Durability (The LockDown Series Book 3) (8 page)

I walk into the kitchen, the sideboards scattered with dirty cutlery and crockery that he has used throughout the day. Most of the spoons are used for purposes other than making tea and eating yoghurt, most of the time it is a sticky remnant of something he injects into his arms. I spend hours, scrubbing with all my might to get it off.

“Dinner,” I whisper to myself as I open the cupboards in search of something to cook, something easy and quick so that I can escape to the safe haven that is my room.

I put some pasta on to boil, enough to feed only the man in the room next door. I would rather starve than delay the time in which I get to hide away in the sanctuary of my bedroom. I pour a tin of meatballs into another saucepan and turn both gas jets on to heat.

Within ten minutes I have a bowl of pasta and tomato covered meatballs hot and ready for my father. I walk into the lounge and place it on the table with a knife and fork. “There you go, dad,” I say timidly, stepping away slowly from the table.

“You can leave,” he informs me as though I am a slave relieved of duty for the night. I sigh in relief as I turn my back and leave the room as quickly as I can, masking my fear with the perfection of an actress. He’s like an animal, sensing fear and thriving from it. I learnt long ago, take the punishments and move on.

I grab my school book bag from the table in the hallway and run the grubby carpeted stairs to my refuge. I open the door of my room, run to my bed and flop onto the sheets on my mattress.

I close my eyes, imagining my room with the princesses and fairytales my school friends talk of. Rapunzel is painted on my baby-pink walls, her long braided hair trailing out of her tower, high in the sky. She’s looking for a way to escape, a little like me.

Her prince charming waits at the bottom, his arms open wide ready to catch her from the extraordinary height if need be. I wonder if I’ll ever have my own prince charming. Probably not.

My thoughts always end up back to the now, my dreams and ambitions crushed by the simple acknowledgment of my situation.

I calculate in my head that I have about two hours before he musters the energy to approach me with another instruction. What would it be this time, washing, tidying, a beating? I don’t know until that time, but I just pray for once he will just take too much of those stupid drugs that he uses like oxygen, and leave this world like my mother had. I even wish she was still here, looking after me and keeping me safe like all the other kids' mums did.

I turn my music up a little to stop the noises from downstairs as I hear a woman’s voice enter the house. I know the things my father does to them; It is only a matter of time before I will have to bear witness to his behaviour.

“ABBI” I hear his voice shout from downstairs and I immediately tense knowing what is about to happen. I bolt from my bed to get to him as quick as possible because even if he’s intent on hurting me, it will be far less painful if I go to him than him having to seek me out.

I rush the stairs down, nearly slipping a few times as my socks glide against the built up grime.

I swing into the lounge, looking to my father. “Get her out,” he spits, pointing to a naked woman lying on the floor. She is in a crumpled heap, her hair knotted and sprawled across her shoulders and face. She rests her head against the floor, barely moving. A glass lay smashed on the floor by her, shards stuck in her and the carpet. I flinch as I see a little blood coating a shard of the shattered tumbler.

“Okay,” I say to him as I rush to her aid. “Come on lady; let’s get you out and safe.” I whisper as quietly as I can so my father doesn’t hear.

She groans in pain as I roll her over to see her face. Her lip is split, a bruise quickly shadowing her cheek and eye socket. Her eyelid is swollen and forcing her eye closed. “Ouch,” I say, knowing the pain she has endured; I have suffered through it myself on more than one occasion.

“She needs water dad,” I tell him, as he snorts the remaining line of cocaine on the table.

“She can have fuck all. Get her out now, Abigail.” I shake my head slightly as I turn back round to face her fluttering eye, the one that isn’t fused together by the swollen flesh around it.

“You need to try lady, try and stand so you can get away from here,” I whisper to her again, trying my hardest to sit her up. She is dead weight on me, my tiny child frame struggling to support hers, even as thin and bony as she is, she still weighs a ton.

“Ergh.” She speaks dozily. “Drink,” she says to me and I look as my father walks to us.

He grabs her hair and pulls her to her feet, resulting in me falling back onto the floor. I gasp in horror as he begins to drag her from the room, her feet score the carpet as she digs in, trying to break away from his beastly clasp. “Dad, you’re hurting her, stop,” I tell him as I run after him.

“Stay out of it bitch,” he spits at me as he yanks the door open. He pulls her so she is straight-backed and then slams her into the wall of the hall. His hands grip dangerously firm around her throat, her one good eye beginning to pop a little, blood rushing to the surface. Her hands reach up and grip his wrists, clawing at his skin as she struggles to keep consciousness. “Get your filthy ass out and don’t come back. I’ve had enough of you, you dirty whore.”

She nods into his hand, trying to breathe. Her gasps for air, imprinted into my memory that second. “You understand?” he asks her bitterly as he squeezes just a little harder. She nods harder, almost unconscious in his grasp. “Good,” he smiles nastily as he lifts her up from the ground and slings her forcefully through the front door.

I cringe hard as I hear her body connect with the pavement outside. I look past my dad as he spits towards her naked body, lying shivering and cold in the street. I run to grab a blanket from the lounge, sprawled on the back of the chair. I collect her clothes from the floor and run past my dad undetected, to her.

I kneel at her side as she cries and shakes with fright. I wrap the blanket around her and place her clothes in her hands. “It’s going to be okay now. Go home lady, and stay there, don’t come back here okay,” I tell her as I stand to my tiny height.

“Thank you, Abigail,” she tells me through her sniffles. She is high, that much is clear, but nobody deserves to be treated the way my father has treated her. She is just a young woman, desperate for some kind of love.

“Goodbye, stay safe.” I smile kindly to her.

“You too sweetheart, you stay safe,” she warns me, like she knows what I am about to endure at the expense of saving her.

I nod and then run back inside, wishing I could stand on the bitterly cold street a while longer so I am away from the demon clouding my house in darkness.

I close the door behind me and lean against it, breathing heavily in relief as I see nobody in the entrance. I steady myself, trying to alleviate the tremors running through my body. I take three steps towards the stairs to take them to my room, to the safeness and light I can find there.

I stutter back a little as a shadow appears from the corner of the hallway ahead. The kitchen door remains slightly closed as my father rounds it. I gulp in fear, sweat and tears beginning to soak my face as I see the strip of leather wrapped around his fist.

“Abigail,” he sneers at me and I swallow the spittle in my mouth as I pray to God, this time around he ends me, end everything. Maybe I can find my mother on the other side and finally be safe. “Come here now!” he commands.

“Shhh, it’s okay sweetheart.” I soothe my daughter as she cries in my arms. Her tiny body trembles in my arms, along with my own as I cry in relief of having her home. She had woken up in fits of screams ten minutes ago, causing me to jolt in my bed, where I slept alone. “It’s going to be okay baby girl.” I kiss her wispy dark blonde hair, carrying her from her room, downstairs so I can make her some warm milk to soothe her hungry stomach.

“Evening, Leigh,” I hear Ant say as he sits at the bar nursing a cup of tea. It has been a hard day for us all; finding my daughter, killing the man that has ruined my wife’s life and hearing the hurtful things Abigail had to say.

“Hey Ant,” I say quietly as I test the milk on my wrist, giving Mel the bottle to hold.

“How’s Abbi?” he asks me and I shrug my shoulders in reply, not wanting to think about her at this precise moment. She has destroyed a little of the respect and faith I had in her humanity.

“Dunno, haven’t heard anything, not really too bothered to be quite honest.” That is a lie, quite clearly. Of course I care for her, she is my wife and I love her, but her blatant dismissal of Mel’s safety does nothing but piss me off, and it is not a good idea to be around Abigail when I am as angry as I am right now.

“Don’t you think you should check how she is, she did just have major surgery this morning?” he tells me and I sigh in acceptance. That is true, she has just been through surgery and told she may not regain the use of her right arm; she has every reason to be upset and angry.

“Let me find my phone.” I sigh, resigning to the fact I have a duty. I hand him his god-daughter, along with her half-drunk bottle of tepid milk. “Where is it?” I ask nobody in particular. I hadn’t remembered to bring it with me after finding the location of my daughter; I had left in a hurry.

“Check the office,” Ant replies as he strokes my daughter’s cheek and bobs her up and down on his knee. The smile on her face as she stares at her uncle makes my heart swell and beat properly for the first time today. My own smile, albeit small, infects my face. She is contagious in every way feasible, just a simple chuckle or funny noise makes my bad day dissipate and gives me a new look on life.

“Yeah.” I walk from the room and down the hall to where my office sits. I find my mobile on the desk and press the button on top to unlock the screen. Twenty missed calls show on the screen, all from the same number, the hospital.

I immediately go into panic, what the hell is wrong? What has happened for them to call me so many times? I don’t bother calling back I just grab my keys and head to the kitchen where Melissa now lies sleeping in Antonio’s arms. Her little lip poking out at the bottom, moving as she inhales and exhales. She is innocent, pure, and beautiful. I love her with a strength that is incomparable to anything else.

“I need to get to the hospital, can you look after her for me mate?” I ask him as I walk to his side and stroke Mel’s hair. It is so soft, like silk. I lean
in and kiss her forehead, whispering in her ear so I don’t wake her. “Be good angel, I’ll be back soon with mummy.”

“Of course mate, what’s wrong?” He looks concerned, worried to an extent.

“I have twenty missed calls from them and don’t know what’s going on, so I’m going up there.” I tap his shoulder as I turn and walk away.

“Give her my love Leigh. I’m going to put little one to bed then go to bed. Georgia’s going to hate me getting back in all cold.” He giggles a little, but the love I see on his face at the mention and thought of my baby sister, makes me happier than I have been, since yesterday when I married the woman of my dreams.

“Sure thing mate. Thanks. I’ll keep you all updated.” I walk from my home and into my Bentley. I start the engine and drive away
.

I arrive at the hospital within fifteen minutes, park and then walk to the ward I know she was last on.

I tap on the door before opening it. She is sound asleep as I enter, her body wrapped tightly in the white blankets.

I can see her moving and shuffling in the bed, her eyes fluttering against the lids sealing them closed. She is whining a little,
whimpering sounds leaving her throat.

“It hurts, dad please, it hurts, stop!” She is shouting, her legs now kicking violently at the covers. “NOOOO!” she shouts louder, her one working arm flaying around. “Please!” she continues.

I walk over to her quickly, knowing not to shake her. “Baby, it’s me, wake up angel.” I whisper by her ear with no recognition that she has heard.

“STOPPPP!” She screams at the top of her lungs. Angry tears stream her pale face as she fights her nightmare. This is going to be hard, she has fought so hard to rid herself of the ‘darkness’ as she calls it. Now, after seeing her father again, it will all return, all of the hurt, anger and fear manifesting inside of her again.