I Love You More Than (21 page)

“You still mad at me babe?” he asked, braving the chilly look he was getting as he continued to approach her.

“What do you think Harrison? I spent three hours working on this mess to straighten it and you undo all that hard work in two point two seconds.”

“I told you, you looked too hot for your own good without your cover on. You needed to be cooled down.” Harrison loved Felicia’s body, so much so he didn’t think there was one part of her body that he hadn’t had inside his mouth. The looks she garnered from the male and even some of the female guests, just confirmed for him what he already knew. His woman is absolutely sublime. There was no category where she fell short.

“What if I told you I think you’re sexy as shit when your hair is all curly and wild like that?”

“Really H? So now I’m sexy when I look like a wild woman?” Felicia asked with mock outrage that did nothing to deter Harrison’s descent. He laughed as Felicia turned giving him her back. Harrison kept walking until his front met her back. Felicia reached back with her right arm to grasp his hip and push him back. Being prepared for the maneuver, he grabbed her wrist, followed by her left wrist and held them together in his right hand. Harrison raised his arm and brought her arms up to rest high against the shower wall.

“What the…” Felicia started before he stretched her hands even higher, making her stand on her tip toes. She tried to wriggle them loose, but Harrison just tightened his hold making her stretch higher.

“You do know I love it from behind right,” he asked as he ran his lips along the outer edge of her ear. Taking his free hand, Harrison reached up and wrapped his hand around her neck applying pressure. Felicia wondered what was wrong with her. Here she was, in the shower with her man’s hand wrapped around her throat and she didn’t feel one ounce of fear. What she felt was a wet heat that was generating from down below.

Harrison felt Felicia’s pulse and breath quicken as his fingers wrapped around her throat. Giving it another squeeze, he released her neck and started to run his flat palm down the center of her body. He bypassed her breasts, continuing his journey down to her belly where he gripped her flesh. Felicia hated her midsection with a passion. After two kids and weight fluctuation, she felt like it was the most foreign part on her body. There was never a time when they were together that he didn’t pay homage to her midsection, making her feel…adequate.

“I don’t get why you’re so insecure about your stomach,” he said to her one evening as they were lying in his bed playing.

“Okay, do you not see these handles and the tiger stripes all over it? And for your information…I’m not insecure about it as long as it’s covered!” Felicia shouted as she fought against him trying to pull her t-shirt back down to cover her midsection.

Harrison smacked her hands away and yanked the t-shirt off of her. “First off these stretch marks are your medals of honor. You have brought life into this world Li…twice. And if I have anything to do with it, you will two – three times more. So what if your skin isn’t as tight as you want it to be? There are ways to make it tighter if you want it and if you don’t, that’s perfectly fine too. Your man loves you just the way you are. Every,” Harrison paused to kiss a stretch mark. “Little,” kiss, “centimeter.” Felicia had finally come to the point where she didn’t physically cringe whenever he touched, grabbed, kissed or her favorite, licked her tummy.

Harrison continued his journey across the planes of her body until he came to the valley where he dipped low and entered her with his fingers. Harrison was so skilled when it came to touching. It didn’t matter if he was rubbing and massaging her back or her G-Spot and clit. He always applied just the right amount of pressure

Felicia gasped loudly as he spread her wide with his fingers and strummed her clit. “Harrison…” she couldn’t hold back any longer.

“Stop holding back on me Felicia.” Harrison told her as he picked up the pace and increased the speed of his fingers. She let go and allowed herself to revel in the pleasure Harrison was doling out. Reaching her breaking point, Felicia let out a guttural moan as her climax took over her.

Not allowing Felicia any reprieve to get herself together. Harrison sat on the built-in bench and pulled her back to sit on his lap. Her back to his front. When Felicia’s bottom came down, Harrison had his cock in his hand ready and waiting. He had no trouble guiding himself inside her. Felicia’s pussy was so wet, her orgasm was still trailing down her thighs. When she was fully seated, then and only then did Harrison start to raise is hips and pump into her.

It took no time for Felicia to work her way through her haze induced fog and start to ride Harrison from behind. “How does it feel babe?” he asked.

“It feels so good baby.” Felicia reassured him as she laid her head back on his shoulder and started to ride harder and faster. Harrison reached down and started to swirl his fingers around her clit. Still too sensitive for touch, Felicia knocked his hand away causing Harrison to chuckle deeply.

“Unh Mm.” pulling back his hand, he grasped her hip and elevated himself higher. Every time Felicia came down, Harrison was raising up. Burying himself to the hilt inside of her.

“Shit Harrison.” Felicia loudly moaned. Harrison pinched her nipples the same time he bit down on her neck.

“Damn Daddy.”

He knew Felicia was right there on the edge and he couldn’t be any happier for it. The last thing he wanted to do was cum without seeing to her again. This time when his hand travelled down to play with her jewel, her muscles were locked. Felicia tried to block his journey, but Harrison would not be deterred.

“No, no, don’t do it Harrison. I can’t take it!” Ignoring her pleas, Harrison applied gentle pressure to her clit. The same amount of pressure he applied as he started biting the back of her neck and upper back. He could feel her muscles quaking and spasming around his dick. Waiting to detonate. Harrison picked up his speed, stood and quickly turned Felicia around so she was able to place her hands on the bench he was just sitting on. Giving her ass a few firm slaps, Harrison took off after that. His hips pistoning into her over and over again. Kicking her right foot, Felicia’s legs spread wider giving him unobstructed access to her clit.

One touch, that’s all it took and Felicia exploded from inside out. Harrison followed soon behind her, releasing his seeds inside her. Felicia wasn’t looking forward to trying to make her limbs work enough to carry her to the bed. Luckily for her she had a man that saw to her every need. Harrison swept her up into his arms and carried her to the bed where he promptly dropped her on top of it.

“Get dressed!” He ordered, smacking her on the ass. “Dinner’s in thirty.”

Felicia and Harrison had a wonderful vacation. When Felicia was told that they would be going for seven days she was a little concerned that they would get bored or even worse, sick of each other. But that never happened. Harrison was perfectly fine with laying out on beach or at the pool lying next to Felicia as her head was buried in a book or magazine. She had so many titles she’d been collecting to read for that moment when she had time to do so.

They had ventured out and signed up for a couple of excursions. One in particular, the Reef Explorer was Felicia’s favorite. They ventured to a private beach and out into the middle of the ocean were they had a station setup where you could do all types of activities. Kayaking, paddle boarding, lounging floats to use out in the ocean. Snorkeling was available, as well as you could swim with the sharks and stingrays (stingers removed of course).

There was good food, music, lounging areas and best of all a twenty minute massage was included! The private beach they went to was absolutely breathtaking. The sands were pure white and the water was a clear aqua, turquoise hue. Felicia had worried a little to herself that they would get bored in the six hours they were out in the middle of nowhere. They actually ran out of time. She and Harrison tried and did everything.

Felicia loved kayaking but the paddle boarding not so much. Harrison enjoyed the comic relief her attempts at paddle boarding gave him. She took three major falls of the board before calling it one. Felicia was the type that knew her strengths and weaknesses… Standing up on a board and trying to balance herself on the water was not a strength she possessed.

For the most part, Harrison was on his best behavior. One afternoon in particular things got pretty hot and heavy. The pool right outside of the room they were occupying was having a day party. Harrison and Felicia decided to go since they’d be able to hear the music and laughter outside the room anyway. Felicia was drained after being in the pool playing with Harrison and talking to another couple, she was convinced wanted to swing.
That was so not happening.

Harrison went and got them refills before coming back to their cabana. Once he reached it, he set the drinks down and started to untie the panels.

“What are you doing H?” Felicia asked laying the book down on top of her as she watched his ministrations.

“I want to take a little nap and it’s so hot out. This will make it cooler and give us some privacy.” He told her as he wiggled his eyebrows causing her to laugh at his antics.

“Well, I don’t think we’ll need any privacy. No one will be paying you any mind while you’re napping. They’re too busy drinking, laughing and dancing to pay you any attention.” She informed him turning to her side to look at him as he climbed onto the bed joining her.

“It’s not my nap I’m concerned about them seeing. It’s my nap cap I need before I can get to sleep.”

“Nap cap? What the hell is that?”

“I’m glad you asked.” Harrison told her from where he was positioned between her legs. He grasped her hips and pulled her down lower till they met his. Then he stretched out until his face was eye level with her bikini clad pussy. Harrison tapped her bottom signaling for her to lift up. She needed no further instruction. Harrison told her he could eat her pussy for hours and never tire of it. After this vacation she has started to believe that he could in fact lick and suck her for hours.

“Harrison…someone will see us.” Felicia offered weakly as a deterrent.

“No one is going to see us because no one will bother us.”

“They’ll know what we’re doing!” He gave that statement some thought and nodded his head in agreement.

“Yeah. You’re probably right about that one. But only because they’ve done the same thing or have thought about it. Come on Li. I want to taste you so bad right now. Why not while outside in the middle of paradise?” Harrison placed soft kisses on the inside of her thighs, licking the creases.

Felicia had no other words to offer. When he got to licking the crease of her thighs, she was done. No coherent thoughts could be formed and Felicia had given up trying to form them while Harrison was busy eating her. She now had to concentrate on holding her moans and groans in. She didn’t want to be the one to confirm for all the guests they were in fact doing unspeakable things behind the curtains.

Releasing a hip, Harrison ran his hand up Felicia’s body, resting his fingers at her lips. Felicia smiled and opened wide for him. Harrison plugged her mouth with his fingers to help stifle her sounds. Her man was always looking out for her. He didn’t give two shits about someone knowing what they were doing. But he knew she’d be embarrassed. So he was helping her out in the only way he could as he was about to go hard and devour every last drop of her…He gave her something to keep her mouth occupied. A tactic that saved her a lot of embarrassment whenever the kids were around.

Felicia would forever be grateful to Harrison for taking her on her first trip outside of the U.S. They had been home from their trip for almost a month now and Felicia was still having issues getting back into the groove of things. She still thought about Punta Cana at least once a day. That was her stress reliever whenever she needed to escape the reality of a deadline or stressful day and couldn’t make her way to Harrison. She’d close her eyes for however long she needed to deflate and would recall the white sands. Magnificent ocean, and all the naughty things they did while there.

Things were going better than Felicia could’ve ever prayed, hoped or dreamed of. Dana and Elena were having an awesome year at school and seemed to be genuinely happy. If there was an event they wanted to participate that called for the father’s to assist, Felicia always made sure they called and asked David if he’d like to go first. Even though he never surprised her once by saying yes, she just never wanted it to ever be said she kept him away from his kids.

Harrison being there waiting to step in when needed always saved the day. Felicia could talk to Harrison about anything even David and his nonexistent relationship with his children.

“Why do you make the girls call David instead of letting them decide if they even want to ask him in the first place?” Harrison asked while they were settling in for the night. Dana’s school was hosting a daddy daughter dance to raise funds for the new playground. Dana came home all excited about it, telling Harrison all about it. Felicia interrupted as Dana was about to ask Harrison if he would take her and suggested she call David.

The light that had just been in Dana’s eyes died a little bit, but she picked up the kitchen phone and called her dad. True to form Mrs. Gentry answered the phone. For David to do so would require him to get his lazy ass up. Dana filled David in on the reason for her call and asked if he would take her to the dance. He was never disappointing as long as you were betting on him to not come through. David came through as expected and told Dana he already had plans that weekend.
Lies.

“H I know every time I make them call to ask David to participate in their lives he’s going to say no and disappoint them. And as much as I hate putting my babies through that, I don’t want it ever to be said that I stopped them from having a relationship.” Felicia explained as she got comfortable in the bed, siting propped up against the headboard by her pillows

“Babe can I be real with you right now?” Harrison asked.

“Always.”

“You making Dana and Elena confirm over and over that their biological father doesn’t give a fuck is a little harsh. And quite frankly it’s a hard pill for me to swallow. I’m here. Day in and day out. Not because I have to be or feel that you need me. But because I love you and the two little replicas you have. I love you so much that there’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you. And by default as they are a part of you, there’s no you without them, I would do anything for them as well. I would lay down my life for the three of you Felicia without hesitation.

“So for you to have them call David and ask when we all know he’s going to disappoint them is like a kick in my nuts each time they call him.”

Felicia sat in stunned silence. She hadn’t given any thought or consideration to how her actions made Harrison feel. She was so preoccupied with making sure she was fair towards David, she was short changing the man who has done nothing but have her back! One thing became very clear to Felicia, she needed to get her shit and her head together before she lost Harrison. The last thing she wanted was for him to feel unappreciated or as if he didn’t matter. He did, in every way imaginable.

Truth be told she often found herself wishing that it had been Harrison she was with all those years ago instead of David. That Harrison was the father of her daughters and David didn’t exist in their world. Felicia had given up on fairytales long ago, but Harrison was starting to make her believe again.

Felicia got onto her knees and swung a leg across Harrison’s lap where she sat, straddling him and looking into his eyes.

While trying to gather her thoughts and what she wanted to say Felicia started to tear up.

“Babe…” Harrison kissed away the tear that had escaped. “I didn’t bring it up to hurt you and definitely not to make you cry. That’s the last thing I’d want to do unless they were tears of joy and happiness.” His sweet tender words only turned the water pressure up and more tears fell.

Harrison sat up and hugged Felicia tightly to him. Felicia wrapped her arms around his back and hugged him tighter than ever before. Felicia didn’t realize until now just how much she truly loved Harrison. Don’t get it twisted, she knew he was a damn good man and loved her kids just as much as they loved him. But what she was feeling for him right now at this moment surpassed anything she had ever felt in her life.

The thought of hurting Harrison or not having him in her life literally made her want to fall to pieces. He had been there for her in ways that no one else ever had. Felicia was crying so hard, she found herself hiccupping as she tried to get herself together enough to where she could speak.

She didn’t know how long they sat entwined, content with holding each other in silence.

“H…” Felicia started, but stopped so she could break their embrace enough so she could see his beautiful face. “I first want to tell you how utterly and completely sorry I am. It was never my intent to slight you, make you feel like an afterthought or worse, you come after David. That is the furthest thing from the truth. I love you Harrison. I love you so much that it scares me. I have never felt this strongly for another human being. I would never make the mistake of comparing you to David, but as far as relationships go, that’s all I have to compare anything to.

“David almost broke me H. Not once, not twice, hell not even twenty times. That man tried to break my spirit. My soul. Just me as a person every day that we were in each other’s presence. If David could do that to me when the love I’d felt for him had died long ago, what could your actions do to me?” She rushed on to finish as he was about to interrupt.

“Make no mistake, I know you are not him. He is nowhere your level and you’re much better than that bag of scum. And his daughter’s love you Harrison. And if I can be real with you…” she paused waiting for his consent which he gave her with a nod of his head.

“I honestly believe with everything thing in me that they love you more than they love their own father. You have had more meaningful interaction with them than their own father ever has. And he’s pretty much lived in the same house with them for all of their lives. You’ve been here the past nine months, you know what I say is true.”

Silence fell between them as Felicia wondered where this left them and Harrison made sure she didn’t have anything else to add.

“So you’re telling me all this to say what?” A sweet smile was all she could muster up to give him. She felt drained down to her toes.

“I’m telling you all this H, to say that I am scared. It’s something that I can’t help, just a little residual from my last relationship. But I promise you from this day on out that I will not allow my fear to be my guiding force from this point on. If David wants to have a relationship with his children, that’s on him. Not me. I won’t let my misplaced guilt make me force a relationship. I will no longer be ruled by my fear of losing you!”

“Good!” Harrison told her the same time he brought his hand down to connect firmly with her ass. Felicia had stopped her automatic reflex of reaching back to rub the sting away. He always took care of her and rubbed the hurt away.

“Felicia Montgomery I love you more than…anything. I love you more than I love myself. I am in love with you and have been in love with you for the past seventeen years. I would say that I felt sorry for David losing out on you but that would mean I wouldn’t have you. So I’m not. I’m not sorry that he won’t have you to wake up to every day and be greeted by your smiling face first thing. I’m not sorry that he won’t get to laugh with you until tears are streaming down your face. Or so hard you start snorting.” Felicia opened her mouth to refute the snorting comment, but Harrison just placed his forefinger to her lips and continued.

“I’m not sorry he won’t have the three of you to snuggle and cuddle up with on the couch while watching a movie marathon on ABC family. I’m not sorry he won’t be able to take Dana to her daddy daughter dance. I get to have that moment and make that memory with her. I’m not sorry he wasn’t able to dry Elena’s tears when she didn’t place in her last gymnastics competition. I was the one she turned to when she needed to be consoled.”

Harrison lifted Felicia off his lap and placed her on the bed. Turning to his nightstand, he opened the drawer and withdrew a box. Felicia’s heart began to beat triple time. She brought her hands up to her mouth in an effort to try and hold in her overflowing emotions. Harrison walked over to her side of the bed and dropped to his knees before her.

“And most importantly,” he reached for her left hand which she gave without hesitation. “I’m glad that he never asked you to marry him. I’m the only one who will ever have that honor. Felicia Nichole Montgomery, will you wake up next to me every morning for the rest of your life? Will you allow me to provide for you and your children? Will you be the mother of our children? Are you willing to be with me every step of the way for the rest of my life? And last but not least, I want nothing more than for you to be my wife. Will. You. Marry. Me?”

Felicia’s entire body was trembling with suppressed emotion. Harrison had to tightly hold her hand just to line the ring up on her finger to where it would go on. Felicia stared down at the platinum three karat solitaire that was surrounded with sapphire. Dana and Elena’s birthstone. Tears were free falling nonstop and Felicia was even beginning to feel the first trickle of snot trying to escape. She was about to erupt into a wet ball of mess and it was all his fault.

“Yes!” She told him laughing through her tears and launched herself full speed ahead at him, knocking them both onto his back. “YES I’LL MARRY YOU!” Harrison smiled so broadly that he showed her both of his dimples.

“I love you Felicia Montgomery, soon to be Felicia Kincaid.”

“I love you too Harrison. More than you’ll ever know.”

“Naw babe, that’s not possible. I know. Trust me I know.” Harrison brought his hand up gripping a handful of hair at the back of her head and crushed her lips to his. They were only a few feet from the bed…but they wouldn’t be making it to the bed tonight.