Her eyes lit up just a bit, I knew
she loved to pick out my outfits whenever I let her, but she covered it up with
a huff. “I guess I could help,” she grumbled out.
Just ten minutes before Ben was
going to pick me up, I was finally ready. I knew we were going to free movie
night that they held for students occasionally and then grabbing a bite to eat.
We always ended up eating at different places around town, so I never knew if I
should wear something casual or dressy. So we settled for in between.
I adjusted the deep blue sundress
that I had paired with black wedged sandals and smoothed out my ponytail, even
though I normally liked to leave it down, I had learned that it was the best
way to wear my hair, since it always got blown around in Ben’s car.
“You look sexy as hell,” Kitty
reached out and slapped me on the ass before plopping back down on the beanbag
chair that substituted for actual furniture in our room. “Good, totally the
look I was going for.” I pulled out my phone to let Ben know that I was ready
and would meet him downstairs in ten minutes. “Aren’t you going out with Brad
tonight?” She had finally put some clothes on after she got up but had only put
on a silky pink pajama set.
“Well actually, he’s coming over
here. So if there’s a sock on the door when you come back, make sure you knock
really loud before entering, if not I can’t be responsible for what you see.”
She gave me a big wink and I let out a groan. “Really, Kitty? A sock? Isn’t
that like a guy thing?” She answered me back with a giggle and I left her
behind to meet Ben. That girl was like a freakin’ sex machine!
****************************
The movie and dinner with Ben was
nice, but we still ended up finishing things up pretty early. When he suggested
we go back to his apartment, I was more than willing. I was sure I had plenty
of time to kill since I knew Kitty was probably pretty busy at the moment.
I had never been to Ben’s before
and I was surprised at how clean it was. Everything was pristinely white and
there wasn’t one surface filled with clutter. I knew his parents had footed the
bill for his apartment because they didn’t want him subjected to the dorm life.
They sounded a little bit stuffy to me.
Somehow, we ended up in his bedroom
and that’s when things got a little awkward. “So,” he muttered, standing in the
doorframe and scratching at the blonde stubble that covered his head. My eyes
flicked back and forth between him and the bed that seemed to be screaming out
to me, centered in the oversized room.
What the hell? If he’s not going to
make the first move, I guess I will. I took a step closer until we were just
inches apart and watched the way the moon flickered in his eyes. He had shoved
his hands into his pockets, like he was afraid to touch me. Guess I would have
to be the aggressive one here, even though I had no clue what I was doing.
Our lips crashed together after I
pulled his head down to mine and I could feel the tension release from him as
soon as our tongues touched. He finally took over, lifting my body from the
ground easily. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he stalked towards the
bed, never breaking the kiss.
He leaned over me after placing me
in the center of the bed and lowered his head to my neck, licking and sucking
as he worked his way down. I felt his hands on my bare stomach and my dress
slid up until it was pushed over my head. His fingers fumbled around with the
clasp on my bra and suddenly I realized I was naked from the waist up in front
of a guy for the first time in my life, my lacy panties the only thing covering
me.
I tried to cover myself with my
hands, but Ben pushed them away. “Don’t, you’re beautiful.” His head dipped
down and I could feel his warm tongue flicking over my nipple, while he pinched
the other one with his fingers. It was almost painful, but a good kind of pain.
One that caused my panties to feel damp and I squeezed my legs together to
relieve some of the pressure.
“Ben,” I gasped out. His tongue
didn’t stop its exploration so I called his name out again. He finally paused
and looked up at me with questioning eyes. “What’s wrong?”
“I just…I just don’t think I’m
ready yet.” I saw what I thought looked like a defeated look flicker over his
face, but it was gone as quickly as it came, covered up by that easy smile of
his. “That’s okay Paige, I don’t expect sex from you, especially if you’re not
ready. Are you up to trying some other things though?”
I give a slight nod of my head,
giving him the green light and his head dipped back down. His warm mouth was
against my breast again, just briefly and then he let it go with a loud pop.
His thumb looped into the elastic of my panties and I arched my hips up to help
him along as they slid down my bare legs.
I could feel his hardness pressed
against my stomach and it was like my hips had a mind of their own, grinding
against him. A moan escaped my lips and I heard him quietly chuckle before
pressing a finger into my wetness.
“Mmm you’re so tight, Paige,” he
said breathlessly, leaning down again to place fluttering kisses over my
stomach and to the insides of my thighs, thrusting his finger faster and
faster, making my whole body tingle. My hips were meeting his fingers each
time, getting closer and closer to something I’ve never felt before…and then they
were gone.
I felt a wetness between my legs
and I lifted my head to see Ben between them. His tongue flicked out and I let
out a low moan at the feelings he had coursing through my body. He inserted a
finger along with his tongue and I felt like a wild animal as my hips bucked
off the bed and I yelled out his name as I climaxed.
His weight shifted again and we were
lying face to face with his arm wrapped around my waist. His lips lowered to
mine and I tentatively opened my mouth, our tongues mingling and I could taste
myself on him. His hardness was pressing into my stomach and I reached between
us to press on the bulge through his pants. “Paige, I really don’t expect
anything.”
“Shhh,” I whispered out, placing
one finger to his lips. “I want to.” I flicked open the button on his jeans and
he helped me by pushing them down along with his boxers and he sprang out. I
bit back a gasp when I saw it, hardened and at attention.
I gently ran my finger down his
length and he let out a low moan, so I guessed I must have been doing something
right. His eyes were locked on me, with an intensity I’ve never seen before and
I can tell how turned on he was. I bent my head over and licked it up and down.
His hips twitched every time my tongue made contact and it gave me the
confidence to go even farther.
I closed my lips around the head
and slowly sucked it into my mouth. I have nothing to compare his size to, but
he seemed to stretch my mouth out and I couldn’t fit the whole thing in without
gagging so I wrapped one hand around the base as I moved up and down faster.
His hands dug into my hair and I
could hear him softly groan. He used his hold on my hair to move me up and down
his length faster, controlling the speed and his own pleasure. I felt his hand
drop down to my shoulder and he tried to pull me up. “Oh that’s so good, I’m
almost there.” I knew what he was doing by trying to pull me up but I keep my
mouth firmly in place until I felt warm liquid gushing into my mouth and he
yelled out ‘Amy.’
Paige
I was really hoping my ears had
heard wrong when Ben had called out the name of his ex- girlfriend, but I think
I was just fooling myself. I saw the way he looked when he talked about her,
like he was still in love and I was just some kind of a cheap substitute. Was
he imagining that it was her between his legs the whole time?
Luckily, I didn’t have to deal with
the awkwardness of confronting him. As soon as I walked out of his bathroom, I
could hear his loud snores coming from the bed where he hadn’t moved from,
apparently exhausted from what I had just done.
I pulled on my discarded dress and
tiptoed out of the room, leaving him a quick note that I headed home. Yeah, the
guy seriously had my head spinning, but I didn’t want him to think that I had
just taken off on him. I knew I wasn’t really in love with Ben, but I had
some
feelings.
I hurried through the darkness
across campus back to the dorms, no sock was in sight so I slid in my key and
found Kitty and Kylie sprawled out on the floor giving each other manicures. I
had to do a double take at that, those two rarely spent alone time together.
Kitty looked up, taking in my
disheveled appearance with a big grin on her face. “Oh who’s doing the walk of
shame now?” Kylie let out a giggle and started singing, “Bow chicka-wow-wow,”
and they both burst out in laughter.
I let out a deep sigh and flopped
back onto my bed. Great, just what I needed the Barbie twins working together.
“I guess I’ll take that as my cue to leave.” I heard Kylie get to her feet and
pat me on the head. “Sounds like you two need a nice private chat; see you
later, Kitts.”
I heard the bathroom door shut
behind her and slowly sat up, instantly ramming my forehead into Kitty who was perched
on the end of my bed. “Kitts, what are you two like bff’s or something now?”
“Well, actually she did me a huge
favor tonight. You know how I planned on Brad coming over and having the whole
place to ourselves?” I nodded my head, rubbing it at the same time. I felt a
major headache coming on and I’m sure Kitty wasn’t going to help it any.
“Kylie caught him downstairs in the
lobby with his lips locked on some skank before he came up here to meet me. Can
you believe that? What a freakin’ asshole! So then, he comes up here after he’s
done with Miss Skank and thinks he’s going to get some side action from me.
Kylie luckily interrupted us and explained what she had just seen and the
douche didn’t even deny it. I threw his ass out and we had ourselves a nice
bonding experience. She’s actually a lot of fun to be around.”
“Great, I’m glad you two worked
things out. As for Brad, I’m actually sort of surprised, but I’m glad you found
out before you two got really serious.”
“I know,” she stated, bobbing her
head in agreement while blowing on her neon pink nails. “So anywho, you and Ben
finally hooked up? Was it everything you expected? Did it hurt? Was he good?
How do you feel?” She bombarded me with questions and I really wasn’t sure how
to answer them. How did I really feel? I guess I should feel hurt, but I don’t
think I really was.
“Let’s just say we didn’t make it to
home, but we at least rounded third.”
“Uh, really Paige? Baseball
analogies for sex, I think you and Dylan are actually made for each other. So from
what I can decipher, you at least got a little action. And apparently, Ben
wasn’t any good because you look like your puppy just got ran over by a car,
not like you just had an amazing orgasm, so spill.”
I bit down on my nail and Kitty
swatted me on the head. She hated when I did that and was trying to make me
break the nervous habit that I had picked up. “Well, I guess things were great,
we went further than I ever have in my life. But things got kind of weird when
I um…returned the favor and he called out his ex-girlfriend’s name.”
She let out a loud gasp and jumped
to her knees on my bed, her eyes opening wide and her mouth hanging open.
“Nu-uh, no he didn’t! O-M-G! I can’t believe that. Well, I guess, maybe, I sort
of can. You know I warned you about being a rebound girl, but I can’t believe
he actually called you Amy! Trust me when I say you don’t compare to her
whatsoever. That girl is the biggest whore around with a capital W. Eww.” She
shivered at the thought and I felt the same way. Seriously, was I that
forgettable?
“So what do you think I should do
now? I sort of slipped out undetected after he passed out. Do you think I
should bring it up or just break up with him and give him some lame excuse? I
need some good quality Kitty Chapman advice.”
“Hmm,” she placed a finger to her
glossed lips. “Well, if I put myself in your heels, I might wait it out. See if
he says something to you about it first, maybe it was just an accident. I mean
they did date for like four years. But if he doesn’t, then yeah I would bring
it up. Maybe he’s just still hung up on her and isn’t ready to date yet.”
“I guess you’re right. I’m just
glad I didn’t let things go any farther before I knew what his real feelings
were. I’m not some blushing virgin waiting to give it up on her wedding night,
but I do want it to happen with someone that I have feelings for and I know
returns those feelings. I guess I’ll just wait things out for a little bit.”
Kitty stood up, tugging on my hand
until I was on my feet next to her. “Glad I could help. Now we need to do
something about these nails. And I swear to god if I see you chewing on them
again, I will superglue your mouth shut while you’re sleeping.”
***************************
The next few days passed quickly and
things with Ben and I were…awkward, to me at least. He never brought up the
whole moaning out his ex –girlfriend’s name thing and neither did I. Every time
I tried to, I got so nervous and always ended up wimping out. So we went on our
occasional dates and did the usual making out, but I never let it go any
farther.
I knew I would start to get pretty busy
though and our time spent together would probably be cut in half. I made it to the
library like Maddie suggested and was hired on the spot. I was promised about
fifteen to twenty hours a week, the only bad thing was that they were almost
all third shift. I was definitely going to have to get used to staying up so
late.