Authors: Jessica Stirling
It was, alas, a very wet weekend. Rain swept in on Friday evening and brought with it a certain grey lethargy. By half past nine o'clock everyone had trailed off to bed.
Saturday was no better. Only the boys ventured out to explore the countryside and even they, wet through, were back within the hour. The march to church on Sunday was an ordeal; a long meandering sermon only added to the general disgruntlement.
No piano was to be found in Strathmore, an omission that Owen promised to rectify before the family's Christmas visit â âChristmas visit? What's this about a Christmas visit?' â and the weekend deteriorated into bickering over endless games of draughts and cribbage and vain attempts by Martin to rouse interest in a round of charades. The atmosphere did not encourage fellowship let alone frivolity. The house reeked of dampness and a creeping decay that not even log fires in the parlours and coal fires in the bedrooms could dissipate. Small wonder that badinage between the boys took a macabre turn, turning to ghosts and corpses and the invention of a cod âhistory' for the house that became so grisly that Pansy and Mercy were frightened and Donald had to put a stop to it.
By nine, armed with stone hot-water bottles, candles, books, bed-socks and, in Martin's case, a flask of whisky, the Franklins, male and female, trooped off upstairs with all the enthusiasm of prisoners ascending the gallows.
In the attic Cissie and Lindsay undressed by candlelight.
They brushed their clothes, folded their stockings, rolled up their ribbons and modestly slipped into their nightgowns. The day-maids from Kelkemmit had refused to attend on the Sabbath and Ross and Johnny between them had failed to ignite a fire in the gnarled iron grate, though in trying they had created more smoke than a kipper factory.
Cissie coughed and hugged the stoneware bottle to her breast.
âYou're not going to read, are you?'
âI'm going to try,' said Lindsay.
âIn this light you'll ruin your eyesight. What are you reading, anyway?'
âOh, just a trashy romance.'
âAbout luh-urve?' said Cissie. âWhat's it called?'
âThe Sorrows of Satan.'
âI've read that,' said Cissie. âI didn't think it was trashy. I thought it was rather spiritual and uplifting.'
Seated by the washstand on the room's only chair, Lindsay brushed her hair. The candle flame formed little pearls of light around the mirror's blown border, the only signs of warmth in the room.
âLindsay,' Cissie said, âdo you think I'm clever?'
âOf course you are. At school, you wereâ'
âSchool doesn't count,' Cissie said. â
You're
clever. Everyone knows you're clever. I mean, that's why Pappy made you a partner.'
âNo,' Lindsay said. âHe was just being fair.'
Cissie put the stoneware bottle on the quilt, then, not quite as seductively as Salome, raised her arms above her head. âDo you think I have a good figure?'
âBetter than mine,' said Lindsay.
âFatter than yours, that's what you mean, isn't it?'
âFuller,' said Lindsay, who knew better than to tell an outright lie.
Sighing, Cissie slumped on to the bed. âI'm a frump, a fat frump,' she said. âHeaven knows what I'll be like in five years' time. Too fat and horrible to contemplate.'
âNonsense!'
Lindsay recommenced her grooming, counting strokes beneath her breath. Cissie and she had been as close as sisters and had shared many secrets. But there was a new note in Cissie's questions that made Lindsay uncomfortable. She waited, rather tensely, for the next question.
âDo you think that's all Forbes sees in me?' Cissie said. âMy figure, I mean. Do men really only care about how we look?'
Lindsay said, âHas Forbes tried to kiss you again?'
âNot since that day in the park. He's wary of Mr Calder, I think.'
âDoes that not answer your question?'
âOf course it doesn't,' said Cissie. âI mean, it's not that I want him toâ¦' Perplexed, she stripped back the covers and swung herself into bed. âI don't know what I want, Lindsay. It's this place, this boring house. I was all right until we arrived in this hovel.'
âPerhaps Strathmore
is
haunted.'
âWhat do you mean?' said Cissie, more bewildered than alarmed.
Lindsay left the dressing-table and set the candle-holder on the shelf above the beds. Nanny Cheadle would love it here: a house without gas, a house as old and creaky as Nanny herself, a house filled with phantoms of unfulfilled desires. She eased herself into bed.
Cissie, not at all sleepy, said, âHaunted? Tell me what you mean.'
âHaunted by star-crossed lovers doomed to linger here for all eternity.'
âReally?' Cissie lay back, arms above her head.
Lindsay reached for her book but did not open it.
Cissie said, âI wonder what it's like to be a star-crossed lover.'
âNot much fun, I imagine,' Lindsay said.
âBetter than being married to a man you don't love, though.'
âOr,' said Lindsay, âto a man who doesn't love you.'
âHave you ever been in love, Lindsay?'
âIf I had, I'd have told you about it.'
âOh, yes.' Cissie chuckled. âWhat about Gordon Swann then?'
âDon't be ridiculous.'
âWhat about our Martin?'
âI love Martin dearly,' Lindsay said, âbut not in that way.'
âWhat about Forbes?' Cissie persisted. âDo you think you could love him â in that way?'
Lindsay pushed her feet down into the corners of the bed. The sheets were smooth and slippery and now that the bottle had warmed them felt faintly, not unpleasantly damp.
âWell?' Cissie said.
âIf we're talking about husbands,' Lindsay said, âI think I'd prefer Mr Calder to our cousin from Dublin.'
âDo you know something,' Cissie said, âI think I would too.'
*Â Â Â *Â Â Â *
A week before the holiday Mr Sampson, the foreman, moved him out of castings and along to the engine shop. Forbes wasn't sorry to quit the foundry. When he enquired if his grandfather was behind the move, though, he was met with a blank stare and gathered the impression that he was being moved along not for the benefit of his education but because he had failed to make the grade.
He was used to being rejected. His father, Daniel, had had it in for him from the day he was born. His father wasn't a drunkard, a gambler, or a bully. He was fair with the farmers from whom he bought his grains and generous to his employees. He was known as a good, round, solid sort of family man, loved by his children â all except Forbes â and respected in the community. He had no obvious flaws to which Forbes could point and say, âSee, that's him, the real Daniel McCulloch, the ogre, the tyrant who reared and rejected me.'
Only his mother loved him, but his mother was weak. She seemed to expect more of him that he was ever able to deliver, but whenever he failed to live up to her expectations she was always willing to forgive him. When he grew he'd plucked up courage to ask her why his father hated him. Mam had denied that this was the case, had kept on denying it no matter how hard or how often he pressed her. So, by the age of eleven, he had begun to live up to the reputation his father had wished upon him. Had developed into a wild young rip, thoughtless, harum-scarum, always on the lookout for mischief â secure in the knowledge that his pa would punish and his mam forgive.
Thus was the order of Owen Forbes McCulloch's universe established.
He said nothing to his uncles about what had happened at Beardmore's. He knew when to keep his gob shut. Sooner or later they were bound to find out. Then, just like his pa, they would reprimand him for laziness or lack of interest or for scrapping with those apprentices who couldn't tolerate his accent and had ganged up on him at the dinner-hour, three and four and five of them to give him his licks, until finally he'd floored one of them with the back of a coking shovel, which had ended that daily dose of unpleasantness once and for all.
On the following Monday morning he was moved along.
He was surprised to discover that the engine shop was as cold and noisy as the forge had been. The foreman, Mr Gall, seemed to know who he was and why he had been sent there. Mr Gall took him straight to a small, oily upright machine and in a matter of ten minutes showed him how to face nuts. It was simple work, a fool could do it, but the monotony was crippling. That first week seemed like an eternity. His hands performed efficiently but his brain remained disjointed. He daydreamed of Cissie's freckles and full soft breasts, Mercy's rosebud lips and round hips, of Lindsay, with her fine blonde hair and a smile that suggested that if he played his cards right she might let him share her bed.
Amid the clink and clatter of metal he reinvented his past, excursions of the imagination in which he satisfied his desire with girls he'd hardly known, girls who had rebuffed him. He dreamed about holding a woman, touching a woman, having a woman hug him and tell him that he was so handsome and charming that she couldn't resist him. But as the week wore on all the girls became one girl, Lindsay, and his desire eased into a vague, wistful longing to be with her again.
When he strolled up the platform on holiday Monday toting his scuffed leather valise the first person he saw was his Uncle Arthur nipping nimbly into a first-class compartment and slamming the door.
Forbes walked on, unperturbed. There would be time enough to chat to dear old Uncle Arthur after they reached Perth and were obliged to share a jaunting car for the second leg of the journey. In any case he was searching for a girl, some bonnie wee servant lass, say, whom he could sit next to and engage in conversation, or if she chose to be standoffish whom he could ogle for the duration of the ride. If he couldn't find a suitable specimen to talk to or admire â which, alas, he couldn't â then he would stare out of the window at the passing scene and anticipate the warm welcome that Lindsay would give him when eventually he reached Strathmore. Dreaming of Lindsay, Forbes rolled into Perth station and got out of the train.
âAh, Forbes!' his uncle said. âWere you on board? I kept an eye peeled at Glasgow but I must have missed you. Better day, is it not?'
âIt is, sir, thanks be to heaven.'
The railway company had laid on a wagonette with a pair of horses between the shafts and a young driver on the high seat. The sky above Perth station was bright, the torrential rain that had raised the rivers and brought burns dashing down from the hills had eased away. Forbes sniffed the clean country air gladly and, without resentment, climbed up beside his uncle. They sat facing each other, knee to knee, as the wagonette rocked over the cobbles and the station dropped out of sight behind stout little houses that ringed the town.
Arthur cleared his throat. âAh, how are things at Beardmore's?'
âJust grand.'
âHave you seen Goliath in action yet?'
In spite of a general lack of interest Forbes had been impressed by the gigantic hydraulic hammer that had become a legend in the district of Parkhead, not least because of the damage its vibrations caused to surrounding properties. He had been even more impressed to learn that Goliath, though still in use, was in the process of being replaced by a new cogging mill with an engine that could do as much on a Saturday morning as Goliath could do in a month.
âSure, and it was very spectacular, Uncle,' Forbes said.
âIt's a white elephant now, however.'
âI did hear something to that effect,' said Forbes.
He decided not to force the issues that lay between his uncle and him. He wished to impress the man, not rile him. It had been easy to fool Aunt Lilias, hardly less so Uncle Donald. He was already aware, however, that no matter how far he advanced in shipbuilding he would always have Martin ahead of him, Ross and Johnny panting along behind, and had come to believe that his best hope for the future lay in Brunswick Crescent, not on Harper's Hill.
âI take you've seen the travelling crane?' his uncle said.
âYes.'
âHave you been up in the operator's box yet?'
âNo,' Forbes said. âTo tell you the truth, sir, I've been moved to the engine shop.'
âHave you indeed?'
âI asked for a transfer.'
âDid you indeed?'
Obviously his uncle had heard nothing of what had happened at Beardmore's and had no more than a passing interest in his welfare. Forbes felt no anger, no resentment, just a soft, slow infusion of confidence born out of the sure and certain knowledge that one day he would make Arthur Franklin sit up and take notice of him, that one day in the not too dim and distant future he would be far too important to ignore.
âI thought it would be better for me to get on with it rather than just hanging about,' he said.
âGet on with what, may I ask?'
âLearning about engines,' Forbes said.
âNow that you know all about casting and forging, you mean?'
âWe don't make steel at Franklin's.'
âNo, but we do have to know what sort of steel to order.'
âI'm aiming to be a manager, Uncle Arthur, not a coker.'
âYou're not a manager just yet, Forbes,' his uncle reminded him. âYou have to learn to walk before you can run.'
âHow long before you take me into Franklin's?'
âAt least a year.'
âAm I being kept in Beardmore's as a punishment?' Forbes asked.
âA punishment? Of course not,' Arthur said, not harshly. âYou've been put out to Beardmore's to learn what it's like to be an apprentice.'
âWhy can't I do that at Franklin's?'
âBecause,' Arthur said, âwhen you're brought into Franklin's you won't be an apprentice, you will not be serving your time at a trade.'