The XOXO New Adult Collection: 16 Full Length New Adult Stories (71 page)

“I’ve been looking everywhere for you,” he said. “Are you all right?”

The male standing beside Everly moved to stand in front of her. He crossed heavily tattooed arms over his broad chest.

“You the reason for the mark on her face?” he asked.

“No,” Cole responded. He couldn’t decide whether to be insulted or grateful that he asked.

“He’s not, Manny,” Everly said. “He’s my boyfriend.”

It was the first time she’d said that. It made him want to grab her and haul her against him. That would have to be her move, though. He vowed that this relationship would progress at her rate of speed. He didn’t ever again want to go through what he had this past night.

“Boyfriends hit,” Manny said, his gaze still focused on Cole. “Even famous ones.”

“Not this one,” Cole stated.

Everly stepped to Manny’s side and patted him on the arm. “Thank you for your concern. Truly. But Cole would never hit me.” Her gaze moved to him. “He knows I’d kick his ass if he did.”

One corner of Cole’s mouth lifted. “She’s right.”

“Aw’ight,” Manny said after another moment. He left Everly’s side, but his gaze moved cautiously between them.

Cole caught Everly’s gaze again. “I’m—”

She rushed forward, flinging her arms around him and interrupting his apology. He caught her and held her so tight that he feared he was hurting her ribs. But he couldn’t help himself. He closed his eyes and pressed his face against the top of her head. It was all he could do to keep his emotions in check.

“God, Everly...I thought—”

“I’m so sorry, Cole,” she said at the same time.

They didn’t speak again for another full minute. She eventually eased her grip on him and lifted her head to meet his gaze. He reached up and gently brushed his fingertips across her left cheek. He wished he could erase it...the bruise as well as the pain that she endured along with it.

“I should have told you about my father,” she said softly. “But I was ashamed. I—”

He touched her lips to silence her. “I’m sorry I pushed you so hard. You don’t have to tell me.”

“Thank you. But if you want to know everything there is to know about me, I’m ready to share it with you.”

Blinking, he looked around. “Here?”

“Why not?” she said with a shrug. “Everything’s easier over a plate of scattered, smothered, and covered, right?”

And so, in a far corner of the Waffle House as the sky began to lighten on Christmas morning, Cole listened as the woman he loved bared her soul.

“A
iden was almost nine years old when I came along,” she began, doctoring her coffee with sugar and creamer. “By then, he was already showing natural aptitude for baseball. My father played ball in high school and he wanted his son to follow in his footsteps. He registered Aiden in Little League when he was barely old enough to hold a bat. Fortunately, my brother took to the sport like a fish to water.

“My arrival was something of a surprise. My mom was thrilled to have a little girl, though, and Aiden was just as happy to have a little sister.” A smile ghosted her mouth. “He’d always wanted siblings.”

Cole also smiled. He wanted to encourage her. But he couldn’t help but notice that she didn’t mention her father among those who were happy about her arrival.

“My first memories of my brother are from his early teen years. I must have driven him crazy wanting to tail after him everywhere, but he rarely lost his patience with me. All of my early baseball education came from him. He brought me to a lot of his practices and games. By the time I was eight, I was handling jobs at the ball field like manning the scoreboard or working as the ball girl. I wanted to feel like a part of the game.”

She lifted her mug and took a sip. He realized his coffee was sitting in front of him getting cold, so he also drank. He didn’t taste it, though.

“My parents already had a lot invested in Aiden’s future when I came along,” she continued. “I don’t remember a time back then when things weren’t planned around his practices, games, or private lessons. Baseball was our life.”

What about her? he wondered. Didn’t her parents encourage her to do activities of her own?

But he knew the answer without her having to say it.

“There was never a question that my brother would either enter the draft out of high school or go on to play in college. It was a heated debate in our household. My father wanted Aiden to enter the draft. He never went to college, so he didn’t see the need for his son to do so. My mom, on the other hand, wanted Aiden to have the security of a college education. She didn’t go to college either, and she wanted more for her children.”

Manny approached with their food. “Here you go,” he said, setting plates down in front of them. “Can I get you any ketchup or hot sauce?”

“No thanks, Manny,” Everly said, giving him a smile. “This looks wonderful. I’m starving.”

“I’m good, thanks,” Cole added.

The server left them and returned to his conversation with the cook. Cole appreciated the fact that they were giving them privacy. So far, the rest of the restaurant was still empty.

“I remember Aiden coming into my room one night when my parents were fighting over whether he should go to college,” she said, sprinkling salt and pepper onto her eggs and hash browns. “I was nine at the time. I just asked him which option would keep him closer so I could see him more often. The next day, he applied to Georgia Tech without consulting our parents. He was accepted and offered a full scholarship.

“When my father found out that Aiden was going to skip the draft and play college ball, he was furious. Aiden told him that he wanted to be close to home so I could see him play.” She ate some hash browns, then fiddled with her fork. Her eyes were on her plate when she said, “That was the first time my father hit me.”

Cole slowly lowered his fork. The bite of sausage in his mouth suddenly tasted bitter, but he swallowed it. His gaze swept over Everly’s face as he pictured a father raising a hand to a nine-year-old little girl. The dusting of freckles on her nose stood out in unusually stark contrast to her pale skin, making her look fragile. The bruise made her look broken.

He shouldn’t have asked her to revisit this, he realized. He couldn’t bear it.

But he
would
do this, because Everly had borne it.

When he didn’t comment, she ate another bite of hash browns, then went on, “He waited until Aiden and my mom were both out of the house. He asked me if I had said anything to my brother about going to college. When I confessed about my conversation with Aiden, he hit me in the side of the head. It knocked me over a footstool. I sprained my wrist. He told me that I’d better tell everyone that it had been an accident or I’d suffer far worse. So I lied. Clearly, it was far from the last time that sort of thing happened.”

She drank some more coffee. Finally, her gaze met his. “As you may know from your earlier research, Aiden was spectacular at Tech. He broke a couple of records.” She smiled briefly. “The first three years he was there were the happiest of his life. He met a girl his sophomore year. Natalie. She was nice. Didn’t treat me like a dweebie little sister. Anyway, she graduated the year before Aiden did. I realized they were having some problems as his senior year went on, but I was too young and self-involved to know exactly what was up. Later, I found out that Natalie was taking care of her sick mother and trying to get her career off the ground, so she wasn’t as much a part of Aiden’s life as he was used to. At his funeral, she was a wreck. She blamed herself, which is foolish, of course. But I’m getting ahead of myself.

“Early in his senior year, Aiden’s elbow started bothering him. At first, it was only during certain pitches. Sliders, mostly. He thought there was something off with his mechanics. My father paid for special consultations with pitching instructors, but none of it helped.”

Cole nodded. For him, the shoulder pain was first noticeable while throwing a curve.

“It got progressively worse. By mid-season, Aiden’s team doctors recommended that he consult with an orthopedic surgeon. My father blew them off. I overheard him convincing Aiden to do the same. They knew that surgery meant an end to his season. It also meant he’d miss out on the draft. To my father, there wasn’t anything worse. He could all but taste the success he’d experience by having fathered a star athlete. It was all he ever wanted since he missed out on being the star himself.”

She ate some of her eggs, then sipped her coffee. Manny walked over with the pot and refilled both of their mugs. After making sure they had everything they needed, he left them alone again. Outside, the snow continued to fall.

“I spoke with my brother separately, tried to reason with him. He was about to earn his bachelor’s degree in computer science from one of the top universities in the country. It wasn’t like he didn’t have a fall-back if things didn’t work out with baseball. This time, however, he listened to my father. Two weeks later, he tore his UCL.”

Cole winced. Everly nodded.

“Yeah. Doctors decided that Tommy John surgery was the only option. Put him out for the rest of the season. That was really the beginning of the end.”

Finished with his breakfast, Cole reached across the table and touched her right hand. “Your food has to be getting cold. Why don’t you humor me and eat.”

She didn’t argue. They both knew what was coming. He figured a couple of minutes for her to collect her thoughts wouldn’t hurt.

When she had cleaned her plate, Manny walked up and took the empty dishes. “Take your time,” he told them. “Just holler if you need anything.”

They thanked him. Then Everly’s gaze once again grew reflective.

“Aiden wasn’t the same after the injury. He lost a lot of the spirit that I loved about him. Instead of focusing on getting healthy and finding another way to pursue his dream, he dwelled on what could have been. He neglected his conditioning after the surgery, basically giving up. I tried to help motivate him, but I couldn’t get through to him.”

Her eyes grew damp. He reached across the table and took her hand. She gripped it tight.

“After graduation, with the draft behind him and no offers made, Aiden sank deeper into depression. He broke things off with Natalie and stopped hanging out with his friends from school. He refused to talk to me about what bothered him. And he argued with my parents on a daily basis. I listened to numerous shouting matches with my father going on about how Aiden had blown his chance at greatness. How he’d never amount to anything now. It was horrible.”

He couldn’t even imagine.

“Then Aiden started issuing dark comments. Comments about how it would have been better if he’d never been born. He frightened me. When I expressed my concern to my mom, she said that Aiden was just going through a tough time. That it would pass. But I didn’t think so.”

She took a shuddering breath and let it out. Her hold on his hand was crushing.

“I don’t know why I went home early that day. I was supposed to stay late for an introduction to drama club, but I knew my parents would be at marital counseling and Aiden was home alone. The way he’d been acting...” She shook her head. “Anyway, I skipped drama club and took the bus home. I had just opened the front door when I heard the shot.”

It took her a moment to continue. A tear rolled over her bruised cheek. He felt like he was in the middle of a horror movie, reliving this tragedy with her.

“I don’t really remember much after that. Images, really. Nightmares. Doctors said that my mind is protecting me from the trauma. Whatever. I remember enough to know that Aiden missed his heart with the shot. He was still alive when I reached his bedroom.”

Cole’s throat tightened. “God. I’m so sorry, Everly.”

She just nodded as tears continued to fall. After a moment, she reached into her purse and pulled out a laminated slip of paper. Handing it to him, she said, “I lost the person I loved most that day. After that, everything changed.”

The paper had something that looked distressingly like blood around the edges. Handwritten on it was the message,
I love you, Everly. I’m sorry
.

His gaze lifted to hers. He didn’t know what to say.

“You’re the only person other than me or Aiden who has seen that,” she said. “I hid it before the emergency crews arrived, though I don’t remember it. A couple of months after his funeral, I spotted some blood on the edge of one of my jewelry boxes. I’d stuck the note in there.”

Handing it back to her, he squeezed her hand again. “Thank you for sharing that with me. You don’t have to tell me more if you don’t want to.”

“Thanks. But we’ve come this far. Might as well bring it home.”

Seeing that she wanted to go on, he nodded.

“I’ll bottom line it for you. My father blamed me for Aiden’s death. He insisted that I forced Aiden into going to college...that Aiden would have started in the majors out of high school if I hadn’t interfered.”

Cole’s temper simmered. “That’s ridiculous,” he said.

She shrugged. “Sure it is. I told him that. So he shoved me down a flight of stairs.”

Fury all but choked him. “Son of a bitch. That’s why you have those remodeled injuries.”

For a moment, she looked blank. Then she seemed to realize he must have heard about the injuries when she was hospitalized.

“Yes. By then, I was used to explaining my injuries away as accidents or klutziness. Since my father left while I was still in the hospital, there didn’t seem to be any reason to bring the authorities into it. So I lied again.”

His jaw worked as he bit back a comment. Her bastard father should be rotting in a prison cell. But Cole hadn’t been the one enduring the abuse. He knew she’d done what she had to.

She saw his expression. “I was protecting my mom, not him. Please understand that. Mom and I were suddenly on our own. My father left his steady job here and took an umpiring gig out of the country. Mom hadn’t worked a day in her life. Although a friend of hers got her a part-time job in a women’s clothing store, it barely kept the power on and gas in the car, never mind paying for a mortgage or health insurance. By the time I was fifteen, we had to sell the house and most of the furnishings and move in with my grandpa.