Legacy: Letters from eminent parents to their daughters (25 page)

My meeting with Zia was interrupted several times when she had to retreat into her office to attend conference calls. She told me later that she preferred coming into office after sunset in order to be able to work more efficiently in the still of the night, without distractions, before heading back home after sometimes having put in over fifteen hours at work!

When she is not working at the frantic pace that she goes by, Zia is a practicing member of the Baha’i faith and doting mother to three daughters with whom she does not get to spend the time that her mother spent in raising her. Her mother, she recalled fondly, spent her days teaching her not just sewing, embroidery, dancing, and music but also taught her about the importance of the woman being a unifying element in her family and in the community. Zia did try to ape her mother and teach her children some of the skills that she has but eventually gave up when her own career gathered steam. Which is why, she cherishes the couple of family vacations that she takes every year with her childhood crush and now husband Jaydev and their three daughters.

In this touching letter to her daughters, Zia tells them about the importance of doing whatever it is they do, with passion, being grateful for the generosity of God in their lives, and being happy in all circumstances or with whatever choices that have made.

My dearest Anjali, Aarti, and Aditi,

It seems like only yesterday that you came into my life, each one of you so cherished, so much loved and doted upon by Pa and me, and each one of you adding richness and color into our lives. I don’t know if I ever told you this but Pa loved children so much that he almost wanted me to get pregnant the day after we got married! I completely resisted.

It has been a long journey for all of us and it seems almost unbelievable at times to see all three of you grown up into young women now with your lives charted before you.

Now that we have put all the birthday parties, magicians, pink frocks, and late night ice-cream treats behind us, I would love to get you together to tell you a few things that I know that you are already aware of, but are still worth saying.

The other day somebody asked me what I think are the most important things for our daughters to know, as they set out on the journey of their own lives. These are the few things that I always want to convey to my daughters, and I think holds true for any mom in general.

As clichéd as it sounds, my princesses, what I want most for you is to learn to live your life with great self-respect and dignity. That is the most important thing of all for a woman, anywhere in the world. That and to do something the three of you love to do. Often my friends, and sometimes you three too, wonder where I get all my energy from and how I manage to stay awake at nights so that I get work done at the office, late into the night when the world is fast asleep. My reply, always, is very simple. I am in love with what I do and that alone is enough to give you all the energy you need. That, plus being happy and being grateful for the generosity of God in your lives. Happiness gives you a kind of energy boost that nothing else can give, so cultivate the ability to be happy in whatever circumstances or choices that you have made.

My most fervent prayer to God, the one prayer that I hope He is listening to, is that my daughters remain grounded in their faith to him. My dears, I can’t tell you enough about the importance of faith in our lives. When everything in our lives seem to have gone horribly wrong or topsy turvy, faith alone has the strength to keep us moving forward. I hope always that you will believe in the Almighty and His creation and that you fear and love God in equal measure. Retribution by God is a good thing to fear, it keeps all of us on the straight and narrow, you know.

I often get the feeling that young people don’t think they will ever die and so they don’t start building their life’s balance sheet till much later. My belief in the Baha’i faith has helped me personally withstand a lot of very challenging times and you know how much I try to impart that faith to all you sisters. There are times that I wish and hope that you discover the power of prayer because I sometimes worry that you need to have enough faith. I want to tell you today that the connection with God is something that will help weather a lot of storms in life and believe me, there are going to be many of those.

This means having the inner conviction that there is a superior force more powerful than us human beings, a conviction that every test that comes your way is yours for you to conquer for Him. I get nervous sometimes for you, my children. I worry that God has been kind to us and things have been so smooth that I wonder how my princesses will deliver when God finally tests them with struggles and hardships.

Like every parent of daughters, I too worry about your future, pray that you find wonderful partners who will love, cherish, and respect you for what you are. I got married to my childhood sweetheart and so the path of an arranged marriage for you has never struck your parents. In some ways, I know you will find the right companions because we have inculcated the right values in you, opened up your minds by making sure you have travelled all over the world, been exposed to different cultures and people, and know to hold your own in most circumstances.

Marriage, children, and life will happen to you but through all that, I want to urge all three of you to go find your individual place in the sun.

Anjali (Anjoss), I can’t believe that my first-born, the little girl for who we prepared a nursery with so much enthusiasm months before her arrival, has now travelled around the world, and has found her own groove in designing furniture. We should have seen that coming because even as a child, you amazed us with your love for stylish clothes, your eye for detail, and your insistence that everything around you had to be ‘just so’. At the same time, you juggle your commitment to your NGO and pack your day completely. Sometimes I see you looking tired but think this is your time for hard work. This is your beginning.

Aarti (Artuss), my second born, you have no idea how much I am waiting for you to finally discover that law is truly your calling. I’m hoping that the three years that you will spend in New York for your law degree will convince you that there is merit in what your mother is doing. I pray sometimes that you will join me in my profession but if you discover something else that engages you more than law, I’m still going to be happy for you.

Aditi (Aduben), my youngest, your father is convinced you are our brightest daughter, the one who will outperform her siblings, once you discover what it is that your heart desires. So you have to live up to our highest expectations!

While I am confident all of you are perfectly able to manage your lives on your own, there are things that I want to tell you anyways, things that I learnt from my own parents.

Someday, whenever you find your life partner, remember to go join his family as a happy agent who nurtures them and not as a divisive wife. Make his family yours in every way possible. My mother used to tell me before I got married to your father, that I was actually marrying my mother-in-law. Now that might seem funny to you but don’t forget that it is that lady who has made your future life partner the splendid person that you love, so gain her confidence first, make her your friend, and that is a surefire way to a happy life. My mom told me to accept the fact that there were people in your partner’s life before you came along and there will be no cause for whining and complaining after marriage. Don’t worry about the petty and the inconsequential, fight the big battles of life, not the small ones. Ignore them and they will cease to seem so important.

When your kids come along, don’t forget to teach them the values that your parents inculcated in you and it is my belief that they will be able to lead richer, more fulfilled lives from that.

It is also important for a woman to have a career of her own, something that fulfills her intellectual needs and keeps her independent financially. My philosophy about this is to build up your career and a dignified one at that, one step at a time, without faltering. There will be moments when things overwhelm you but stick to your chosen path. When you work, give it your all, don’t be lazy about it or take it for granted. There is no point in being casual.

Very often I tell you that nothing is worth losing your sleep over or falling from grace in your own eyes. Don’t, knowingly, take decisions that will affect your reputation, hurt your conscience, or prevent you from sleeping peacefully at night. Moral decisions that affect these three things are simply not worth it. A lie always gets caught and it looks bad when it does. There is no upside to a lie. If the truth had come out for the first time, it would not have been a great deal and I think that there is nothing that a ‘sorry’ cannot fix. Take the path of truth as much as possible and when you mess up, learn to say ‘sorry’ too. It helps. And when things seem to get out of control and you need a shoulder to rest your burden on, be secure in the knowledge that we are always there to take your side, comfort you and support you as you fight your battles. Again, remember: fight only the big battles not the small, inconsequential ones. Be strategic!

One of the things our parents taught us as kids is that wealth is transitory and that creating our own wealth is a better option than inheriting it. And as young adults, we always believed our parents should utilize their wealth the way they please because we would give it away anyways. God has always been very kind to us siblings: material wealth has always been there but we have grown up with a sense that there is only so much we can eat. I believe that the more we give away with a higher level of pain, the more we will get because God does not like to be in our debt. His will is to never be in our debt and so He will make sure you have plenty. If you have the faith enough to give away without the expectation of anything in return, you will never want anything in life. In my life this has been proven.

I firmly believe that beyond a point money should not be the main reason for things that we do in life. Not all of us can completely sacrifice our lives for the good of society but each of us can partake in many small acts that helps the community around us. What matters is to do what is in our capacity to do, gain the respect, love, and adoration of the people around us, and then leverage your reputation to help society in a larger, more meaningful way. Anjali, you have no idea how much it delights me when you already show signs of having a generous attitude at such a young age. Your work with NGOs, particularly the project where you tried to use solar lanterns that will eventually bring light to underprivileged families, filled me with pride. As we get older, working for a cause that is beyond and larger than our own livelihood concerns should be a significant part of our lives.

In a way, Papa and I are confident the value system that we have inculcated has already given you a firm footing and a healthy respect for what the community will expect from you. You all have come a long way from the time your father once pointed to the fridge at home and asked Aditi how much she thought it cost. Her answers ranged from Rs 50 to Rs 1 lakh. That was many years ago. Now we are confident each of you have a much better understanding of ground realities.

What I am about to say will sound surprising, but let me say it anyways. Nothing can substitute the power of bonding between all five of us as a family. I know I haven’t spent enough of that time. Very often, in our fast-paced lives, we overlook this simple truth and come to regret it later on. As parents we had resolved to do at least a couple of shared vacations every year, when we get to hang out together, just having fun and sharing the stuff that is going on in our lives. I’m hoping that when your children come along, you will do the same with them.

As a young girl there were times when I would resent all the stuff that my Nanima would make me do. She insisted I do everything—learn piano, Indian dancing, cooking classes, horse riding, sewing… I occasionally resented it but in retrospect, all those things shaped the person I am today. I benefitted from each of the things that I learnt as a child. I tried to do that for you kids too, piano, tabla, dancing, riding class, and indulged your fancy for ballet. So there it is, my Anjoss, Artuss and Aduben, I could not do as much as my own mother could do for me because I was a working mother but I made sure that you are never going to regret that you did not get an opportunity to learn something that would have enriched your lives.

Every moment that we spend with you is such a precious gift. We soak up the affection that you give us so generously. All the BBM’s we get from you and all the phone calls Aarti makes from New York are wonderfully precious. I have saved many. Even some angry ones! Sometimes, when I worry that I don’t spend enough time with my children, I am blessed by the fact Pa can’t have enough of each of you everyday. He has been the rock for all four of us with his continued presence in our everyday lives. And someday I hope that when you become mothers, you will remember to do all the things that your grandmother and your mother did for their children. Give them the gift of your time when they need it. More than I could do.