OMG! I'm in Love with a Geek! (26 page)

I KNOW, Mum. I KNOW! THAT'S what makes him SO FIT!!!

I want to go and tell Goose about Nicky.

We need to make up. I miss him and just because he doesn't want to be lovers doesn't mean we can't be friends. Telling him about Nicky will put him at his ease a bit and I don't think he'll feel … lust pressure. Though part of me still wants HIM TO BE AS JEALOUS AS HELL.

That is a bad part of me. But I need to go and sort it out. Men never say sorry. I'll have to say it first. It's not feminist but it's life.

It was weird with Goose today. His mum looked really pleased to see me and said, “Just go up, Hattie.” But when I did we had this really weird conversation…

But he didn't seem very happy at me and him being friends again. I don't get it. It's like a tiny part of him might in a tiny way fancy me but there is a wall in his head that stops him thinking that we can. Or this might be nonsense. He just never does ANYTHING about it. He never COMMITS. Nicky is on crutches and that hasn't stopped him snogging me.

Anyway we are friends again. I think.

I don't know. Who knows? I could read every book about boys going and not be able to understand this one. I would fail my boy GCSE.

Nicky asked me this afternoon, “What's going on with Goose?” I said, “Er… NOTHING!” Then Nicky said, “I want you to spend less time with him.” I shouted a bit, “No, Nicky! Goose has been my friend since I was basically zero years old! I'm actually a feminist. I see who I want!”

What's that about?!

Gran says, “Nicky is jealous, Hattie. Men are very territorial. They are like tomcats.”

I think I like jealousy when it's over me.

Nicky can't see me tonight. He's busy. I get that. I'm an independent woman. I'll do something else exciting.

I'm going round to Gran's to watch
Britain's Got Talent
.

Gran has a crush on David Walliams! She said, “He's a lovely boy! All that swimming for charity – and he takes his mum everywhere!”

I've decided that me and Nicky are
serious
. Jen has MAX reluctantly given me the full MGK list of tips on how to treat a boyfriend. Basically back off and snog hard. You can try to change them but you have to do it gently – they don't notice if you do it slowly. I don't know if I can do that. It took Mum years to get Rob to put the toilet seat down. It's better to get things sorted now!

Nicky is SO mature. He plays poker. He says he's a high-stake gambler. My gran wants him to come round for a game. How can Gran afford to gamble?! She says she's too poor these days to eat fresh vegetables!

Then again I have heard her say, “I'd rather live on Aldi baked beans than miss bingo.” Food means nothing to Gran when it comes to the regional full-house jackpot.

Gran is now actually taking jobs and money off young people! She won £5.36 tonight off Nicky at poker. She said he was too easy to read. She's been giving him lessons in her poker face. She says he's perfected it too quickly. She whispered at me, “Watch him, Hattie – he plays his cards close to his chest. Too Close!”

Anyway Gran has invited Nicky to Skegness on Sunday. I don't think I want Nicky to see my family at the seaside. They turn even more mental than normal! My mum still thinks she can get on a donkey. She can't.

It's a bit weird. Normally Goose comes with us to Skegness.

He used to.

That makes me sad.

Does it matter that Nicky holds his cards close to his chest? What does that mean?!

Gran didn't mean literally. She meant he was a private person. Gran doesn't understand people who don't gossip. If she gets a juicy titbit she actually has a special list of people she rings.

To be fair so do I!

Perhaps slagging people off is genetic. I hope hairy nostrils aren't. How do you wax the inside of your nose?!

Tonight I told Nicky I loved him. I am fully in control of my feelings and can share them openly. It's not pathetic. Nicky didn't answer back but I'm sure he will.