead to the two boys, reminding them, 'Your things are still in my apartment. I'll—'
'Oh, yes. You'd better go with Gareth now and get them,' Louise interrupted him quickly, seizing the opportunity to ensure that she had a few moments of privacy with Saul to put him fully in the picture just 4 in case Olivia hadn't already done so.
Over the boys' heads Gareth sent her a corrosively contemptuous look. Her face burning, as much with unhappiness as anger, Louise looked away from him.
'Not exactly the friendly type, is he?' Saul commented dryly once he and Louise were on their own.
'You mean Gareth?' Louise asked, fumbling with the key as she started to unlock her apartment door. 'It's my fault... He... I...'
She stopped.
'He thinks I'm trying to manipulate the situation so that I can have some time on my own with you,' she told Saul with painful honesty as she pushed open her apartment door and beckoned to him to follow her inside.
'He...he was my tutor that time when...the time of the masked ball, and...' She stopped. 'In a way he's right I
did
want to have some time on my own with you, but not for the reason he suspects. I wanted to have a private word with you about Jack, Saul. I don't know how much Livvy has told you.'