Trickery & Envy (8 page)

Vivian part
ed their lips and looked serious and longing into Toni eyes. “I want you,” and she cupped his crotch area.”

Toni quickly had an intake of breath
and extended from the three inches he is to a hard four inches.

Vivian
with her eyes on Toni began to undress and then she slowly got into bed.

Toni
was caught between a rock and a hard place, literally. He was uncertain if he should follow through without telling her about his imperfection. He moved to the foot of the king size bed that had deep brown profound carved posts. The headboard was of the same texture, almost regal in stature.

Vivian said, “You seem hesitant, Toni.
I have one question for you and I hope you will be honest.”

“What’s that?”

“Do you have anything? I don’t care for condoms and I certainly don’t want to catch a STD. Too, I’ve protected myself from childbearing.”

Toni smiled.
“No. I can assure you that I don’t have a sexually transmitted disease. How about we have an appetizer first?” he said.

Vivian blushed. “Appetizer
, umm, I like that,” she said thinking he meant foreplay and she stretched one foot which he took and began delivering delicate kisses to each toe. “Ooh,” Vivian uttered.

Toni move
d slowly up Vivian’s leg with his kisses. He then reached for her other leg placing them both over his shoulders and resumed his affection to her thighs. Vivian’s eyes slowly closed in pleasure. Toni then began to massage Vivian’s nectar with his thumb.
This man is too gentle. I’m going to mess around and come before the main course,
Vivian thought wetter than a ripe peach. Toni wrapped his arms around Vivian’s thighs and indulged into waiting nectar. Vivian gasped at the sensation and planted her hands gently on Toni’s shoulders.

“
Yes... appetizer,” she uttered. “Ooh...it’s so warm, baby.” Toni took Vivian’s nectar on a smooth slow rotation. It was with such precision a tear escaped her eyes. Her murmurs were in the tone of a baby, “Its good Toni. Baby it’s so good. Ooh...Toni, baby, its good.”

Toni kept on h
is quest for her to have him by his method. The sensation was about to overwhelm Vivian. Toni knew it and went for the finale. He withdrew his thumb and reinserted it deeper and slowly stirred.

“Ooh,” Vivian
murmured. “This is too good.” Vivian released Toni’s shoulder and took a handful of her breast, squeezed her nipples simultaneously. “I’m gon’ come...” she said and at that moment she exploded. “Ooh Toni...”

Toni
didn’t waver stayed connected on her nectar while his finger waltzed inside her. It was too much for Vivian. She tried to scoot back and take her peach from Toni but he wasn’t having it and kept it secure in his works. Vivian nearly lost it. “Stop, oh baby, stop. I can’t take this...I can’t take it,” and her body started squirming in delight. “Ah...”she expressed in utter pleasure.

“Baby
, what do you say we call it a night,” Toni said with a grin, happy he was able to satisfy her wanting him.

Vivian could barely answer
him as she nodded her head, okay.

“
Can you let yourself out,” she said in almost a whisper. “I don’t have the strength,” and when he rose, she curled up securing her nectar with her hands.

Toni a little tickled sa
id, “I’ll make sure the door is locked.”

“I’m going to get you
Toni...if you tell anyone,” Vivian murmured.

“Your secret’s safe with me.”

***

Jennifer
sat in her doctor’s office in a discolored gown with Charles by her side. They held hands waiting for Dr. Hasina Howard to return with the results of her biopsy. There was a tap on the door.

Jennifer glance
d at her husband, “Come in,” she said.

Dr. Howard entered with
her patients chart in hand.

Both Jennifer and Charles
watched as Dr. Howard walked over to the table. They tried to get a read on her face if what she was going to tell them would be good or bad.

“I have good news
Jennifer and unfortunately some bad. The good news is that the lump that was found in your left breast is benign.”

Jennifer exhale
d a sigh of relief squeezing Charles hand that was in hers.

Dr. Howard went on to say, “The bad news is the tumor in your uterus is malignant. You have uterine cancer, stage II. The cancer has already spread from the body of
your uterus to the cervix. What needs to be done now is a plan for treatment to possibly prevent it from spreading outside the uterus. You also have the option of having a second opinion.”

Jennifer
was stunned as was her husband. It took them several seconds before either of them spoke. “How did this happen? Dr. Howard I have cancer of the uterus.”

“Jennifer cells
normally grow and divide to form new cells as the body needs them. Sometimes this process goes wrong and new cells form when the body does not need them. Old cells do not die when they should and when that happens additional cells can form a mass of tissue, which it has in your case. You began menstruation at a very young age; ten years old. The risk factor is also higher for women who haven’t had children.” Dr. Hasina paused and then said, “According to your records you also have a history of Endometriosis in your twenties. Though it was a benign condition it did affect your uterus. It’s the reason for your pain during intercourse.”

“Is this
cancer curable?” Jennifer asked and then looked at Charles while dabbing at her nose with her free hand.

Dr. Howard hand
ed Jennifer some tissue. She tried to be as sensitive as she could in her explaining. “Jennifer there is no cure for cancer. We can only slow down the process. We try to catch it in time so it doesn’t spread from its original place to another part of the body. The goal is to kill off bad cells with hopes the cancer will go into remission.”

Charles just as concern
ed with Jennifer’s state of mind tried to assure her that everything was going to be okay. He tightened his grip while still holding her hand.

“Doctor Howard, what are the methods of treatments?”
he asked.

Dr. Howard crossed her arms
thinking. “There are many treatment options. Most women with uterine cancer are treated with surgery. They have surgery to remove the uterus. During the surgery, the fallopian tubes and both ovaries are removed. The lymph nodes near the tumor may also be removed to see if they contain cancer. There is also radiation therapy where high-energy rays are used to kill cancer cells. And depending on some uterine cancer both radiation and surgery is needed.” She paused then said, “You also have the option of hormonal therapy also known as systemic therapy. It’s a type of progesterone taken as a pill. This is generally used when someone is unable to have surgery or radiation therapy.” Dr. Howard intertwined her fingers, and while looking at Jennifer said, “Lastly, you can also take part in a clinical trial. But what I highly recommend is you take some time to let the news set in before making a decision. I can tell you that you’re going to experience different emotions which are normal.”

Charles nod
ded at Dr. Howard and then looked over at his wife. “Baby, it may not be a bad idea to get a second opinion.” He looked back at Dr. Howard and said, “Is there a doctor you can refer us to for a second opinion?”

“Absolutely, I know a couple of specialist in your area. I’ll leave the information with the receptionist. If
either of you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to call me.”

Dr. Howard
picked up Jennifer’s chart and before leaving the room gave a slight smile to them.

Jennifer barely ma
de it to the parking lot before she broke out in gut wrenching tears and nearly collapsed in Charles arms.

“Here I was worried about having breast cancer
and I find out I have cancer of the uterus. Oh Charles,” she wailed turning into his chest and causing him to lean back against their black Lexus for support. He too was emotionally affected by the news. Even so, he stayed strong, and held back tears.

“Baby, I can assure you that we are going to get
through this. You can’t think the worse. You do have options. We have options,” he said, his arms wrapped around her tight.

***

It had been a few days and Toni was still in high spirit about the intimacy he shared with Vivian. He was visiting Barbara at her home. They were in her basement sitting at her four chair leather bar.

Barbara
was playing bartender pouring him Bourbon on the rocks.

“
Barbara I was nervous. This woman wanted me and I was scared to get down with her,” Toni confessed.

Barbara
inserted a brown drink stirrer into his drink. “I don’t know what to say, but that’ll be six dollars,” and she extended her hand to Toni.

Toni chuckle
d some. “I don’t believe you really charge your family and friends for drinks?” shaking his head at Barbara as he went into his front jeans pocket for money.

“
You ought to be glad I don’t charge for water and ice. I have buddies that would drink a bottle of wine if I let them. Who’s going to replenish my stash? Me.”

Toni hand
ed Barbara a ten dollars bill and she turned and put it in a jar sitting on a small shelf behind her.

“Y’all should be glad I give a discount
,” she added. “Have you been out to a bar lately? Back to Vivian, why were you nervous?”

Toni rear
ed back. “Excuse me,” he said.

“I
asked why you were nervous to sleep with her.”

“And I said excuse me
may I have my change?”

“Really,”
Barbara answered. “It must have been a while since you’ve had a drink here,” and she reached down for a sign and placed it on the bar. It read, “EVEN CHANGE OR NO CHANGE”

Toni
’s head fell back in laughter. “You’re really tripping now. I can’t believe you, but I hear you,” he said to Barbara and still a little tickled.

They collected themselves and Toni went on to say, “
I don’t know. Probably because of the size I am. I don’t want to disappoint her. I also was uncomfortable about getting completely nude. That has definitely got to change as I’m feeling her big time and I haven’t even known her long.”

Toni
then had the soft daydreaming stare people get when they are falling in love with someone.

“Still you’re playing with fire,”
Barbara said, twisting the top off a cooler for herself. If you prolong telling her believe me, what could be taken as deception is going to stand in the way once you do.”

Toni
’s dreamy gaze suddenly turned gloomy. He wrapped both hands around his glass of bourbon. “I also don’t want to scare her off. How would you respond if we were about to make love and you discovered I have breasts, a penis, one testicle and a uterus?”

Barbara
almost gagged on her drink after taking a swig from her cooler bottle.

“I’m sorry my friend
, but that would certainly freak me the hell out. Then again, I guess it could depend on the influence you’re under. You know people would do just about anything when they’re near drunk.” Barbara chuckled. “If she was a freak she may respond with talking about the best of both worlds, then you won’t have a problem if she enjoys it.”

“See you tripping,” Toni
grinned and then took a sip of Bourbon. “I’m just going to be honest with her. If she feels we should stop seeing each other then so be it.”

Toni
’s mood changed again and he now seemed dejected. He looked at the near empty drink in his hands.

Barbara
sort of ventured off as she tried to understand what Toni was going through. She only learned Toni was a hermaphrodite just a few months ago. Toni never shared that part of his life with Barbara. It was at a party that they went to and ran into a mutual friend Barbara found out from. Trina had pulled Barbara to the side after Toni left to speak with someone else he knew there.

“What’s up,”
Trina said smiling. “Did you dump me? We hardly ever hang out. What you do, go off on the deep end...dating a hermaphrodite,” and Trina took a gulp from a can of beer she was drinking.

“A what
, and for the record, Toni and I are friends,” Barbara said, her lips twisted a bit at Trina.

“
Don’t act like you didn’t hear me. I said he’s a hermaphrodite.” Trina eyes grew large at Barbara not comprehending. “Born with both sexes,” she said. “He used to kick it with the sister of a female I know. She said it freaked her out; said something about they were grinding, and she felt a lump pressing up against her.” Trina started laughing then said, “She said she grabbed to see what it was and ole boy gasped like a dude that just got kicked in his nuts. Man, she had me busting up laughing. Then she said her sister asked him if she could see it.” Trina laughed some more. “She said it freaked her out more because ole boy didn’t have but one big ass nut,” and Trina then laughed hearty.