I DID WHAT I DID
, and that’s on me. But there’s no way to make sense of what happened without figuring L.A. into it too. That was the thing
with her—she never tried to change anything or anybody, but nothing she touched was ever the same again, including me. I think one reason was that whatever she did—and don’t get
the idea I’m forgetting she was a girl—she did absolutely balls-out. No warnings, no explanations and no particular interest in whether you understood or not. The way we got her in the
first place was a perfect example.

Supposedly I have a touch of the Sight, which Gram says is some kind of throwback that crops up in her family every so often. In my case it’s unpredictable and generally useless, but this
time it was dead on, flashing inside my head like heat lightning just as we were finishing the breakfast dishes in the kitchen. Something was wrong on the front porch. Nothing dangerous or
necessarily spooky, but definitely out of whack. I dried my hands to go out and take a look.

It was the first Saturday in February, summer as gone as it ever gets and Oak Cliff just beginning to wake up under a frost blanket that looked like diamond dust. Thin orange blades of sunlight
stabbed through the bare crape myrtles along the driveway and angled across the frozen lawn and the porch, outlining L.A. where she sat scrunched down inside her old Cowboys jacket with her back
against the wall and her arms locked around her knees. Her face was almost dead-white except for her raw nose. She was shaking and rocking and staring ferociously at nothing, the pale poofs of her
breath trailing away through the slatted light like miniature smoke signals.

Two of the St. Mary’s sisters, out unnaturally early for some unknown reason, had stopped on the sidewalk across the street and were eyeing us like a couple of penguin detectives. Because
of their tendency to appear only at the most awkward times it was certainly no surprise to see them now, but it shook me a little anyway. The presence of witnesses in ambiguous circumstances always
did unless I was ready with a good solid cover story, and at this point I was still trying to rough out some sort of explanation for L.A. being here that clearly ruled out guilty involvement on my
part.

L.A. was my only cousin, in fact the only kid I was related to in any way as far as I knew, which was one of the reasons I didn’t have a baseline of normalcy to measure things like this
against. What I did know from hard experience was that with her in the picture the sky was the limit when it came to how much trouble we could actually be in here. For starters, I had no idea why
she would run away from home, but naturally my first thought was that it must be the problem with her folks, my aunt Rachel and her husband Cam, who could get pretty nasty when they were drinking.
Which, when you got right down to it, was all the time.

But I didn’t really get it, and right there you have the difference between being smart and being intelligent. I probably have enough IQ for most routine purposes, but being smart is
another thing entirely. That means having the knack of locating the center of gravity of a thing, finding the balance point of meaning and importance in it, and that’s exactly where I
generally mess up. But it didn’t take a genius to recognize how out of the ordinary this situation was, and even at that moment I think I knew L.A. had just taken us across a line we were
never going to come back to.

Even though I knew better than to think she would ever make things that easy, I still took another look around for some clue that might make sense of this situation—Aunt Rachel’s car
disappearing around the corner, L.A.’s bicycle, tracks through the frost, anything. But except for the ever-watchful sisters and the plumes of their breaths, there was nothing to see but the
silent, sparkling neighborhood itself.

I helped L.A. up and got her inside.

“Good Lord,” said Gram as we came in. She dropped her dish towel on the counter beside the sink and came over to us.

“She must have been out there a long time,” I said. “Look how hard she’s shaking.”

“Well, what in heaven’s name,” said Gram. She brushed L.A.’s dark tangle of hair back with her hand to get a better look at her eyes, saying, “What is it, dear? Are
you hurt?”

L.A. shivered on, saying nothing.

Gram gave her the expert parental once-over for cuts, bruises and broken bones, saying, “You’re cold as a frog, young lady.” She examined L.A.’s fingertips and
tsk
ed. “But I don’t believe it’s hypothermia just yet.”

She got the blue comforter, wrapped L.A. in it and sat her in the window chair at the kitchen table, then heated milk for hot chocolate. I went to the cupboard for a cup and the bag of small
marshmallows and got a spoon from the drawer, L.A. vigilantly tracking our movements from inside the blanket like some kind of captured night animal.

When Gram set the chocolate in front of her she stared at it for a minute without moving. Then her hands came slowly out from the folds of the comforter and she picked up the cup to take a sip,
then set the cup back down, making no effort to wipe off her marshmallow mustache.

Her shaking eventually stopped, but she still had nothing to say. She’d never been much of a talker in the first place, but now she was silent as the grave. For me this went straight past
weird and all the way to the outskirts of scary, her just looking at me like that with those big wild eyes.

Gram on the other hand was a regular female, meaning there was pretty much no silence in her. She got Aunt Rachel on the phone, skipped her warm-up and went directly to the fastball, popping
them in high and tight: “immature,” “irresponsible” and “self-indulgent,” just to name a few. It wasn’t hard to picture Aunt Rachel at the other end of the
line—pretty like Mom but a little taller, darker and drunker, probably wearing her usual boots and jeans—pacing back and forth, smoking and running her hand through her hair as she
yelled back at Gram. Early or not, if she didn’t already have a drink in her hand it wouldn’t be long before she was into the vodka.

Gram summed up: “As usual, Rachel, you’ve contrived to make the worst of a bad bargain. But at least Lee Ann is safe here with us, and that is a deal more than I can say for her in
your care.”

Because of her excessive intelligence and her Yankee education, Gram actually talked like this all the time. To me the most impressive thing about it was the accurate way her words nailed you
without leaving any room to maneuver or defend yourself. Aunt Rachel was no slouch herself as a yakker, but she couldn’t keep up with Gram, especially when she was sozzled, and when the dust
finally settled the verdict was clear—L.A. was ours.

Gram was big on the idea that the best strategy against fear and confusion was counterattack, her method being to lock in on what had to be done first, do it no matter what, then move on to the
next thing, and then the thing after that. Now that L.A. was more or less okay for the moment and wasn’t going anywhere, the next order of business was retrieving her clothes and stuff from
Aunt Rachel’s house, including her dog Jazzy, a bug-eyed little shag that Gram called a shit-zoo. But L.A. refused to go with us, shaking her head energetically when Gram tried to persuade
her by pointing out—pretty reasonably, I thought—that we needed her there to make sure we got the right things.

“Come on, L.A., it’ll be okay,” I said.

She just backed away, one eye on the hallway, staking out her line of retreat.

“Oh, well,” said Gram, grabbing her purse.

We ferried everything over from Aunt Rachel’s in the Roadmaster, L.A. brightening up a fraction when she saw me climb out of the car with Jazzy under my arm, running up to snatch her from
me as I came around the camellias from the driveway.

Gram and I lugged the stuff down the hall to what used to be the sewing room, where there was a spare bed. As we worked, Gram explained that in ancient times in China dogs like Jazzy were
officially designated as cats to allow them to enter the Forbidden City, where apparently only cats were allowed to go.

Like a lot of what Gram said, this had the peculiar effect of filling my mind with odd ideas and new angles on things while actually seeming to leave me more ignorant than ever. For instance, I
couldn’t understand how a place could be called a city if nobody could go there. Or at least nobody but cats and certain funny-looking little undercover dogs. But maybe it wasn’t that
you couldn’t go there exactly—maybe the city itself was forbidden in some way, possibly by reason of having been built against orders or out of illegal materials. I wanted more
information about this, but I didn’t ask Gram, for the very same reason you don’t blow up the dam to get a glass of water.

With a little scrounging around we found a nightstand and dresser and some old but kind of nice-looking lace curtains for the window. Fresh sheets on the bed, a few knickknacks here and there,
and just like that it was a girl’s room.

Gram squared off against the unknown, put her hands on her hips, said, “There,” and the deal was done. Whatever L.A.’s reason was for being here, this made it fully official.
Whatever was coming, we were going to face it as a family of three.

2
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Adjustments

I DON
’
T MEAN
to make it sound like everything just snapped into place, though, because it didn’t. L.A. never really
got all the way back to being her old self again and there were certain things I had to learn, like being more careful than ever about touching her when she wasn’t looking. What I got in
return was her remembering not to make any sudden movements at the edge of my vision, which gives you some idea of how we got through those first days.

Meantime, I was gradually coming to terms with the possibility L.A. was permanently done with talking, even taking a certain offbeat pride in my ability to handle the idea. I doubted there were
very many guys out there who could even grasp the concept of a speechless girl, much less get comfortable with it.

But then Dee Campion whispered to her.

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