Languish for you (My soulmate) (12 page)

“Stay at home and pretend to be a statue,” I said annoyed.

He rolled his eyes and stood up. He didn't comment my words, although I wanted to hear his reply, his voice. Strange how quickly I got used to him and wanted to spend more time with this unstable Christopher.

“Bye,” I said, crossing my hands against my chest, when he walked out from the room. I heard him mumbling something under his nose. That maybe was my goodbye.

And then I heard the door creaking and the lock clicking. Yea, he locked me in the flat. But will that help? After all, Anna was still working in the kitchen and
I had my own keys in my purs
e. But the strangest thing was, that he forbid me to leave home or open door to someone. Why? Avery had told me that maybe Tobias will come... Christopher didn't want me to see my soulmate? Why?

I hugged myself and glanced at my plate with salads. I didn't have an appetite for that kind of food. I wanted something else. Maybe pasta. But I instead of walking into the kitchen, I found myself in my room, staring on my bar of chocolate. I rolled my eyes and started eating it, letting my fantasy loose.

“Soulmates,” I said after some minutes. I was always a romantic person and knowing, that soulmates actually existed... I smirked. Maybe I could find a purpose for which I could live?

Chapter eleven

He didn't come as Avery had predicted. Also, Agnes didn't touch the door bell. That really cast a damp over me. I really believed in Avery's words. I waited and they didn't show up. But maybe it is for the best, I said in my mind, staring at the laptop's screen which was blank.

I rolled on my back and looked through the window.

Yea, it really is for the best, I sighed. I didn't say I wanted to be a good girl and do what Christopher had ordered me, but I just needed some more time with Tobias and understand if Avery had told the truth. For that reason I would even become a nasty little girl.

But another day started and still no news from Agnes or Tobias. Even Christopher and Avery didn't tell me anything about them. That didn't surprise me. They didn't want me to know about their jobs or themselves, although I tried to find out more details about them by giving them various questions, but those two cunning foxes knew, what I was trying to find out, and didn't give me a word. That was frustrating.

I also tried to leave the flat, but they told me to write. What a surprise!

And there came Monday, my big day at university which I dreaded. Avery was standing behind me when I was staring at my reflection in the mirror. I seemed so... I didn't even know how to describe myself. My hair was straight like someone had used an iron. My eyes seemed tired and empty. Face? If not the make-up, I would definitely be consider me being awaken from the death. And my clothes? They were the nicest thing on me; white shirt, red and huge belt and then a skirt. Of course, shoes were here.

“You look stunningly,” Avery said as he put her arm on my shoulder.

I nodded reluctantly. I had never thought about myself as a beautiful person, but being a quite a character, gink... always. I didn't care what others thought about me and I didn't trouble myself to fit in their created frames, although sometimes I caught myself wondering what would be if I be just average, just...empty... Would my life be easier? More interesting?

“Beauty is over-valued,” I said before I could control my tongue.

She didn't say anything, just sighed. I looked to my fingers. Avery had done a fantastic manicure. She really had talent for that... and practice.

“How long will I live?” suddenly I asked.

Avery removed her hand and took a small step back from me.

“Why do you think I know that?” she asked, studying me.

I shrugged.

“Maybe because you brought me back to life, I guess.”

She lowered her face. A silence spread around us for some minutes, before she finally created a proper answer to kill my curiosity.

“I... I and Christopher didn't bring you back. It was the bodiless and we don't give people time. Everyone has a body and its own owner decides how long it should live.”

“I don't understand,” I said honestly.

“Your body carries some kind of deceases, but it doesn't mean you will die because of them,” she started explaining. Her eyes pointed to the ground.” The food, the atmosphere and other people will be those ones, what will kill you.”

I was about to open my mouth and ask her to explain me that killing part, but Christopher knocked on the door and entered inside. He looked dashing; he was wearing a costume, giving him a businessman appearance.

“We can go,” he said, avoiding
settling
his eyes on me. He acted coldly with me these days. He was extremely arctic when Avery was around. But still, he wasn't friendly with me and that only made me feel lonely and sad. I tried to fight with that sadness, but I didn't find enough strength in me.

“Are you ready, Vanessa?” Avery asked. I glanced for the last time at the mirror, seeing a girl, who should be in grave, and then nodded, knowing that I was lying to her, to him and to myself. I wasn't ready and I didn't know if I could ever be.

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The car stopped and I lifted my eyes from my arms, which were peacefully resting in my lap. Christopher stopped the vehicle not far from the huge building, where not far away from it, many young people were moving from one side to other. They all seemed excited and ready to open a new chapter in their lives.

“Tobias will be there,” Avery said. That fact had to give me more courageous to open the car door and get myself into that sea of young people, but it only killed my determination. I didn't know why, but the fact that I will meet my soulmate, didn't influence me to leave the car, either.

I stole a glance at Avery and then at Christopher. My tutor seemed calm, while Christopher was visibly fighting with some kind emotion of his in his mind. Was he jealous of me going into that building? If so, I could easily switch places with him. I didn't want to go there.

“Go,” Christopher said, gripping the wheel tighter. That one word from his mouth made a bigger effect on me that Avery's all sentence.

I nodded and left the car, which soon shot into the labyrinth of street, leaving me alone to face new demons of my new life.

I took some hesitating steps forward, letting my eyes scan the area and detect Tobias. When I was finally alone, the idea of meeting him didn't seem so bad. And when I noticed him standing, making some friends, a bolt of betrayal hit me.

I took one step back and looked around alarmed. Betrayal? Why was this emotion in my mind, in my heart? I wasn't betraying anyone by meeting a person, who should be my soulmate, a person, who would love and respect me.

This strange emotion was short lived in my mind, because Tobias noticed me standing alone and totally lost in this fuss. He smiled widely and said something to the people he was talking with, before his feet found their way to me.

“Hi,” he said unsure a little if he had the right to speak with me.

I nodded and put a tiny smile on my face. I wasn't sure if I should speak. Suddenly I felt so many emotions in me; I was happy, nervous, scared, curious, sad... From where were all those emotions coming from?

“So, Agnes didn't lie. You will be studying the same thing,” his smile grew quickly on his face. His eyes became like two stars which seemed to be taken from the sky and put into his face. Also, I noticed that he seemed nervous around me.

“Yea,” I managed to say. ”I will.”

It was so awkward, that I didn't know how even to act in front of him. Everything what came into my mind seemed so pointless.

“Why didn't you call me?” he asked, shifting uncomfortably from one foot to another.

I licked my lips, trying to win some time to create a proper answer, which wouldn't hurt his feelings. But while I was trying to find the right words, a thought crossed my mind; why Christopher dropped his note on the table if he had knew, who Tobias was to me? Or maybe he didn't know?

“Sorry. I just lost that paper,” I said, avoiding to meet his eyes, although my mind really wanted to see his face right now.

“Lucky for me that we met again,” he said,
throwing
out his mobile phone. After a few seconds
,
he showed the screen for me
,
where many numbers were waiting to be memorized by me.

I nodded and quickly took my phone. Soon he had mine and I his phone number. He even called me to make sure that I didn't give him a wrong number.

“Here, now you couldn't avoid me,” he said, smiling from ear to ear. For some reason I smiled too. His presence to me let my soul sing, and I liked that strange feeling. I didn't want it could ever end.

“Tobias!” someone yelled his name and we both turned our attention to a girl, who was beckoning him to come.

His smile started shattering on his face, giving me a sign that soon he will leave me alone, here, where I didn't know anyone.

“I think we should go,” he said and without telling me a word, he took my hand, squeezing it a bit. I bit my bottom lip in order not to let my smile grew bigger on my face. Feeling his warm skin against mine, I thrilled with joy. Yea, now that all soul-mate was working on me. I forgot everything, the only thing, which was important to me right now, was him.

I walked after him. I didn't care where while I could be near him. Yea, that soulmates' thing was real.

“How are you feeling now?” his question brought me back from my thoughts. I looked at him and let his warm and inviting eyes meet mine.

I nodded.

“A
little nervous.”

He nodded. He was nervous, too. But I doubted that he knew why I was tensed, jumpy and feeling like my body was made from an ice-cream.

“Vanessa, this is Julia. Julia, this is Vanessa,” the girl had long strawberry blond hair which was hiding her delicate shoulders. The girl herself was slim and without huge protuberance. In my time boys called girls like her a plank. “Julia lives not far away from me. She will study law,” he gave me a hint, how he knew her.

Jealousy struck me. That girl was living not far away from him. I didn't like that favt. Also, I was not delight seeing her hungry eyes when she looked at him.

“Nice to meet you,” I said, but I didn't intend to give her my hand to shake it. I just put my free hand on Tobias' hand, which still was gripping mine. He wasn't hurrying to let me go, and that spread vibes in my body.

Julia noticed his hand on me, and her face expression instantly changed; she seemed irritated. But I pretended that I didn't notice anything in her face. The same thing Tobias did too. At least I thought he had noticed that.

“Me too,” she said and took a deep breath before she quickly glanced around. She tried to create a reason for her to leave us or at least that I could leave him.

“So, what are you studying?” she asked, looking straight at my face. She was studying me, reminding me my characters which also tried to understand with what kind of person they will have to deal, what kind of person they will have to defeat, beat and steal a hope.

I didn't turn away, although all my cells in my body wanted to do that, to run away somewhere from those two eyes, which could bring me back to the coffin.

I shivered. Tobias noticed that, but he didn't understand what kind of thoughts were in my little head, and I doubted that even a soulmate could know that.

“The English language and literature,” I answered, stepping one little step closer to Tobias.

“Really?” she seemed genuine astonished. She really didn't expect me to say that I will be studying the same thing as him. “So you will be studying together,” that fact really didn't please her. I could see how her eyes darkened one tone.

“Yes,” Tobias said with a smile in his voice. He was happy that I will be not far away from his eyes. Yea, he definitely felt something toward me.

“How did you meet?” she asked.

I frowned a bit. She was snooping, and that only meant that she had some kind of intentions. Yea, I was cautious person. Because I liked writing, I analyzed peoples' behavior, dressing habits and other things which could let me peek at their mind. Right now she was giving me a right hint about her motives; she was a hunter and Tobias was her prey. And what was I? A problem, with which she will have to deal.

“
Accidentally
,” he started when I kept my mouth shut. Julia's attention turned to him. I felt safer when her eyes finally left my body. “I thought she was one of my friends, but I was wrong. And later I found out that she lives in the house where my friend's family lives. Then we met again.”

She listened to him without undisguised admiration, letting me feel waves of jealousy. I wanted to take him away from her eyes, her voice...

I opened my eyes widely and glanced at our hands. Now he wasn't gripping me. No. Our fingers were tangled with each others.

No, I shook my head a little. I didn't know Tobias and I had felt like I owned him, like he was mine to want, to touch, to listen. Even if he was my soulmate, I shouldn't feel like this now, when I had seen him only three times. No, it wasn't right.