Authors: Gloria Conway
Tags: #vampires, #love, #drama, #fantasy, #young adult, #shape shifter, #lust, #vampires bloodlust thriller paranormal romance, #vampires and shapechangers
“
Can you please share?” I
asked.
She sighed.
“
What?”
“
It’s well. In the dream Adrian and I
are sitting on a bench talking. After that… it’s a few different
scenes and images”
“
Okay.”
“
We’re kind of intimate, then I
die.”
I slammed my fist down on the table. It hurt
to hear her say… both actually.
“
I'm sorry,” she whispered.
“
Just a dream,” I mumbled, trying to
convince myself.
“
Anyway, I think maybe he’s just
obsessed with something he can’t have and he knows we are happy
together. So that gives him more incentive. I could be
wrong.”
The thought of him, having her, taking her
innocence away disgusted me.
“
Are you okay?” She asked, noticing my
disgusted expression.
“
Give me a minute,” I said, closing my
eyes, trying to get the imagine out of my head. I felt this was a
good time to tell her the truth, just in case.anything happened.
“You ready?” I asked her. She nodded.
I drove fast. She scanned my thoughts,
wondering what I was thinking. But I kept my mind to myself for the
moment. I pulled over, on the side of the road. It was pitch black
outside. I stepped out of the truck, looking up at the stars.
Thinking of how I was going to tell her and knew how bad it was
going to hurt her but she needed to know. It was killing me to
continue with my deceit. She stood beside me.
“
It’s beautiful out tonight,” she
said, searching the stars. I turned in her direction and held her
hand. “Nothing compare’s to your beauty. If you were a star, you be
the brightest star up there,” I said, pointing to the night’s
sky.
“
Actually, you’d be your own planet.
Dominating all the others, the queen of the galaxy, nothing could
touch you, hurt you, or make you cry. You would stand strong and
smile the whole time.”
She glanced at me, I kept my head down.
“
There’s something wrong…” she said,
touching my face.
I gazed into her beautiful eyes and felt
ashamed, foolish, and down right dumb. “Faith, I need to tell you
something and you're probably going to be upset when I tell you.
Maybe even hate me after but I can’t keep lying to you
anymore.”
“
Lie to me? About what?” “Faith. I.
I’m so… stupid. I'm a coward and I’m so sorry.”
“
What!? What is it? Spit it out
already.”
“
This is embarrassing and hard to say
but my feeling’s don’t count right now. I’ve done you
wrong.”
“
Did you cheat on me or
something?”
“
No! That would never.” I shook my
head.
“
Then it can’t be that bad what is
it?”
“
We…never officially made love
Faith.”
“
What do you mean?” She asked, as she
held her stomach.
“
I made an illusion every time and I'm
sorry.”
She shot me a glare. I felt her pain and
anger. She backed away from me.
“
Faith, wait. Let me explain
why.”
“
No! Screw you I'm so done!” She began
walking down the road.
I flew in front of her and held onto her.
“Let me at least take you home. You don’t need to walk in the dark
alone.”
“
Why do you care? You don’t care about
anyone but yourself! Get away from me! I can handle
myself!”
“
Listen. I can’t make love to you.
This way, I'll end up… killing you if you want me to be
honest.”
“
Thanks for the honesty!” She yelled,
smacking my hand away.
“
Okay, look. I know it was stupid but
I didn’t want to let you down and I figured, if I could give it to
you somehow, I would.”
“
Look, if you can’t make love to me
without killing me, why would I want to be with you? I want to have
sex as normal people do and not with someone like you!”
I paused and bowed over. She cut me, pretty
bad. I knew I deserved it and understood why she was saying it but
I also knew it was far from the truth.
“
How can I fix it?” I asked, bending
down In the middle of the abandon road.
She marched towards me. “You really want to
fix it?” She asked.
I closed my eyes, nodding. “Do it then.
Right now!”
“
What? Do what?” I asked, hoping it
wasn’t what I thought.
“
Right here, right now, do it. Make
love to me or I'm gone. You wont ever see me again.”
“
Faith. that’s unfair.”
“
Were you fair to me? when you
deceived me?”
Another blow, she had one right after the
other.
“
Or is it that you really don’t find
me attractive? You're acting because I'm your lively
hood.”
“
Damn it Faith!”
“
What? Am I making you angry? Why not
just go hit something then? Like you always do!” She turned
around.
I pulled her close to my body. “Does this
answer your question?”
“
No. I’ve felt that before. Unless
that was an illusion too,” she said, sarcastically.
I laughed. “Alright.” I said, feeling my
instincts kick in with much more intensity then before. I firmly
kissed her and straddled her body over mine.
I dashed into the air, and headed home,
abandoning the truck. I took her upstairs, and tossed her on the
bed. Getting on top of her, I pressed my body against hers. She
rolled me beneath her, straddling me.
I began grunting and trembling. I closed my
eyes, trying to control the monster inside.
When aroused, my instincts automatically try
to take over and the smell of Faiths blood was a hundred times more
potent.
She held my arms down. “You want my blood?”
She asked, smirking.
“
This is hard enough. Don’t act
smug.”
“
I have more faith in you then you
have in yourself,” she said, smiling down at me. “Let me undress
you Love,” I said, wanting her badly.
She shook her head. “Not yet. I want
to show you something.”
Stay down,
she mouthed. I followed her with my eyes. She walked into the
bathroom
“
Don’t keep me waiting!” I
shouted.
“
You’ve kept me waiting for awhile,
you can wait a few seconds!” She belched back. She was killing me.
Laying there, trying to keep everything under control and my
hormones in check. Her vanishing act did give me a few seconds to
meditate and focus on the hardest thing I would ever have to
do.
She came out and sat on top of me, holding
me down again.
“
Why are you holding me
down?”
She leaned in for a kiss. Pressing my tongue
to hers, my body suddenly paralyzed. My instincts were beginning to
surface. I broke free, tugging at her clothing.
Faith placed her finger in my mouth. I
convulsed, sucking her blood soaked finger. I managed to push her
off. Jumping off the bed, a backed into the wall. “Are you crazy?!”
I shouted furious.
“
I told you, you're not going to hurt
me,” she said, inching closer. She pushed me down to the floor and
straddled her naked body over me.
“
Faith, stop, please. I'm going to
ki--”
“
Open your eyes and regain focus,” she
said.
I did and sure enough the need for her blood
was extinguished.
“
What? What did you. how?”
“
I’m crafty too. I took the desire for
my blood away from you mind,” she said, proudly.
“
Faith, my Love. thank you.” I wrapped
my arms around her holding her close. I stood up and placed her on
the bed. We began kissing again, and this time there was no reason
to hold back. I propped myself on my knees and unbuttoned my pants.
She crawled closer, looking up at me. I bit my lip and exposed my
erect penis. She glanced at it and gently rubbed it with her hand.
I leaned my head back as she took me into her mouth. I moaned in
ecstasy. I abruptly flipped her beneath me and gently inserted my
swelled penis inside of her. Our lustful desires for one another
were fully explored. Finally.
Opening my eyes I searched the room. Faith
was no where in sight. The sun shone through the curtains, burning
my eyes. I cursed the light, pulling the cover back over my head.
It was no use, I couldn’t go back to sleep and the thought of the
sun shinning through annoyed me. Climbing out of bed, I stood in
the middle of the room, examining the new red walls and items I’ve
never seen in here before. She must have went to the store and
started redecorating. “What the hell?” I mumbled to myself. Walking
downstairs I heard loud music playing. Faith danced around the
kitchen while she cooked. The music blared into my ear drums.
“Faith!” I shouted. She turned around and covered her ears. “Why
are you yelling?” She asked. The music suddenly stopped.
I saw something out of the corner of my eye,
startled, I sprang to the other side of the room. “What the hell is
that?” I said, pointing to the crazy cat staring at me.
“
What?” She asked.
“
Where was the music coming from? And
why do you have a cat in the damn house Faith?”
She walked over, smiling. “Okay, Mr. grouch.
Are you delusional this morning?” She asked. I searched the room,
wondering if I was still dreaming. I blinked twice, looking again
to see if the rat demon was still there. I let out a hiss as it
pranced closer.
Closing one eye, I extended my left arm in
front of me, scanning the room for illusions. “Ah Ha!” I yelled,
when I saw the mist.
“
What is it?” She asked.
“
Love, what’s up with the illusions?”
I asked, curious about her denial of the cat. “Uh. I wasn’t aware
I…” She said, confused. I snapped her up, holding her around the
waist. “This is a powerful tool. You must learn the difference,” I
said, pointing to her head.
“
Sorry, I didn’t imagine simple
thoughts would create illusions,” she said, rolling her eyes. I
chuckled. “Were you listening to music?” I asked. She nodded
embarrassed.
“
In here,” she pointed to her head
now.
I inhaled. “Well, we're going to have to
adjust a few things. If I have to wake up with cats and deafening
music every morning,” I said, smiling.
She laughed. “I'll tone it down.”
“
So. What’s up with the cat thing
anyways?” I asked.
She shrugged. “I just miss my cat Romeo, he
died awhile back.”
“
So, you want one now?”
She thought about it for a minute. “I dunno.
Maybe.”
“
Well, as long as it doesn’t try to
suck out my soul while I sleep, I might consider it.” She shot me a
confused look. “What? Where did that come from? You have something
against cats?” She asked.
“
Oh, it’s an old Ill-suen tale. It’s
said that cats will suck our souls out when we sleep if we have
demons inside of us. They say cats have thousands of souls stuck in
their bodies and when they can’t hold anymore, they commit suicide.
The demons are then released to hell and the cats spirit is then
free.”
I observed her expression, she seemed
interested. “Wow, hmm. Okay.”
“
Yeah. So uh, they freak me out a
little.”
“
So, you believe that?” She
asked.
“
I guess so. that’s why I freaked when
I saw it. Hasn’t your mother ever told you old stories that stuck
with you? That are always in the back of your mind?”
“
Yeah, I see your point.”
We sat down and ate blood soaked eggs and
talked.
“
So Faith have you thought anymore
about the change?”
She looked up and smiled.
“
What? Why are you
smiling?”
“
You’ll like this,” she said, as she
put her plate in the sink. She turned around and sat down on my
lap. I glanced up, hoping she would say after the wedding, or not
at all. I didn’t want her to become that and hated even
contemplating it. The only reason I was, is because Father
insisted.
“
Not yet.” She said.
“
Then when?” I asked.
“
Well, actually maybe
never.”
“
Hmm, alright that’s great news. But
why the change?”
“
Truthfully?” She asked.
I nodded, overly anxious.
“
Because, I would like to have a baby
eventually and Celeste said if I was a vampire too it would be
harder to conceive.”
I choked on the egg, I tried swallowing
hole. “Uh, I.well. We--” I stumbled over my words.
“
Don’t worry,” she said kissing my
cheek. I want to have a lot of love making before we try and plus
Celeste says--” “Stop listening to her! Shes giving you bad ideas!”
I shouted out, nervously.
“
So. You don’t want to have a baby
with me?” She asked.
“
Not if it’s going to kill you.” I
said, standing up. I began pacing, thinking of something to say to
convince her that it wasn’t a good idea.
“
I know the risk. Your Mom sent me
that book for Ill-suens on how to have a healthy baby and smooth
birth.”
“
What? My mother too? We barley-- We
haven’t even had much time!”