Misguided Heart (29 page)

“I get it now. I just wish you had told me sooner. I’m sorry Sloan.” Her hand came up to my cheek and I leaned into it, feeling comfort and joy. “I love you.” She whispered. And with that, there were no more words left to say, I loved her too, more even. I was completely in love with her and nothing in this world would ever change that. I scooped her up and carried her into my house, and she didn't protest once.

Aston

I waited outside of his house for a good hour, trying to decide what exactly to say to him. I didn't want to barge into his house and demand that he listen to me. I wanted this to be the last time I told a man I loved him, and I wasn't willing to ruin that because of my nerves. Though Shelby and I had been at odds with one another lately, she was still the one person I wanted to talk to. She was moving on with her life with Braden, and right now, I just didn’t quite fit into it.

I was leaning against my
bike; debating how to go about the situation, when he came wandering outside, box in hand. My mouth went dry and my panties became moist watching his muscles tense under the weight he was carrying. His shirt was stretched as far the material would allow, and the blue cotton emphasized every muscle. I licked my lips and tried to not stare.

When he caught sight of me
waiting for him, I swear he wanted to run to me, but something held him back. He made his way over to me at a glacial pace and I was almost bouncing in anticipation of having him in front of me.

The minute he opened his mout
h and asked about Nole, I wanted to punch him in the throat. After everything he had done, this was how he was going to act? Eventually, he stayed quiet long enough for me to explain the situation and then I figured he would either believe me or walk away. I was amazed when his lips crashed into mine.

I hadn't realized just how much I had missed his kiss, his touch and the way the butterflies took flight in my stomach
whenever he touched me, until I thought I had lost him.

I hadn’t expected the reason he gave me for running away. As he stood there telling me about Alex, my heart broke for him
, and for her. I could see the pain in his eyes and I wish I could just take it all away for him. But, when he spoke those three little words that I had longed to hear, I swear I could have died happily. I wanted him to say those words to me over and over again, until I got sick of hearing them, which would be never. His hands slipped behind my knees and picked me right up, carrying me into his house. I smiled at him and lowered my head to his shoulder.

"I love you Sloan Holden, irrevocably and for always." I whispered into his ear.

"You sure about that?" I knew he was teasing and I let out a small giggle.

"I'm sure. Are you?" I looked up at him to see his reaction
, as he answered.

"Aston, I want to be the man you want me to be
, and loving you can only make me a better person. I am one hundred and ten percent completely and without question in love with you."

I didn't need to hear anything else. Words were over rated at this point and I needed him to show me. "Show me Sloan, now!"

With a wicked gleam in his eyes and a sly smile plastered across his face, he carried me to his bedroom and did just that.

Aston

His lips hovered just above my belly button, blowing soft strings of wind across my belly. I twitched and writhed beneath him, until I felt like I was going to explode. He must have sensed my irritability because he finally began making his way a little bit further south.

His fingers slipped between my fold
s and in one swift movement, pushed one deep inside of me. I arched my back as much as possible, given the fact that his chest was laying sideways across me. His tongue darted out and took one swift lick before turning in my direction and taking one of my nipples into his mouth.

My hands flew up to his hair and gave it a good tug. When he moaned in response
, it vibrated my nipple, sending absurd amounts of pleasure coursing through my body. He picked up speed with his finger and before I knew it, I was riding out the first wave of my orgasm. I knew better than to think that we were even close to done, so I pushed up against him, pushing him back on the bed and straddled him. He shook his head once and in one fluid motion, he was standing up, pushing me against the far wall in our new apartment.

I knew exactly what he was t
hinking. I jumped up and wrapped my legs tightly around his waist, waiting in anticipation for a repeat of our first encounter together. As if on cue, his hand slid down and dipped below my ass. His finger slipped in for a brief second, before being replaced with a much better version. Just like before, my body willingly opened up and stretched around him, pulling him deeper into me. His other hand went to the nape of my neck, grabbing my hair and tugging just enough to make me moan.

My back arched
against him and slammed against the wall repeatedly. And just as I was about to let go, his lips fell to mine. His kiss was slow, soft and passionate; it was loving, and I never once had to question how this man felt about me ever again. Seconds later, we found our release together and it was magical. I screamed his name just as loudly as he screamed mine.

Our breathing slowed and he softly placed me on my feet. I smiled up at this beautiful man, knowing that he was mine
, before I turned and made my way into our kitchen. The view laid out below, was of tiny specks of people and high rises galore. I reached for the frying pan, as the evening sun was just beginning to set below the Empire State Building.

I sent a quick text to Shelby letting her know that all was well, and I couldn’t wait until he
r and Braden got to town. I had finally sorted out my own insecurities and worries, just in time to be the maid of honor Shelby deserved. Although Braden and her still lived in Arizona, they were planning on getting married here, knowing that Sloan and I would be super busy. They were coming into town to finalize all of the details and to spend a week with us. I was beyond elated for Shelby and for myself.

I looked down at the three
carat, cushion cut diamond on my left hand, sparkling in the evening glow and I smiled. Even after two weeks, I just knew that New York City was going to bring me one of the best lives I could ever imagine. Who would have thought, that the one man who could make all of my dreams come true, was right under me this whole time.

Aston

His hands snaked around my waist, pulling my back tightly into his chest before he spoke. "Good morning, my love. How are you this morning?" His lips were hovering just below my earlobe.

"Hmmmm, I'm good. I'm guessing you slept well?" I twisted my body around in his arms so I was facing him. He was shirtless and despite how many times I had seen his gloriously naked body, it still took my breath away.

"Mmm hmm. How could I not, with my future wife by my side."

God he was sexy!

"Well, you might want to get going if you're going to make it to work on time today." I let out a small giggle. For the last week and a half, we had made it into the office on time, maybe twice. What can I say, he was overwhelmingly needy in the mornings.

"Okay, I'm out of here." Just as I looked up, I caught sight of his beautiful smoldering eyes as he dipped me back and kissed me, long and passionately.

When Sloan stood me back up, a wide smile spread across my face. Oh how I loved this man, and couldn't wait to become his wife. I stood on my toes and kissed him one last time before he
finally
made his way out of the apartment.

I quickly slipped in and out of the shower, so I could get some things done before having to pick up Shelby and Braden from the airport.

Shelby and Braden had gotten married about three weeks after we moved. They were supposed to come in for a quick visit for wedding planning, but ended up going to the courthouse to make it official. When she was in town, we sat down and had an extremely long talk about what happened before I left.

I made sure to explain to her, that it wasn't her. I was jealous and hurt, thinking that should have been me. After everything she and I had been through, it was easy for her to forgive me and for us to move on. Now she and Braden were headed back out for
our
wedding.

After cleaning the apartment and running my errands, I made the last minute decision to join Sloan for lunch before heading to the airport.

"Well Mr. Holden, how has your morning been so far?"

I closed his office door behind me and slowly made my way over to him. I was wearing a long, halter maxi dress, and it was about to work in my favor. I inched the skirt up my thighs, just to where he could see that I wasn't wearing any panties at the moment. A sly grin touched his lips and I quickly closed the distance between us.

I was hungry for his touch. I swear I would have died in that very moment, if he hadn't reached out for my hand. I straddled his already hard erection, just as he unbuttoned his pants. I heard his belt hit the floor with his pants and I let out a laugh.

"I see you're ready to go." I winked.

"Absolutely. Now be quiet and kiss me."

Without a second thought, I pressed my plush lips against his. His tongue slid across my bottom lip and I opened my mouth, instantly accepting him. I lifted myself up just enough for him to push inside of me. I gasped at the fullness I felt every time he was in me. Seconds later, he was cupping my ass and bouncing me up and down his length, while I continued to pepper feather like kisses all down his neck.

It didn't take long for me to feel the pressure building up. My walls closed and I squeezed his dick tighter than I ever had before. In that instant, my eyes locked with his and we found our release together. My eyelids fluttered shut and then quickly shot open when I heard a knock at his door.

"Just a second." He shouted. "Sorry baby, we will have to cut our visit a little bit short."

I pressed my lips to his as I stood up off of him and pulled my panties out of my purse. When I saw the shocked look on his face, I laughed. "You didn't really think I was going to go all day without these, did you?"

"I was hoping not, but you never know with you." He winked. "I'll see you at home in a couple of hours?"

"Of course." As he made his way around his desk, he gave one good smack to my ass. "More later, I promise."

I gathered my things and quickly made my way out to the curb. If I was going to make it to the airport on time, I needed to grab a cab now. As we merged with the hellish traffic, I glanced at my phone to see what time it was exactly. I had approximately thirty minutes to get JFK from the office, and it usually took at least an hour in daytime traffic.

Shit!

My thoughts were all consuming as I stared out the window. It seemed like our lives were moving about a million miles a minute lately, and it was nice to have a few minutes to myself.

After Sloan and I had made up, his father announced that I would be joining Sloan in New York as the new editor here. I was amazed that his hard ass father was willing to make that sacrifice for us, but I wasn't going to argue with it.

Sloan and his father still had their issues, but I was starting to think they were in a better place than they had been over the years. I think it helped when Sloan asked me to marry him, just before we left. In a rare occurrence, we found ourselves at his parent’s house for a going away dinner. It was just his parents and us, and it felt nice. For the first time in a long time, family surrounded me. Dysfunctional yes, but still family.

Sloan waited exactly ten minutes after we had arrived at his parent's house to ask me. We were just about to sit down for dinner, when Sloan grabbed my hand and pulled me outside. I stood by the infinity edge pool, staring at Sloan as he paced back and forth. He seemed nervous and that was so unlike him. Just as I had reached for his hand to pull him to a stop, he lowered himself to one knee.

"I can honestly say that I have never loved anyone as much as I love you, Aston. You make my life worth living and I can't imagine not waking up to you everyday. I know it seems quick, but would you please do me the honor of letting me love you forever, and becoming my wife?"

It started with a single tear and then quickly they fell like rain. He was still holding my left hand and I could feel his hands shaking. I knelt down next to him and gently pressed my lips to his, all the while, whispering yes over and over again. He quickly gathered me up in his strong arms, swinging me in circles. I honestly couldn't have pictured it any better.

After that night, we hadn't left each other's side. I wanted to spend every waking minute with him, regardless of where we were or what we were doing. I was going to be Mrs. Sloan Holden in less than forty-eight hours and I was elated.

We knew how fast it was, trust me. But at this point, we were past all of the waiting. There wasn't a doubt in my mind that Sloan was the man I wanted to be with forever. Why wait, when you have exactly what you've always wanted?