Borrowed (Embracing Series) (16 page)

“Ahh hell, Audrey are you okay?” I asked, I seen that guy but just thought she wanted to dance with him like that.

“I...I’m fine thanks to Zander, if he hadn’t come that son of a bitch was going to fucking have his way with me, and he was much stronger than me. I couldn’t even get my knife out of my purse.” She said as she wiped her tears.

“Well I’m glad you’re okay, let’s try not to stab anyone. We can’t have you going to jail.” I said as I hugged her. She was a sweet girl, and beautiful, she just talked too much for me. I noticed the further we walked that Brody and Hayden was hand in hand. When we got to the car, Zan and Audrey got in with me and Brody said he was catching a ride. Well Hayden was finally getting her some tonight because Brody would damn sure fuck her.

“Zander, thank you so much, you are my hero for the night. I wanted to chop his fucking balls off and shove them up his nose.” Audrey cried.

Zander put his arm around her and said, “Audrey no one will ever hurt you. I promise you that.” We all went back to my place, and drank some more and played cards. I really think I see a future for the two of them. I went to bed and left them playing cards. I was mentally, emotionally, and physically drained. I just needed to go to bed, that all I wanted was to get in bed and sleep for hours. It would be nice if I had a woman to lay next to me, hell maybe I should get a damn dog, at least they wouldn’t leave me.

I awoke to the sound of my phone ringing, I looked at the clock and it said eight-thirty a.m. What the fuck, can’t these people let me sleep? I didn’t even see who was calling I just slid the answer button over and said, “Yeah, do you know what time it is?” Ahh fuck, it’s Lila. “Calm down what’s wrong?” I asked I could tell she was crying. “Lila, what do you mean he never came home? I thought you have been with Liam this whole time?” I asked I could hear her crying, and she just wouldn’t stop. “Lila, baby do you need me to come over?”

“Yes Evan, I need you now.” She said through her sobs. I jumped up and threw some clothes on and threw some clothes in a bag, I like to have extra in my car. She sounded so upset and I knew I would be with her all day. What did she mean he never came back? I hope he isn’t hurt.

I pulled into the parking lot and I think skipped every other step, trying to get in the door to her. She looked awful, her hair was on top of her head and looked like she hadn’t brushed it for a week. Her makeup was down her face. She was wearing Liam’s Army t-shirt and a pair of sweats.

“Oh baby, what’s wrong?” I asked as I held her in my arms. She was crying so hard she was snorting, every other word was a sob then a snort.

“He…he… He’s gone, he didn’t come...
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...back to me…
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… He never showed up, he…
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… I haven’t talked to him since January and I haven’t heard from him since May…
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… He left me all alone. He said he would be back and now I’m all alone.” She cried in my arms.

“It’s okay, he will be back. Maybe his assignment was longer and he can’t call right now. Everything will be okay. I’m here and I’m not going nowhere. Look at me, did you hear me I’m not going anywhere.” I said as I hugged her tight. She was shaking so bad, she has been here all week like this, and hasn’t called me. I don’t know if I should be angry or just let it go.

“Evan, please stay with me. I need you to stay. Please. Please don’t leave me too.” Oh hell, how could I tell her no, as much as I knew I shouldn’t stay, I couldn’t leave her like this not now. She needed me and when I needed her she was right there for me.

“I will stay, I’m not going anywhere, Lila. I will always be here for you.” I said as I pulled her on my lap. I sat there and cradled her in my lap while she cried for another man. She finally feel asleep in my arms, I carried her to her bed and laid her down. Even the mess she is in she is still as beautiful as ever. I covered her up and placed a light kiss on her cheek.

“No, Evan. Stay, hold me.” She said as she scooted over. I didn’t say anything I climbed in the bed and held her just as she asked. I hoped that I could help her broken heart. It was hurting me seeing her like this. She cried all night. Finally I could hear her breathing back to normal, she was holding on to me so tight I couldn’t move.

It’s been a week since Lila had her melt down, not knowing where Liam is. He hasn’t contacted her at all. I hope he is okay. I had a special trip planned for her. I heard about this campground in upstate New York, it’s called Black Bear.

I packed blankets, food, hot chocolate, coffee, and extra clothes. When I picked Lila up, I hoped that we could make a weekend out of it. I loved spending time with her. I knew she was hurting over Liam, and I wanted to try and make her feel better. She seemed lost sometimes and I don’t know if I could help her heal. I do know she was helping me heal, the more time I spent with her the less I thought and worried about Tatum. Hell who was I kidding, I would always worry about her.

“Hey, did you sleep well?” I asked Lila as she slid in the car.

“Good morning, I did actually, where we going?” she said as she kissed my cheek.

“You’ll see, I figured we both could use this little get away. I have packed everything, so we will be fine.” I said as I placed my hand on her thigh.

“You always know how to make me smile, Evan.”

I gave her a wink. I drove for about an hour, and stopped off at a gas station, filled the tank up and grabbed some chips and water. We didn’t have much further to go and then I seen the huge sign, which was a black bear. Lila had a strange look on her face, I looked at her and said, “It’s a camp ground, I don’t think there is any bears though.” She smiled back and said, “I hope not.”

I got the blankets and picnic basket out and sat them on the ground next to a tree. Lila looked so beautiful, she was wearing a pair of tight jeans and a low cut sweater. She had on a brown pea coat that fit tightly to her body and of course a pair of brown Ugg boots. Her hair was straight and spread out over her shoulders. She had on that glittery pink lip gloss that actually tasted pretty damn good.

“Evan, have you been here before?” she asked as she stepped closer to me.

“No, darlin’ this is my first time. I wanted to bring you here to talk and clear our minds. I know we both have had a lot going on lately, and felt we needed a break. I know with everything going on with Liam, you are lost and confused. Please know I’m here for you baby.” I said as I pulled her in for a hug.

“Thank you Evan, you will never know how much you truly mean to me. I do love you, I hope you know that. I will always love Liam, I just wish I knew exactly where he is.”

I hugged her tight, then pulled away, and lifted her chin with my fingers. I could see the unshed tears in her eyes ready to drop any second. I wanted to kiss her so fucking bad. I knew it was wrong, I had overstepped boundaries once with her, and she had made it clear her heart was Liam’s.

“Lila, it’s okay to cry, my love. If you want to talk I’m here, that’s why we are here together, to talk and get everything out. If you need to cuss, yell, and cry, do it. I will hug you as much as you want me to.”

“Evan, how the hell did I get so lucky to have you in my life. You are one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. You have a huge heart, and you love unconditional. That’s one of the reasons I love you. Well that and you are a mighty fine looking man.” She said with a wink.

“You my dear are beautiful, I could look at you all day long and not get tired of it.” I said as I placed a kiss on her forehead. I sat on the blanket and she joined me. She pulled her knees into her chest and hugged them. I could tell she was still thinking about everything that was going on.

“Evan, please tell me you brought hot chocolate? I’m freezing.” She said as she pulled the blanket around her.

“Do you really think I would bring you here without coffee and hot chocolate?” I laughed as I asked.

“Did you bring your guitar?”

“Of course I did,” I said as I poured a cup of hot chocolate.

“Will you sing to me? Please?” she asked as she smiled and flashed her dimples.

“I will sing whatever you want me too.” I said as I turned to walk to the car. I grabbed my guitar and went back to a smiling Lila, she was curled up on the blanket sipping her cup of hot chocolate. Damn, that girl was sexy even with all those clothes and a blanket wrapped around her.

I started singing the lyrics of Daughtry’s “Start of Something Good” and Lila just laid there staring at me. I could feel every lyric in my heart and I saw it touched her just as much as it did me. I felt unshed tears form in my eyes, at this point I didn’t care if they fell and she would have seen them. I wanted her to know exactly how I felt about her.

“Evan, that was amazing. I love your voice, and I love the fact that when you sing to me, you don’t take your eyes off of mine.”

“Thanks. I love singing to you.” I said as I leaned over and kissed her cheek. Just then she turned my face to hers and pulled me in for a kiss, I felt a groan escape my mouth as she slid her tongue in between my lips. Her tongue touched mine, I could feel my dick trying to escape my boxers. I had to adjust myself, and she started laughing. Hell, she knew exactly what she did to me.

“Evan, I don’t know what’s going to happen but right now I know I want you.” She said as she started kissing me again, this time it wasn’t as passionate, it was deep and hard. I could feel her grip on the back of my head, she pushed her body into mine. “Take me now Evan, please make love to me here.” She begged as she basically dry humped me.

“Lila, that’s not what I brought you out here for. Trust me, I want to fuck you more than anything, but I can’t.” I said as I backed away from her. Goddamn it, this is the whole Tatum situation all over again. How in the hell could I be in love with both these girls and they both belong to someone else, and are begging me to make love to them. I started pacing back and forth, I wanted to take her right there, I wanted to be so deep inside her, and hear her screaming my name. Telling me how much she wanted me, but it was all wrong. She had someone else to say those things to.