Usher's Passing (16 page)

"I'd forgotten about this," Rix said softly. He looked from one face to the next, as Edwin came up behind him. Three happy people with linked hands, Rix thought. But there was another presence in the picture, something he'd never realized before.

Over Rix's left shoulder, jutting above the full summer trees, was one of the Lodge's towering chimneys. The Lodge had crashed his birthday party without his even knowing it.

Rix returned the photograph to its place on the mantel. "I'd like to get the library key from you," he said, turning away from the hearth. "Dad's offered me the use of the materials in there."

"Do you mean . . . the documents that your father brought out of the Lodge?"

"Actually, I'm just looking for something about Wales. And coal mining." Rix smiled. He felt his insides writhe. If there was anything on earth he hated to do, it was to lie to Edwin Bodane; but he feared that Edwin, out of loyalty to Walen, would balk at giving him the key if Rix told him the real reason. "Do you think there's anything in the library on coal mines?"

"There should be." He was searching Rix's eyes, and for a few seconds Rix felt that Edwin was seeing right through him. "I think there's a book on every subject under the sun in there." Then he crossed the room to a shelf with a number of clay jars on it. One was marked
CARS,
another
GROUNDSKEEPING
, a third
HOUSEHOLD
, a fourth
RECREATION
—
and the final three jars were all marked
LODGE
. He took the
HOUSEHOLD
jar down, opened it, and brought out a large ring of keys in all sizes and shapes. He found the key he wanted and started working it off the ring "What's your next book idea about? Wales?" he asked.

"That's where it's going to be set. It's about—don't laugh, now—vampires who live down in the old coal mines." Lie was following lie.

"Lord!" Edwin said. An amused grin spread across his pliable features. "How in the
world
did you come up with that one?"

Rix shrugged. "That I can't tell you. Anyway, I've just started my research. It might work out, or it might not."

Edwin got the key off, returned the ring to the jar, and placed the jar on the shelf. As he offered it to Rix, he said quietly, "Cass told me, Rix."

Oh Christ! "She did, huh?"

"Yes. We talked about it last night."

"Okay, then," Rix said. "What's your opinion?"

Edwin frowned. "Opinion? Well, if you put it that way, my opinion is that Logan will do a fine job, once he teams some patience and discipline."

"Logan?"

"That's who we're talking about, isn't it? Cass told me last night that she let you know about our retirement. I was going to tell you myself, on the ride from the airport, but I didn't want to burden you with anything else."

Rix slipped the key into his trouser pocket, relieved. "In other words, he's impatient and undisciplined?"

"Logan is a young man," Edwin answered diplomatically. "He doesn't put a high value on responsibility yet." He stepped past Rix to straighten the photograph on the mantel. "He doesn't quite understand the meaning of tradition. One generation of Bodanes building for the next, ever since Hudson Usher hired a mountain man named Whitt Bodane as an assistant grounds-keeper. Within four years, Whitt was Usherland's chief of staff. I'd hate to see that long tradition disrupted."

"So you think you can teach a nineteen-year-old boy everything you know?"

"When I began as chief of staff, Usherland employed more than three hundred servants. Now there are fewer than eighty. I'm not saying he won't make mistakes. Maybe I'm not even saying that I'm certain he'll work out. But I'm going to do my damnedest to make Logan understand the importance of that tradition."

"I can't wait to meet him," Rix said with something less than enthusiasm.

"Good." Edwin glanced at his gold pocket watch. "I was just cleaning his room upstairs. I'm to pick him up in an hour, at Robert's farm. I could use the company, if you'd like to go."

Rix wanted to get into that library, but his curiosity burned about the young man who was to take Edwin's place. He decided it would be too risky to search through the documents in broad daylight. They could wait until night. "All right," he agreed. "I'll go."

Edwin took his cap from a hatstand in the foyer and put it on. Then he and Rix went out into the warm morning sunlight, got into the tan station wagon, and drove away from Usherland.

RIX GAZED OUT HIS WINDOW AT A VISTA OF TOBACCO FIELDS.
IN
THE
distance a farmer urged a horsedrawn wagon along a dirt road, the rising dust leaving a shimmering haze in the air. Edwin was driving toward Taylorville at a leisurely pace, enjoying the beautiful scenery—scarlet forests, meadows ripe for the scythe. They passed heaps of pumpkins in one field, being loaded into the back of a truck for market in Asheville. For some reason they made Rix think of a picture he'd seen of a Vietnam battlefield: disembodied heads piled up and rotting in the sun.

The question was in Rix's mind again. He'd asked it of Edwin before, and had always gotten the same answer. Asking it meant walking on swampy ground that could pull him down without warning at any second. Still, he had to.

"Edwin," he said finally, "when you . . . talked to Sandra that night, are you sure she didn't. . . you know . . . sound like she was . . ." He trailed off.

"Disturbed?" Edwin asked mercifully.

"Yes. Disturbed."

"No, she didn't. Not at all. She sounded very happy. She told me you'd sold
Congregation
to Stratford House, that you had just finished
Fire Fingers,
and that you and she were going out to celebrate the next night. I had no idea that anything was wrong."

"There was nothing wrong. Oh, maybe a few little things. Money was tight, the dishwasher was broken down, the car's transmission was slipping, she was under some pressure at the insurance company—but Sandra was a strong woman, Edwin. Strong mentally. We'd gotten through tough times before. Hell, she was the one who kept me going." His hands had become fists, and when he opened them, they were stiff with tension.

"Sometimes people do things for strange reasons. I never met your wife, of course, but whenever we spoke on the phone, she sounded very happy and very much in love with you." His gray brows knitted together. "You have to let go of it, Rix. It's the past."

"I can't let go of it!" His voice cracked, and he had to wait a minute before continuing. "I've tried. There was nothing wrong, Edwin. She wasn't crazy. She wasn't the type of person who just gives up and cuts her wrists in a bathtub!"

"I'm sorry," Edwin said gently. "I wish I could tell you that she did sound disturbed, if that would help you. But when we spoke on the phone that night, Sandra seemed very happy. I was as shocked as you were when it happened."

Rix had telephoned Edwin at Usherland four years ago, when he'd found Sandra lying in the bathtub. All that blood, all that blood! The water was red, and Sandra's head had slipped down so her hair floated like the petals of a bruised flower. The razor she'd used lay on the tiles, smeared with blood where her veins had jetted.

Rix was in a state of mindless shock, and Edwin had told him to call the police and not to touch anything until they got there. He had flown down to Atlanta the next morning to be with Rix, and had stayed through the funeral.

Afterward, Rix's nightmares of being lost in the Lodge again grew worse, and the attacks descended upon him with a new virulence.

The night before it happened, she'd told him that Edwin had called while he was out. They'd talked for a while about Rix and his writing, about the new book he was starting, about the possibility that they would come to Usherland for Christmas. She seemed happy about the future, and hopeful that she could continue to help Rix deal with the guilt he felt over his family's business. He'd always told her that she was his safety valve, that without her he might never be able to channel his feelings into another book. There had been many long nights of talks about his childhood at Usherland and his need to make something of himself apart from the family. She encouraged him in his writing, and had an uplifting optimism.

Four years after her suicide, Rix still couldn't make sense of it. He'd loved her very much, and he'd thought she loved him. In his brooding over her death, Rix found only one possibility— that somehow he had contaminated her, had driven her into a depression that was carefully and tragically masked.

"She'd told me before how much you meant to her," Edwin offered. "I believe that whatever drove her to take her own life was in her mind long before you met her. I think it was unavoidable. You're not to blame, Rix. No one is."

"I wish I could believe that."

Edwin slowed the station wagon and turned off the main highway, following a dirt road that wound through the tobacco fields. On a hill stood a curing barn and a modest white house. Next to the house was a small clapboard shed. A white-haired woman in a gingham dress sat on the house's front porch, shelling peas into a metal pan. The screen door opened as Edwin stopped the car, and a tall, balding elderly man with a luxuriant white mustache came out. He was wearing overalls and a flannel workshirt, but he carried himself with Bodane dignity.

Rix got out of the car with Edwin as Robert Bodane approached. His wife set aside her peas and came down from the porch on plump legs.

The two brothers shook hands. "Do you remember Rix?" Edwin asked the other man. "I think he was about this tall the last time you saw him." He motioned with his hand about four feet off the ground.

"Rix?
This is that same little boy? My Lord!" Robert looked stunned. His face was heavily weathered, and he was missing a couple of lower teeth. When Rix shook his hand, the strength of the man's grip amazed him. "I guess you don't remember meetin' me, do you? I came out to visit Usherland."

Rix didn't, but he smiled anyway and said, "I think I do. It's good to see you again."

Robert Bodane introduced his wife, Jeanie, and talked to Edwin for a minute or two about the bumper crop he was expecting this year. "Ought to go into farmin' yourself," Robert said with a sly grin. "Get some good dirt under those fingernails, makes a man out of you."

"I expect to have Florida sand under my feet in about three months, thank you. Is Logan ready?"

"His bags are packed. I s'pose the boy's wandered off somewhere. Hard to keep track of a rounder like that one. Hey, Logan!" he shouted toward the forest that edged up behind the house. "Edwin's here for you!"

"Prob'ly off runnin' with Mutt," the elderly woman said. "He's taken a shine to that dog."

"Hey, Logan!" Robert shouted again. Then he shrugged and said, "Y'all come on up and sit on the porch awhile. He'll show up directly."

A young man with curly hair the color of burnished brass peered out the window of the toolshed as his grandparents and the other two men walked to the porch. He knew the tall old dude in the suit was Edwin; the younger one might be somebody else who worked at Usherland. It wasn't nine-thirty yet. Edwin was here early. Well, the young man thought, he could just fuckin' wait, then.

Logan turned back to the worktable to regard the job he'd been doing. He was wearing the old man's barbecuing apron, the one that had
I Ain't Pretty, But I Sure Can Cook
written on it above the caricature of a chef burning hot dogs on a grill. He had done a very good job, he thought. It was something he'd been meaning to get around to for a long time. He replaced the hammer and hacksaw in their places on the tool rack, then carefully wiped his hands on a rag.

He took the apron off and draped it over the worktable. Then, satisfied, he left the toolshed, closed and latched the door behind him, and ambled slowly up to the house.

Rix saw the young man approaching, and instantly he decided he wouldn't trust Logan Bodane to shine his shoes, much less take over Edwin's duties at Usherland.

Logan walked with an arrogant swagger, his hands thrust into the pockets of his faded blue jeans. He wore a beat-up leather jacket over a gray workshirt, and he kicked at an errant stone with one of his scuffed boots. His longish hair framed a lean, ruddy face with sharply angled cheekbones, and as he came nearer, Rix saw that his deepset eyes were a chilly shade of blue. His gaze was remote and unconcerned—almost bored. He flicked a glance at all of them as he stepped up onto the porch.