What is Mine (21 page)

“What?”

“The old woman who went to the police in 1965. She believed that her son was guilty. That’s what led to Aksel Seier’s release! The reason that she went to the police was that her son had died. All I know about the woman is that she lived in Lillestrøm. You and your Internet . . . Do you think you could find a notice of death in the local paper from June 1965? There would only be mention of one family member.”

Johanne looked over at the door. Something white was moving backward and forward, impatiently.

“One relative. How do you know that?”

“I don’t
know,
” said Alvhild. “I
assume.
We’re talking about a grown man living at home with his mother. According to my only source, the prison chaplain, the son was retarded. It sounds to me like one of these sad . . .”

She waved her hand.

“But enough about that. Try. Look.”

The nurse’s patience was exhausted.

“I must put my foot down now. Mrs. Sofienberg needs all the rest she can get.”

Johanne smiled lamely at Alvhild.

“If I get time, I’ll . . .”

“You’ve got time, my dear. At your age, you have all the time in the world.”

Johanne didn’t even manage to say good-bye properly. Only when she was out on the street did she realize that Alvhild’s room no longer smelled of onions. She was also reminded of something that she hadn’t thought about since she got back from the States. She had seen something in Aksel Seier’s house, something that had caught her attention, but too late. For one reason or another, she’d been reminded of it up in Alvhild’s room, during their conversation. Something that was said, or something she’d seen.

She developed a headache on the way home.

“His name is the King of America.”

“What?”

It was the ugliest animal Johanne had ever seen. Its fur was the same color as the contents of Kristiane’s diapers when she was at her worst, yellowy-brown with darker, unidentifiable specks. One ear stood straight up and the other flopped down. Its head was too big for its body. The beast’s tail beat like a whisk and it looked as if it was laughing. Its tongue nearly wiped the floor.

“What did you say his name was?”

“The King of America. My dog. Dog tag.”

Kristiane wanted to carry the dog, which seemed enormous to be only three months old. But the puppy didn’t want to be picked up. In the end, Kristiane followed it into the living room, on all fours, with her tongue hanging out of her mouth.

“Where did she get the name from?”

Isak shrugged.

“We’re reading
Finn Family Moomintroll
at the moment. The one where Moomin is transformed into the King of California. Maybe it’s from there. No idea.”

“Jack,” Kristiane called from the sitting room. “He’s also named Jack.”

A shiver ran down Johanne’s spine.

“What is it?”

Isak stroked her arm.

“Is something wrong?”

“No. Yes. I just don’t understand the child.”

“It’s only a name. God, Johanne, it’s nothing to get . . .”

“Forget it. What have you been up to?”

She turned her back on him. The King of America peed on the living-room carpet. Kristiane was about to pull down a container of cereal from the cupboard in the kitchen. She was standing in the top drawer and could fall at any moment.

“Oops!”

Johanne caught her and tried to give her a hug.

“Jack likes cornflakes,” said Kristiane, and she wriggled loose.

The lid opened and she dropped the container. The dog came running. Soon child and dog were rolling in cornflakes. They crunched against the floor and Kristiane howled with laughter.

“At least
she’s
enjoying this!” Johanne smiled in resignation. “Why did you choose something so . . . so ugly?”

“Shhhh!”

Isak laid his finger over her mouth; she pulled back.

“Jack’s beautiful. Has something happened? You look so . . . there’s something about you.”

“Give me a hand,” she replied curtly, and went to get the vacuum cleaner.

She really could not fathom what had made Kristiane decide to name the dog Jack, King of America.

T
HIRTY-THREE

H
e felt strangely nervous. Perhaps he was just tired. The two hours’ sleep on a side road in Lavangsdalen, three quarters of an hour’s drive from Tromsø, had helped of course. But he still didn’t feel all that bright-eyed. The muscles in his lower back ached. His eyes were dry. He blinked furiously and tried to squeeze out some tears by yawning. His nervousness manifested as a prickly feeling in his fingertips and an uneasy hollow feeling in his stomach. He gulped some water from a bottle in long, deep gulps. The car was parked behind the student apartments at Prestvannet. Students come and go. They borrow cars. They have visitors. It was the perfect place to park. But he couldn’t sit in the car for much longer. Someone would notice. Especially here, where there were so many single women. He put the top back on the bottle and took a deep breath.

It took less than five minutes to walk to the small path at the top of Langnesbakken. He knew that, of course, as he’d been here before. He knew her habits. Knew that she was always at home on the last Sunday of the month. Her mother would come at five o’clock sharp, as she always did. Just to check. To check her property. Disguised as a family meal. Sunday roast, a good glass of wine and beady eyes. Clean enough? Nice enough? Has the grouting in the bathroom been redone?

He knew what would happen. He had been here three times in the course of the spring. Had a look around. Made notes. It was five to three. He walked around the corner and looked over his shoulder. No one. It was raining, but not heavily. The clouds drowned the mountains on Kvaløya; they were darker to the west and the weather would worsen toward evening. He quickly crossed a garden with a light step and disappeared behind a bush. It was thinner than he’d hoped. Even though he was wearing gray and dark blue, he would be easily spotted if someone cared to look. Without looking back, he ran over to the house wall. There were no neighbors to the northwest. Only small winter-worn birch trees and dirty remnants of snow. He was breathing heavily. This was not how he had anticipated feeling. Nervousness constricted his throat and he swallowed quickly several times. He hadn’t felt like this before. He held tightly onto the small pouch on his belt. Elation. That’s what he should be feeling. A certainty that made him sing inside. This was his moment.

This was his moment.

He could only just hear her. Without looking at his watch, he knew that it was three o’clock. He held his breath. All was quiet. When he peeped around the corner, he saw that he’d had more luck than he dared hope for. She had left the carriage out on the grass. An old hammock was lying on the terrace, so there wasn’t room for the carriage. The world was silent except for his shallow breathing and an airplane that had started its descent to Langnes. He opened the pouch. Got ready. Approached the carriage.

It was standing under the eaves, out of the spring rain. But the child was covered up as if winter storms still raged around the house. The hood was up. A rain cover was buttoned over the carriage. The mother had also put a net over it, to keep stray cats out, perhaps. He struggled with the cat protection. Unbuttoned and pulled back the rain cover. The baby was lying in a blue sleeping bag and wearing a hat. The end of May and the baby had a hat on! Close to the head. The strap under its chin disappeared in a fold of skin on the chubby neck. There wasn’t much extra room in the carriage. The baby was fast asleep, with its mouth open.

He mustn’t wake it.

He would never manage to get enough clothes off the child.

“Shit!”

Panic washed over him like a wave, starting at his feet and then up through his body, winding him. He dropped the syringe. He had to have the syringe. The baby gasped and gurgled. The baby was a great big gaping breathing hole. The syringe. He bent down, picked it up and put it in the pouch, pulled out a piece of paper. His hands were shaking; he dropped the plastic cover. Bent down, picked it up, put it in his pouch. The sleeping bag was filled with down. He pulled it over the breathing hole. Held the dark blue material firmly between his fingers, his gloved fingers, the child twisted and thrashed, tried to turn away, it was amazing how easy it was to stop it, he held on, pressed firmly and didn’t let go, until there was no resistance from under the down and the blue material. But still he didn’t let go. Not yet. He kept pressing with a firm grip. The plane had landed and it was quiet everywhere.

Luckily, he remembered the piece of paper.

“I remembered the message,” he said to himself, once he was in the car. “I remembered the message.”

Even though he fell asleep at the wheel twice—he woke as the car veered over onto the dirt siding, just in time to pull back—he managed to drive as far as Majavatn without stopping, other than to piss and fill gas from the jerry cans on hidden side roads. He had to sleep. He found a blind spot for the car on a track by a deserted camping site.

It shouldn’t have happened like that.

He should have been in control. It should have been carried out as planned. Suddenly it was impossible to sleep, even though he felt sick from lack of sleep. He started to cry. It shouldn’t have been like that. It was his moment. Finally. His plan, his wish. He cried so loudly that he felt ashamed; he swore and hit himself in the face.

“Thank God I remembered the message,” he mumbled, and dried the snot with his fingers.

T
HIRTY-FOUR

T
he doorbell jerked her out of a dream. Short rings, as if someone was trying to wake her without disturbing Kristiane at the same time. The King of America was whining in Kristiane’s room, so she let the dog out before going to open the front door. Fortunately it looked as if her daughter was sleeping undisturbed, and the air in the room was heavy with sleep and dog piss. The dog jumped up at her again and again, its claws painfully scratching her bare legs. She tried to push it away, but tripped and stubbed her toe on the door frame on her way out into the hall. Afraid in case the person outside might ring again, she limped, swearing, to the front door and opened it.

It was hard to see his eyes. His whole body seemed smaller, his shoulders bent forward, and she smelled a faint trace of sweat when he lifted his hand to ward her off. He had a flight bag tucked under his arm. The handle was broken, so he carried it like a box, open and misshapen.

“Unforgivable,” he muttered. “But I couldn’t make it before now.”

“What time is it?”

“One. In the morning.”

“I realized that,” she said drily. “Come in. I’ll just go and put something else on.”

He was sitting in the kitchen. The King of America was chewing his hand. It was slavering and whining and presumably hungry.

“Hmmm. Recent acquisition?”

She grunted in response and fumbled for the coffee machine. She should have known it was Adam. When she woke up, all she thought was that she had to stop the ringing. If Kristiane woke up in the middle of the night, it would be the start of a long day. She pulled at the faded sweatshirt. She had better sweaters than this in the closet.

“If you’re going to come again at night, please don’t ring the doorbell. Use the phone. I turn the phone off in the living room. The one . . .”

She nodded toward the bedroom and measured coffee into the filter.

“It rings quietly in my room. It wakes me, but lets Kristiane sleep. It’s important for her. And for me.”

She tried to smile, but it turned into a yawn. Groggy, she blinked her eyes and shook her head.

“I’ll remember that,” said Adam. “Sorry. He’s done it again.”

Her hand felt leaden as she lifted it to her hair, so she let it fall again until she had a firm grip on a drawer handle instead.

“What?” she said, flatly. “What do you mean, done it again?”

Adam covered his face with his hands. His voice was muffled.

“An eleven-month-old boy from Tromsø. Glenn Hugo. Eleven months! You hadn’t heard?”