Languish for you (My soulmate) (13 page)

I let go his hand and took two, small away from him. He noticed that and his smiled started to die and his eyes, which were like stars some minutes ago, started fading, like someone turned the switch off.

I felt sadness, because I was a causer of that heart breaking face. But what could I do? It wasn't right. Avery did one huge mistake by telling me, who Tobias supposed to be to me; she stole my decision.

“Sorry, but I have just remembered that I have to make a call. Could you excuse me?” I said as I took out my phone. I was lying in order to get away from them. I didn't like to lie, but at that moment it seemed the best thing for me to do. I wanted to be away from Tobias right now.

Julia nodded without hesitation, while Tobias delayed to give me a sign that he let me leave them that they could be alone for some time. But I didn't need his approval in order to walk away. So, I just turned around on my heels and walked from them away, coming back into the sea of people which soon hid me from Tobias eyes.

I didn't want to call or to talk with anyone. I just needed to get away from this fuss and be alone where I could collect my thoughts and create some kind of plan what I should do next. Although I liked that soulmates' thing, I wasn't sure if it was what I needed right now. I always fought that no one could ever control my life. The knowledge that I didn't have any kind of decision, that everything was done by someone's else mind... that made me furious.

I glanced over my shoulder, only to check if Tobias was still following me with his eyes. But there were so many people walking around, creating a live
wall that
for him was impossible to see me.

I grinned and strode to the street where I saw some buses. Without any hesitation I got in one of them. One part of me was screaming in my head that I was doing a bad thing, that I was running from my happiness, which was brought to me on a golden plate, but the other one was tapping on my shoulder, encouraging me not to stop, but fight. I should be my own life's owner.

The bus moved forward and I closed me eyes, greeting darkness which surrounded me all those eighteen years. It was strange how darkness scared me when I woke up in the coffin. Right now it seemed so friendly, so calm that I found myself wanting to become it. Death was heaven, while the life was hell.

The bus stopped and the doors opened. I came back from the darkness to the colorful world. Many various age people took their seats, ignoring me, the person, who knew more about this world.

I looked through the window. The buildings started vanishing from the view, giving some place for the trees. And soon I noticed a river, which the buss will cross soon. I decided to get out in the next stop and walk along the river.

The bus stopped and I did what I had planned. Soon I took a seat on one of many benched, which were placed for people to admire the nature, to hear water's created sounds. I hugged myself and watched some ducks in the river. I knew that their lives were
easier
than mine. Why? Because maybe they could just spread their wings and fly away, while I was stuck here, where I was tied to banks, humans' society and their expectations, to rules and so many things, which had to give me independence, but it only made me a bigger prisoner of this world.

“Good day, Trinity,” someone said behind me. I jumped on my feet and found with my eyes who had said those words. I saw a young man standing behind the bench. He was wearing simple clothes, but from according to how stood, I could say that he wasn't a simple worker
,
who had
bent
his back every single day in order to have nothing in the end. He was confident and good looking. His hair was dark brown and short, his face angled. His body... yea, he could really advertise something and people would by it, or he could walk down the podium.

“Who are you?” I asked, narrowing my eyes into two small splits, while my arms crossed against my chest, ready for a fight, but I hoped that I won't need to use my strength against him. I doubted that I would be strong enough to do a really huge damage to him.. He seemed strong..

“Let me introduce myself, Trinity,” he put his hand on his chest and lowered his head a bit, proving me that he really was highly descended,” I am Eduard Fuchs. I am really pleased to finally meet you.”

I took one step back, not letting my eyes to leave his face.

“You know my name,” that wasn't a question, but he still decided to answer to it.

He nodded and smirked.

“Yes, I know your name, Trinity. It's a honor to be in front of you,” he stepped one small step to me, his stare changed, reminding me of people, who saw something, what they wanted really badly and finally they could take it. I didn't like his eyes, or those slow movements. He was like a cat, calculating his movements carefully before he could jump and grab his prey.

“How do you know my name?” I asked in low tone, giving him a clear sign that I had some powder in me which could burst at every second.

“That's one really important question. How do I know your name?” he said slowly, like enjoying every single letter in the word. It gave me the shudders. In my head I could hear alarm bell ringing, telling me to scurry away from that guy, who definitely knew something about me.

For my own surprise, I shook my head, silencing that alarm in my head. I shouldn't be afraid of him, while I
knew
who I was and what I wanted.

“I am waiting, you know,” I snapped.

He rolled his eyes playfully.

“I am one of the bodiless, Trinity. Do you know what the bodiless are?” he asked, taking some steps to circle around me.

I nodded. Christopher and Avery had mentioned them.

“No, you don't,” he shook his head. “No one truly knows what the bodiless are, but I will tell you, Trinity, because...” he stopped, trying to find the right word in his mind to describe me them. I waited patiently for him to start talking, but he really didn't hurry to do that. He wanted to test my patience, which I had never really had. Patience required time, and that was the only thing which no one of us really had. We could make money, food, produce many children and so on, but we couldn't give us some extra time to live.

“You are wasting my time,” I informed him annoyed by
this entire
situation.

“Yes, you are,” he nodded. “I could see that you want to take the bull by the horns. That's quite understandable. But I doubt that we will have enough time to start this conversation,” he said as he pulled a white card from his trousers' pocket. “Meet me when you will be able. And make sure, that you don't have anything what could track you. After all, Christopher doesn't like for his lambs to wander away without his knowledge,” he gave me a wink.

I took that note from his hand without any hesitation. After all, that white paper couldn't do me any kind of damage. I hoped.

“See you later, Trinity,” he lowered his head and quickly walked away from me.

I looked at the card. There wasn't any name written on it, only an address which I was intending to visit, but before that, I needed to give some questions to my tutor and protector. Something in all this situation finally decided to wake me up from that deep sleep
,
which I was having. Now it was time to find out, what really
was
happening.

Chapter twelve

I hadn't even stepped five steps to the bus stop when I heard my fake name echoing behind me. I stopped and turned around only to see Christopher running toward me without even slowing his step. Soon his hands locked around my wrists and shook me a little.

“What are you doing here? Alone?” he asked, panic in his voice. “Didn't you learn from your previous time? It's dangerous for you to wander in these streets alone.”

I took a careful look at him. Not only his voice was out of unusual, but also and his face; worried and relief seeing me in front of him. Really, I didn't understand, why he thought that it was so dangerous for me to walk in the city alone?

“Nothing bad had happened the last time. Oh, stop exaggerating things. How the la
st time I checked, not much had
changed from the last time I was a life; there aren't any dragons, mutants and so on.”

“But there are still some living beings, which would like to have you,” he said as he pulled me to walk with him away from the river, from the trees. Soon I could see the street. But even seeing it, Christopher's grip didn't loose even a bit. Plus, all the way he was glancing around, searching for enemies.

“What could happen to me if I wonder alone?” I asked him as five huge steps separated us from the street.

He didn't
answer
, and that only made me feel anger. They both kept me in the darkness, letting me feel small and vulnerable. I didn't like to feel like that.

Soon the black car stopped next to us. I noticed Avery in front of the wheel, looking only forward.

“Get in,” Christopher said in sternly voice.

I met his eyes with a frown and did what he had said, but really not because I wanted to get inside that car, but because I didn't want to start a quarrel. It wasn't time and place for it.

“Drive,” Christopher said to Avery as he sat next to me, like making sure that during the travel I won't jump from the car. Idiot, I said in my mind. I crossed my arms next to my chest and looked through the window.

The awkward silence spread around us in the car, creating some tension. I started wondering, who will be the one, who will decided to open his mouth first. Surprisingly, no one dare to say a word until we were in the flat. Only then the heavens opened.

“Now, please tell us, why did you do like this?” Avery said, shooting angry stares at me.

I lowered my face and scowled. I really didn't understand what kind of crime I had done.

“Because I didn't want to be there,” I decided to meet her eyes. Our stares locked. “You told me that Tobias is my soulmate,” I started coldly.

“You did what?” Christopher asked, taking a good look at his friend or partner. I didn't care.

“Yes, I told her, because she has to know,” Avery explained without even breaking our eyes contact. “We don't have time for playing games. I read her stories. In them you can see that she is afraid to trust someone, because he could hurt her. So, I decided to tell her what Tobias is to her and end everything. But as I could see, our little student decided to fight.” Coldness. That's what came from her words.

“Yes, I will fight, bec
ause you stole my decision with who
I could be. In my stories you also had to noticed that every single of my characters wanted to be independent, to know everything. Right now I feel like I am in a huge golden cage in which I should pretend that everything is okay. But you know what? It isn't. I am back from dead, I know that one guy is my soulmate ant that behind these walls is a danger. What kind of danger? I don't know,” I didn't even try to control my emotions. I let they know what I was really thinking about all this mess.

Avery and Christopher listened to my words carefully, trying or only pretending to understand, what was going in my mind.

I took a seat on the sofa and stared at my hands, waiting for them to open their mouths and tell me something.

“You think that everything is just a game?” Avery asked, tilting her hear away from me. “But it's not. You simply don't belong to our society and that's the main reason why we keep you out from our business, Vanessa. And Tobias? Well, maybe I did a mistake telling you who he is, but nothing could be done in order to correct it. You can fight, but in the end you will be with him.”

“Yea, when two Sundays come together,” I snapped and quickly ran to my room. Christopher tried to stop me, but I somehow managed to avoid his astute hands. Lucky me. Avery didn't even try to do anything to keep me in the living room. She just rolled her eyes, took a deep breath.

I quickly closed the door and turned the key in the locket. I took some slow steps back while Christopher was knocking on my door, ordering me to open it and talk like some normal people. But we weren't normal. That was the problem; I was a zombie and he was an immortal guy. Great company.

“Vanessa, open this damned door!” he kicked with his feet the door. I shook my head and opened my computer and turned the first song on the play-list which was installed. I turned the volume to the end. Soon I didn't hear Christopher. He maybe understood the same thing, because the door ceased vibrating.

I smirked. I won. Yea. But I knew deep inside me that this battle will cost me much. I was trying their patience as I did it with my parents sometimes.

I shut the sound of my computer and put my head on the pillow. My hands peacefully rested on my stomach. I needed answers about myself. Avery and Christopher won't give me them. They had emphatically said that I wasn't a part of their society. Then, I should make myself from their world.

I pulled out the card with the address. I didn't know that person, but I decided to meet him. Yea, it could be dangerous. I wasn't a person from those, who liked to put his head in the lion's mouth, but some times, if the occasion arose, I dared to take a risk.

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“Why did you really tell her about Tobias?” Christopher was controlling his temper. He wanted so much to hit something, scream or do something else what could unleash his emotions, which were boiling inside him. Christopher was angry with Avery, although one part of him knew that he didn't have the right to do that. Avery was just doing her job; saving their time. But the fact that Trinity knew to whom she belonged, had something moved in him, creating this chaos in his mind. Time was slipping through his fingers and that day when he, will have to tell good-bye to Trinity, will come now sooner than he thought.