Enigma (29 page)

We were taken to a mutual place of judgment, as we were both accused of treason, while our fellow angels gave us looks of betrayal and disgust. Neither of us said anything to defend ourselves, knowing the charge was legitimate. I felt love that stood against everything hell was, and she fell in love with the enemy. Because something like this had never occurred before, everyone was stumped as to how it should be handled. Though heaven and hell agreed on some things, heaven always held the power to overrule hell when it came to decision-making, as good always prevails. This turned out to be in my favor, since hell wanted to have me thrown into the Lake of Fire with all the humans who ended up there upon death. Heaven intervened on my behalf, stating that I had shown love, compassion, and a change in heart, considering I sought forgiveness from God believing in Him. They told me in light of these things they were going to cut both me and your mother a break.

We would both be stripped of our wings and cast into human bodies that would feel pain and grow old, but if we continued to show the things we had shown to each other, then we would be accepted back into heaven when our time on earth was through.

The next thing your mother and I knew, we were on earth in bodies that looked the same as we had before, but they felt different. We could tell we had begun the aging process, and we could no longer feel our wings that had been on our backs. We stayed anywhere we could while I went to college so I could provide us with the things we needed. Your mother got a job with a charity during my second year of law school that let us stay there until I graduated, got my first job, and bought us a house. Your mother was so good at what she was doing at the charity that she quickly climbed the ladder of success until she was able to start her own charity.

Within a few years, that one was doing just as well as the other one. By this point I’d made a name for myself as a criminal defense attorney and gotten my own office, and things couldn’t have been going any better, or so we thought. A few weeks later we were overjoyed as well as more confused than we had ever been before when we found out that we were expecting you. Neither of us had ever been around a baby before and had no idea what to expect. As you will recall in earlier paragraphs, angels were never meant to have children and I had never had a human mate to create a Nephilim, so we were totally in the dark when it came to all of this.

In no time at all we started receiving visitors we had never seen before in our lives, but it was clear they were heavenly angels. They had all been sent to help us out with the baby situation, and while they were at it they provided us with some valuable information. Evidently when we had both been put into our human form they hadn’t removed our angel bloodlines. This fact alone was an entire game changer. This meant we had unintentionally created a new race of angel without even knowing we had that ability. It also meant that because angel blood is different than human blood, your mother would have to have a home birth and none of us could ever have our blood taken for any medical reason.

Angel blood, whether it be from heaven or hell, has strains of silver running through the red that can be seen easily, even with the naked eye, and it also has no blood type. The angels also let us know that the baby would show the abilities of both sides, as well as the abilities of humans until it acquired its wings. They said heaven would only grant the wings to our child once it showed enough strength to overcome evil and darkness. In translation, that meant that the forces of hell would be after you from the time you were born in order to have you create more of this new race of super angels. It also meant if they were able to get to you before you got your wings, they could use you to mother other angels.

Once you were born, our lives were complete. You were so amazing and couldn’t have been more perfect if you had tried! The really outrageous thing that took a lot of getting used to was how everything around you responded to your mood. When you would cry, it would always get cloudy and cover the sun. However hard you cried that is how hard it would rain. There were times when you would throw tantrums as a child during your terrible-two stage that would bring on storms of thunder and lightning! When you were happy it was always bright and sunny, and people as well as animals were always drawn to you. It was obvious even to those who knew nothing about us that there was something special about you that they had never seen before. Your mother and I always strived to teach you not to throw fits while at the same time trying to keep you content for the sake of others!

When you were three months old we discovered you were missing from your crib. We searched everywhere, but we couldn’t find you. We were so scared and frantic that we didn’t know what to do. Someone in a park alerted the police anonymously, and you were recovered, but we knew you were in more danger than you could ever have been with a random kidnapper. It came to light that Damron and Cheryl, the ones I’d known so long ago, were the ones who kidnapped you. I knew the moment I found out what their intentions were.

They wanted to take you so that they could raise you to be like those who shared their evil beliefs. Cheryl was angry that I had fallen in love with your mother, so I believe her intention was even crueler than Damron’s. I truly believe that Cheryl’s motive was to cause me pain because I had chosen good over evil and your mother over her. Damron was out to finish what I hadn’t meant to start and prove him worthy by taking on the assignment I’d been given in the first place. Knowing they would find a way out of the situation anyway, I knew there would be too many unexplained questions if they took DNA and all of the other requirements to attempt to incarcerate them.

Considering the circumstances, we agreed to drop the charges in order for people not to be suspicious of us as well once our lack of medical records and past existence in general came into question. The police were infuriated at the thought of how parents could just let suspected kidnappers go free without a question, but because they really didn’t have a concrete case against them, their hands were tied. I hated myself every day for being forced to let them walk away without any apprehension. I could do nothing without making our family a target as well, so I was between a rock and a hard place. I felt as though I was letting our little family down and allowing you to remain in danger, which one day would become yours to face, one day on your own when I was no longer able to be there to fight it for you.

After that day no one saw or heard from Cheryl or Damron again. We kept our guard up, being over protective of you and watching everyone around us to make sure there weren’t more on the assignment. We never noticed anything, but things still felt unsafe. We knew there was an angel headquarters for heavenly angels in Oceanview, so we decided to move so that you could be better protected. I never would have thought the angel headquarters would be disguised as an apartment building, but it was a great cover up! The owner let me rent an apartment to run my business out of, and your mom found another charity that was looking for someone to run it, so the move was easy.

You seemed to fit right in at school, always staying at the top of your class with excellent grades. Everything was going perfectly as planned for several years and things have gone great until recently.

We received word from a heavenly angel named Natasha a little while ago that you had been discovered. She let us know that a heavenly angel had been created specifically to pair with you and that he would be making himself known soon. She also told us that our time to be here was nearly over and that we needed to start making preparations to go. I don’t know how we will be taken, Mattie, but I know it won’t be long. I need you to know that you have angels all around you that are good and willing to help you. Don’t forget your charm bracelet. You will find it with this letter. I put them together so that you will look at it closely as you read this. If you look at the angels on your bracelet, you will realize that they are already in your life protecting you. I don’t know who they are, but you will.

I am so sorry to have to leave you without any other information other than what I have told you in this letter. I want you to understand that if I had any other choice about the matter, I would change it. Oh, there is one more thing: your guardian angel, Lorenzo, will be as close as he can be once I am gone. I have several heavenly angels working undercover to make sure everything is okay for you, so even though you may question them, they really are good, especially Allen Hearsch. He plays a really good bad guy. I also can’t tell you enough to be careful who you trust. If they try to win you over with money or try to influence you to do things you know are wrong, then they are more than likely working with the enemy!

I love you, Mattie. You truly are a very special angel,

Daddy

P.S. You can read the journal now.

CHAPTER 13

ENTRY 1

It’s my first day on earth, and I am attempting to locate Evana. She is the heavenly angel that I have been given the assignment to make fall in order to create a superior race of angels to carry out hell’s desires. I’m glad to be away from there for a while. I really needed a break from Cheryl. I plan on replacing her when I get back. I can’t imagine how anyone could promise to be with her forever. Even though I know I have power over a lot of things there, I feel free now. It’s nice to actually be able to breathe without having to answer to anyone or be expected to do anything. I could really get used to the thought of never having to return back there. Maybe I won’t be able to find Evana for a while and have a little time for myself to unwind and not have any demands for once.

ENTRY 2

It’s been two weeks, and I really haven’t been trying to find Evana yet. Lucky for me, I am kind of a big deal where I come from, so they won’t be sending anyone to check up on me. I’m staying in a rundown motel so I won’t attract too much attention to myself. I know this mission won’t be as cut and dry as it was described to me. There is no way that heaven will not keep tabs on their own. If it’s anything like I have heard, I’m sure they already know I’m here, preparing to corrupt. I wish there was some way I could just disappear. I’m so tired of these pointless missions. If somehow I get caught by other heavenly angels, I know the outcome for me will not end well. I am looking less forward to this day by day.

ENTRY 3

Today I met Evana. I can’t describe how she makes me feel. Just looking into her electric-blue eyes, I feel as if she can see straight into my soul. It makes me ashamed of all the things I have done. I can tell just by being in her presence that she is pure and innocent. I can’t imagine what heaven is like if it is filled with creatures like her. She is perfect with her long black hair, electric blue eyes, olive skin, and beautiful white wings. The sight of her took my breath away and left me speechless. I have never seen anything that compares to her. I felt as if I could sense God coming through her. One look at her almost hurt my eyes; she was so radiant! I now know why she is one of the high angels.

If I were a human, I wouldn’t be able to turn away from her to do anything else but follow her. Even as a hell’s angel I have to admit that she has made me question who and what I am internally. I am aware that I cannot continue doing the horrible things I have done for as long as I can remember. For the first time I feel remorse. There is no possible way I can complete the assignment I was given before coming here. I will not hurt Evana! I can’t hurt Evana. I would never be able to live with myself knowing that I caused this extraordinary creature any harm. I’ve never felt this way before. I don’t want to leave her.

I wish I could find a way to be with her forever. I need her in my life, but I know it can’t be. I never want to return to being who I was before I met her. It’s as if she’s awakened something within me that I never knew was there. There is something telling me not to let her go, as if there is something more to this than an unexplained fascination. I’ve never felt anything even close to the way I feel now about anyone before. I can’t imagine a day without her in it. I have to find a way to be around her.

ENTRY 4

It has been a month since I met Evana, and I feel more strongly about her now than I did before. I don’t know what it is about her, but there is something in the way she smiles at me and the way she glows with the sunlight that bounces off of her hair. I can’t help but enjoy the way my hand tingles when she places hers on top of it. There is something magical about her and the way she lightens up everything around her. This is what I have been searching for.

ENTRY 5

I know what this feeling is. I love Evana. I know I shouldn’t feel this way, but it is out of my control. If I am found out I will surely be accused of treason. All I know is that if this is what treason feels like, then it is glorious! I have done nothing dark or evil in months, and I feel excellent. I don’t have any added weight of remorse that I am forced to hide from anyone. Evana is making me better. I know if I hadn’t met her I never would have wanted to change anything I was doing. I would have continued to be a puppet on strings, always doing what I was told without questioning a single thing. I would be the same vile creation that was doomed to live in the bowels of hell for all eternity. Though I know one day I will be forced to return, I know even if it were tomorrow, the memories and the impact she has had on me would make it more bearable, since no one could ever remove her from my mind. Evana is someone I would never have the ability to forget even if I wanted to.

ENTRY 6

As much as I love spending every waking moment possible near Evana, I am so afraid that I will cause her to be punished. Just like me, if she is suspected and accused of treason, she could be subject to judgment. I don’t want any of these things to come upon her. She only deserves the best life possible, and I can’t be the reason that it is ended for her. I’ve tried to stay away from her a little more lately, but I haven’t been successful. I follow along, watching her from the shadows. It makes me nervous considering that heavenly angels are able to tell that I am there and I don’t know if they are anywhere near. I keep taking risks and chances, not caring what might happen to me, but I do care what happens to her. I can’t keep putting her at risk, but I don’t know how to stay away from her. I am so in love with her.