Victoria in the Wings: (Georgian Series) (37 page)

They had arrived at Windsor Lodge and the great moment had come.

Mamma was tense. She could feel it. Now they were going to be ushered into the presence of Uncle King. Victoria’s eyes were dancing with excitement, which must not show of course. One must be demure and respectful – but at the same time showing dignity remembering that the day would come when she would be a queen and every bit as important as a king.

He was large and his body was a queer shape; his face was enormous, but his cheeks were quite prettily pink and his hair was a mass of nut-brown waves.

She approached and swept the most practised curtsy, more aware perhaps of Mamma’s critical eye even than the figure in the chair.

Then the King said: ‘Give me your little paw.’

Paw! she thought. That was funny and she laughed. He laughed too. All ceremony was over because there was nothing terrifying about him.

‘It’s a very pretty little paw,’ he said.

Paw,’ she said, ‘is a funny word to use for a hand.’

‘I often take liberties with the language,’ he replied.

She didn’t exactly understand but she laughed; and he went on: ‘It was good of you to come to see me.’

‘It was all arranged,’ she told him.

‘And you did not object?’

‘Oh no. I wanted to see you, Uncle King.’

There! She had said it. Mamma must be very angry; but he did not mind at all. He liked it in fact. She knew he did because he said: ‘And Uncle King wanted to see his little niece and now that he has he is charmed with her.’

Oh yes, she thought, she could
love
Uncle King. He was not in the least strict or stern or critical. He just smiled and his eyes filled with tears and he said that she reminded him of the days when he was her age.

‘That,’ she remarked, ‘must have been a
very
long time ago.’

‘Alas,’ said the King. ‘A very long time.’

She could not take her eyes from the diamonds on his fingers. They sparkled and glittered more than any diamonds she had ever seen. A king’s diamonds, she supposed.

‘You like jewellery?’ he asked.

‘When it shines and sparkles it’s very pretty.’

‘You must allow me to give you something to wear.’

‘To wear?’ she asked; and she was aware of Mamma, very alert and anxious. Oh dear, she thought. I am not doing it at all as we had planned. But then Uncle King was so different. She had not expected him to behave as though he were a true uncle. He made one forget that one must be on one’s best behaviour more so than anyone else did … except young people like Feodore. He was not as solemn as Uncle Leopold, for instance, so it was difficult to remember that he was the King.

‘My dear,’ he said to the plump and handsome lady who had been seated by his side, ‘bring the trinket.’

The trinket was a miniature of the King set in diamonds.

‘Do you like it?’

‘It’s pretty.’

‘A good likeness.’

‘Oh, is it you?’

There was silence. Having to be so careful all the time one developed an extra sense which made one aware of false steps. This was a bad one and everyone was very shocked except Uncle King. But he was a little hurt and she hated that because he was so kind.

‘You are much smaller there,’ she said consolingly.

He leaned forward and patted her shoulder which was a way of telling her not to worry.

‘Pin the miniature on her dress, my dear,’ he said to the plump lady. ‘I am sure it will be most becoming.’

So the lady – Lady Conyngham she learned later – leaned forward and, smiling, pinned the miniature to her dress.

‘There now, you look very grand,’ she said, ‘with His Majesty gracing your shoulder.’

‘Thank you indeed for such a lovely gift,’ said Victoria. Then with a rush of affection: ‘Whenever I see it I shall remember your kindness to me.’ That was genuine at least; for she
would
remember this occasion, she was sure, for as long as she lived.

‘Am I to have a kiss in exchange for the present?’

She laid her hand on that enormous thigh and lifted her face; but he could not stoop to her nor could she reach to him so that the obliging Lady Conyngham had to lift her up and set her on his knee.

What a strange face – all lines and pouches; and close to she could clearly see the paint on his cheeks. What a strange body; it was so fat; she felt as though she were sinking into a feather bed.

Now what she had to do was kiss that painted cheek. It was not really an ordeal because although he looked so odd and very old so close, he was kind. She knew that if she said something of which the others did not approve, he would understand; she knew that he was not putting her to a test; he was really interested in her; he liked her because she was young and she liked him because he might be old but he was kind.

That was it, she thought: He is kind.

At that she put her arms about his neck and kissed him.

It was wrong and not what was expected. It should have been a quick respectful peck upon the cheek and done in a manner to show that she appreciated the honour of being allowed to kiss the King’s cheek. But she had kissed him as though she wanted to … not because he was a king but because he was a kind old gentleman and she liked him.

He liked the way she did it. An arm hugged her momentarily and he said in a voice slightly shaken with emotion:

‘Thank you, my dear.’

Then she was lifted down and Feodore was being presented.

This was far more formal, but it was quite clear that the King liked Feodore. A chair was brought for her and he would have her sit beside him and talk of Germany.

The King was laughing and looked very pleased with Feodore.

Victoria thought in some astonishment: I do believe he likes Feodore better than he likes me.

When the presentation was over and the Duchess was in the room which had been assigned to her she was very uneasy. She wished that John Conroy was with her so that she might discuss the occasion with him.

In the first place, why had the King suddenly commanded them to come to Windsor? Did he have some plan to take Victoria away from her? That was her constant fear – that Victoria would be taken away from her. If the child were removed she, her mother, would have no say in her upbringing. She would be reduced to a mere nobody. And what would they teach Victoria? To be as they were – dissolute, pleasure-loving, incapable of ruling, to lead an immoral life, to run into debt, to gamble. The Duchess of Kent shuddered.

And he had gone out of his way to charm the child which he had done easily for Victoria, being very young, was naturally susceptible. One could not blame the child, although she had thrown her teaching to the winds and responded to him in what could be called a somewhat unbecoming manner. He, being the man he was, had been charmed by her natural manner, and that was to the good, because the King undoubtedly liked her. But it was a tricky situation and she could not help being full of misgivings.

And what if they were to kidnap the child?

She went to Victoria’s room; the child was drowsy. It had been a day full of excitement.

‘My darling,’ said the Duchess, kissing her forehead.

‘Hello, Mamma.’

‘You are very sleepy, my dear.’

‘Oh yes.’

‘You will have to be careful. You must remember that your
Uncle George is the King. You should let me know at once if he makes any suggestion and asks you if you would like to live at Windsor … or …’

Victoria’s lids had fallen over her eyes. She was asleep.

She looked so young – little more than a baby, thought the Duchess tenderly. Oh, my precious lovely child, may God preserve you and bring you safely to your crown.

She leaned over and kissed the smooth brow. Victoria opened her eyes and said: ‘I think he liked Feodore … very much.’

And that gave the Duchess something further with which to concern herself.

The King was restless that night. Sleep had deserted him. The child with her youthful freshness had been charming. How delightful was youth! He had not seen her very clearly until she was set on his knee and put her face close to his while she kissed him. Then he had been aware of a smooth unblemished skin, a delicate pink in the cheeks, the clear wondering eyes. Oh, how beautiful was youth – and only appreciated by the aged! And that little one would one day be the Queen – providing Adelaide didn’t have a child which was becoming more and more unlikely with every passing week.

No, it was almost a certainty. And one day that fresh pinkness would fade and she would be a mass of corrupting flesh like the great bulk which lay in this bed. But perhaps not so; perhaps she would lead a different life. I am so because of the way I have lived, he thought.

His fingers closed about the miniature of Maria Fitzherbert which he wore round his neck.

It could have been different.

Thinking of Maria he remembered the charm of Victoria’s sister. What a little beauty – eighteen years old! There were days when he felt well enough to marry again.

Someone young and luscious like Feodore would make him feel young again. Why not! He would discuss it with Ernest who had now settled at Windsor and was in his confidence.

Marriage – with a beautiful young girl like Victoria’s half-sister Feodore.

It was a happy note on which to fall asleep.

Lady Maria Conyngham – Elizabeth’s daughter – and Lord Graves, on the orders of the King, had brought a pony carriage with four lively grey horses to the door of the Lodge. They were going to take Victoria for a drive to the Sandpit Gate.

Lord Graves explained that the King had thought Victoria would be particularly interested in the animals for he had set up a zoo there.

Victoria was wild with delight but the Duchess of Kent was displeased because Maria Conyngham was going with them and she thought it was most unseemly that the daughter of the King’s mistress should be in Victoria’s company.

Victoria enjoyed the animals very much, particularly the giraffe and the gazelles, and she thought how wonderful it was to be a king and own a zoo.

She said so to Lady Maria who laughed and replied that the King would be delighted that his animals had given the Princess Victoria such pleasure.

‘I shall tell him myself,’ said Victoria and wondered why Lord Graves looked so sad. Later she learned that it was because his wife was having a love affair with the Duke of Cumberland – another uncle of whose wickedness Victoria was in time to learn a great deal.

It was a very pleasant day and Victoria was tired out when she returned to Windsor Lodge and her anxious Mamma.

The next day she was walking with Mamma and a few attendants when the King drove up in his carriage. She was enchanted by the speed with which the glittering equipage galloped towards them and the suddenness with which it pulled up. It could not be mistaken for anything but a royal vehicle.

Her mother grasped her hand firmly, but the King called a greeting; then his eyes rested on her and he smiled as though they were old friends.

‘Pop her in,’ he shouted.

Victoria felt Mamma’s hand tighten on hers and for a moment she thought Mamma was going to refuse to let her go. Then she was lifted up and put between the King and Aunt Mary, the
Duchess of Gloucester, who was the only other occupant of the phaeton.

They whisked away, leaving Mamma standing there looking somehow forlorn, but she soon forgot them because there was no doubt that it was very exciting to be in the company of the King.

Aunt Mary was kind too and asked her how she was enjoying her visit to Windsor; and she very quickly found that in the company of Uncle King one could forget what should be done and do and say what came naturally. She told him this and it amused him.

‘It’s far more comfortable here than in Kensington,’ she said. And she added, ‘You
are
a comfortable person in spite of being a king.’ Which made him and Mary laugh.

He seemed much younger than he had when he sat in his chair. His body was more like a body and his cheeks were a less painted pink. He really looked very fine, if you did not look too closely; and although he was so kind and said such funny things, he always seemed like a king – but in the nicest possible way.

He could imitate people in a manner which made her laugh; and because it made her laugh he did more and more of it.

Riding in the King’s carriage with him and Aunt Mary, who clearly loved him dearly and thought he was wonderful, was even more enjoyable than visiting his menagerie with sad Lord Graves and flighty Lady Maria.

They drove round Virginia Water and then the King said he would take her to his Fishing Temple; here they went on a barge and she sat beside the King while he fished and the band played, starting off and finishing with ‘God Save the King’. The Duke of Wellington was there and the King presented him to her. A very important gentleman and, thought Victoria severely, very much aware of it and anxious that everyone else should be too. He was by no means as charming as Uncle King – but then no one else could be as charming as that.

When they arrived home Mamma must be told all that happened. She listened avidly and wanted to know everything the King had said to Victoria and what Victoria had replied. It was not easy to satisfy Mamma’s demands, for when one was enjoying
oneself, as she pointed out, one did not think what one was saying nor did one make a point of remembering what others said.

‘I think, Mamma, that Uncle King is the most charming gentleman in the world.’

The most charming gentleman in the world! thought the Duchess. He is setting out to win her. For what purpose? What but to take her away from her mother because charming as he might be to Victoria and correct in his manner towards the Duchess, that did not entirely hide the fact that he did not like her.

Oh, to be back in the comparative safety of Kensington Palace! Now that Victoria is growing up there are dangers on every side.

The wicked Duke of Cumberland was the King’s confidant. He was capable of anything. A rogue and a roué … and even worse, a murderer!

What plans were being made for her precious Victoria?